Long Day

Started my day earlier than normal for something which ultimately was disappointing. But I guess had to do it to kill the fire before things escalate. It made me sad as always but I just have to accept that this is it, it's not the end of the world of course and there are bigger problems so yeah, it's okay.

Mercury

 Tomorrow last day na ng Mercury branch na 'to near our office (the one connected sa Tropical Hut Makati). This branch is older than me and I've always loved its classic look tuwing nandito ako. Suki ako dito for buying medicines for Nanay (and buying snacks too!) na familiar na sakin ang staff dito. Very helpful and accommodating pa naman sila. I like it here kasi hindi masyado matao but I guess  that was a warning sign na struggling na sila. This area used to have a lot of foot traffic kasi sakayan ng bus and vans but changes sa routes that started nung pandemic and yung construction ng Makati subway (na hindi naman natapos) made them less accessible. Madami naman Mercury nearby but still this branch has a special place in my heart.

Petty Fun

 Today I unclogged and just did something that could be considered brain junk! It's fun though to not think about bigger problems because I will face that most of the time anyway. For my well-being, I need to have this kind of moments where I do nothing of important to recharge for another week ahead full of life's challenges!

Screen Time

 I caught up with my shows Abbott Elementary and Scrubs 2026 thanks to Disney+ Ha! I still have a few months left on the discounted annual plan I got last year and I'm gonna maximize it as much as I can! Back in the day I could really watch more but now my time is so divided with so many things going on but I will find time to relax! I need it!

In Line

Planning my next week with things I need to do. Really hoping my other concern will be attended to and it will go smoothly because I've stressed about that so much last time around. Anyway, glad things went good this week generally speaking. Hoping for brighter days ahead!

Pop

 I really hope the thing I was so worried about will be taken care off as soon as possible. Maybe as early as next week! Hopefully, things could run smooth, I just want some peace of mind or at least something less to worry about. I have so many on my mind I get all confused. So help me, God!

Stat

 Received some potentially good news. I don't want to jinx it but I really everything goes well so I have one less thing to worry about. Good thing I just let my frustrations to myself and posting it here on vague terms hahaha. Yeah, I needed an outlet and this is better than being outspoken. I was wrong with my initial thought anyway, the stress consumed me!I really hope things will go well soon enough!

Test

Next will be it, the deciding factor on what I should do next. Anticipating bigger stressful things but I need to be calm because I have another thing to think about this week too. Overwhelmed with so many stressful factors in my life. I wish there's a shortcut, to go to the good part already or just ignore these things but I need to protect my well being because I don't want to crash out

Diving

I'm getting confused again. I'm scared and also emotional about what could happen if I pursue it. All weekend, I felt like my decision is final then now I'm second-guessing again. I do know what could be better for me, but I'm getting cold feet again, and my people-pleasing nature is stopping me too. Oh dear Lord, please guide me.

Fotos

I've been thinking it over and over. I try not to be excited or make things up in my mind. Maybe I'll jinx it because nothing is happening yet anyway. But I need to do something, I need to protect myself, especially what lies ahead. Although I still need to give myself some space, because I could be just acting impulsively. But I want to trust my instinct now. I need to fight my fear. Oh, let's do it!

Several Months Later

As much as it pains me, because I like it and it gives me some comfort, but thinking ahead, I have to do something before I get dragged into a bigger problem on the horizon. It won't be this early yet because I need to prepare something to fall on, but I actually need to actively search for that something already because I have enough information to see that this isn't gonna work, and it seems to me that there's no better planning ahead. I hope something else happens that would stop this eventually but there's no other way but this. Oh Dear Lord, please guide me. 

ISTG

 Oh my goodness, I can't help but watch youtube shorts of these two actors promoting their show! I will sound like a giggly girl but they look good together and has great rapport. I don't even watch the show they are part of but just stumbled upon while scrolling away on YouTube. I just want some diversion so I guess that's why I ate this up hahaha

40 Toons

Tired. Trying to keep it together so I won't fall apart. Because no one is gonna catch me anyway. In the end, it will be my problem yet again. I just want to escape sometimes but I know it's futile because I will think about it again anyway. There is truly no escape. I just witnessed what could happen if I don't keep it together, so stay put and just take everything in. I'm just stressing out tonight and tomorrow I'll be okay before I go back this endless cycle.

