The Paper S2

 Just finished The Paper Season 2 and I really enjoyed it. Too bad because season 2 just dropped with barely any promotion which is pretty telling that they gave up on it and season 3 is unlikely. Such a shame, that US TV landscape is just so different and even harder to break through

Credit

 I'm a little sad because of something we can't do anymore. But it's okay as long as there other things come along to keep us afloat and there are things to look forward to. I just can't help but feel disappointed we couldn't do this anymore, which was a source of pride. It gave me nice feelings, I miss that!

Dizi

 Lately, I've been following the ratings world of Turkish TV. At first i just researched on a Turkish show for work and Facebook has led me to the Turkish TV pages which regularly update ratings. Cancelling a show and pulling it out of the schedule immediately is still a thing for them! And their primetime shows are like still in production when they air so the canceled shows either don't get an ending or they rushed it.  I totally understand now why some shows I've worked have endings like that

Help

So earlier today I went to church near the office to pray for blessings that came in and protection for my loved ones. I often visit this church because it's a bit secluded from big crowd so there's a serene feeling. A couple of weeks ago I saw this old lady sitting who looks a little sickly who was selling biscuits. I ignored her but I felt bad later on so I went back to buy but she was no longer there. When I went to that church today and I saw her again so this time I bought the two biscuits she was selling for 20 pesos. She was very grateful so I didn't ask for change anymore. I was not familiar with the brands of biscuits she was selling so I looked it up and found out they are Dali products. So it's actually good business for her because those are cheap and she had a good markup. Honestly, I'm usually distrustful because I sometimes they are part of syndicate or something but this old lady just felt different so I trusted my instinct with this.  

Calming

Taking in negative vibes again and trying to act normal as much as I can. Trying to ignore things that will just make me upset. Shrugging so I won't get triggered. It's really a tough feeling to have but I can't do anything about it because what choice do I have? No option will make me feel happy anyway so I'm just choosing to minimize stress as much as I can.

Slow Down

 I hope something appears soon. I still have 3 things to do but after that nothing. Well, It worries me a bit. I had to make some sacrifices as well for other people's sake which I don't really regret because it's my duty to look out for them too. I just hope something opens soon for security. Crossing my fingers

Winks

I was really sleepy this weekend. I had afternoon naps on both days! The body was calling for it so I gave in. I have a lot of things that's making me worry again though, so I guess it's good that I get to rest as well and not let these things make me more anxious! I got irritated too a couple of times but good thing I managed to control it and not let someone be the shock absorber. I don't want to make people feel that way, it's a very unpleasant feeling. I should know. 

Shut Off

 I'm tired again. Physically and mentally. Maybe emotionally too. But I always have to be strong. A payback I guess for the times I was the weakest. It's okay of course especially after I calm down (to myself because no one knows I'm having this internal meltdown). Oh well, let's go!

Shaved

I still have a good enough of things to do but I'm getting worried already! Hopefully, some new stuff will come along. I have to make some sacrifices in favor of helping out which I don't regret of course but I'm worried nothing new will come to add things on my list. Anyway, I have to calm down! Not getting swamped is also good!

Sunny

It's been hot lately which is really a big shift after almost daily rains the past 2 months. But I heard about that this is early days of Super El Nino and another thing to worry about! It's really scares me how extreme the weather is these days. May it won't be as terrifying as projected!