Saturday, October 01, 2022

Guns and Girls

 So last night I finished writing the dubbing script of a show that has a war setting. It was a little complicated to do even if there was less dialogue due to a lot of the scenes being in action mode. I guess I had difficulty choosing the right word to use especially military terms? I hope it did well on this and there won't be a problem during dubbing.  Today, I'm midway done with this half-hour teen comedy dubbing script. This one is tough to translate because of the snappy dialogue and some of the jokes are heavy on pop-culture references that are not easy to localize but it's so fun doing it! Normally, I would like to try to finish it today but I decided to take a break since I'm halfway done already and my brain needs to recharge so I can finish it tomorrow with creativity in full capacity! 

Friday, September 30, 2022

Surviving So Far

Just like that, we are enting the last quarter of 2022! Well, so far this year has been a rollercoaster ride! I'm still so nervous about what lies ahead but the present looks good and I hope it can stay that way and that there will be no more major setbacks. I'm grateful though that for all the negative pits I fell into, I still find myself climbing. Some major happened, and some didn't and very thankful for that.  Praying hard each day that brighter days ahead despite a dark cloud looming. 


Thursday, September 29, 2022

No Echo

Ever since that month I've been trying to disengage really because truth be told I just feel hopeless that things will still turn out for the better anytime soon. I know there are a good amount who doesn't feel it was legit support but when you are on the ground and interact with regular people, you will know what the pulse truly is. It's disheartening but what can we do? I try not to think about it anymore because unpleasant thoughts come into my head and it's not a good feeling at all. I'm dealing with so many personal things already that  I can't add that up one on my list of worries. 

Wednesday, September 28, 2022

On Deck

I have three dubbing scripts to finish in the coming days. Three different shows as well. An Asian historical drama, then Mexican telenovela, and an American youth comedy. I really want to do the comedy first because it's shorter and just sounds more fun to do but I think I will do the tougher script which is the historical drama. I previewed it and there are scenes of war so not as much dialogue as heavy as let's say the Mexican soap or tricky to write with all the  Gen Z pop culture jokes for the American comedy. Glad to be continually busy. I was busy the past few doings doing my channel duties and quality checking for dubbing. I need to finish some stuff tomorrow so I can have the night cleared to start writing! I feel quite messy these days with all the worries personally and then the mistake of caring so much about what's happening in the country and the world. Those are things I have no control over anyway. I want to completely check out from that because my personal life is already too much but sometimes I can't help it but still care despite trying to be this apathetic person.  So getting lost in the world for the dubbing scripts I write really helps me a lot to be honest. I watch TV while earning from it so that's nice!

Tuesday, September 27, 2022

Delete

 Because of someone's carelessness, I have to stop doing something I really like doing. While I do think what that person did is not comparable to it but just to be safe we have to cover all our bases. It's a bummer because I liked doing it to feel good about myself. But it really is on the surface just a shallow thing so it's fine. 

Monday, September 26, 2022

Need

Another restless night is upon us. I need to be at my best to not make things worst. I have to be the source of confidence despite me losing all hope inside but I can't let this energy affect them. It's really difficult mentally speaking. But I need to be strong

Sunday, September 25, 2022

Karding

 It's the calm before the storm. There's a looming supertyphoon coming and while right now it is still just gloomy here, the reports are very alarming and frankly scary as well. Around this time, superthyphoons are quite prevalents. Milenyo. Ondoy.  I hope this one won't be as scary as those two. 

Saturday, September 24, 2022

Time

 Balancing things I need to do this weekend is extra tricky. Like what do I prioritize first? I did realized that I neglected one major thing in my life because I've been so preoccupied in front of my laptop all the time. So now I allocated good enough time for that so it won't be neglected anymore. Of course I do a lot of things in service for them but you need to spend time as well to just talk things that are not about the immediate concerns. 

Friday, September 23, 2022

Still...

 Today's my uncle's birthday. He would have turned 58 today. Two years later, I still feel sad that we lost him so soon. And truth to be told, I still think it's so unfair he passed away with so much life left in him. But life is just unpredictable. His death and the months-long struggle before he left are something until now left a big mark on me. I was there during his last breath. Tito Romy, Happy Birthday up there. We miss you so much

Thursday, September 22, 2022

Trying

 Another stressful night dealing with things that happens so many times that I don't really know how to handle it anymore. Trying to stay calm as possible. Trying to be in control of everything. Trying not to let fears take over. Trying not to lose hope.

Wednesday, September 21, 2022

Foresight

 So I'm finally going to do something that relates to finances that I should have done when I was in my 20s but I didn't do it because well I simply can't afford it and also lacks confidence as well. But this time I found a package that's ideal for me and a person I fully tryst. Plus thank heaven somehow I  can make it work with the opportunity I've had this years.  The past 2 years has taught me a lot really and while it's a little bit late to do so, at least the ideal time, it's still not that late to do something now that can protect me in the future. 

Tuesday, September 20, 2022

Games

I'm currently working on a dubbing script for the finale of a show that is yet to be released. It is over one hour and there are very long and complicated lines to translate! But for what it's worth I'm having fun translating it despite being so difficult to do. I'm really conscious because I don't want to mess this up where the dubbers will have a hard time acting it out. So I really have to be careful but also be creative as well! I worked hard earlier to finish some of my key channel duties so I can have the time and energy to do this script! But I'm really excited when this finally comes out and I will so brag this :D

Monday, September 19, 2022

Underdog

 I'm feeling a little positive after some good news. While I'm fully aware of the many faults, I'm already too emotionally attached to this already that I'm rooting for redemption soon. Despite everything that has happened, I've always felt that there's sincerity to change things for the better. It's sad that for some it's a little late because some have to be let go or got fed and left but at least maybe what we have currently can be stable for years to come. And I do hope those who left (a lot with justified reasons) can open their hearts to us again

Sunday, September 18, 2022

Tested

 When everything feels stable somewhat there's that recurring test of patience again. On how much I can endure what was before. And I admit I don't do a good job handling it with grace and patience. I always get consumed by despair and frustration so I commit the same mistakes again and I will end up feeling guilty about it. I keep reminding myself that this is better than the worst-case scenario where we already  had a taste of it multiple times just in the past weeks. It is absolutely exhausting 

Saturday, September 17, 2022

Perhaps

 I think I now know what to do when an incident like that happens again. Hopefully, my hunch is right and that I will always have the patience and strength to handle it. It won't be easy and requires a lot of me but hey this is still so much a better option than what I've been fearing

Friday, September 16, 2022

Stresses

So I sort of snapped again because of the stress of the situation but good thing I realized that I was wrong and tried to rectify that mistake by doing something that could hopefully ease up the tension. I really hope it does. I'm so stressed again but trying to be as relaxed as possible. I need to be for the better good.

Thursday, September 15, 2022

Fruits

A good day today as it is the time when I get what I deserve because of the hard work I've been doing! I'm usually a self-deprecating person but when it comes to this matter I'm so proud of the work I do fo because I really gave my all. When I finally had to do all of this I really made sure I will do a good job about this because I'm making up for the lost time when I wasn't able to do this because of outside factors and also my own inhibitions. All the struggles I've had this year at least I have this one that really makes me happy and where I get reward for the hard work I do. 

Wednesday, September 14, 2022

Mixed

 Just as expected, things really don't look good as earlier perceived. Another cause of alarm. I'm so exhausted and I also feel awful that I feel so frustrated. For now, everything's okay again but there's always that lingering thought of until when? It's so terrible to feel this way and I need every courage I can muster to face this each passing day.

Tuesday, September 13, 2022

Hold

 So it wasn't my worst fear but trying to contain happiness because what if this is a red herring? What if we are being misguided? Right now the usual sign of discomfort is there so I have to be mindful of what i I feel, of what to expect because complacency is  dangerous

Monday, September 12, 2022

Wish It Wasn't

 Well, it has begun and tomorrow it will be confirmed. I'm afraid. I need to keep myself together for what will happen tomorrow. Maybe I'm just thinking so negatively yet again. But the signs are there, one can't miss it. Or maybe I'm overthinking things like I usually do. But I can't contain this nagging feeling I have. 

Sunday, September 11, 2022

Ticking

 Knowing what I know, or what I think I know, is honestly so hard. When something is something positive I'm holding back because of that. I can't be fully happy about it because of what's gonna happen next. I really hope my pessimism will not manifest into the truth but I just can't help but feel that it is. I'm trying to think how I will handle this. I don't want to add panic but I don't want to encourage false hopes. I have this idealized situation but not really ideal because it is what I feel is the most comfortable option in an undesirable situation which isn't good news. I'm just trying to cope earlier with what's coming.  But can't it no be true for once? Please.

Saturday, September 10, 2022

It is..

 ... what it is. While I prepared for a result like this, it still stresses me out. But there's really nothing I can do anymore but just wait and see. I need to appear to be strong despite breaking inside each day. Just temporary reprieves but the inevitable will come soon enough. I try not to think about it but what I can do really? The thoughts will always cross my mind. I don't want to give up but fighting is hard. I'm ashamed of how many times I think that it would be easier if it just happens. But I know it's just the exhausted me talking and I don't really mean it. But still, it hurts so much when I think of the gloomy picture. The best that I can really do is just not be an added problem. To appear to be stable and calm despite everything chaotic going on inside my mind. 

Friday, September 09, 2022

401

 Just finished writing this dubbing script for a teen sitcom! I love writing for it because I love comedies. It's so fun working on this one that I found myself laughing every now than while I was translating/writing. Although I admit it was a challenge to localize some of the jokes, especially the sex jokes. I mean direct translation would just sound crass and is not the intended type of humor! Hopefully, I was able to pull this off and the dubbers would have a blast delivering my translated jokes and puns!

