WIDE SHUT

 A bit of a tiring day and now I'm rushing again but this is my fault though. I got way too complacent per usual and got distracted with things that are not really important!

Demo 2

 Challenging week ahead but I know I can do this! It will only be a few days and I really hope I don't mess things up! I also hope the weather gets cooler soon because I wanna feel relaxed! 

Ghost

 New song from Sugababes original trio! They really sound great together! The voices of Keish and Mutya are so distinct and have ethereal vibe!

Cleared

 A sigh of relief! Thank God everything went smoothly today. But I have to remind myself not to be complacent. I still need to step up, more than I already do. I need to gather the strength. But for now I'm just glad, my fear didn't happen.

Steer

 Hoping and prayings things will go well tomorrow but I'm also somehow mentally preparing myself if the opposite happens. I am deeply scared but I've faced so many situations in the last few years where I really had  no choice but toughen it up. But please Lord, guide us for a favorable result. 

Cassette

 I bought a radio with a CASSETTE DECK! It's not brand new but in very good condition (my guess it is unsold inventory) and when I played my old tapes that haven't been played in 20 yearts, they still sound so good! It made my heart happy! My parents will mostly used it for radio so I didn't just bought for nostalgia only and it only cost 2 thousand which is within my budget! I found some newly manufactured radio with tape decks but they're way too expensive! So glad I found something within what I can afford!

Firefox

 Okay Firefox you got my attention! This was my web browser during my early days online anyway! Posting this on Firefox!

 

 

Stir

I feel like I'm always in the middle of uncomfortable situations. Situations that could have been avoided too if people are not giving in to their paranoia. So much agitation. I take it all in. I can rest easy because something could happen. I'm always find it hard to squeeze some time for myself because I can't be left alone with all the nagging thoughts in my mind that is brought upon by so many worries... so many unnecessary worries. Truly exhausted. 

Portions

I always try to contain what I feel... what I truly feel. I either stay silent or I divert. I don't want to confront things head anymore because nothing will change anyway and I just end feeling more frustrated because of the lack of everything else. Maybe I should do more I guess but I'm already with what I bring in but there's really nothing much I can do. No matter how I try to avoid, it always creeps in. I always try to convince myself "it's better thant that". And it's true of course but I can't but feel so much helplessness. I wish it wasn't the case but it is. Lord, help me. 

5 Kgs

 You had a good sleep and boom you wake up with stressful things! Oh well! I just learned how to limit how my reaction would be because it won't do me good to dwell on it further. There's really nothing much I can do at this point but protect my peace as much as possible.