Sunday, December 31, 2023

My Hot 100 for 2023

My Hot 100 for 2023

1. Raining in Manila - Lola Amour

2. Ere  - Juan Karlos

3. Bad Idea, Right? - Olivia Rodrigo

4. Kill Bill - SZA

5. Steal The Show - Lauv

6. Uhaw - Dilaw

7.  Vampire - Olivia Rodrigo 

8. Forget Me - Lewis Capaldi

9.  New Cool - Grease: Rise of the Pink Ladies Cast 

10.  Beso Prohibido - Rio Roma

11.  Langyang Pag-ibig  - Ben & Ben
12. Cruel Summer - Taylor Swift
13. This is Why - Paramore 
14. Don't Let The Lights Go Out - Panic at the Disco
15. Nobody Gets Me - SZA 
16. Heaven - Niall Horan
17. Love From The Other Side - Fallout Boy
18. Gusto - Zack Tabudlo and Al James 
19. I Think I Like You - The Band Camino
20. Dance The Night - Dua Lipa

21. Wild Dogs - Matchbox Twenty
22.  Fighting Myself - Linkin Park 
23. Bahala Na - Kenaiah 
24. Fallen - Lola Amour 
25. Love is Embarrassing - Olivia Rodrigo
26. Midnight Rain - Taylor Swift
27. Pasilyo - Sunkissed Lola 
28. GENTO - SB19 
29. Huwag Muna Tayong Umuwi - BINI  
30. Tumitigil Ang Mundo - BGYO

31. Can't Catch Me Now - Olivia Rodrigo
32. What Was I Made For - Billie Eilish
33. Naatu Naatu - RRR Cast
34. Akin Ka - Zack Tabudlo
35. Wonderful Life - Two-Door Cinema Club
36. Cupid - Fifty Fifty
37. Pinadama - Zack Tabudio
38. Lowkey - Niki
39. Tally - BLACKPINK
40. Get Him Back - Olivia Rodrigo

41.  Snooze - SZA 
42. Super Shy - New Jeans 
43. Yakap  - Zack Tabudlo
44. Paint The Town Red - Doja Cat
45.  Edging - Blink 182 
46.  un x100to - Grupo Fontera and Bad Bunny 
47. Seven - Jungkook feat Latto
48. Greedy - Tate McRae 
49.  Hold Me Like a Grudge - Fallout Boy
50. Dear - Ben & Ben

51. Victoria's Secret - Jax
52. Wish You The Best - Lewis Capaldi 
53. Mine - Kelly Clarkson
54. Eyes Closed - Ed Sheeran
55. Flowers - Miley Cyrus
56. Die For You - The Weekend and Ariana Grande 
57. Chemical - Post Malone
58. Lost - Linkin Park
59. Lovin on Me - Jack Harlow
60. Is It Over Now - Taylor Swift

61. I Don't Think That I Like Her - Charlie Puth
62. Clap Snap - Icona Pop
63. The Ones We Once Loved - Ben & Ben  
64. Fall In Love Alone - Stacey Ryan
65. 10:36 - Beabadobee 
66. Eme - Moira
67. Water - Tyla
68. Calm Down - Rema and Selena Gomez
69. Diba - Zack Tabudlo
70. Pienso En Ti - Dulce Maria and David Zeoeda

71. Heartbreak Feels So Good - Fallout Boy
72. Me - Kelly Clarkson
73. I'm in Love With You - 1975
74. Pasko Ang Pinakamagandang Kwento - Various Artis
75. Esa Hembra Es Mala - Gloria Tevi
76. Kisame - rhodessa
77. Lihim - Arthur Miguel
78, Musika - Dionela
79. Here With Me - d4vd
80.  Leonora - Sugarcane 

81. B.A.D- Denise Julia feat PLO
82.  Saan? - Maki
83. Tingin - Cup of Joe feat Janine
84.  My Love Mine All Mine - Mitski 
85. YK - Sean Jr
86. Angels Like You - Miley Cyrus
87. ETA - New Jeans
88. Could Be Something - Ben&Ben
89. Festival - Sandara Park
90. Karma - Taylor Swift feat Ice Spice