Thursday, September 08, 2022

Easy Choice

 Yeah, whatever I was thinking of doing tomorrow will have to take the backseat. Priorities first. Yeah in a way it sucks I don't have the luxury to do things that I really want but my rational self won. This is just a more important thing. I have to look after their welfare. It needs to be done. 

Wednesday, September 07, 2022

Will or Will Not

 I have something on Friday that I'm not sure if I'll pursue or not. It's not really a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it's something in line with my interest and something I haven't done since well pre-pandemic times. But there's a conflict if I pursue which if I think more about it's something workable but I will just face things that will be frankly a hassle. I have whole day to think about what I should do, go do it and have some fun or be safe and practical

Tuesday, September 06, 2022

Palm

 So I've witnessed once again a reminder that things are still not okay. That my worst fears can still happen. Truth be told, I'm exhausted but I can't give up. 

Monday, September 05, 2022

Thirty Five

 35 today. Thank you to all those who greeted me. The one thing I'm trying to avoid as I grow older is romanticizing the past. I'm a sentimental person so it's not that easy but I've come to realize that nostalgia can sometimes cloud how you see things in the present and even the future too.  Don't get me wrong I think it's totally fine to have nostalgia trips every now and then but we do often fall into the trap of just remembering the "good highlights" and conveniently forgetting the not-so-good things. Sometimes what worked before is just not applicable today anymore. Learn from the past but also learn to adapt.

Sunday, September 04, 2022

Mid 30s

 Turning 35 in a few hours and it's a mixed bag. Of course, happy I'm reaching this age generally OK! But of course, growing old always will make you think of how your life has been. I do feel my age now but sometimes there are moments where I feel I'm still not adult enough especially thinking where my parents/siblings were at this age. But you know what I'm glad I was able to overcome everything that I have been through especially the very tough last three years or so. I honestly don't what to feel and expect from life anymore. I just want things to be okay and less stressful moments in life. Of course that's impossible but let me dream for a moment. 

Saturday, September 03, 2022

DRAMA

 Today I worked on the tagalized dubbing script for the final episode of a Korean show currently airing on local TV right now. This is not due for another two weeks but I love writing finale episodes and I requested the dubbing coordinator if I could write this one! I'm almost finished actually, just one scene left! It's a little tough because it's a long one stating a legal sentence! But really enjoyed writing this finale because I get to write overdramatic lines like "May nagmamay-ari ng puso at hindi ako yun" and "mas gugustuhin ko mawala siya sa piling ko kung mas sasaya siya na wala ako"! It's a melodrama so I have the license to write this way! I really enjoyed it a lot! 

Friday, September 02, 2022

Studios

 The new office shirt was released today! Our first one in many years. Our company has actually rebranded adding "studios" to its name hence a new shirt to reflect the change!




Thursday, September 01, 2022

Ber

To be honest, I'm so over Jose Mari Chan jokes whenever September starts but I don't say it to anyone because you know I don't wanna be that person who thinks trivial things like that so seriously.  Yeah, let them have their fun I guess. But really the joke has run its course, just the same punchlines! Oh well, I do really hope this upcoming holiday season will be kind to us. 

Wednesday, August 31, 2022

Phasing

I'm really enjoying an upcoming season of a TV show that we're currently dubbing. I made it a big priority to check and improve the dubbing scripts of this show because the story is so riveting. I wrote the dubbing script for the season finale and it has an open-ended ending I hope it gets renewed not just because it's our project but I want to see more of this show and see how it will end!

Tuesday, August 30, 2022

,

So yeah the thing I was nervous about has been delayed for a few more days. I don't know what to feel about that. I'm the type of person that wants to do everything as soon as possible but I will just have to wait. Hoping and praying for a favorable outcome. I'll try not to stress about it in the meantime. 

Monday, August 29, 2022

Alleviate

 Working in the office on a holiday and I really like it. It just feels more relaxed already and for some reason, I'm more productive too when there's a sense of calm. But as always there's something inside me bothered about something else. It's a recurring feel and yet I never get used to it. I want to completely surrender everything but I feel ashamed because there's still that fighting spirit that I must take note of and also get my strength too. Here it goes again but hey I need to remind myself about how despite everything that has happened, we always survive. Lord give me strength.

Sunday, August 28, 2022

Branches

 So happy I was able to finish the dubbing script of an upcoming Christmas movie! Well, to be honest, it was 't really the christmasy movie I was hoping for. The story really could have happened on a regular time. It was really more of a character drama which is still right up in my alley. While I struggled to start this, once I was able to get to the big monologue parts, I really enjoyed translating it! The big declaration of love, in the end, was such a treat to translate! I'm excited when this comes out and hopefully my dubbing script will translate well on screen!

Saturday, August 27, 2022

Stalling

I had a goal today but didn't really do that well because well I got lazy! I guess I can afford to be lazy because this task isn't immediately due but I really want to finish this as soon as possible. I'll try again tomorrow! I want to finish this project because I want to move to other projects that I find exciting! But I have to finish this first so hopefully more progress for me tomorrow!

Friday, August 26, 2022

Holding on

 Everything is really fragile. I can't be complacent because the threat of it happening again is pretty much present. I'm scared but also trying to be relaxed about it. Maybe a little resigned as well? I don't know what to exactly feel but the last thing I need to be is the person that will add more negative energy. 

Thursday, August 25, 2022

Breather

 A little laid back for me today. Still productive but not as productive as I was the past 2 days.  It's a mix of feeling a little lazy and also giving myself some pause because overdoing things will hurt and I can produce better output at full capacity. Yesterday, I also felt I was gonna get sick but thankfully it didn't happen. So yeah maybe a little relaxed day was nice. Anyway, hopefully I'm back to full capacity tomorrow so I can more things done

Wednesday, August 24, 2022

Season

Currently writing a dubbing script for a Christmas movie and I'm loving it so far! It's an upcoming release so excited when this comes out! It's September next week so yeah 'tis the season! I really hope our upcoming holidays will be stress-free. Praying for it hard. 

Tuesday, August 23, 2022

Divert

Rainy weather today and such a good time to actually chill but I really had a lot of things to do today, especially catching up with work that got delayed because of last week's major dilemma. So far things are looking okay but I'm always worried though. But I'm trying not to let it overwhelm me again. It's so emotionally exhausting. I need to relax and trust things will be better. Now, I'm focusing my energy on work again because hey it is  good to be distracted while also being productive!

Monday, August 22, 2022

First Day

 So my nephew's first day in face-to-face classes after 2 years was today and I asked him how was it and he had a very nonchalant response! Well, typical teen but I do hope he will adjust well and the school environment will be good for him as well. He is smart but the past 2 years definitely affected his drive for academics and also socially speaking as well outside of his Roblox online friends. High school is such a crucial time and I hope he finds a good spot as he enters this stage even if it was delayed for two years.

Sunday, August 21, 2022

Back to School

 My nephew is in Grade 9 but tomorrow is his first day in face-to-face high school. It's his first time to be in a new school too. The last time he was inside a physical classroom was when he was just 11 and now he's 14. Major adjustments and I hope it works out well for him. I'm quite excited for him!

Saturday, August 20, 2022

Home

 After a very torturous week, I breathe a sigh of relief today. I'm still very much scared that this wouldn't last and we go back again to the cycle of endless uncertainty and non-stop fears but for now, I thank God, that the worst fear that I was starting to accept didn't happen. Please Lord, let this last longer. 

Friday, August 19, 2022

Blur

 My mind has been so preoccupied the past week that right now I feel so confused about what to do next. There are a million things I NEED to accomplish but the timing is just not right. I can't function but I need to make it work. For my sanity as well. 

Thursday, August 18, 2022

Maybe

 So perhaps it wasn't really what I feared and it was just something to shake our consciousness. But for now, I'm managing my expectations. I went through so much hell in my mind where I basically made myself so miserable. It isn't over yet but things, hopefully, are turning around. Please give me this to us Lord.

Wednesday, August 17, 2022

Disoriented

 I hate to feel this way, that now I prefer the sadder option because if this continues it is basically just one big hell for all of us. Maybe there's still hope but I feel scared. Not gonna lie I'm questioning everything about why this happening and how it has gotten worst that surpasses even my worst fears. Maybe we deserve it. Or do I deserve it? My mind is spiraling and keeping it together is harder than usual but please Lord listen to my prayer. I beg you

Tuesday, August 16, 2022

Mistake

 So yeah it's pretty clear, that we made a mistake. In the back of my head, I knew this was a possibility but I was hoping it wasn't because it was the easier choice but nope fate slapped us back and now we are in the worst-case scenario. A nightmare. And I don't know what to do next, 

Monday, August 15, 2022

Standing on the Edge

 Here it goes again. I'm totally worried but there's nothing I can do. I'm half-accepting. I'm half in denial. It's just waiting to see if the light of hope beams again or it's total darkness. I feel numb in some ways, I feel tired too which I feel so guilty about but what I can do this is what I feel. I want to let go but maybe I'm just being the defeatist I usually am. I'm questioning so many things in life right now. It's the stress or maybe a feeling that has been buried down ever since where I was just afraid to acknowledge, I'm at this point where I just wait and see, embracing the worst-case scenario like I usually do.  Let it be.

Sunday, August 14, 2022

No Escape

 Yeah, I was a fool to think it will miraculously go away. What's inevitable will happen and I really hope I can handle this so much better than I did before. I knew it. Things just don't work out for me. It never does. I'm always worried for a reason. 

Saturday, August 13, 2022

Alert

 Anxiety. I wish I could escape from this for real. But it isn't the case. It's so hard to be enslaved by this. It's driving me insane. But I need to remind myself of what happened 2 weeks ago to put me back in my proper place. I need to be strong. I need to be brave. I need to calm down. 

