Shut Off

 I'm tired again. Physically and mentally. Maybe emotionally too. But I always have to be strong. A payback I guess for the times I was the weakest. It's okay of course especially after I calm down (to myself because no one knows I'm having this internal meltdown). Oh well, let's go!

Shaved

I still have a good enough of things to do but I'm getting worried already! Hopefully, some new stuff will come along. I have to make some sacrifices in favor of helping out which I don't regret of course but I'm worried nothing new will come to add things on my list. Anyway, I have to calm down! Not getting swamped is also good!

Sunny

It's been hot lately which is really a big shift after almost daily rains the past 2 months. But I heard about that this is early days of Super El Nino and another thing to worry about! It's really scares me how extreme the weather is these days. May it won't be as terrifying as projected!

Effect

 I was having some coughs and I took a stronger version of this over-the-counter drug with a side effect of being so sleepy AND IT WAS TRUE! I was really fighting off while I was in the office and during the commute! And fighting sleepiness is so hard because it gives you headaches too. Anyway, after dinner I wanted to do something else but I can't because I was just so sleepy. Anyway, I had a good 8-hour sleep!

#898 The Argument

 Listened to This American Life's latest episode it was so good. It's about a mom who 10 years ago said that she will enroll her student in an underprivileged school to start a change and hopefully make things equal in the unfair US education system. She did follow through and the episode discussed the conflict that arose from it and interviewed the daughter on how she felt about it. Ultimately, Mom agreed with her daughter that she should not be the one to sacrifice for her idealistic hopes. I understand where the Mom came from but it's really hard to be idealistic when the real life situation is more complicated on paper and there are personal things at stake. 

Shape of My Heart

 Somehow this song is gaining popularity again on local social media and I don't mind! One of their best songs! The bridge just hits different! I actually miss this type of pop song among the newer ones!

Don

 Very challenging day but I'm glad I was able to finish what I am supposed to do. I'm a little sick too with colds but hopefully it will be gone soon because I don't want to be sick, so many things I have to do!!!

Two

 I was able to accomplish something that I thought was gonna be difficult but I was able to finish it without losing my mind 😂 I have another one tomorrow which hopefully goes smoothly.

Hard

 Okay I'm feeling a little sick today so I took a semi off but still did some light stuff but tomorrow is gonna be hectic!!!! Let's go1

Compartamentalize

 So I made adjustments today, foregoing an initial plan but it's okay because this will give peace of mind, well a little because I will be a little anxious for some stuff tomorrow but this scenario is still better than originally intended. I want to speak up about how a hassle it is but no real benefit to do that other than venting and giving stress to others. I'm at point of my life that I will do everything I can to reduce stress as much as I can because one thing I learn while we can't control some situations but we can manage our reactions to avoid unneccessary conflicts and get the job done instead.