Just finished writing the Filipino dubbing script of an upcoming animated movie. It's so fun to do, one of the most relaxing scripts I've ever done even if it's longer than the usual stuff I do (over 80 minutes) so frankly I had a smooth time writing thing once I got things going on! My writing queue is easing up, which is nice in a way for a breather but I want more projects to come in! I still have 3 left to do but they don't have tight deadlines yet I want to stock up on writing projects again so hopefully new projects will pour in. Please, Lord!
Tuesday, May 30, 2023
Yesterday was all stressful but today was okay. So yeah while these things always happen and it will still happen. It passes. I'm glad about that. I'm thankful. It's still not the worst-case scenario on my mind. It will happen again and I'll be tormented inside but still I need to get myself together and not give up.
Monday, May 29, 2023
When things like this happen, I once again do the adjustments because their mood swings and pride are above anything so I'm the one again pacifying things, trying to prevent things from escalating further. God give me the strength so I can continue to carry on because I can't give up.
Sunday, May 28, 2023
Watched the final episode of The Marvelous Mrs Maisel on Prime Video. Rachel Brosnahan killed it in the series finale. Alex Borstein was so great too. I'm gonna watch Jury Duty next since I've been reading a lot of good buzz on it. I will also check out a local show Cattleya Killer which Prime Video bought. It looks good! I only subscribed for a month so I gotta make 149 worth it! I do hope we get a project with them soon! I would love to write dubbing script for one of their shows.
Saturday, May 27, 2023
Friday, May 26, 2023
Handed in the dubbing script of the finale episode of a telenovela we worked for half a year! This was the third finale script I've written in the last 2 weeks plus a penultimate episode with one long revelation scene with heavy dialogue! So happy to be able to do them all. I have a dubbing script to work for an upcoming animated movie. It's a personal fave so it's gonna be fun to translate it to Filipino! I have at least 3 in the queue to write for next month but I want MORE. Hopefully, we get more projects soon too. I want to be so busy!
Thursday, May 25, 2023
Here it goes again. Same thing again. The instability never changes. Everything so fragile and repetitive. I can't express disappointment because well I don't want to rock a boat. Life is not TV show where you speak your mind, and all things are resolved. That isn't the case. And I don't want another stressor in my already stressed mindset, I just want to be numb and not care about it anymore.
Wednesday, May 24, 2023
Tuesday, May 23, 2023
Monday, May 22, 2023
I don't know how to face everything. The one I have in mind might not be the right thing to do strictly speaking but my gut feel says otherwise. But I'm questioning myself if I'm doing it for my convenience - to protect myself. But what I've gone through the past years, I learned a lot on how to deal with this. Sometimes you need to trust what your gut says. But I'm afraid it could be a mistake. Oh dear Lord please help me. Guide me.
Sunday, May 21, 2023
Saturday, May 20, 2023
Friday, May 19, 2023
Thursday, May 18, 2023
Wednesday, May 17, 2023
It's crazy to think sometimes how you want something and yet when it happened, it feels disappointing. There's a feeling of guilt too. And remorse that you should have trusted your other instinct but that insatiable curiosity won over. In a way maybe it's a good thing that it finally happened so you can fully understand what is it and maybe not want it anymore.
Tuesday, May 16, 2023
Here I go again, enveloped in fear. It is nearing again and the negative thinking is in full sail. Oh Dear Lord, you know what I fear the most. Please I hope what I'm thinking right now is not happening. But if it is unavoidable, give me the strength not to breakdown completely because I can't be the way, I just can't
Monday, May 15, 2023
Sunday, May 14, 2023
I'm sad. All the things I've been bothering the past few weeks or so are something that most other people don't really find problematic. It's just me. I'm a weak person who found himself in a position where I need to be the stronger one. It has been this way for the past few years. I don't know I ended up this way. I ultimately have no choice in the end. I'm trapped. While I really don't regret anything because I know in the grand scheme of things, it has helped me and the people around me. But in times like this, I'm just overwhelmed with life that I can't help but wish I am somewhere else. Free with no worries not just for me but my loved ones. I wish I had the chance and position to give security to others so I can just do things my way. But it's not the case. I accept it and will bravely face each day because I always think it's not the worst-case scenario, right? I always need to keep myself in check because I don't want to manifest something bad where i feel guilty in the end. But it's just hard when you are being challenged. It's hard not not to feel like I'm being suffocated and yet I feel immense guilt for feeling this way. It's such a conflicting feeling that so hard to handle. I'm writing this because this is really the only way I can express. No one reads this anyway. It's a open space that no one knows so it's fine. Maybe in here I can feel free.