Friday, August 12, 2022

Cardo

Tonight was the finale of the long-running teleserye Ang Probinsyano. I was not really a regular viewer but an intermittent one, watched the big episodes! Anyway. I've always been fascinated with this show's success and how people are so into it. My nephew was just 7 years old when this started. I remember the show that Ang Probinsyano replaced was the teleserye about the angel Nathaniel which was his favorite too. He watched the finale on YouTube while live commenting with his friends on Discord. They were making fun of it like how teens do but still fascinating how the show is a time capsule of sort. So long Cardo, what a Pinop Pop Culture icon

Thursday, August 11, 2022

Oil

 Last time I did something for myself something awful followed. It is a coincidence my mind says and yet I felt like I was punished and was reminded of how things are. It took me a few more weeks to do it again just because I was scared irrational it may seem. I did it again because there is a need for it actually. But please nothing bad next . 

Wednesday, August 10, 2022

Flying

 So a college classmate's daughter is about to enter her first year in college now!!! Granted, she had her early but still, nothing could make you feel so older but knowing that fact of life! My nephew is entering Grade 9 too as well. Time flies. I won't get sick of saying that. Sometimes, you just don't know notice how things have changed until there's something that will shake your system like finding out people my age can have college-bound children now!

Tuesday, August 09, 2022

Sagisag

 




Live newsroom production back in college!  Looking back, very proud of my group, some of the news items we covered were hardcore for third-year college students! Good thing I was a writer here so no TV on-cam participation. I remember holding the manila paper of the script! How old school hahah! Oh well, I stumbled upon this video uploaded by my classmate who edited this project. It's nice to travel back in time when school stuff like this were my only source of stress!!!!

Monday, August 08, 2022

Reverberate

It's getting tricky to plan some things because there's always fear at the back of my head of a nightmare coming back. I easily get scared now and not just me. Yesterday's outburst post was due to that actually. While things got ok as it usually does but the effect still lingers. Oh Dear Lord, please let my fears not happpen. 

Sunday, August 07, 2022

Terrible

 Always on the receiving end of stressful situations. I want to shout and say I'm suffering so much internally already so I don't need the negativity right now. That's the last thing I need now. If you really care about other people's welfare what about thinking about what other people are feeling while you have your meltdown and blame someone who did nothing but make personal sacrifices for all your convenience? I would if I can but I know better that unlike on TV, people baring their heart out does not really lead to quick solutions.  It does not lead to realizations but instead will be taken out of context to put it against you. I don't deserve to be treated this way and maybe someday you will realize the things you have done to me and how broken I am for so long. I made my peace with it and tried not to blame others for my own frustrations but moments like this make it so difficult 

Saturday, August 06, 2022

Spent

 It's so challenging to balance my work things and family matters. Like after I did errands, I was dead set to focus on finishing up this dubbing script and things were going well but some tension happened that I needed to sort out. It's so difficult to deal with this, what should I do first? It ruins my momentum too. But well I have no choice but to fix things and pacify everything.  But I reminded myself where we were a week ago to put things in perspective. I'm spent but still at least it's not the worst case scenario, I need to remind myself whenever things like this happen. 

Friday, August 05, 2022

Training

So far handling juggling so multiple work things good. Still on track. Hopefully, I can finish this one dubbing script tomorrow, a day before its deadline. If there are no distractions or I don't get lazy I think I can do it! I also have dubbing scripts to check too which I'm aiming to do on Sunday. I was glad to know the one person I was training had good feedback for her first script that was dubbed this week. She's a new graduate who is the niece of one of the admins. She's an honor student and it showed actually. Hard worker and does things on time. I do hope the way I trained her online also helped! I did want to be a teacher before especially for college and maybe I still can someday but currently, I don't have the drive nor the money to take a Master's Degree. But who knows someday, not closing doors.

Thursday, August 04, 2022

Holidays

I began working on this Christmas movie dubbing script and it gave me the holiday vibe already! I really hope and pray our holidays this year will be festive and stress-free! It's so me that I always think what could go wrong immediately after thinking of something happy.  Anyway, this dubbing script is not yet due anytime soon and I have other scripts that I needed to finish first but I decided to work on this already, at least have a start because I think it will boost my mood. Anyway, I plan to do a few minutes each night or two. 

Wednesday, August 03, 2022

Full Plate

Hectic days ahead. Two dubbing scripts to finish plus checking some dubbing scripts done by others too. I was busy the past 3 days doing QC for two shows as well as editing episodes for the cable channel. We have new shows launching next month as well but good thing my video editor is handling that perfectly well. Traffic going home is quite bad these days because there's some road fixing going on as always! I can't help but feel so much time wasted when I could be more productive really! 
My load could have been lighter if I was able to do some things last weekend but it was an emotionally exhausting weekend so I was not able to do something productive. But hey remembering those terrible days is making me feel even more thankful how the past few days have been stable and less stressful. I hope please Lord let it stay that way. 

Tuesday, August 02, 2022

Squid!

 The Filipino-dubbed version of SQUID GAME is now out on Netflix! It's been great to be part of the dubbing team for this project!







Monday, August 01, 2022

Calm

 After a rollercoaster of emotions the past 4 days, today has been good thank God. Hopefully, it will stay that way. My faith definitely was shaken and challenged and I admit I felt like giving up but I cling on to hope for whatever little it may have. I still feel nervous that I don't want to be complacent like before but I really hope that challenging period has ended and we are truly on the road to recovery.

Sunday, July 31, 2022

Torn

 I'm in this state of accepting the inevitable but still feeling frustrated about how it is going on. I keep talking to myself in between acceptance and still clinging to hope. I hate myself for thinking maybe I'm being a bad person for thinking the worst while the others are seeing hope it could turn things around. Am I just being realistic or just being a nasty person for thinking the worst already? I feel like shutting down really. But I can't give up, even if there are times I really want to, but no I can't. There must be something that could pivot what's happening now. Maybe. Oh please Lord there should be.

Saturday, July 30, 2022

Bended Knee

 Another close call today and I'm emotionally exhausted. But still thankful for the miracle. I hope please Lord let this blessing continue and hear our prayer. I'm still scared but glad it still didn't happen despite already preparing myself for the worst. But how many times will we have this scenario? Please Lord, hear our prayer

Friday, July 29, 2022

Vulnerable

 We almost lost today. I was quite convinced that this was it. But thankfully by some miracle, it wasn't. Still, the danger is there. I will still be scared each day but yes for now I'm thankful to God that this wasn't the day. And I hope it won't come soon enough. Please no. 

Thursday, July 28, 2022

Struggling Never Stops

 Another panic-inducing episode earlier this morning. I was ready to let go, to be honest. Because I was just so afraid that I felt I just need to face the music now. Of course, it's not over yet. Thank God. But the struggle will continue for sure. Lord give me strength. 

Wednesday, July 27, 2022

Lindol

So yeah experienced the earthquake earlier while I was at the office. Being on the 20th floor did worry me a little since the shaking was longer than I usually feel but thankfully I managed to stay calm and went to work after things got settled but the big boss sent us home before lunch just to be safe. To be honest, most of us were hesitant to leave work because of the many stuff we need to do but, of course, we appreciate the concern of the boss. We just have to maximize tomorrow for all those things that got delayed.  Watching the news now and there's severe damage up north and my heart goes to them. 

Tuesday, July 26, 2022

Moving

Two people I know moved overseas recently. I didn't ask but I felt last May was the tipping point. I get it. And to be honest, a little envious. It was never my dream to be away from this country, from my family. I'm your type of person who loves his comfort zone. But recent events just made me feel so trapped. I hate to feel this way but it's the truth.  I hate to be all-gloom-and-doom so I'm just avoiding thinking it through. There's nothing I can do anyway.

Monday, July 25, 2022

I Ain't Worried

 So I was listening to this song on repeat on my way to work and back home. Yes, just one song during those two hours. It's such a fun song to listen to really. I love the whistle part. And maybe subconsciously I want that kind of vibe in my life




Way too busy for them problems  and problems to feel, yeah, yeah

No stressing, just obsessing with sealing the deal

I'll take it in and let it go

But I ain't worried about it right now 




Sunday, July 24, 2022

For Once

 I've been dealing with things, trying to be brave but I'm really scared of everything. A while ago I said no because I feel like some are only taking the first steps but the one they are pushing to face the more stressful stuff is me. Always me. Can you take this one for once? I've been living with so much mental and emotional torture now. What about trying to help to carry the burden for once? I didn't even want this to happen but I acknowledge that I'm letting fear and it's not the best use of judgment.  I'm so confused and scared really. Everything is just so fragile. 

Saturday, July 23, 2022

Looking back

 It's been a year since our lives have changed forever but still thankful that we survived that ordeal. It is still far from over and I'm constantly nervous but I'm thankful each day. I really hope there will be no more nightmares, I can deal with challenges of course but I really hope and pray things will get better and some of my worries will not happen. Please God

Friday, July 22, 2022

Alice

 Thrilled to see one of the series we dubbed finally out on Netflix! The Filipino-dubbed ALICE IN BORDERLAND is now available on the platform! I didn't write a dubbing script for this one but just edited the dubbing scripts and did a quality check after it was dubbed.  




Thursday, July 21, 2022

Standing

 Some new projects are coming up and this is good for me so I can focus my mind on them rather than trapping myself in endless dread. I need to calm myself down internally because outside I look so okay. I don't want to let them feel what I truly feel because it would just add a problem to an already stressful situation. The things that are bothering me are beyond what I can handle but I have no choice but deal with matters at hand the best way I can. God help me please.

Wednesday, July 20, 2022

Advance

 I'm having a hard time focusing because of recent events in my life,. It's so difficult to act normal when you feel so devastated inside. My mind is jumping to the worst-case scenario even if I try to contain my emotions. I have to be tough I keep telling myself but it's just so hard. I knew I can't really be happy. 

