Ghost

 New song from Sugababes original trio! They really sound great together! The voices of Keish and Mutya are so distinct and have ethereal vibe!

Cleared

 A sigh of relief! Thank God everything went smoothly today. But I have to remind myself not to be complacent. I still need to step up, more than I already do. I need to gather the strength. But for now I'm just glad, my fear didn't happen.

Steer

 Hoping and prayings things will go well tomorrow but I'm also somehow mentally preparing myself if the opposite happens. I am deeply scared but I've faced so many situations in the last few years where I really had  no choice but toughen it up. But please Lord, guide us for a favorable result. 

Cassette

 I bought a radio with a CASSETTE DECK! It's not brand new but in very good condition (my guess it is unsold inventory) and when I played my old tapes that haven't been played in 20 yearts, they still sound so good! It made my heart happy! My parents will mostly used it for radio so I didn't just bought for nostalgia only and it only cost 2 thousand which is within my budget! I found some newly manufactured radio with tape decks but they're way too expensive! So glad I found something within what I can afford!

Firefox

 Okay Firefox you got my attention! This was my web browser during my early days online anyway! Posting this on Firefox!

 

 

Stir

I feel like I'm always in the middle of uncomfortable situations. Situations that could have been avoided too if people are not giving in to their paranoia. So much agitation. I take it all in. I can rest easy because something could happen. I'm always find it hard to squeeze some time for myself because I can't be left alone with all the nagging thoughts in my mind that is brought upon by so many worries... so many unnecessary worries. Truly exhausted. 

Portions

I always try to contain what I feel... what I truly feel. I either stay silent or I divert. I don't want to confront things head anymore because nothing will change anyway and I just end feeling more frustrated because of the lack of everything else. Maybe I should do more I guess but I'm already with what I bring in but there's really nothing much I can do. No matter how I try to avoid, it always creeps in. I always try to convince myself "it's better thant that". And it's true of course but I can't but feel so much helplessness. I wish it wasn't the case but it is. Lord, help me. 

5 Kgs

 You had a good sleep and boom you wake up with stressful things! Oh well! I just learned how to limit how my reaction would be because it won't do me good to dwell on it further. There's really nothing much I can do at this point but protect my peace as much as possible. 

Debut

 Glad to have some opportunities pop up but I want more! But still better than nothing really! I was getting worried really! Let's go!

Maggots

 For the first time in a long time, I have nothing pending. A bit sad but there are prospects which hopefully will come soon enough because I don't want to wait in agony for the next one/s! But for now, I'll take advantage of this time and do something else or maybe nothing. Let's wait and see!

Egg Tart

 I finished something and now I wait for the next one. It's not on the horizon so it's frustrating but I have no choice but wait until something arrives. But I hope it's soon because my mind would go places if this drought keeps up!

Soundmachine

 So, I saw this Philips CD player / FM radio my friend is selling online. I kinda want to buy it but it's kinda pricey for me (4K) and honestly I kinda just want to have the nostalgia feeling of playing CDs again! So yeah I have to be smart about it. It's not a need so maybe next time when I have extra. 

Losses

Recently, some people I know lost a loved one. I'm affected whenever I see people grieving, especially people I know. Even if we're not close, it still hits close to home. Whenever I feel so stressed about certain about my life, I always think of what if scenarios to calm me down and change my perspective. Despite some challenges that drains me this is still ultimately better than the other one. And I thank Lord everyday for the blessing of life. 

Vacant

 Hoping for some good news next week because I'm really worried again. I'm not gonna deny that having this moment is nice, but I don't want it to be a constant thing! I hope something comes up next week, I badly need it!

Expectations

Expectations music video is so fun to watch! Chappell Roan is so perfect for the song! And oh boy, Olivia Rodrigo is so beautiful there! The star quality is just another level

Ear Cleaning

 I can't be spontaneous, something will always spoil it. I'm tired of being upset, there's no point anymore, nothing will change. I will always have to deal with it because the alternative is much worse. So I'm okay with this, I don't want to deal with the scarier path.

One Left

 It's been a while since a drought happened. It still pisses me that this wouldn't even happen if the door wasn't shut down that quickly! Oh well, I'm still bitter about but nothing I can do. Hopefully something opens up soon becausen I am very worried. 

