There's a big major change happening near me. Objectively it's a good thing but I can't stop myself from feeling certain discomfort and from there a lot of unwanted feelings like resentment pop out. But hey I chose this because it's a security blanket. But I know deep inside I want more than this. I'm afraid of failing though. I fear the unknown. I wish I can be brave enough but as I grow old my anxiety over negative results just grows and grows.