Glimmer

 So looking like the thing that worried us for the past 2 days may be resolved but we still need to wait for it to be confirmed. I hope everything goes well because it was so nervewracking. 

Aftershock

There was a literal earthquake as just the clock turned midnight! But yesterday's even still had some effect today. I could feel it and it's really a downer but hopefully this overall feeling won't last long. I pray to God so

Setback

 A loved one suffered a big blow today and dare I say, injustice. I hope he bounces back from this setback. It does make me cautious as well with people even more.  It's hard to find people you can trust. Somehow it makes me justify why I set up a wall to protect myself and probably that is how I am surviving the game of life

Sweeth

We had another project out on Neftlix! Check out the Filipino-dubbed version of Sweet Tooth (both seasons)! I was not assigned to the project so no credit bragging for me but hey still proud our team made this one! Hopefully, Netflix renews it for Season 3 and maybe I could write for it too! :D

Scroll.

 That's why I try to avoid social media as much as I can because I can't help but feel things I don't want to. I also tend to judge people too which is something I don't want people to do things to me as well. I have lingering feelings of insecurity and such so it does not help things at all.  I don't want to be eaten alive by this.

Checked!

 Just finished something I could have finished earlier but I slacked off and did other things which to be fair are not useless but just not as needed and urgent as this one. I don't know why I tend to do that someitmes but I'm glad I got myself together and finished this today so I can focus on other things tomorrow!

Pal

 Thinking of joining this prestigious tilt but I think for the wrong reasons. I want to win and get a medal for recognition. Just being honest. But I know that kind of reasoning is not enough fuel to get it, I still struggle with things as well so I might not have what it takes to make it all the way. But I'm entertaining the idea, the deadline is next month so who knows

Near and Far

 So I'm sort of within reach of finishing this thing. If I didn't get lazy yesterday, this would have been over by now but oh well I take full responsibility for my laziness! Because I knew it wasn't really needed that's why I got lazy but well I snapped myself back to being responsible again! OK back to finishing this!

50

It was so hot today that I couldn't concentrate on what I wanted to today but there are still a few hours left today so I might still be able to get something done, good luck! Maybe because it's not really that urgent so I'm not really on beast mode to finish but maybe I should because I like checking something off my list. Okay we'll see

Ally

 Randomly saw Ally McBeal on Disney+ awhile ago. It was a show popular show during my childhood, I think I've seen some episodes but never really understood it because I know I was just a kid! Checked out a few episodes and I really enjoyed it, so funny with the type of emotional beat that aligns with what I like. Will try to check out more episodes in the next weeks I still have the subscription! 

Plate

Finally finished checking the work of trainees that was quite hard to do . But I admit this task had been delayed because I took in too much and also got lazy as well. But at least now I learned how to say no because I just can't find the time to take another trainee at this point. I also need to assess how I teach them as well. One I can see so much improvement which is really great, the other one needs a lot of work but this one needs compassion and patience considering his special situation.  

The heat

 The humidity these days is on another level of insufferable. It's headache-inducing. The dryness will really make you feel a little sick. I'm quite paranoid these days so I really need to be careful. I hope this won't last long.

Farewell

Today was my classmate Walton's burial. I wasn't able to visit his wake or be on the funeral today. I do hope I can visit his tomb soon. I wish I could go but there was just so many complications that prevented me to do so. Walton, kung nasaan ka man ngayon, maraming salamat sa lahat. Rest in peace, my friend. Thank you so much for being so funny, nice and sweet. I will never forget you. Dear Lord, please guide his soul as he travels back to your paradise.

Reset

 So I'm trying to balance things now, I wanted to do some work tonight but then I saw a favorite show of mine is now available on a streaming site, and out of impulse bought myself a month's subscription (at a discounted price from a promo I saw). I figured I do really need to go back to watching shows for leisure again and not just work-related! I still have a lot of things to do but I have some breathing space and I do need to inject some fun again because I've been pushing myself hard and I did realized that it could affect my work's quality. I've worked so hard to not get any pushback and so far so good so yeah I need to take care of myself so I continue to deliver. 

Worn

 One of those moments you feel spent. You gotta thrive on for the better good, you have to think of the worst-case scenario first, you have to take the high road, you have to give way, and you have to be the person not adding unnecessarily to drama. But really sometimes is just hard to take everything in and not breakdown but you have to do it privately and not attract attention because instead of getting the comfort you will just cause unnecessary drama that will just to the multiple emotion you are already feeling. You just have to take it all in no matter how suffocating it is.

Chatty

 I spent the entire afternoon chatting with friends online. I was planning to do some work but I'll just do it tomorrow and while I could get pressed in time but it's fine really. I needed to do some I dunno mindless things today because the past weeks, I've dealt with the back-to-back loss which really made me sad and scared so spending a few hours not thinking of negative stuff was quite a treat. I did realize resorting to escaping via doing work is not helpful too as well. This is my way of self care and tomorrow I will march on again

Bye PEx

After nearly 19 years and over 50K posts, from a regular poster to eventually becoming a moderator and admin, "forg" is logging off for the last time @pinoyexchange 

Salamat PExers, Salamat PEx! 