Last Day

 

Today was the last day of operations for the old Tropical Hut Makati Branch. They will open their new place tomorrow (it's just at the back of the old branch). I'm gonna miss this place though; it and the now-closed Mercury Drug branch were classic landmarks here in Makati for 40 years!

Hazy

 I'm worried and sad. I should be taking advantage of some free time but I'm wasting it away to distract myself but at the end of the day, I still worry. May a good thing happen this week! As soon as possible, please!

Moving

 

The new Tropical Hut Makati branch is moving to a new location (at the back of the current branch) and will open on Oct. 15! Just 2 days left for the iconic old branch! I will miss its nostlagic feels so much but glad they are still and still near my workplace!

Animals on Netflix

 Saw the new Netflix movie Animals and quick thoughts! I liked the twist at the beginning about the kidnappning but it peaked there and the movie floundered towards the end. They also build so much mystery with Gillan Anderson's character but no payoff? And when she arrived she looked at Steven Yeun's character suggesting something they had in the past and nothing came out of it as well? The story is so half-baked, it's a shame because the premise was interesting!

The Paper S2

 Just finished The Paper Season 2 and I really enjoyed it. Too bad because season 2 just dropped with barely any promotion which is pretty telling that they gave up on it and season 3 is unlikely. Such a shame, that US TV landscape is just so different and even harder to break through

Credit

 I'm a little sad because of something we can't do anymore. But it's okay as long as there other things come along to keep us afloat and there are things to look forward to. I just can't help but feel disappointed we couldn't do this anymore, which was a source of pride. It gave me nice feelings, I miss that!

Dizi

 Lately, I've been following the ratings world of Turkish TV. At first i just researched on a Turkish show for work and Facebook has led me to the Turkish TV pages which regularly update ratings. Cancelling a show and pulling it out of the schedule immediately is still a thing for them! And their primetime shows are like still in production when they air so the canceled shows either don't get an ending or they rushed it.  I totally understand now why some shows I've worked have endings like that

Help

So earlier today I went to church near the office to pray for blessings that came in and protection for my loved ones. I often visit this church because it's a bit secluded from big crowd so there's a serene feeling. A couple of weeks ago I saw this old lady sitting who looks a little sickly who was selling biscuits. I ignored her but I felt bad later on so I went back to buy but she was no longer there. When I went to that church today and I saw her again so this time I bought the two biscuits she was selling for 20 pesos. She was very grateful so I didn't ask for change anymore. I was not familiar with the brands of biscuits she was selling so I looked it up and found out they are Dali products. So it's actually good business for her because those are cheap and she had a good markup. Honestly, I'm usually distrustful because I sometimes they are part of syndicate or something but this old lady just felt different so I trusted my instinct with this.  

Calming

Taking in negative vibes again and trying to act normal as much as I can. Trying to ignore things that will just make me upset. Shrugging so I won't get triggered. It's really a tough feeling to have but I can't do anything about it because what choice do I have? No option will make me feel happy anyway so I'm just choosing to minimize stress as much as I can.

Slow Down

 I hope something appears soon. I still have 3 things to do but after that nothing. Well, It worries me a bit. I had to make some sacrifices as well for other people's sake which I don't really regret because it's my duty to look out for them too. I just hope something opens soon for security. Crossing my fingers

Winks

I was really sleepy this weekend. I had afternoon naps on both days! The body was calling for it so I gave in. I have a lot of things that's making me worry again though, so I guess it's good that I get to rest as well and not let these things make me more anxious! I got irritated too a couple of times but good thing I managed to control it and not let someone be the shock absorber. I don't want to make people feel that way, it's a very unpleasant feeling. I should know. 

Shut Off

 I'm tired again. Physically and mentally. Maybe emotionally too. But I always have to be strong. A payback I guess for the times I was the weakest. It's okay of course especially after I calm down (to myself because no one knows I'm having this internal meltdown). Oh well, let's go!

Shaved

I still have a good enough of things to do but I'm getting worried already! Hopefully, some new stuff will come along. I have to make some sacrifices in favor of helping out which I don't regret of course but I'm worried nothing new will come to add things on my list. Anyway, I have to calm down! Not getting swamped is also good!

Sunny

It's been hot lately which is really a big shift after almost daily rains the past 2 months. But I heard about that this is early days of Super El Nino and another thing to worry about! It's really scares me how extreme the weather is these days. May it won't be as terrifying as projected!