Saturday, May 13, 2023
Another rough day unfolding. From the moment I woke up, already annoyed. When I tried to take an afternoon nap, got interrupted too. There are just so many things annoying me. Trying to keep it cool really. And then I got reminded of what could be a worst-case scenario that has been bugging me for years now. I don't know really. It's so hard to be happy.
Friday, May 12, 2023
I've been so stressed this week, some because of my own doing due to impulsiveness and some because of things not under my control. Somehow made some wrong options this week but hey I gotta learn from it and hopefully next week I'm on better form. Despite that, I was still able to do some things although I could have done so much better if I didn't let myself be overwhelmed. But still, I remind myself that relatively it's still okay so I just need to put things in perspective.
Thursday, May 11, 2023
Wednesday, May 10, 2023
Tuesday, May 09, 2023
So finished some tasks early on so I can focus on other stuff pending for the next few days. I hope I can maintain the right focus to meet my goal. There are challenges ahead but you see I've been feeling so off lately that somehow the stuff I need to finish helps me keep it together.
Monday, May 08, 2023
So there was a brownout at the office building today and when it lasted over an hour we were sent home early because nothing could be done anyway and the heat was so exhausting. It's a bummer because there's a lot of things to do. I had to go down the stairs from the 20th floor because the generator can only power one elevator and it was always full. My leg is sore now! Oh well, not so good start of the work week!
Sunday, May 07, 2023
It's not even noon and I just feel tired already. Not just in the physical sense. Just everything. Overall well-being. An inconspicuous wall. A burden of guilt. A lifetime of loneliness. Today's challenge is yet again pulling myself out of this hole I'm in again.
Saturday, May 06, 2023
I get easily annoyed lately but this is maybe because of some underlying stress that I couldn't really blurt out so I will try my best to get myself together so it won't escalate to bigger issues thankfully I managed to avert a potentially bigger stress inducer. I also keep in mind how it could be much worst to keep me in check
Friday, May 05, 2023
I'm so thrilled to finish a task in a single day when it usually takes at least 3 days to finish. And I didn't really rush it too! It is possible as long as I really focus on it and it really helps that I really enjoy what I do and I get so engrossed doing it. Hopefully, it's a start of a good streak for me
Thursday, May 04, 2023
One of those moments again where you realize how lonely you really are. One of the thing bugging your right now is such a non-issue to other people but because of your inadequacy you make a big deal out of it. You talk to yourself to not feel any resentment because ultimately it was the right choice because you would never be at peace anyway if you look the other way. But it's incredibly hard. At least you still manage to control things before it spins out of control. You need to collect yourself because no one else will do that for you. They're too busy thinking about their other concerns to mind you. But to be fair, they do care but unlike you they're just not as good as handling things that stress you out. You would often browse social and think why do these people seemingly have happy lives. Sure, your cynical side tells you that's just a put on but let's face it, you know there's an empty space in your heart hence you feel this way. It's okay you say to yourself. Let it out for a moment and once you have that catharsis, carry on.
Wednesday, May 03, 2023
Yes, what I expected was confirmed today. It sucks but come to think of it I guess it was good that we saw the true colors I guess, or maybe just accepted the red flag we saw early on. This incident just adds more pressure to me as well but I can deal with it, good thing I found a safe haven. It might not be much but it is safe. Comfort zone but with everything going on, I prefer to be in a comfort zone. Another setback, but we will rise from it. Hopefully and please Lord, some good news next please.
Tuesday, May 02, 2023
Nearly a year after we finished dubbing this project, so happy that the Filipino-dubbed version of Locke & Key is finally out! This a show I enjoyed and how I wish it had another season, not just because it's our project, but also because I feel like the show had more stories to tell but glad it had a final season. I wish our other project Warrior Nun had that!