Tuesday, July 19, 2022

No Escape

 Yeah, the reality is hitting me again.  There's no escaping from it. I have to be brave but I am so afraid of what is coming. But it is what it is. I just have to be as calm as possible and not have a breakdown because there's no room for that, But Lord please, can this fear of mine just stay as paranoia and not come to fruition? Please.

Monday, July 18, 2022

Maverick

 I went random today and watched Top Gun: Maverick in a theater. The box office success made me curious. It was alright. I mean, the air fighter sequences were amazing but I just didn't connect with it that much. There was just me and a couple in the cinema though and maybe my moviegoing experience would have been better if I saw it with a giving crowd. Oh well!

Sunday, July 17, 2022

Early Panic

 I was woken very early today because of a family health situation that really worried us so much. Thankfully, it wasn't what I was thinking because my mind could go to such lengths. I hope and pray that this won't happen again. What I realized though is that I should never really be complacent. Never.

Saturday, July 16, 2022

Boo!

 I'm currently working on a dubbing script for an upcoming family Halloween streaming movie! Since it is for kids, it's quite light to write (so far!) and it's a nice breather because I've been writing dubbing scripts for melodramas and a very wordy thriller series for the past few weeks! Also since this is a yet-to-be-released movie, it's just exciting to be one of the first to see it! That's why I really enjoy doing this kind of work! It takes a lot of my time but it's worth it!

Friday, July 15, 2022

Beached Whale

 The Netflix Original movie PERSUASION is now out! And we did the Filipino dubbing for it! It's my first project for a new Netflix title since the others were already out on the platform. I have another upcoming Netflix movie that I translated myself that was dubbed this week and it was a dubbing script I really worked hard on so excited when it finally comes out sometime this year. Anyway. back to Persuasion. I say my main contribution to this is translating "Frederick Wentworth rescues a beached whale as onlookers weep"  to "Bumaha ng luha sa pagligtas ni Frederick Wentworth sa balyenang napadpad sa aplaya". It took me a long time to figure out how to translate it properly and capture the essence! 



Thursday, July 14, 2022

Self

Planning to do something to take my mind off things that make me so anxious. I hope it works even for just temporary relief.  I need it badly, to be honest. I know it won't solve anything in the long run but hoping for at least a few moments I can have an escape from things that are imprisoning me. If it works out maybe I can do this as a regular escape from reality. I'm not totally hiding because I know it's not the way to go, I just want to cool off and recharge so I can face life's challenges with a better mindset and not just resort to endless despair. I hope it works!

Wednesday, July 13, 2022

Cyclical

I wish I can stop myself from being bothered by things that I really have no control over. Right now, all I can do is just wait until everything cools off but I wish it was sooner so I can go on my usual route. But here's the thing, I have to be patient and let things happen at their natural course but it really is proving to be a big challenge to me each time it happens. Yes, it's a recurrent thing but my reaction when it happens is basically the same. 

Tuesday, July 12, 2022

Can

 A friend and I had a chat earlier about money can truly buy happiness! Yes, I agree so much! While I get it in a metaphorical sense but practically speaking money can really make you happy! I think some who say otherwise were born with a silver spoon so they don't get the struggle! I know I'm a little judgmental with what I typed earlier but it is kind of annoying when some people are totally clueless about the working class struggles!

Monday, July 11, 2022

Again and again

 Another night where my patience is being tested. Facing people's mood swings and irrational impulses. I'm so frustrated but doing my best to handle everything as calmly as possible. Trying my best not to panic and take it out on them. I gotta be patient and just allow things to blow off. But man the things running through my head right now. I feel like I'm going nuts. I bought something more than my allotted budget for it and now I feel like I'm being tested. I can't have nice things it seems.

Sunday, July 10, 2022

Clearing

 The new mayor in our town ended a two-decade family dynasty here. Expectations are quite high but early on he is making his mark by doing the most obvious and easily felt change which is road clearing in the main area of our barangay. It is so strict! To be honest, I don't know what to feel. I like the idea of discipline but I'm a bit wary if this is all surface-level changes. But then again too early to judge. I will remain hopeful for now. 

Saturday, July 09, 2022

Brand New

 So I finally gave in and bought myself a new laptop! It's so good but most importantly it comes in with a licensed lifetime Microsoft Office! Yeah, that was my problem with the secondhand laptop I bought! I didn't realize that the MS Office it had was not genuine so yeah it was expiring in a few weeks and since I have no product code or something it will be basically useless!  The laptop I bought is quite above the budget I intended for it because it comes in with the licensed MS Office but I just said to myself well it's time for me to not be stingy anymore and just dive in because having a working laptop is an essential need right now for my work! And you know what I have no regrets, I will work hard to get the money I spent here back into my savings but it really feels good to finally have a good laptop to use! I've been dealing with crappy laptops for the last 4 years because I wanted to save money! It was a terrible move really looking back. It's quite a miracle that I was able to make things work and still did my job during the pandemic era! But now with a really good laptop, I can be more productive than ever. For example, just a while ago I was able to make good progress with a dubbing script that I will be able to finish it by tomorrow, a few days before the deadline! 

Friday, July 08, 2022

Accident

 So the building where I work is in the news because of a tragic elevator accident where two maintenance people passed away. It's not the elevator that we use, it's on the other side, but still quite scary to think. When I went down, the people inside the elevator were making nervous jokes. In an odd way, it relaxes you somehow. On my way back to the building, the guard stopped me because he thought I was a reporter! Yes, I have a broadcast journalism degree but nope not a reporter! When I got home I saw it being reported live on TV and I now fully understood what went happened. It's really sad. Rest in peace to the two men who lost their lives today.

Thursday, July 07, 2022

Queue

Another balancing act for me this weekend as I need to finish two dubbing scripts while also assisting a new freelance writer who is training to be a dubbing script writer at home. I made a point to finish all my channel coordinator tasks today so I can focus on my writing tasks! I hope I can finish one script or at least be close to finishing tomorrow

Wednesday, July 06, 2022

Browsing

 Checking out laptops again. While this secondhand laptop I bought last year has been quite useful to me for work duties, I admit that it has a lot of limitations that will soon be a challenge on its functionalities . Now I'm thinking if it's time for me to buy a brand new one now.  I have savings but to be honest I'm quite hesitant to use it because I worry I might need it for some emergency. Here I go again. I wish this wasn't such a hard choice to make.

Tuesday, July 05, 2022

Hats

Just finished another long day of work of doing multiple things: QC, scripting, and scheduling but of course, this is something I really feel fulfilled to be doing! I love to be this busy by doing things I truly like and in my element. Of course, I didn't give my all and still gave myself some space to breathe because I think one can function properly if there's enough rest to give yourself a reboot of some sorts! Anyway, off to sleep!

Monday, July 04, 2022

Not Quite

 So I tried a new route on my commute back home and well it was a failed experiment as it took longer it should! But well I guess it's good to try than just wonder! I still have another possible route to try, maybe tomorrow or the next day. I'm just want alternatives for just in case situations. Sometimes I feel we're back to normal but it still isn't really. The cases are rising again though but unlike before I don't feel that anxious anymore especially hospitalizations are low. It's part of life now and I do hope one day we won't need to count them anymore

Sunday, July 03, 2022

Gut

 My worst fear didn't happen thank God but still to be cautious. I will always be alert and frankly scared but for now I can breathe after stressing myself the past few days. With a clear head I can plan better for what could be next. I need to make the right choice while thinking a lot of factors in. But admittedly my fear is probably clouding my judgment. So please Dear Lord help me, guide me. 

Saturday, July 02, 2022

Please, Please, Please

My head is a mess right now while on the outside I looked perfectly normal. This is just driving me so anxious that I'm torn whether I want this to get over with or I want to remain it a mystery, ignorance is bliss as they say. I know that this is essential and I just have to face it. I have to be strong if my my fear actually happens because I can't afford not to do so. Oh Dear Lord, I'm so scared. Please hear my prayer. 

Friday, July 01, 2022

W.O.W

 My weekend of worry begins. Trying my best to relax although I feel like I'm seeing signs that it will lead to what I fear most. Or maybe I'm just overthinking it. Seeing something when there is none. I'm just terribly afraid that when I had moments of happiness earlier I reminded myself quickly that I couldn't do it yet. There's still something pending freaking me out inside. Oh Dear Lord please hear my prayer

Thursday, June 30, 2022

13

Tomorrow will be my 13th year with the company! This has been the busiest 6 months at work in such a long time. It's a good thing and I hope the blessings continue. Last year was shaky so I'm glad things are turning around! I had so many ups and down here but I survived. I found a home here to be honest and that's why I'm still here

Wednesday, June 29, 2022

Pollution

 So earlier in the jeep, I saw someone who was placing his phone directly to his ear so he can hear a video he is watching! All he needed was earphones or at the least wait until he is in the office or somewhere, I dunno, private and watch the video which I don't think it's really urgent because what we all heard in the jeep are some dance tunes! Is it really that urgent? Also at the elevator, I was with someone watching a vlog, with no earphones of course, and what he was watching was full of profanity! Yeah, inside an elevator a person watching cursed-laden vlog without care to other people!

Tuesday, June 28, 2022

Thin Line

 So about to finish work now! I didn't have to work this long but I want to. It's making me forget this dread I'm feeling although not totally because it still sneaks in from time to time. I've been expecting it to feel this way but nevertheless, it just feels so tiring but what can I do, it is what it is. Staying hopeful while fearing the worst is so conflicting that I don't know if I'm handling this the best that I could. I really hope so. Oh God, please I won't stop praying that this fear I have is not gonna happen. Please...

Monday, June 27, 2022

Ears

My pet peeve these days while commuting is people not using earphones when they watch something on their phone or even when they talk to other people via video chat! Is this an effect of the pandemic, people are just used to ii because they do it at home all the time? It annoys me really, I don't want to hear what you are watching!  Especially if what they are watching is questionable nature! That's why I really need to have earphone these days so I can block all these unnecessary noises!

