13

Tomorrow will be my 13th year with the company! This has been the busiest 6 months at work in such a long time. It's a good thing and I hope the blessings continue. Last year was shaky so I'm glad things are turning around! I had so many ups and down here but I survived. I found a home here to be honest and that's why I'm still here

Pollution

 So earlier in the jeep, I saw someone who was placing his phone directly to his ear so he can hear a video he is watching! All he needed was earphones or at the least wait until he is in the office or somewhere, I dunno, private and watch the video which I don't think it's really urgent because what we all heard in the jeep are some dance tunes! Is it really that urgent? Also at the elevator, I was with someone watching a vlog, with no earphones of course, and what he was watching was full of profanity! Yeah, inside an elevator a person watching cursed-laden vlog without care to other people!

Thin Line

 So about to finish work now! I didn't have to work this long but I want to. It's making me forget this dread I'm feeling although not totally because it still sneaks in from time to time. I've been expecting it to feel this way but nevertheless, it just feels so tiring but what can I do, it is what it is. Staying hopeful while fearing the worst is so conflicting that I don't know if I'm handling this the best that I could. I really hope so. Oh God, please I won't stop praying that this fear I have is not gonna happen. Please...

Ears

My pet peeve these days while commuting is people not using earphones when they watch something on their phone or even when they talk to other people via video chat! Is this an effect of the pandemic, people are just used to ii because they do it at home all the time? It annoys me really, I don't want to hear what you are watching!  Especially if what they are watching is questionable nature! That's why I really need to have earphone these days so I can block all these unnecessary noises!
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A week from now...

It's gonna be a torturous week as I will be haunted by fear of what could happen. It will be taking turns of staying hopeful and dreading a bad result. I don't want to be complacent but I don't want to be this anxious as well. Oh Dear Lord, please let my fears not happen.

Coward

 Anxiety rising yet again. On top of the lingering personal problem I made the mistake of checking out what's going on in the world. Yeah, it just made me even feel worried and scared than usual. My sense of curiosity has led me to do this. I did dream of becoming a journalist but yeah I wasn't build to do it. Not brave enough.

Tropical

 I have packed lunch so I rarely go out of the office especially in this new one where we are at the 20th floor. I had to buy something earlier at Mercury Drug and there I finally saw the viral effect on the nearby Tropical Hut, it was jampacked! During the mornings and afternoon when I pass by it, there are not many people so I was wondering when their "it" status online gonna reflect in the branch here. It turns out pag lunch pala!Unlike other people, I prefer that they don't renovate! As long as it's clean (and it is!), it's fine by me. I like seeing something that looks and feels classic!

Fear on Routine

 Here I go again, going so paranoid again. One moment things will be fine then another moment anxiety attacks that prevent me from being complacent. Thinking of worst-case scenarios and how I can handle it, hopefully, as calmly as possible. If it only involves me, I can deal it on my own but other people will be affected. Lord, please hear my prayer.

Sew

 I had a pants emergency today hahaha! It has given up on me although good thing I have a needle and thread pack I bought on 7-11 so I had a temporary fix. But I do need to buy new pants. I haven't bought in a while. It's a little difficult to find something when you are fat like me! But anyway, I was still able to manage!

Done!

Just finished doing today's work! And I edited A LOT today. QC of three dubbed episodes completed a dubbing script, rendered 10 episodes of two shows for airing on the channel, and revised schedule grids! Some of the tasks are not really urgent but I wanted to finish it today so I can have a more flexible next three days of work. I want to do things before the deadline, and I want to avoid cramming. Better do things as early as possible despite the heavier load task than to rush things off!

EMV

 So I got my captured ATM card back today and while it is still working the bank staff told me that my card is an old model and that I need to request for a new one. Thankfully, since it will be my first replacement under the new model then it is free of charge! I will just have to wait for a week though but hey at least it isn't the stress-inducing hassle I thought it was a couple of days ago

Pick it Up

 Very pleased I was able to finish the dubbing script of this TV show I was working the past few days. It's quite difficult but it's kind of challenge I like because I'm engrossed with the show! There was a scene where I had to translate a character doing spoken word poetry and then a homeless man singing a nonsensical song that eventually became important between the characters. I hope the dubbing of this will be good although I already foresee it will be harder to dub than normal especially the lead character! 