91. Am I Dreaming -  Metro Boomin, ASAP Rocky and Roisee
92. Never Gonna Dance Again - Pink
93.  New Love - Boys Like Girls 
94. Houdini - Dua Lipa
95.  711 - Toneejay
96.  homebdy - DĖMI, Madman Stan
97. I Hate Love - Kelly Clarkson feat Steve Martim
98. Autumn - Ben & Ben
99. Lil Boo Thang - Paul Russel
100. Shakira: Bzrp Music Sessions, Vol. 53 - Shakria and Bzrp

Saturday, December 30, 2023


 Favorite Movies of 2023

1.  Elemental

2.  Rewind 

3.  Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse

4.  Oppenheimer

5.  Killers of the Flower Moon


Favorite TV Comedy Episodes of 2023

1. The Marvelous Mrs Maisel Season Episode 9 "Four Minutes"

2. Abbott Elementary Season 2 Episode 13 "Fundraiser"

3. Young Sheldon Season 6 Episode 14 "A Launch Party and a Whole Human Being"

4, Never Have I Ever Season 4 Episode 8 "....set my Mom up"

5. Jury Duty Season 1 Episode 2 "Opening Arguments"

6. Only Murders in the Building Season 3 Episode 9 "Thirty"

7.  What We Do In The Shadows Season 5 Episode 3 "Pride Parade"

8. Disenchantment Season 5 Episode 10 "Goodbye Bean"

9. Frasier Season 12 Episode 1 "The Good Father"

10. Futurama Season 8 Episode 1 "The Impossible Stream"

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Friday, December 29, 2023


    Stress here, there and everywhere. I understand the suffocation but it is just an awful feeling to have especially under the circumstances. It's so hard, even if you try your best to keep yourself together, there's always something that will you push to the limit. I dread the past, the present and the future. Where can I go then? Misery all over. 

Thursday, December 28, 2023


 I want to do something for myself but I can't do it due to various reasons. It has been so exhausting really. So much unnecessary stress but I need once again to be the person who can't break down. Who needs to understand other people. The person who needs to think of the worst-case scenario first so I can't complain of the present stress. It's driving me mad but I need to hold it together

Wednesday, December 27, 2023

Until Further Notice

 I'm hoping for a last-minute reprieve for this something close to my heart but looks like, the decision is already final. It sucks and puts me in another sullen mood but I need to rise from this setback and hope for something better on the horizon. That's all I can do right now. 

Tuesday, December 26, 2023


 I was planning to do some advanced work as I head back to the office tomororow but I got the holiday lazyness bug! Ob well, hopefully I will get things done!

Monday, December 25, 2023


 Not an easy year but I'm so grateful I got to celebrate Christmas with Nanay. Praying hard for more years of celebrating it with her

Sunday, December 24, 2023


 This Christmas Eve, there are happy moments, and there are worrying moments. Story of my life but I'm  still trying to believe

Saturday, December 23, 2023


 Late and I can't sleep because I have so many things in mind. I'm trying my best not to fall into the same miserable state I've been in for the past few months. I've tried to distract myself and do something to boost my mood and be motivated to fight on. But it always comes back to this. I hate it so much. I'm trapped with so much miserable feelings either way. 

Friday, December 22, 2023

Get Some Air

 Quite a long day for me so many things I did and I'm still not done, hopefully, I can finish them this Christmas 4-day holiday weekend! It won't be easy for sure but glad to be busy and have some things to hope for in 2024 as well! Thank you Lord!

Thursday, December 21, 2023

Nowhere to go

 The signs are here again, I am scared, I am tired. I am down, and I don't know what to do anymore, This rollercoaster ride of emotion is draining all the energy I have left   I am so exhausted but I don't want to give up but it's so damn hard to keep fighting when any glimmer of hope fades away and we always to back to the same state and maybe even worst.

Wednesday, December 20, 2023


 It never ends or evolves. It just repeats and gets worse. I'm trying to keep it in but boy it's so hard. Trying to keep the faith but I'm struggling real bad. I always need to reminede to be grateful that the darker route was avoided. But I'm wondering if this will be it, neverending stress for all of us. Lord, please help me to be strong

Tuesday, December 19, 2023

Can't Focus

 Struggling to finish something maybe because it ain't needed yet, maybe because the holiday lazybug is biting me, or maybe I just lack the passion. I don't know, I want to finish this fast but there's always something that ruins my focus. Some due to my own volition but some like right now because of a recurring problem that will probably never go away

Monday, December 18, 2023

I Do Mind

That mistake is haunting me once more because of another blow lately. What a mistake I made,all because I wanted to feel something I'd never felt before but in the end, it was not worth it. Good, I pumped the break before it got even more problematic. But still that mistake continues to haunt me as I struggle in life 

Sunday, December 17, 2023


 I didn't do something I was planning to do because it's not immediate. This will likely give me stress later but I just need something to take my mind off things again so next week I'll be ready again to face the world's endless challenges!