Sunday, June 26, 2022

A week from now...

It's gonna be a torturous week as I will be haunted by fear of what could happen. It will be taking turns of staying hopeful and dreading a bad result. I don't want to be complacent but I don't want to be this anxious as well. Oh Dear Lord, please let my fears not happen.

Saturday, June 25, 2022

Coward

 Anxiety rising yet again. On top of the lingering personal problem I made the mistake of checking out what's going on in the world. Yeah, it just made me even feel worried and scared than usual. My sense of curiosity has led me to do this. I did dream of becoming a journalist but yeah I wasn't build to do it. Not brave enough.

Friday, June 24, 2022

Tropical

 I have packed lunch so I rarely go out of the office especially in this new one where we are at the 20th floor. I had to buy something earlier at Mercury Drug and there I finally saw the viral effect on the nearby Tropical Hut, it was jampacked! During the mornings and afternoon when I pass by it, there are not many people so I was wondering when their "it" status online gonna reflect in the branch here. It turns out pag lunch pala!Unlike other people, I prefer that they don't renovate! As long as it's clean (and it is!), it's fine by me. I like seeing something that looks and feels classic!

Thursday, June 23, 2022

Fear on Routine

 Here I go again, going so paranoid again. One moment things will be fine then another moment anxiety attacks that prevent me from being complacent. Thinking of worst-case scenarios and how I can handle it, hopefully, as calmly as possible. If it only involves me, I can deal it on my own but other people will be affected. Lord, please hear my prayer.

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

Sew

 I had a pants emergency today hahaha! It has given up on me although good thing I have a needle and thread pack I bought on 7-11 so I had a temporary fix. But I do need to buy new pants. I haven't bought in a while. It's a little difficult to find something when you are fat like me! But anyway, I was still able to manage!

Tuesday, June 21, 2022

Done!

Just finished doing today's work! And I edited A LOT today. QC of three dubbed episodes completed a dubbing script, rendered 10 episodes of two shows for airing on the channel, and revised schedule grids! Some of the tasks are not really urgent but I wanted to finish it today so I can have a more flexible next three days of work. I want to do things before the deadline, and I want to avoid cramming. Better do things as early as possible despite the heavier load task than to rush things off!

Monday, June 20, 2022

EMV

 So I got my captured ATM card back today and while it is still working the bank staff told me that my card is an old model and that I need to request for a new one. Thankfully, since it will be my first replacement under the new model then it is free of charge! I will just have to wait for a week though but hey at least it isn't the stress-inducing hassle I thought it was a couple of days ago

Sunday, June 19, 2022

Pick it Up

 Very pleased I was able to finish the dubbing script of this TV show I was working the past few days. It's quite difficult but it's kind of challenge I like because I'm engrossed with the show! There was a scene where I had to translate a character doing spoken word poetry and then a homeless man singing a nonsensical song that eventually became important between the characters. I hope the dubbing of this will be good although I already foresee it will be harder to dub than normal especially the lead character! 

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Today is Father's Day and we were so full today because of the food my siblings prepared then they ordered some other too. However, Tatay received news that a close relative passed away. Oh life. 

Saturday, June 18, 2022

Sayo

 I was working on this dubbing script that was really quite hard! It's narration-driven with a lot of quick wit and snappy quips that's a challenge to translate especially some of culture-driven metaphors and one-liners that were said.. I'm halfway done today and hoping to finish it tomorrow. It's challenging but really interesting to do I can try to finish it tonight but I'm quite sleepy already and I need my full attention to work on this. 

Friday, June 17, 2022

Retrieve

 So yeah I was a little overdramatic yesterday with what happened to my ATM card. I was able to talk to them again earlier and they were more reassuring and easy to talk. Too bad when they finally were able to open the machine and retrieve my card, I was already on the bus home when they texted.. The staff I texted suggested that I should have the ATM card replaced with their new design now. I don't think it's really necessary but you see I don't think it's bad idea to have the card replaced though. I'll just figure it out on Monday

Thursday, June 16, 2022

Unnecessary Hassle

 I deposited some money in my BPI ATM only account using their deposit machine. I did it before and never had any problem until today where transaction but when I was waiting for my ATM card to come out, the machine crashed leaving ATM stuck there! I panicked a little because I just deposited some money and this has never happened to me! The staff tried to be helpful but she was so not reassuring! She asked for my number so they will contact once the people that takes out the cash on the machine, they will get my ATM back and just text me. But she she said they are not sure if those people will arrive tomorrow! She just wrote my name and contact details on a small sheet of paper and she gave me her number too but I don't know I kept asking how can I feel assured with this because the way she speaks made me wary like she barely cares or quite nervous to handle it too. But then she suggested that I just withdraw the money on my ATM over the counter. Now that was the best help she can do and I did exactly that! I withdraw the money I have on it since it's not really much because this BPI ATM is not my savings account but more of a digital wallet which serves as my backup money in case of any urgent need. I left a little over 100 there on the ATM. I was thinking on my way home why didn't they suggest that I just get another ATM card and they just invalidate the one that got stuck on that cursed machine? Why do I just have to wait for them to text me or I just follow it up? I'll just do that tomorrow and go back to that branch so I just get another ATM card but then the thought of I have to pay a replacement card fee annoys me because it isn't my fault their machine was faulty? Ugh, all I wanted was to keep some of my money and this is what I get.

Wednesday, June 15, 2022

Steps

 So earlier I thought I was taking a shortcut but nope I ended up on a long journey ahead to my destination. Sometimes you really just have to be straight to the point to get things done. Avoid unnecessary things that will complicate your life more than it should be! Anyway, I have something that I really worked hard and now have to carefully what to do next!  I need to think it over so whatever I will use it for will be beneficial for me in the long run. But I'm really more driven now because of that and I hope some of my other worries will not happen so I can breathe even for few months.

Tuesday, June 14, 2022

31

 Relieved that one of the things that was stressing me a little was settled today. I hope the other things I'm worrying about lately will also be settled favorably soon. It's so me that in a day that I received nice things, I still end up thinking I should not be completely happy because of others looming! But anyway, what I got today is the fruit of very hard work I did this year! Thank you Lord!

Monday, June 13, 2022

School Over

 My nephew's elementary school, a small one located here in our subdivision, has closed down after 2 years of struggling to make it work in the pandemic. It is the 4th private school that I know that closed in the last 2 years. Small private schools are a big casualty of the pandemic. And I feel they are a big loss to the country's  quality of education. They target middle class families which at least helps lessen the overpopulation in public schools. Smaller class sizes help facilitate learning too. I haven't been thinking about the pandemic lately but this is just a reminder how it has affected our life so much. 

Sunday, June 12, 2022

Stop

 Everytime I get excited or happy about something I automatically remind myself not to be too happy because of some impending thing that could be a cause for worry. I can't help but think this way. Oh Dear Lord, please hear my prayer that this worry I have won't happen. But in case it does please help me have the courage to not to have inner meltdown and not think straight. But please Lord don't let my fear happen. Please.

Saturday, June 11, 2022

Fortuna

 Today I finished first on the three dubbing scripts on deck. A day ahead of the deadline. I have another due Wednesday and the third one next Sunday. Goals for both scripts is for me to finished them a day early and 1/3 so so far. Hoping to keep that momentum. This script I finished today is the finale of a Mexican telenovela and usually they always the title of the show mentioned on the finale and the translated English title is sometimes quite different from the original Mexican title which is the case for this show I translated for but not different in context but just the phrasing is different. It was quite fun how I was able to work the title to the English dubbing script though! Hopefully it won't nixed when it's dubbed next week!

Friday, June 10, 2022

No More

Mentally planning the things I need to finish in the next two weeks. Quite a lot again with three dubbing scripts then of course I still have QC and channel stuff to do but I will manage this, just needs careful planning ahead. I've said it a lot of times but it's worth repeating how this has really helped me escape from my anxieties. I've been minimizing my exposure on social media because it could get addictive to scroll endlessly then I will find something that will alarm/frustrate/scare me. I have no more mental energy left for it. . 

Thursday, June 09, 2022

Tinges

 Another day at work where I did a LOT of things! And so many things again to finish tomorrow as well!  But to be honest, it's a good escape for me especially now when there are matters stressing me out quite frequently. It never stops really, these tinges of horror always creep in. Plus, there are recurring issues that I wish I can just ignore and pretend it is not happening but I can't. So keeping my mind busy with so many things to do is honestly for the better

Wednesday, June 08, 2022

Chatty

 I was seated beside a lady who commuted via that particular bus route for the first time since the pandemic began. She had a lot of questions and I answered everything. She was really bewildered but she was quite nice so I engaged with the little chit-chat we had from how Ayala's atmosphere has changed with less people on the streets, her work from home experience, her child's online class experience and a lot of things we faced in the pandemic. I was cautious though in case the conversation goes political because I would definitely change the topic even if we voted for the same person because I'm just not in the mood talk about politics these days. Good thing it wasn't the case! Thanks to that chat I didn't notice how terrible the traffic was earlier., I do love hearing stories from people about their lives. 

Tuesday, June 07, 2022

Tease

 The Filipino-dubbed version of this Locke & Key Season 3 teaser is now out on Netflix Philippines!



Monday, June 06, 2022

P.S



A bit of a rough day at work but hey seeing my name in the credits for To All The Boys: P.S I Love You is a nice treat! Yup, I'm savoring my double credit as translator and adapter! I still have one movie dubbing script I wrote but it hasn't been dubbed yet because the movie is set to be released I think by the end of the year. These projects are quite hard due to some logistics but I'm just happy to see my name in the credits of a major media platform so it keeps me going. Small thing in the bigger picture and I will eventually stop being fascinated about it but for now, I'm thrilled! 