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Today is Father's Day and we were so full today because of the food my siblings prepared then they ordered some other too. However, Tatay received news that a close relative passed away. Oh life. 

Sayo

 I was working on this dubbing script that was really quite hard! It's narration-driven with a lot of quick wit and snappy quips that's a challenge to translate especially some of culture-driven metaphors and one-liners that were said.. I'm halfway done today and hoping to finish it tomorrow. It's challenging but really interesting to do I can try to finish it tonight but I'm quite sleepy already and I need my full attention to work on this. 

Retrieve

 So yeah I was a little overdramatic yesterday with what happened to my ATM card. I was able to talk to them again earlier and they were more reassuring and easy to talk. Too bad when they finally were able to open the machine and retrieve my card, I was already on the bus home when they texted.. The staff I texted suggested that I should have the ATM card replaced with their new design now. I don't think it's really necessary but you see I don't think it's bad idea to have the card replaced though. I'll just figure it out on Monday

Unnecessary Hassle

 I deposited some money in my BPI ATM only account using their deposit machine. I did it before and never had any problem until today where transaction but when I was waiting for my ATM card to come out, the machine crashed leaving ATM stuck there! I panicked a little because I just deposited some money and this has never happened to me! The staff tried to be helpful but she was so not reassuring! She asked for my number so they will contact once the people that takes out the cash on the machine, they will get my ATM back and just text me. But she she said they are not sure if those people will arrive tomorrow! She just wrote my name and contact details on a small sheet of paper and she gave me her number too but I don't know I kept asking how can I feel assured with this because the way she speaks made me wary like she barely cares or quite nervous to handle it too. But then she suggested that I just withdraw the money on my ATM over the counter. Now that was the best help she can do and I did exactly that! I withdraw the money I have on it since it's not really much because this BPI ATM is not my savings account but more of a digital wallet which serves as my backup money in case of any urgent need. I left a little over 100 there on the ATM. I was thinking on my way home why didn't they suggest that I just get another ATM card and they just invalidate the one that got stuck on that cursed machine? Why do I just have to wait for them to text me or I just follow it up? I'll just do that tomorrow and go back to that branch so I just get another ATM card but then the thought of I have to pay a replacement card fee annoys me because it isn't my fault their machine was faulty? Ugh, all I wanted was to keep some of my money and this is what I get.

Steps

 So earlier I thought I was taking a shortcut but nope I ended up on a long journey ahead to my destination. Sometimes you really just have to be straight to the point to get things done. Avoid unnecessary things that will complicate your life more than it should be! Anyway, I have something that I really worked hard and now have to carefully what to do next!  I need to think it over so whatever I will use it for will be beneficial for me in the long run. But I'm really more driven now because of that and I hope some of my other worries will not happen so I can breathe even for few months.

31

 Relieved that one of the things that was stressing me a little was settled today. I hope the other things I'm worrying about lately will also be settled favorably soon. It's so me that in a day that I received nice things, I still end up thinking I should not be completely happy because of others looming! But anyway, what I got today is the fruit of very hard work I did this year! Thank you Lord!

School Over

 My nephew's elementary school, a small one located here in our subdivision, has closed down after 2 years of struggling to make it work in the pandemic. It is the 4th private school that I know that closed in the last 2 years. Small private schools are a big casualty of the pandemic. And I feel they are a big loss to the country's  quality of education. They target middle class families which at least helps lessen the overpopulation in public schools. Smaller class sizes help facilitate learning too. I haven't been thinking about the pandemic lately but this is just a reminder how it has affected our life so much. 

Stop

 Everytime I get excited or happy about something I automatically remind myself not to be too happy because of some impending thing that could be a cause for worry. I can't help but think this way. Oh Dear Lord, please hear my prayer that this worry I have won't happen. But in case it does please help me have the courage to not to have inner meltdown and not think straight. But please Lord don't let my fear happen. Please.

