On Repeat

Here we go again and trying my best to be calm about it because there's nothing we can do at this point.  Also, trying my best not to panic as well. Maybe I just go back to my resigned self. I do hate a defeatist attitude. Hard to stay hopeful when nothing improves. I just easily give up so trying my best not to do it again. So I dunno how to process what I feel. The stress I'm dealing with. I don't do a good job controlling it. I tend to spiral out of control.  So what now. Just wait and see I guess.