 

Sunday, June 05, 2022

Cycle

 It's getting near again. The time where my anxiety goes through the roof. It's basically me getting scared of something that needs to be checked routinely. This will never go away I'm afraid so. I try my best hiding how I'm afraid I am during this time. Oh Dear Lord please don't let my worst fears happen

Saturday, June 04, 2022

Yes!

 So I spent my Saturday afternoon watching the Filipino-dubbed version of this movie that we worked on that is now out on streaming 




Friday, June 03, 2022

Pre-13 Thoughts

 Another jam-packed week at work but while it's quite stressful at times but I do really enjoying doing a work that involves media production particularly television. Part of the reason why I've been in the same company for nearly 13 years is because despite the not-so high salary, I do really enjoy the work. It might not what I envisioned myself when I was a teen but this is a job I stumbled upon and manage to learn the special skill needed it for it along the way.  I was able to write for TV and manage a TV channel operation, of course not in the traditional sense but still I felt like this is like the perfect fit for me especially considering my family obligations too. Do I wish I was able to correct some decisions I made in the past? Definitely but while the lessons from past mistakes will always be in me, it's me doing things one day at a time while planning ahead the best way I can. 

Thursday, June 02, 2022

Spongebob!

 The Spongebob Movie: Sponge on the Run is now available in Filipino audio in Netflix!

As a Spongebob fan, happy to be part of this project.  My proudest contribution to the dubbing script is Patrick saying "libreng chibog!"

Wednesday, June 01, 2022

Borders

 Just finished doing half of a very tedious work task! It's quite difficult to do because it's a bit messy and I have to work on it again to ensure everything is covered. Deadline is tight these past few weeks but at least the next few weeks will be lighter in load!

Tuesday, May 31, 2022

Solo

 To All The Boys: P.S I Love You now available in Filipino audio on Netflix. This is the first movie I translated  for dubbing by myself. ! I have written dubbing scripts for a movie but it was with other writers too because writing movie dubbing scripts takes a lot more time and that time deadline were tight so it had to be done quicker! I enjoyed writing the dubbing script for this because it was so light and romantic so it gave nice fuzzy feelings! The credits for the Filipino dubbed version is not up yet so a little bit bummed I can't brag it just yet hahaha!

Monday, May 30, 2022

Nice!

 Received an unexpected family blessing today and it's a nice treat after a rough weekend! I hope and pray this is a start of more happier stuff on our way or at the very least my worst fears not manifesting because whenever there's something positive I stop myself from being completely happy because my anxiety kicks in and goes overdrive thinking maybe something terrible could happen next. Yeah there's something off with me really but nevertheless very thankful for this blessing. More to come please Lord!

Sunday, May 29, 2022

Balancing Act

 Another day where I have to act as mediator and looking after everyone so they don't feel awkward and left out! I think I did good job balancing things although it's such unnecessary hassle in my life but I have to do what I have to do!  Because of those complications I didn't do some work which i was planning to do, I still have allowance in time to finish it so it's fine. And I did some things for leisure today which is watch shows for entertainment and not work! Hopefully the days ahead are better!

Saturday, May 28, 2022

Vapid

 I'm staying away from drama but drama always find itself at my door. I'm really exhausted dealing with mood swings and spontaneous outbursts. It's hard to be that person who needs to balance and control all those unnecessary stray emotions to keep it from digging a bigger hole, But I'm tired. This goes on and on. Tired. Afraid. Nervous. Anxious. That's why I'm always awry when things feel ok because there's always something that will hinder it. I want to be emotionless.  

Friday, May 27, 2022

65

 Nanay's 65th birthday and thank God she's doing fine now. I'm still worried but one thing I learned is to take thins one day at a time and value the present more. My birthday wish is of course good health and that she is far from any form of harm. My Dear Lord please hear this prayer of mine. I love Nanay so much and all I really want is her and Tatay's safety and in good condition at all times. 

Thursday, May 26, 2022

Ahead

 Completly exhausted today but happy because we got our salary released earlier than usual and that just means good things! So tiring but very thankful!

Wednesday, May 25, 2022

Check

 Went all in at work today! Spent nearly 8 hours between a Tv series and a movie for quality checking after dubbing has finished. Deadlines are tight needed to do the extra mile and hopefully didn't miss something major!

Tuesday, May 24, 2022

To Each

Yeah I made the right call sparing myself from further mental exhaustion after seeing another reason why I gave up. I hate to say it but things will get worst let's be real. It absolutely frightens me what the future beholds but I can not let this fear dominate my life. I just have to focus on what I can control right now so I can survive each day without falling to an abyss of misery. 

Monday, May 23, 2022

Anywhere

 It's been raining everyday recently. It almost always happen during the afternoon. The summer days are about to end. Not that there's really that much difference these days anyway. My nephew is about to finish 8th grade this month. Two years not in an actual school in the pivotal teenage years. I still feel frustrated how slow the back to in person classes has been. But to be honest it has been convenient that my nephew is just here at home but of course I still do want him to have an actual school experience. Covid is still pretty much around though but it has been overshadowed by other bigger things on the horizon. I do hope even if there are subvariantss, we won'r revert to that era. But I can't believe still how drastic life has changed the past 2 years. While there are traces now of the old life but it just isn't the same. 

Sunday, May 22, 2022

Tight

 Next week will be so hectic at work, there are two series with 10 episodes each that are both due for submission this Friday,. The dubbing for those two shows are not yet finished up until Wednesday so yeah it will be extra difficult to lay everything next week! There are two movies as well assigned to me as well although they are not due immediately but the dubbing will be done next week as well so will have to check that. I hope I won't mess up my duties this week!

Saturday, May 21, 2022

Ages

 May is about to end and I feel like this year have been so long already. So much has happened personally and well that thing. As much as I don't want to think about my worries, it still manages to creep in. It's normal I know but it's just unpleasant and tired of feeling that way., Anyway, back to working and escape from my fears!

Friday, May 20, 2022

One Second!



Of course, I'm gonna flex my first credit on a Netflix project! This is for the Filipino-dubbed version of  the movie We Can Be Heroes! My participation here is actually dubbing script editor and quality control but for this project, I am classified credited as adapter! Anyway, I know it's just like one second and no one really bothers to read the credits except when your name is there which is my case! We have more projects to come for Netflix and definitely will flaunt the credits for the project I was actually the dubbing scriptwriter (Translator)

 

Thursday, May 19, 2022

Placeholder

 I just finished doing a dubbing script of an episode that's not yet available on its streaming platform. The video provided was still quite raw and I could see the production people serving as stand-ins for visual effects that will be put on later. It was just weird to see when they popped up . There were some visual cues that explain the visual effect that will be placed there too. It was quite fascinating to see!

Wednesday, May 18, 2022

Preview

 The level of work I have ahead of me is quite overwhelming! I will need to watch 20 episodes of two shows that we are currently dubbing for quality check plus a movie too so I need to budget my time well especially of course I'm writing dubbing scripts too. But  honestly I'm really loving this one because hey more projects is just good and you have no idea how being this busy helped me not dwell too much with fears because I have things to finish first! 

Tuesday, May 17, 2022

Roadblock

 I'm so close to finishing this dubbing script for a tagalized kdrama and my goodness there are two lines that's really had to synch! Just a few more and lines and this one is done but I had a tough time so taking a short break to write it here so I can take it easy for a little. The scenes were also heavy so it was quite. Anyway, back to finish this script!

Monday, May 16, 2022

Swamped

 I really went to work earlier than usual to finish a task that requires a lot of time and I believe accomplished it well but my to-do list this week is longer than usual too,. I have one big thing that I need to accomplish by tomorrow and I really hope I can finish it on time and perhaps earlier than planned too!

Sunday, May 15, 2022

Up Next

I was quite busy finishing checking two scripts for tagalized korean drama that will air on a local network soon. The raw script is just a subtitle list so there are no character names so I have to make sure everything is correct. I will write an episode of this show to so it was good that checking on those scripts will help me get familiarized with the stiory and characters so I won't have a hard time writing it. It is quite challenging at first but I can manage and of course my primary motivation is the extra income I will get writing it. It is the exciting part!

Saturday, May 14, 2022

Less

 Not productive today, I was planning to do some work at home but decided not to. Burn out I guess, I need some break after a hectic work week plus  battling personal anxiety related to national events. I really hope I can shut things off in my mind and not worry anymore because I can't do anything about it anyway.. 

Friday, May 13, 2022

Big Miss

 I made some errors at a particular task at work which was a real bummer. I admitted my mistake, learned from it and move on. There was a moment where I really felt bad that I wanted to have a mini meltdown or I dunno blame other peoiple but good thing I managed to control myself and be rational. The reason for that mistake because I was trying to do many things at once. I need to improve my focus from hereon. No distractions

Thursday, May 12, 2022

Defeat

 I'm now conditioning myself to be more silent than ever. Not like I was vocal anyway whether in person or online to begin with. I just decided this is my way to cope with the upcoming changes which not to dwell on it anymore. There's nothing much I can do anyway, it is what it is.

Wednesday, May 11, 2022

Withered

Heavy workload today which is a good thing so I can't take my mind off the thing that frustrates me. Something I have no control over anymore but deeply bothers me. I thought by disengaging weeks ago would help soften the blow when the inevitable happens but I was fooling myself. I just have to my best from now on to compartmentalize and take this particular anxiety away for now so I could focus on things I can do and I need to do. 