Fortuna

 Today I finished first on the three dubbing scripts on deck. A day ahead of the deadline. I have another due Wednesday and the third one next Sunday. Goals for both scripts is for me to finished them a day early and 1/3 so so far. Hoping to keep that momentum. This script I finished today is the finale of a Mexican telenovela and usually they always the title of the show mentioned on the finale and the translated English title is sometimes quite different from the original Mexican title which is the case for this show I translated for but not different in context but just the phrasing is different. It was quite fun how I was able to work the title to the English dubbing script though! Hopefully it won't nixed when it's dubbed next week!

No More

Mentally planning the things I need to finish in the next two weeks. Quite a lot again with three dubbing scripts then of course I still have QC and channel stuff to do but I will manage this, just needs careful planning ahead. I've said it a lot of times but it's worth repeating how this has really helped me escape from my anxieties. I've been minimizing my exposure on social media because it could get addictive to scroll endlessly then I will find something that will alarm/frustrate/scare me. I have no more mental energy left for it. . 

Tinges

 Another day at work where I did a LOT of things! And so many things again to finish tomorrow as well!  But to be honest, it's a good escape for me especially now when there are matters stressing me out quite frequently. It never stops really, these tinges of horror always creep in. Plus, there are recurring issues that I wish I can just ignore and pretend it is not happening but I can't. So keeping my mind busy with so many things to do is honestly for the better

Chatty

 I was seated beside a lady who commuted via that particular bus route for the first time since the pandemic began. She had a lot of questions and I answered everything. She was really bewildered but she was quite nice so I engaged with the little chit-chat we had from how Ayala's atmosphere has changed with less people on the streets, her work from home experience, her child's online class experience and a lot of things we faced in the pandemic. I was cautious though in case the conversation goes political because I would definitely change the topic even if we voted for the same person because I'm just not in the mood talk about politics these days. Good thing it wasn't the case! Thanks to that chat I didn't notice how terrible the traffic was earlier., I do love hearing stories from people about their lives. 

Tease

 The Filipino-dubbed version of this Locke & Key Season 3 teaser is now out on Netflix Philippines!

P.S

A bit of a rough day at work but hey seeing my name in the credits for To All The Boys: P.S I Love You is a nice treat! Yup, I'm savoring my double credit as translator and adapter! I still have one movie dubbing script I wrote but it hasn't been dubbed yet because the movie is set to be released I think by the end of the year. These projects are quite hard due to some logistics but I'm just happy to see my name in the credits of a major media platform so it keeps me going. Small thing in the bigger picture and I will eventually stop being fascinated about it but for now, I'm thrilled! 

 

Cycle

 It's getting near again. The time where my anxiety goes through the roof. It's basically me getting scared of something that needs to be checked routinely. This will never go away I'm afraid so. I try my best hiding how I'm afraid I am during this time. Oh Dear Lord please don't let my worst fears happen

Yes!

 So I spent my Saturday afternoon watching the Filipino-dubbed version of this movie that we worked on that is now out on streaming 

Pre-13 Thoughts

 Another jam-packed week at work but while it's quite stressful at times but I do really enjoying doing a work that involves media production particularly television. Part of the reason why I've been in the same company for nearly 13 years is because despite the not-so high salary, I do really enjoy the work. It might not what I envisioned myself when I was a teen but this is a job I stumbled upon and manage to learn the special skill needed it for it along the way.  I was able to write for TV and manage a TV channel operation, of course not in the traditional sense but still I felt like this is like the perfect fit for me especially considering my family obligations too. Do I wish I was able to correct some decisions I made in the past? Definitely but while the lessons from past mistakes will always be in me, it's me doing things one day at a time while planning ahead the best way I can. 

Spongebob!

 The Spongebob Movie: Sponge on the Run is now available in Filipino audio in Netflix!

As a Spongebob fan, happy to be part of this project.  My proudest contribution to the dubbing script is Patrick saying "libreng chibog!"

Borders

 Just finished doing half of a very tedious work task! It's quite difficult to do because it's a bit messy and I have to work on it again to ensure everything is covered. Deadline is tight these past few weeks but at least the next few weeks will be lighter in load!