Reconnect

Had a little bit of annoyance today due to things I've already foreseen but still annoying when it happens in real-time. But I always need to remind myself that things could be worst and this is really a minor issue in the grand scheme of things. So I just distracted myself yet again

Comrade

The thing that I like about writing dubbing scripts is that starting is quite hard to do but once I get into it, I really get into it. Like this recent script, I just finished today, starting it was so hard but I really enjoyed writing it eventually, I was immersed in another culture. I also finished editing the episode after it! I will write the final episode next week and quite looking forward to it but first, I still have quite a list to do but it's fine, I enjoy doing it so much. But of course I've been also learning to slow down as well for my own benefit

Intricate

 What I thought was impossible last night was just me kinda overacting! One thing I did well last night though that after I felt quite overwhelmed with what I was doing, I stopped. Normally, I would push to meet a certain goal but then I realized that I'd been doing myself harm. And after I decided to set that thing for another day it really helped because I felt somewhat refreshed while I still had some difficulty doing that thing at least I had the motivation to finish it and so much better. I was in the right headspace and things run smoothly. We really do need to realize when we are pushing ourselves too much. 

Turquoise

 So I'm about to begin that's really hard and I have very limited to finish this too. Maybe the toughest one yet since I returned to doing this. I hope I can pull this off very well!

Walton

 My classmate Walton passed away early morning today. We haven't seen each other in a while but we were goofing out just recently on a class group chat. I will forever remember his sense of humor. When I became the editor-in-chief of the student paper, he started calling me "chief" even after graduation. His kulit was always endearing and you know that's how he shows his love and care. They gave me a basketball jersey of our course varsity team with my name on the side. I didn't ask for it and they know I don't even know how to dribble a ball but they, led by him, gave it to me as a gift. I still wear it until this day and forever cherish it now.

Rest in peace, my friend! Thank you and we will miss you so much!

Brink

 My classmate's sister's latest update to is not good. I'm scared but looks like it is heading that way. I'm sad and frustrated because getting hospitalized is so complicated and quite unfair too. I'm scared of everything.  Oh Dear Lord guide my friend Walton.

Worried

 A college classmate's life is in critical condition. We've tried our best to help but the reality of financial struggles and complicated public hospital bureaucracy is making things so difficult. In a way,  I became a focal person from our batch which honestly is a pressure to me since we are in the middle of Holy Week and you could feel that some of my classmates are not comfortable facing such stressful situations.  Can't blame them, they already helped financially earlier so it's hard to seek financial help again. So hard and soul-sucking really. I empathize with the sister which whom I've been in contact but there's really so much I can do. She's not pressuring us and is very gracious as well but I could feel the anxiety so much. I wish I have more than enough to help them out by myself. 

Semi Colon

 I woke up at my usual time at 4AM then realizing no work today so went back to sleep again and woke up 4 hours later. I was planning to do something productive but then I was too lazy again! I did not useful but surf the net and read useless stuff. Took a little nap too! Maybe before the night ends I get to do some progress but maybe not! . Oh It's gonna be a challenge but we'll see!

Comma

 Lenten break is upon us but I don't plan to be 100% on break especially yesterday I was not really productive given I was so distracted by what happened to PEx. I did some work today but still need to finish some stuff as well. I want to finish some stuff but not gonna lie I caught the lazy bug. I will try to balance everything, doing some stuff but also taking a break from time to time to clear up my thoughts as my heart is burdened with worries. 

Goodbye PEx!

 Today it was made official the Pinoyexchange.com is closing down. My virtual home for nearly 20 years.Wala ako masyadong nagawa sa work today kasi basa ako ng basa ng mga messages sa pagsasara ng PEx and their memories with PEx. I was happy news outlets featured it as well.  I'm really sad.  Masyado  malaki ang parte ng PEx sa buhay ko.  During a rough time in my life, PEx offered me a freelance gig that helped me so much. Forever grateful. If only I had the means, I would have done everything to save PEx. It was a big part of my life that I will never forget.  I will miss PEx so much.

Down

 Just found out some saddening news. It was inevitable but to see it finally happen still makes me sad. While I wasn't active anymore, I always check in from to time. I had a feeling the end was near because it was not the same anymore and it was to see it slowly go down. It was just a matter of time. Nevertheless, it makes me sentimental of how it used to be and how it was integral in my life. 

Cut

A draining day. Got into some minor accident which left me with a band-aid above my eyelid. And those things, even if so little in the grand scheme of things, bring in a LOT of stress already because people think about their feelings first like I have to settle things to stop further escalation when it's so not needed to because it doesn't solve anything at all.  I'm averse to hassle because all my life I've been dealing with it, I just need boring, non-eventful life.

Laz

 April 1 today. I had a good afternoon nap today which was quite refreshing, not gonna lie! I spent the morning doing the groceries and with the heat, it's just extra challenging. Anyway, I still have things to do but kinda relaxed which hopefully won't bite me in the end.