Tuesday, May 10, 2022

Endure

 Most stressful elections I've experienced. It was so disorganized, the worst since I started voting in 2007. I almost gave up but despite all the stress and hassle I endured just to get my vote counted no matter what. My spirit is low to be honest I dunno what to say anymore even though it was largely expected it still stinks

Monday, May 09, 2022

Dread

 Here is the day. I've resigned myself that all is lost. But the ugliness I'm seeing is suffocating that I can't help but feel so frustrated of what is to come. I can't believe a lot of people are not seeing this or turning a blind eye. Or worst simply not bothered.  Can a miracle happen please?

Sunday, May 08, 2022

Misery

 That's why I want to avoid certain areas because I am being given false hopes. If only I could block everything but it isn't possible and live in isolation of everything that gives me nothing but a sinking feeling of defeat. There are moments I feel hopeful but when you are on the ground and you witness firsthand how the others view everything, how nothing that are obviously true have affected their mindset you can't help but feel the dread of the impending doom upon us. I will still do it but can't help but feel that is just a symbolic gesture of clinging on to something hopeful but less likely to happen. I feel so angry with how they have managed to control everything and change the discourse. I'm now preparing myself of what life will be after all of this. I will be silent again, avoiding things, suppressing what I feel. I can't do anything but just feel devastated as everything crumbles.  

Saturday, May 07, 2022

Hopeless

 So I witnessed something alarming and upsetting. It is scaring me a  lot but also really very angry that this has now escalated to this level. Why did we let this happen? It has spread to something that I'm very afraid can no longer be prevented from happening. Divine intervention maybe is the last hope.

Friday, May 06, 2022

Inches

 It's getting closer and I wish I have the optimism other people have. I just think it is too obvious now. I wish it wasn't the case but I'm afraid not. This weekend I will devote myself to writing a dubbing script and checking as well. Script writing for dubbing is my escape these days. It excite whenever I finish a project but you see when I think of my tasks due for next week I can't help but think on what will my mood will be by that time. Will I feel so devastated or I will just suppress what I feel and act as if there's nothing to worry about like I usually do. I'm so confused and scared right now. Oh God please hear my prayer.

Thursday, May 05, 2022

Tremble

 To be honest, I'm very scared on Monday. I'm trying to be both hopeful and also manage expectations. I'm focusing on work these days to take my mind off my fears. I don't want to get drowned in an echo chamber completely clueless what's happening on the ground.. I'm so frustrated how obvious red flags are ignored conveniently. Hoping and praying for a miracle.

Wednesday, May 04, 2022

More and more!

 So I met my goal again and finished my movie dubbing script today earlier than the deadline. It's a teen romcom which honestly was really enjoyable to do! Can't wait for it to get dubbed and be available on its streaming platform! I also helped out finishing a script of a teen comedy because the writer can't finished in and the dubbing is already schedule pretty soon. I have to do around around 13 minutes left and glad I was able to finish it! It was also fun to write but adapting the some of the jokes were hard, like there was a jole about Daniel Day Lewis' method acting which I totally get but hard to translate that would still capture the humor! I did my best and hopefuly the dubber delivery would make it work!

Tuesday, May 03, 2022

Adjusting

 First time working on a holiday ib 2 years and the relaxed feeling is the same as ever. I've been productive as well, surpassing the goal I set for today as well. I'm getting used to this new office now. The aircon is great which is what I want the most really. The building is huge and I dunno what other offices they have here, on our floor it feels empty. I haven't seen anyone come out from the other units! The elevator though is quite busy so you have to wait at times! As for our office, it still needs some cleaning up to do, hopefully, next week it will be set already because I'm feeling OC with some of the stuff lying around and not yet taken care of!

Monday, May 02, 2022

20th Floor

 So first day at the new office was literally messy but over the course of the day, things got fixed up and we did manage to do some work. Tomorrow is apparently a holiday but for the first time in the pandemic era, I will go work on a holiday because I have a lot of things to do especially the adjustments to the new office will somehow affect my productivity. My work space is smaller now compared to before because the office itself is smaller too but still good enough for the size of the employees now which has gotten smaller due to the retrenchments, resignation and one department now full time work from home. It's a strange feeling to be in a new space but hey I could just see it as something of a new era.

Sunday, May 01, 2022

Move

 Tomorrow is our first day at the new office. I'm expecting a mess actually , literally speaking because of all things that needed to be set up as we transferred our things from the former office to the new one. I actually brought some things at home like my office headphone and water bottle so it won't get lost in the move. All I know our new office is smaller than our former but hopefully there's still enough space for us to move around and we can adjust quickly  because there are a lot of things to do!

Saturday, April 30, 2022

Uncertain

 I wish I have the confidence or at least the faith of other people that things can turn around, that what is projected will not happen and that everything is just a lie. I try to disengage myself because I don't want to raise my hopes so much because I feel like it's a losing battle but I don't want to be a downer to those who are keeping the faith alive that there is a chance so I just step away. I want to be hopeful but I want to be realistic as well. Oh life's complications.

Friday, April 29, 2022

Don Chua

 So after two weeks of extended stay, today was really it for our stay here at Don Chua Lamko Building. So what's my favorite memory here? Definitely the one time I was trapped sa elevator. Naka-angat lang barely yung elevator bago na-stuck so hindi naman talaga dangerous and I was quickly assisted by the building's maintenance. Second favorite memory eh yung unaware ako na-lock pala ako sa office, I came in very early and hindi napansin nung may outside shoot that day na nandun na ako sa desk ko sa sulok kaya they locked it up when they left. Hindi rin ako aware kasi I was busy and nagulat na lang yung admin when she opened the office at nandun na ako! I will definitely miss this place and sana yung next office namin ganun din kalamig ang aircon!

I forgot to take a photo and mag-moment kasi nagmamadali ako umuwi! So thanks tp my co-worker James  for this parting shot! 





Thursday, April 28, 2022

45!

My parents' 45th wedding anniversary today! As always dear Lord my prayers is to keep them safe and healthy.. I admit sometimes I still feel overwhelmed that basically I'm the looking over my parents' welfare these days due to their age. Tables have been turned as they say. While I admit it's quite stressful but no regrets because I love them so much. All the frustrations I feel are fleeting, but the love is always there stronger than ever. My Dear Lord please hear my plea, keep my parents safe and healthy for years to come.

Wednesday, April 27, 2022

Airing!

I just found out that the very first animated program I ever wrote a dubbing script for is already airing! It started last week - it's Cartoon Network's Uncle Grandpa! It is airing at 930AM on TV5! I wish I will be able to watch an episode I translated, I've already seen the dubbed version of course but I just want to see it it on actual TV just because I'm proud of my work;.Likewise, the kdrama I wrote two dubbing scripts for is Never Twice on  NET25 airing at 830PM. They air it in half hour installments but the actual episodes are over 50 minutes. The episodes I wrote for are toward the end of the show's run so good luck if I'll get the chance to see it on actual TV because I'm quite busy at night these days doing scripts but we'll see! Doing dubbing scripts again really made this year happy despite all the anxieties I'm dealing with. When I translate/adapt the script it makes me feel creative again and so also immersed to another world. Of course getting paid for it, without the worry of it being not allowed at work anymore, is a really great feeling too. Truth be told, I could have done this years ago but it was not allowed same with writing for other dubbing studios too for obvious reasons. I could have done it in secret like some I knew before but I'm simply not comfortable especially since money is involved. Yeah, call me goody two shoes but this is what I am. I won't lie though because I did think about it and also felt envious with other people already doing it and earning along the way.  In fact, I was so tempted last year to seek outsourced dubbing script opportunities outside due to financial needs but glad I didn't because it's just something that will torture me  with guilt and worry of getting reprimanded. 

But thinking of missed opportunities did push me to finally to do something iand  I formally asked if I could write it for the company's projects so I can earn extra. I was really happy when I was finally allowed to do so. While this has taken my world right now but this has been the morale boost I needed so badly. 

Tuesday, April 26, 2022

Mini Melt

 I had some rough moments earlier where my fears attack me again and I felt so anxious on my way home from work and then I got stressed over things that I normally do but found to be such a hassle. To put the icing, I made a blunder as well just because I didn't question things and I was afraid of speaking up. To makes matter worst, I'm feeling some muscle pain to on my shoulder. Is this because of too much typing? Not my day. Hopefully tomorrow is better.

Monday, April 25, 2022

Health Check

 A co-worker's wife recently had an operation that was the same one my mother had last year. She's fine now like Nanay is currently right now. But you know what I admit I still feel very afraid of what lies ahead. Sometimes because I'm quite busy these days this worry takes the backseat but sometimes I feel like life will find a way to remind me of this fear like when I heard about my co-worker's wife's case I felt anxious again. Oh Dear Lord please hear my prayers for good health for my nanay, tatay and the rest of my family healthy and that includes me because I worry too about myself as well.

Sunday, April 24, 2022

Shorts

 Just finished writing the dubbing script of  an animated TV show! Tomorrow  (or perhaps later this morning) I will write the final episode of the first season. I hope the  network that will air it here will acquire the other seasons and commission us again to dub because I really enjoyed writing the scripts for this one. It's a comedy which was a treat to write especially since it's short too! I hope they will air it on local TV soon enough so I can watch and wait for the episodes I wrote! 

Saturday, April 23, 2022

Hole

 I had a good catch up chat with a friend online. It started because I greeted her Happy Birthday and congratulated her at her new house and then we had long chat about life in general. It was so good to talk this friend even if it is just through a messaging app. But then we talked about topics that made me question about my life choices again. I mean I'm writing this at past 12AM when I'm usually asleep, so yeah it really went this hard.  Anyway, I will just focus on things I can do at the moment and try not to be bothered anymore of what I missed out. 

Friday, April 22, 2022

Pour

 More additional dubbing projects coming at the office. Literally jampacked now! This is great news of course but I wish this happened last year so we didn't have to retrench people because we now seriously need more manpower especially techs! But oh well timing could be such a bewildering thing at times!