Fair Fare

 Glad the supposed fare hike was vetoed. Yes, I know everyone is affected with the oil price changes but you see once the fare increases, they will never go back down anymore even if the crisis is over. I mean, the pandemic era where we pay to make up for social distancing is still in effect up to now in our area. No one complains because what's the point? It's just unneccessary stress. Oh, the life of the working class!

Hanging Over

 I have very tough thing to do tomorrow but let's do it! I wanted to finish it today but I wasn't able to due to some reasons, self inflicted admittedly. But I'm okay, I'm gonna do this, revving up!

98th Oscars!

Some thoughts on this year's Oscars!

- Love the Amy Madigan, Sinners and One Battle After Another wins~

- Not a super fan of Kpop Demon Hunters but I love the songs! You can't deny the pop culture impact leading to its win

- Not much surprises overall except for the tie in Live Short, that was fascinating!

Degrees!

 There has been much hype today because the weather is cold because what will happen when summer time actually comes? Will the heat be that intense? Maybe so but for now I will enjoy the cool breeze!

Orders

I love the cold weather is back! Cold but not raining so that's perfect for me! Drawback is that it makes me feel lazy and do nothing of importance! But maybe that's okay! I'll think about that tomorrow lol

Caterpillar

 Here we go again, another jam-packed next few days! But this is what I want of course, and hopefully things will run smoothly this week had some slippery slopes, and partially my fault, but I will make things better this time. I need to.

Project

 I'm interested with the movie PROJECT HAIL MARY and yes the book too! I just want to be transported again to another world like I used to before. I need to get back to that and not get drownd with life's challenges. So hopefully I can push with this!

Arranging

 So I got things done while I was watching Scrubs season 1 in the background! Yes, the revival/10th season made me revisit the first season on Disney+ For some reason, I was still able to understand what I'm watching while doing a task that normally bores me because it's tedious and repetitive but I guess having my brain focused on something else helped? It's fascinating really!

Boomerang

 Gas prices all over the news.And for sure, everything will rise because of it and even if when things settle down prices for most things still high! Oh well, I don't want to think anymore.

Majesty

 Finished something I thought I couldn't but good thing I asked for help because I needed it so bad! Still have things to do but I will make things work per usual. I still have bouts of dout and fear but I don't want to let it consume me, fight on! 

Hoppers

 Glad to see Pixar's latest HOPPERS have a good box office opening! Best since Coco for an original story! A good performance for an original title is really needed because the powers that be always based on their decision on hard money and not really other factors! 

TV Thoughts!

 Scrubs revival really feels smooth, it feels so natural continuation and the new additions are well cast and feels like I've been watching them for so long already. Also, I love that the characters definitely matured but not too far from the personalities we loved in the original. This is so ready for a 22 type of order again! Hope they can make it possible!

The Richard Jewell joke on Abbott Elementary this week is so funny and random! I will always remember that movie where Kathy Bates randomly getting an Oscar nod bumping J.Lo on Hustlers lol

Patches

I still feel uncomfortable and frazzled but you gotta move on. Fears still linger but I can't be a slave of it especially seeing the effect of one who allowed herself to be consumed by it and made fatal mistakes that led her to a place she never expected to be. I feel bad but I also need to distance myself because it's consuming me as well. 

Shine a Light

Scared of something in the past that could haunt me. And the thing is, on the wide view, it shouldn't be because the rest were good and adjusted except for one that had lapses, but was not a big issue overall. But I'm paranoid and my mind go to places especially after recents shook me to the core. Oh dear Lord, please let just this be something in my mind and not really in reality. I am begging you. 

Atmosphere

 I've been dreaming a little. An escape. But I know it's just the stress talking or rather the uncomfortable feeling due to recent events. I march on and do things as best as I can. I can't help but dream again though of a more comfortable life but I know life is not like that especially with many things going on. Dreaming though even if it is far fetched keeps some fire in me.

P10

 Way to ruin a night! Always jumping to conclusions then when proven wrong you still feel victimized? So sick of this act. Oh well, as always, let things go and just move on because there's no point letting myself get stressed out over nonsense waste of time matters.

35

 One more thing to do check of my deliverables, I wanted to finish it today but when you feel something you gotta listen to it so no further consequences. Conserving energy for tomorrow's battle yet again!

Buzzers

 I could have done things more efficiently if I divided my time well but I guess it's okay in the end because I still get to do some mental breaks and take care of things