May is about to end and I feel like this year have been so long already. So much has happened personally and well that thing. As much as I don't want to think about my worries, it still manages to creep in. It's normal I know but it's just unpleasant and tired of feeling that way., Anyway, back to working and escape from my fears!
Friday, May 20, 2022
Thursday, May 19, 2022
I just finished doing a dubbing script of an episode that's not yet available on its streaming platform. The video provided was still quite raw and I could see the production people serving as stand-ins for visual effects that will be put on later. It was just weird to see when they popped up . There were some visual cues that explain the visual effect that will be placed there too. It was quite fascinating to see!
Wednesday, May 18, 2022
The level of work I have ahead of me is quite overwhelming! I will need to watch 20 episodes of two shows that we are currently dubbing for quality check plus a movie too so I need to budget my time well especially of course I'm writing dubbing scripts too. But honestly I'm really loving this one because hey more projects is just good and you have no idea how being this busy helped me not dwell too much with fears because I have things to finish first!
Tuesday, May 17, 2022
I'm so close to finishing this dubbing script for a tagalized kdrama and my goodness there are two lines that's really had to synch! Just a few more and lines and this one is done but I had a tough time so taking a short break to write it here so I can take it easy for a little. The scenes were also heavy so it was quite. Anyway, back to finish this script!
Monday, May 16, 2022
I really went to work earlier than usual to finish a task that requires a lot of time and I believe accomplished it well but my to-do list this week is longer than usual too,. I have one big thing that I need to accomplish by tomorrow and I really hope I can finish it on time and perhaps earlier than planned too!
Sunday, May 15, 2022
Saturday, May 14, 2022
Not productive today, I was planning to do some work at home but decided not to. Burn out I guess, I need some break after a hectic work week plus battling personal anxiety related to national events. I really hope I can shut things off in my mind and not worry anymore because I can't do anything about it anyway..
Friday, May 13, 2022
I made some errors at a particular task at work which was a real bummer. I admitted my mistake, learned from it and move on. There was a moment where I really felt bad that I wanted to have a mini meltdown or I dunno blame other peoiple but good thing I managed to control myself and be rational. The reason for that mistake because I was trying to do many things at once. I need to improve my focus from hereon. No distractions
Thursday, May 12, 2022
I'm now conditioning myself to be more silent than ever. Not like I was vocal anyway whether in person or online to begin with. I just decided this is my way to cope with the upcoming changes which not to dwell on it anymore. There's nothing much I can do anyway, it is what it is.
Wednesday, May 11, 2022
Tuesday, May 10, 2022
Most stressful elections I've experienced. It was so disorganized, the worst since I started voting in 2007. I almost gave up but despite all the stress and hassle I endured just to get my vote counted no matter what. My spirit is low to be honest I dunno what to say anymore even though it was largely expected it still stinks
Monday, May 09, 2022
Here is the day. I've resigned myself that all is lost. But the ugliness I'm seeing is suffocating that I can't help but feel so frustrated of what is to come. I can't believe a lot of people are not seeing this or turning a blind eye. Or worst simply not bothered. Can a miracle happen please?
Sunday, May 08, 2022
That's why I want to avoid certain areas because I am being given false hopes. If only I could block everything but it isn't possible and live in isolation of everything that gives me nothing but a sinking feeling of defeat. There are moments I feel hopeful but when you are on the ground and you witness firsthand how the others view everything, how nothing that are obviously true have affected their mindset you can't help but feel the dread of the impending doom upon us. I will still do it but can't help but feel that is just a symbolic gesture of clinging on to something hopeful but less likely to happen. I feel so angry with how they have managed to control everything and change the discourse. I'm now preparing myself of what life will be after all of this. I will be silent again, avoiding things, suppressing what I feel. I can't do anything but just feel devastated as everything crumbles.
Saturday, May 07, 2022
So I witnessed something alarming and upsetting. It is scaring me a lot but also really very angry that this has now escalated to this level. Why did we let this happen? It has spread to something that I'm very afraid can no longer be prevented from happening. Divine intervention maybe is the last hope.
Friday, May 06, 2022
It's getting closer and I wish I have the optimism other people have. I just think it is too obvious now. I wish it wasn't the case but I'm afraid not. This weekend I will devote myself to writing a dubbing script and checking as well. Script writing for dubbing is my escape these days. It excite whenever I finish a project but you see when I think of my tasks due for next week I can't help but think on what will my mood will be by that time. Will I feel so devastated or I will just suppress what I feel and act as if there's nothing to worry about like I usually do. I'm so confused and scared right now. Oh God please hear my prayer.
Thursday, May 05, 2022
To be honest, I'm very scared on Monday. I'm trying to be both hopeful and also manage expectations. I'm focusing on work these days to take my mind off my fears. I don't want to get drowned in an echo chamber completely clueless what's happening on the ground.. I'm so frustrated how obvious red flags are ignored conveniently. Hoping and praying for a miracle.
Wednesday, May 04, 2022
So I met my goal again and finished my movie dubbing script today earlier than the deadline. It's a teen romcom which honestly was really enjoyable to do! Can't wait for it to get dubbed and be available on its streaming platform! I also helped out finishing a script of a teen comedy because the writer can't finished in and the dubbing is already schedule pretty soon. I have to do around around 13 minutes left and glad I was able to finish it! It was also fun to write but adapting the some of the jokes were hard, like there was a jole about Daniel Day Lewis' method acting which I totally get but hard to translate that would still capture the humor! I did my best and hopefuly the dubber delivery would make it work!
Tuesday, May 03, 2022
First time working on a holiday ib 2 years and the relaxed feeling is the same as ever. I've been productive as well, surpassing the goal I set for today as well. I'm getting used to this new office now. The aircon is great which is what I want the most really. The building is huge and I dunno what other offices they have here, on our floor it feels empty. I haven't seen anyone come out from the other units! The elevator though is quite busy so you have to wait at times! As for our office, it still needs some cleaning up to do, hopefully, next week it will be set already because I'm feeling OC with some of the stuff lying around and not yet taken care of!
Monday, May 02, 2022
So first day at the new office was literally messy but over the course of the day, things got fixed up and we did manage to do some work. Tomorrow is apparently a holiday but for the first time in the pandemic era, I will go work on a holiday because I have a lot of things to do especially the adjustments to the new office will somehow affect my productivity. My work space is smaller now compared to before because the office itself is smaller too but still good enough for the size of the employees now which has gotten smaller due to the retrenchments, resignation and one department now full time work from home. It's a strange feeling to be in a new space but hey I could just see it as something of a new era.
Sunday, May 01, 2022
Tomorrow is our first day at the new office. I'm expecting a mess actually , literally speaking because of all things that needed to be set up as we transferred our things from the former office to the new one. I actually brought some things at home like my office headphone and water bottle so it won't get lost in the move. All I know our new office is smaller than our former but hopefully there's still enough space for us to move around and we can adjust quickly because there are a lot of things to do!