Thursday, April 21, 2022

No Last Minute

 I met my goal of finishing one dubbing script that was originally due on Sunday. That one crossed off my checklist. I still have some things pending, especially that movie script I have to work on but glad my aim was met today.  I really want things done earlier than it needs to be. I don't want to cram. I don't want to feel pressured. I don't want to sleep late just to finish something. It's working so far and I will continue to do my best to make things work. 

Wednesday, April 20, 2022

Full Plate

 So I decided to help out a in-house writer who is struggling with deadline by writing one of his movie dubbing scripts due for next week although I was able to talk to the dubbing coordinator and adjust the deadline for a few more days because I need allowance since writing a movie dubbing script takes a lot of time and effort. Also, I have a few more scripts to finish as well this weekend so yeah it's gonna be a busy time ahead again! But this is giving me quite a boost really despite how hectic it is and helps me stay focused. I have goals to accomplish so bring it on

Tuesday, April 19, 2022

Get Busy

 The office had internet troubles for the past 2 days which I guess is a sign they want us to move already! haha! But last I heard the new offices are still far from ready. The dubbing studios are just not easy to do and can't be rushed off or else production will suffer! Anyway, that internet issues was quite a hassle for working but despite that I was still able to accomplish things off my checklist. Hoping to start a telenovela dubbing script tomorrow as well so I can subkit earlier than deadline which is Sunday. Things are getting busy again but I love it. Really hoping and pray things will run well and that I won't have to deal with big personal problems soon as well. Still very worried with a lot of things personal and national so pouring my energy to work gives me a relief. 

Monday, April 18, 2022

Cool

 So one friend I recruited to write dubbing scripts failed to submit half of what is needed which was due today. I got annoyed at first because it was late notice so I had to finish one and asked another friend to helped finish what is left pending. But good thing I maintained my cool and didn't berate her when we were messaging each other. She was apologetic and I was calm and understanding because she's still new to this and has other life priorities. Life is stressful enough these days so I don't need to be a burden not just for her but for myself as well. I don't want to have conflicts with her because she's a good friend and I didn't let pressure to take over and break something.

Sunday, April 17, 2022

Three Weeks Left

Dreading the results. I could feel they are winning. They will get the power. The fact many people are not bothered of the past is alarming. Just trying now to accept what would most likely happen. Maybe start time to disengage now. Will still make choice, it is my right and although this could now be just a symbol of resistance. I am so afraid. 

Saturday, April 16, 2022

Keys

 Basically binged a series the past 2 days because it's a dubbing project in the company and aside from writing one episode of it, I'm also tasked to check the submitted dubbing scripts for continuity and  such. I honestly like this project and it helps the show is so entertaining but I really need to be attentive to details and such! I really hope this project will be executed well and I'm really excited once we're done with this and it's out in the world!

Friday, April 15, 2022

Marites

 A former co-worker messaged me out of the blue to ask where we will be moving offices, that's normal  since I posted it on social media but the next message was funny because she was congratulating me because I got a promotion which I clarified that I didn't but just had additional work an then she replied in a matter-of-factly way that she heard that I will be replacing my manager who will be replacing an admin who is migrating abroad. I said that's not true and asked her where she got that gossip from and she said it was confidential hahaha. Anyway, I did say that the promotion thing is fake news and I have no interest whatsoever with that stressful job and I'm fine where I am and happy doing dubbing scripts again. I admit I don't know if the migration thing is true but none of my business. I don't know it's been so long she was part of the company but it's funny she's still updated or at least she thinks she is! 

Thursday, April 14, 2022

Lookout

As much as I wanted this day to be stress-free and it wasn't to be. Some people's choices makes you worry a lot. Some people's action is providing so much inconvenience. Some you just can't understand where it goes. It's troubling that is why I don't let myself be engage with something without being cautious that something could go wrong. There simply can't be true happiness. Just trying to maintain daily sense of peace is hard enough.

Wednesday, April 13, 2022

Electrifying

While the news of electricity rates going up was already known we still couldn't help but be shocked and annoyed upon seeing our bill! And a lot of people do too. It caused some minor stress but hey earlier when our salary was released, I immediately paid for it along with the water bill. Thank goodness I've been earning some extra lately so I was able to do so and not wait for my siblings to give their share which they did earlier upon arriving at home but I really wanted it to be paid immediately especially with Maundy Thursday-Good Friday coming up. Anyway, hoping for a soothing and meaningful Lent ahead and even for a short while, leave my worries away.

Tuesday, April 12, 2022

Pause

 So I began fixing my stuff at the office in preparation of the office transfer. I threw some of it and a lot like books, notebooks, mementos I took home. But surprised! Our transfer to the new office has been postponed as it is not ready yet so we will stay at the old office I think at least until the end of the month but anyway at least I already cleaned my stuff up and ready to move whenever it is!

Monday, April 11, 2022

Prep

 So final 3 days at our present office building. Since it's Holy Week as well, I need some balancing to do on finishing work task and preparing for the office move. I did accomplished some work today and I plan to start gathering my things tomorrow, labeling my PC, hard drives, cords and other things. I've been hearing some of my coworkers who already saw our new office that it really is smaller than we get used to. I'm a bit worried about it but then again this move was needed to save money on office lease, essential for the company's survival. I really hope the new setup won't be such a hassle in performing work duties

Sunday, April 10, 2022

Screen Down

 My old laptop won't open. I haven't been using it in awhile since I've been using my new secondhand laptop but I do check occasionally to see if it still works but today it finally died. It was very useful and had a good shelf life (7 years) because it was secondhand too! I hope this one I'm currently using will last long too though I'm saving up to buy an actual new laptop especially I'm back writing dubbing scripts again and more writing projects ahead too. This laptop I'm using is efficient but still has limits. Hopefully, I can save enough soon to buy  a new one. 

Saturday, April 09, 2022

Detach

 I'm worried about the elections happening next month. Tensions are high and shady things are happening.. To be honest, I'm detaching myself from it to avoid a bigger heartbreak once the results come in and my hope won't come true. Still hoping my worst fears won't happen though but also preparing for the worst as early as now. 

Friday, April 08, 2022

Delivered

 Four days before the deadline, I submitted my dubbing script for a yet-to-be-released streaming movie! I really worked hard for it the past 2 days and I must say it was a good movie and really had some major dramatic moments that I really needed to exert a lot of effort and well to be dramatic soul adapting the script to Filipino. I'm not sure when this movie will be out on the streaming platform since the project is due for submission next month so it may take awhile for it to be released. I do think they will wait for all localization around the world of the said movie to be ready before they release it on the streaming platform but I'm excited! I hope I did justice translating it.

Thursday, April 07, 2022

Approximate

I'm close to finishing the movie dubbing script! A little over 10 minutes to go left! I could have finished it tonight but rest is important so I will be in the right set of mind to finish it tomorrow. It's due Tuesday so I will have the time to polish it too. I  really wanted to avoid cramming especially for this project!

Wednesday, April 06, 2022

Boosted

 Received the fee for the two dubbing scripts I did and I immediately deposited it to my savings account! It really feels good to see the fruit of my hardwork for those scripts and I'm more driven to do more and save more money. Projects are flowing in the company with two new animated programs for Filipino dubbing on the pipeline! Thank you Lord for these blessings!

Tuesday, April 05, 2022

Halfway

I'm fifty percent done writing the dubbing script of this streaming movie! This is due next Tuesday and I hope to finish by Friday so I can have the time to polish it because I really want this to be as good as possible. The scene I handled today was tough to watch because it was a sexual assault scene. It's not graphic but still unnerving to see because I can't help but imagine this happening in real life. Technically it's not hard to write dubbing lines for the scene but still I was conscious and sensitive with the words I used. That's why I'm really giving it my top priority. 

Monday, April 04, 2022

More & More

 Another set of new projects coming in from this streaming platform client! Quite overwhelming but of course a good problem to have. One assigned to me is  a Japanese show which is a first to me! Today I was busy doing a quality check of the dubbing of this tagalized movie for this client. Spent a lot of hours of it that I wasn;'t able to continue writing the dubbing script of the movie I was working all weekend! The balancing act will be tough indeed but I will manage.

Sunday, April 03, 2022

Managing Expectations

 Elections are coming soon and while it is everywhere, I'm trying to avoid thinking about it because I'm scared of the results. While the one I want to win is gaining momentum, I still feel that person I don't like is winning. I just feel more regular people are falling for the propaganda and willing to disregard the red flags. I don't know what to feel anymore. 

Saturday, April 02, 2022

Lucky Start

 So I began writing the dubbing script for this streaming movie that's not yet out. It's the longest writing project so far with over 100 minutes. All my past dubbing scripts were mostly for TV shows with episodes in the 40 to 50 minute range. I did have writing experience with movies but it was a shared task with former writers at the office too. Anyway, this is due for April 12 but I really want to finish this as early possible! I had trouble getting my writing off the ground because I had difficult adapting the first scene to a more natural sounding localized language but I got my groove later on. I finished a little over 10 minutes. Yeah so far from finishing but at least my creative juices is flowing and hopefully my goal to finish days before deadline will happen.. I don't want to cram this!

Friday, April 01, 2022

Trial

 Things are getting hectic again but this is a good problem to have. I've invited some college friends to try writing dubbing scripts , I was able to ask two friends to try out writing dubbing scripts for this cartoon project because it is shorter so good start to try writing. I am gonna guide them too so hopefully it all works ouy

Thursday, March 31, 2022

103

 Finished writing the dubbing script of an episode of this streaming TV show. It is English to Filipino translation so in a way it's easier but still had some moments where I forgot the translation of some words. Also, in some parts I have to make a decision whether to keep English word as it is since we are a Taglish nation after all. But I needed to find the right balance where it doesn't sound awkward but also not to maintain a lot of English words because what's the point of localizing right? It was a challenge that  was fun to do. Looking forward to do more!