Tuesday, April 30, 2024

5 minutes

 No office tomorrow because the building will have electricity maintenance. It sucks because I'm gonna miss the air conditioning! The heat is unbearable these days. And quite scary to be honest. Anyway, I need to do some stuff that I am sadly unable to finish today due to my failure to fight off my messiness! Story of my life for the past 2 months really! But I still pulled through though but I could do better 

Monday, April 29, 2024


It is a routine but always scares me, and makes me nervous all the time. So I try to avoid thinking about it so I won't lose my mind. Hoping and praying to God, everything will be fine. 

Sunday, April 28, 2024


 My parents celebrate their 47th wedding anniversary today! So very grateful to this blessing Lord. I love my parents so much and always pray hard that they will healthy and safe for many more years. Thank you Lord!

Saturday, April 27, 2024


 Well, I chose not to do anything to do senseless stuff but I kinda felt good though but I will stress about this tomorrowq!

Friday, April 26, 2024


Another weekend, another attempt to make things work and be organized. I've survived nearly past 2 months or so with this chaos I created but I really need to find that spot now to make it more manageable. I can do this! I will make it happen!

Thursday, April 25, 2024


 Insane heat these days. I feel like this hottest weather I've experienced in my lifetime. And I'm feeling a little off because of it. The electricity bill will be expensive but airconditioning is very much needed.

Wednesday, April 24, 2024


 I'm getting sad with changes coming. How it is still  not the same as it was two years ago. I am still surviving and even received some good news today but as always hoping for more and this is me talking where I barely balance all of these. But I feel more comfortable if there's more assurance as a paranoid person. I always keep in mind to be not neglect the good news that are coming. 

Tuesday, April 23, 2024


 One thing you have to realize in life sometimes you have to do something that doesn't feel right and yet you know in order to survive you need to play the game. Oh well

Monday, April 22, 2024


My mind is going to paranoid places yet again. I hope this isn't the start of something more dangerous. Oh dear Lord, please hear my prayer. I'm scared right now.

Sunday, April 21, 2024


 Sad to know about an impending exit but it makes sense given that time passes, there would be hungry for more especially if you still have a lot to offer.  And I know this is for the better as well, you can't be selfish and keep them at bay when they could reach more. It's sad that it's not the same place where you are but you can held them beck especially when they have already given their all and it is time to go some place else.

Saturday, April 20, 2024


 Better than last weekend but still not good enough because I still got distracted! But anyway, at least one thing that kept me from being productive I was able to control not falling into the rabbit hole! Hut there are still stuff that needs to be improved on so I can maximize everything!

Friday, April 19, 2024


One done. More to go. I really I hope I won't get distracted! I can't afford to do so! FOCUS PLEASE. I can't commit the same mistakes of the last 2 weeks!

Thursday, April 18, 2024

A Rock and a Hard Place

Another weekend of challenge, I failed the last two weekends to maximize everything and give in to shallow time-wasting nonsense. I was reminded of the benefits, so I need to keep it up. I hope to set everything in motion by doing some things ahead (although not really because I had a leeway that could have put me in a more comfortable place but was wasted). May I be victorious this weekend. 

Wednesday, April 17, 2024


 Excruciating heat! It's so uncomfortable and it's actually worrying how health hazardous it is! This isn't good and I hope this torturous heat ends soon enough!

Tuesday, April 16, 2024


 The commute was quite stressful and I had to do some errands as well with this heat but still glad just to have this as a problem. I prefer this to any other stressful stuff. It's only temporary issue but in the end everything's fine. Also glad to check off bills this month. I never thought I would be the one in charge of all these in our household but grateful though

Monday, April 15, 2024


 I dealt with a lot today, some because of my own doing and then some unexpected stressful stuff. And the excruciating heat did not help things. But at least the night is winding on a more peaceful note. Thank God,

Sunday, April 14, 2024

Feel Good

I got myself buried in seeing the success of certain people and for one it's not because of insecurity or anything but gave me a sense of happiness to see people who worked hard for long finally get what they've dreamed of. I don't know if I ever get to the point too though because I've been quite a mess to be honest but just fixing myself too. But seeng stories like that gives me temporary happiness. 

Saturday, April 13, 2024


There's a stray cat who has become our unofficial pet now.  My parents used to shoo her away but the cat wore them out and they just let her be now. My nephew gave her a name now too. The cat just comes in here when it's mealtime and sleeps at night. 

Friday, April 12, 2024


 I was reminded why I have to be more responsible because of certain needs. Not complaining though because this is something I could handle and I'm glad to do something I like so I better make this work so it just keeps on coming!

Thursday, April 11, 2024


 I though I was a little bit free but when someone picks you, trusts you, appreciates what you do, it's hard to say no. I could do it anyway! And I do like doing for genuinely nice people. 

Wednesday, April 10, 2024

Crossed Out

 Did great today and hoping the momentum continues! I need this kind of pace so everything works out!

Tuesday, April 09, 2024


 Worked on a holiday and it felt really quiet but I was busy doing things that some were done and some still left hanging. I still need a lot of time to work things out though. I hope I can get out this pile that I did do myself though!

Monday, April 08, 2024


 Thank God for some unexpected things that helped me breathe a little. I was getting stressed already because of a mess that I started anyway. Hopefully, this time I get to do things better. I've been saying so many times already I know but I keep messing up but have the chance to have some to course correct is such a good opportunity,

Sunday, April 07, 2024


 I never learn and now I get stressed because of my own wrong doing. I'm such a knucklehead, I really hope I won't screw up something in the coming week! So frustrated with myself for digging holes that I always fall into

Saturday, April 06, 2024


 I am always worried when something looks fine because something bad might come next. I do know life is unpredictable but I really just want to be it boringly stable now. I really hope so.

Friday, April 05, 2024


 Definitely regret not organizing things better because I'm all stressed out now. I knew about it before but I always made it in the end so I got complacent and lazy.  I'm now trying to fix all my mess because it could lead to more dangerous results. Maybe this time I will finally learn my lesson before it goes to a point of no return. 

Thursday, April 04, 2024


Thinking about the free time last week where I didn't use it to free myself from tue load and now yet again I have to face a lot of things I needed to finish. Oh boy, good luck!!!

Wednesday, April 03, 2024


 I'm getting scared of a possible threat. Things have been fine lately on that front so please Lord let it be this way for as long as possible. I'm begging you, please. It seems like a small thing for now but I'm afraid of being caught off guard. 

Tuesday, April 02, 2024


I can't help but feel annoyed but somehow I know it's wrong to do so because it's not really their fault I knew it was coming anyway and I had to urge to help but now I kinda regret it because I might be caught in a difficult situation. Not really grave but I'm just paranoid. And their some things that I find annoying maybe because I'm extra tense that it could screw up the thing I worked hard for. But I need to be relaxed though and not be irrational about it. Oh, boy why does that thing have to happen, It sucks so much.

Monday, April 01, 2024

May 31

 I can make it happen. At least try and not wonder anymore. But I do hope to get something.  I will work my best to make it happen. Now is the time. Now or never