A Visit

 There were some foreigner clients who visited the office and I found they were from the demo project I wrote the dubbing script for over a month ago. I really liked that demo project and crossing my fingers we would get this project! It's nearing December and glad we already secured some projects already ahead of the new year. I'm still hoping we would get another new project soon from this other client I really like. We started 2022 jampacked with projects with limited personnel but somehow we managed to pull it off so I'm really we can secure more projects now too as we welcome the new year! I really hope that visit will actually pave the way to scoring that project!

Repeat

 I just wish for a life of fewer complications but I know I will never get it. I'm so befuddled about how something that can be ignored can create a bigger mess. Isn't life hard enough as it is? Why do we feel compelled to add more to the stress and anxiety we are feeling? While I still go on and still make things work internally I'm just giving up. This exhausting feeling I've manifested in other facets of my life. There are just things that will not happen to me no matter what and now I admit it because of personal choice. While other elements are a factor but ultimately it is my choice to devote my life to this kind of living. I really just want to sit in the corner and mind my business but I know it's not in my nature, I always do something to make things OK for them and me in a way as well. But honestly just freaking tired that it keeps on happening and utterly hopeless. 

Cycle

Once again I just feel tired. Once again I hate feeling this way. Once again I hate that this is how I react whenever this happens. Once again I feel so helpless. Once again I'm skeptical why this just keeps happening. Once again I want to be in denial. Once again I'm hopeless. 

Again

Getting closer again to that routinary thing that somehow still keeps me - us - nervous. I really hope and pray nothing alarming will come out of it. But I dunno I've been training myself to deal with not favorable results. It could be a defense mechanism of some sort but God please let it be something that we would be worried about. 

Observe

 So I made a choice earlier which was based on a hinch and it seems that it worked. But of course, it won't be the case every day but I do like to see things out and test if my hunch is correct. But always calculated risk or close to that where I don't make big risks, just something that there's a minimal effect, well hopefully it is. I know it does not work all the time but sometimes there are just things when you feel so something strongly about.

A trip

The Christmas movie I translated is now streaming on Netflix! It's THE NOEL DIARY. It is based on a book and it's not the usual Christmas romcom because it has a more dramatic tone but is still light to watch. I enjoyed translating it so much especially the love declaration toward the end, whew!  Kinda fitting that I translated a movie with a diary in the center of the story with what I've been doing here every single day for the past few years which has been really helpful to keep me sane!

Contigo

 So happy to know that the two projects I've been waiting for have finally arrived. I know they were coming but I was getting a little antsy that they haven't arrived yet because time is essential and we could on work everything needed already before it gets caught in the middle of the holiday season! But anyway glad that these two projects are setting us up for next year as well. I've also been anticipating additional projects for this other client we have, a client which really to be honest made me so excited to work this year more than anything! So hopefully they are indeed coming soon, maybe this week? Yes, please

Stay

I've been feeling bad a lot lately I neglected how other people near me are feeling bad as well. One is enveloped by feat and sometimes we lost patience over it which is unfair because this is something beyond our control. It's the stress and anxiety talking. The thing is I can't seem to control myself from panicking and having mini meltdowns. The other is quite trapped. And last night was a testament to that but there is just a tricky situation and we need to cater to a need. It's so hard to be in the middle of things. But a scenario that could put an end to things is more depressing so  NO. We have to deal with all the complications and just pray things will find itself to a better position.

MMK

 MMK is ending after 31 years on the air. To be honest, I haven't watched it in a long time but to know that an iconic show is ending is just sad for sentimental reasons. Probably still an effect of the network not having a franchise anymore so funds aren't there or maybe just changing times and viewer preferences. I dunno but I feel a different kind of sadness knowing this show is ending. Maybe what I'm feeling is more than that and just connecting this show's fate to something else. 

A Dream

 I may be overthinking but can't help but feel that it is a sign of what's gonna happen. I don't know what to feel anymore. Half trying to accept it and half in denial. I really hope I'm just my usual paranoid self and there's really nothing bad that's coming. NO.