Saturday, December 16, 2023


 I was expecting this but seeing it confirmed a while ago was still a blow. But I always try to look on the positive because there are things that to be happy about and I'm grateful to that. Bawi next year!

Friday, December 15, 2023

Rock Paper Scissors


Worked on the Filipino localization for Squid Game: The Challenge and I genuinely enjoyed the show as well! I love the new games Battleship and Circle of Trust. And the winner was the person I was rooting or as well

Thursday, December 14, 2023


I had an unnecessary cause of stress because of my own insistence on being in the know. I hope I didn't really didn't start any trouble and I'm just overthinking things again. Argh. Lesson learned.

Wednesday, December 13, 2023


 It has not happened a lot recently so when there is less stress, I cherish it because you don't know for how long. I hate to think this way but I need to let it out to process everything I feel. I wish things could be okay again. Rather, I pray for it every single day. But I take it one day at a time and glad for a night like this.

Tuesday, December 12, 2023


 How can I give it all? I'm very exhausted. I'm tired ot it all. But I can't give up. I don't want to give up. But it can't seem to stop. It never stops. 

Monday, December 11, 2023

Just a few more

My long queue is about to be done finally but my eyes are giving up so yeah I will just finish tomorrow instead! Because I can not deliver something substandard. I do feel like I'm not handling this stuff well because I'm doing a lot of things that I don't have to but I was just being too nice I guess! Anyway, tomororw it is!

Sunday, December 10, 2023


 Just a few minutes and I will finish! And there was an obstacle that I needed to control. It's so hard really how to control everything in your power. 

Saturday, December 09, 2023


 I have things to be happy about but the feeling of sadness over some aspect of my life is overwhelming, I  wish I didn't feel this way but I already do. I hope to get some boost soon because I don't like feeling this way

Friday, December 08, 2023


 Struggling to finish something I could normally do without a hitch. It's because of some recent news that's making me lose enthusiasm about it. But I need to power through it and make things happen

Thursday, December 07, 2023

Good News

 I've been so down lately that to go home to some good news is such a treat. It's still far from over but it's not what I'm fearing about. I hope things from hereon will be on the right track. 

Wednesday, December 06, 2023


 Problems at home. Now problems at work. I can't catch a break. The last time I had a difficult Christmas season was over 10 years and I survived. Hopefully, I survive this again. I've already decided not to go to the Christmas party this year for the first time ever. Simply because I don't want to go home late anymore for various reasons.I  just don't want the stress of holiday traffic to add to my mounting pile of stressors. 

Tuesday, December 05, 2023


 I was on a bus when the earthquake hit this afternoon so I didn't really feel it but then again I had a lot of things in my mind that I probably just didn't notice it. So many problems. I'm having a hard time.

Monday, December 04, 2023

Great Story

 I'm not really in the holiday spirit but I always look forward to the ABS CBN Christmas Station ID song to boost my mood somehow and yet again, they didn't miss again this year

Sunday, December 03, 2023

Pile Up

 I have so many things on my mind now. I can't focus at a time that I really need to. So many things troubling my head. What a pain. What a miserable life I have now.  And this being the holiday just adds more sadness because there's just nothing I can feel excited about. There's so much dread. 

Saturday, December 02, 2023

Sit Still

 Made a mistake and let my emotions get the best of me. It's hard to stay patient under this circumstance. Some of the pressure I feel is self-inflicted so I have no one to blame but myself and now I affected another person along the way. Oh Lord, this is really hard but still thankful for this chance and I really hope I, we, can find a way to balance things out and not suffer from the pressure of it all

Friday, December 01, 2023


 Busy weekend ahead, I need to pull off a semi miracle but hey let's do this! I need all the concentration I can get. I set myself up for this really and was at fault too because I let myself get distracted but can't afford to do so now. I really hope I can make it work