Opening

 The manager has asked my help if I know someone who is looking for a job and recommend to apply for us. I actually don't know anyone right now but I still helped by posting job opening our channel's Facebook page. I hope it helps us! I can feel how stressed she was earlier! The timing just not on our side really but we will survive this, I know we can. 

More or Less

 There are multiple new projects coming in at the office which is good news but manpower is a challenge right now. With the people in quarantine plus those who recently resigned (add to the fact that there was retrenchment in November), we are definitely going to face a lot of challenges handling these projects plus there are potential projects that will add too. I'm preparing myself because I might have additional tasks on top of the things I already do right now. I was not asked yet but given the situation, I need to be prepared if they will ask for my help. Getting new projects is such great news but I wish it happened late last year and who knows maybe the retrenchment could have been stopped. How tricky the situations are right now! Good Lord please us survive this.

Taken Off the List

I've been feeling a lot of dread lately so I needed an escape and what's the best that I can do that is to watch stuff! The past 2 nights I've checked out MY LIST on Netflix. I returned to Netflix last month because my nephew wants to watch some anime programs he is into right now. Now, I realized why not watch some of the stuff I put on MY LIST and there I watched the films Tick...Tick..Boom, Shawshank Redemption and documentary Shrinkers. I watched Tick..Tick...Boom! without knowing much of the background of the real life story behind it so I was so captivated with what I saw. So moving and engaging. Heartbreaking too! I've been meaning to watch Shawshank Redemption for a long time because it is famous and has been considered a must-see and I was not disappointed. That was a riveting tale of finding hope in the worst case possible and the "twist" also blew my mind. It is indeed classic adult filmmaking that truly resonates. Lastly, the Singaporean documentary Shrinkers has a nice hook of a "lost film" that came back to the life of the documentarian so many years later. It was so engrossing how it all happened and also to see the footages they did in 1992 was such a time capsule. 

So yeah I had a good weekend I guess!

Everywhere

 Cases are closing in to 40K. Well, officially that is because many are not getting tested because it's not practical because of the expensive PCR tests. Also, there are people who just take the antigen test at home. It's all messy. We are all now assuming this virus is everywhere at this point. I don't know what to think or feel anymore. Still hoping and praying for better days ahead.  

Matic

 37K cases today and despite the all time high number the health department is encouraging less PCR testing and quarantine days now for those who got infected and close contact. I get it for practical purposes especially for those vaccinated but it seems careless, speaks a lot of the " bahala na" mentality. It also feels like an admittance we don't have the capability anymore. I was at the pharmacy and all paracetamol  and over the counter products for colds and fever are sold out. Even strepsils for sore throat. Two years of this pandemic and yet it is giving me new ways to scare us. Oh Lord please let this be final wave, please

Scary Times

 Cases reached an all time high again and the virus is just literally everywhere. The streets are essentially empty. Saw many stores in Ayala that are "temporarily closed". In this pandemic I have seen a lot of these temporary closures that ultimately led to full time closures one of which is the FamilyDoc clinic here in our place. Imagine a clinic closing in this era. There are fewer people going to work onsite these days as seen in the number of commuters now. Even in our office we are so few. I've been in the office for the past 3 days and I will go work from home tomorrow. I contemplated going to the office again to finish some task in advance but I decided against it in the end because I can do it next week anyway and I need some time off commuting because it is scary to be exposed out in the streets. Paracetamols and other medicines going scare is quite disturbing too., Hoping and praying hard this is the last big wave. Please let it be. 

Go!

 Loving our new cable / internet provider! I joined their Facebook promo and won an HBO Go voucher! I really wanted to watch the sequel to one of my all time favorite - On The Job and it's streaming there so I will now finally be able to see it! Also planning to watch shows I've been meaning to watch but haven't yet like I May Destroy You and Enlightened! Some movies like Dune and Godzilla vs Kong which are available there too! I will really make sure my one month free access with this platform!

Strange

 Commuting to work is a different experience lately. Traffic is light because there are just few people around. This is happening definitely because of the rise in cases. Even at the office we are even fewer than usual in the pandemic era. The shuttle van I'm riding also has fewer passengers. It's a mix of feeling of relaxing but uneasiness too. I like the calmness it exudes but still I can't deny the reason behind all of this. With the fast transmission it is scary to be out there but my work needs to be done at the office especially with my video editor in a quarantine facility right now,. A lot of things to be done and grateful that I am busy because when I'm not, negative thoughts simply rule over me. I can't live my life like that.

Substandard

 I always get broken things. Things that have issues. Things that don't work smoothly. I always have to deal with imperfection. I settle for less. I settle for mediocrity. Most of it is my fault because I just accept it. Tolerate. I work with what I have. But I deserve better. I should ask for more. I should ask for better. But aiming for better always have complications. Add to the fact that I'm trapped with so many limitations. I'm tired of this endless cycle of my life. Nothing really works out. 

28,707

 Highest cases ever and I fear this is just this is just start of more record cases. Vaccine cards being an entry pass is now getting more common. I'm worried but managing to be as relaxed as possible. Life has to go on, we can't afford to do lockdowns anymore . I'm currently watching the latest season of The Amazing Race and this was the season that was affected by the pandemic so  it's so eerie to watch this episode knowing it was just weeks away when the world changed forever. But also love to see life again when it was really normal.