Sunday, September 11, 2022

Ticking

 Knowing what I know, or what I think I know, is honestly so hard. When something is something positive I'm holding back because of that. I can't be fully happy about it because of what's gonna happen next. I really hope my pessimism will not manifest into the truth but I just can't help but feel that it is. I'm trying to think how I will handle this. I don't want to add panic but I don't want to encourage false hopes. I have this idealized situation but not really ideal because it is what I feel is the most comfortable option in an undesirable situation which isn't good news. I'm just trying to cope earlier with what's coming.  But can't it no be true for once? Please.

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