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 You have so many relationships in this life

Only one or two will last

You go through all the pain and strife

Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast

Recently, I heard this song again after quite some time but now with adult ears actually paying attention to what the lyrics say. It hits differently this time. It wasn't just a novelty song with a very catchy chorus one can easily mumble. Music really has the power to take you back to a certain period but I've realized when you get older certain songs are more than just a nostalgia trip but an introspection. Every time the year ends, we always find ourselves looking back and evaluating our lives. I usually get caught up in the sentimentality of it all and in the previous years, I'm just content to have survived another year. It dawned on me now to appreciate the present more and not just dwell so much on the past much less dread the future. I know things are scarier as we grow older but it would be a waste if you let life slip by.

 

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It's hard to get things done during this time. If it wasn't a holiday, I would have gone to the office because there I could have focus and serenity. It's also raining intermittently, so it's not really the right mood to do things. I also allowed myself to be distracted by nonsense stuff too. I kinda knew it was coming but I thought I could fight things off. But I have 2 days to make it work. I don't do monitoring year end charts anymore on the radio anyway so let's get this to work!

My Hot 100 for 2024

 1. Pantropiko - BINI

2. Birds of a Feather - Billie Eilish

3. Dilaw - Maki

4. Autumn - Ben & Ben

5. Romcom -  Rob Deniel

6. Huwag Muna Tayong Umuwi - BINI 

7. APT. - Rose feat Bruno Mars.

8. Salamin, Salamin - BINI

9. Too Sweet - Hozier

10. Good Luck, Babe - Chapell Roan

11. Die With A Smile - Lady Gaga and Bruno Mars

12. Karera - BINI

13. Obsessed - Olivia Rodrigo 

14. We Can't Be Friends (Wait for Your Love) - Ariana Grande

15. Lagi - BINI

16. Miss Miss - Rob Deniel

17. Taste - Sabrina Carpenter

18. Made for Me - Muni Long

19. Patintero - BGYO

20. Palagi - TJ Monterde

21. Ang Huling Chacha - BINI

22. Get Low - O Side Mafia, BRGR

22. Na Na Na - BINI

23. Million Dollar Baby - Tommy Richman

24. Espresso - Sabrina Carpenter

25. B.A.D - Denise Julia feat. PLO

26. Red Wine Supernova - Chapell Roan

27. Namumula - Maki

28. Casual - Chapell Roan

29. Defying Gravity - Cynthia Erivo, Ariana Grande 

30. Arrowmance - Rob Deniel

31 Please Please Please - Sabrina Carpenter

32. Sining - Dionela feat Jay-R

33. Beautiful Things - Benson Boone

34. Kailan? - Maki

35. Museo - Eliza Maturan

36. What is This Feeling? - Ariana Grande, Cynthia Erivo

37. Fortnight  - Taylor Swift feat Post Malone 

38.  Fugitivas - Jordi Bacbush

39. Flagpole Sitta - The All-American Rejects

40. The Emptiness Machine - Linkin Park 

41. Toyo - KZ Tandingan

42. Breaking News - Flowerovlove

43. Diet Pepsi - Addison Rae

44. Bed Chem - Sabrina Carpenter

45. Rockstar - Lisa

46. Cherry on Top - BINI

47. Ikot - Over October

48. Misteryoso - Cup of Joe

49. Beyond - Auli'l Cravalho 

50. Leonard Cohen Nights - Jason Wade

51. Lambalak - MC Einstein feat Kyla 

52. Strings - BINI

53. Saan - Maki

54. HOT TO GO - Chappel Roan

55. Di Mabanggit - Paul Arcega 

56. Mantra - Jennie 

57. Comets - Ben and Ben

58. You'll Be Safe Here - Rico Blanco

59. LUNCH - Billie Eilish

60. I Feel Good - BINI

61. Sinta - Rob Deniel

62. Mi Secreto - Tommy Torres

63. Texas Hold 'Em - Beyonce

64. Na Na Nandito Lang - BINI

65. Ang Pag-ibig - Rob Deniel

66. That's So True - Gracie Adams

67. Good Side - Crash Adams

68. Lose Ya Breath - Annitta

69. Anghel - Angelo Garcia

70. Forget About Us - Perrie

71. Believing in Magic - Alexa Ilacad

72. La Historia De Juana - Benji Cordero

73. Slow it Down - Benson Boone

74. Blooming - BINI

75. We Made It - Nik Makino, Flow G

76. Ulap - Rob Deniel

77. Tingin - Cup of Joe, Janine

78. Moonlight - SB19, Ian Asher, Terry Zhong

79. Lose Control - Teddy Swims

80. Gigil - BGYO

81. You'll Be Safe Here - Moira Dela Torre

82. Gloria Y Sergio - Gala Montes

83. Kalakal - SB19 and Gloc 9

84. Training Season - Dua Lipa

85. Pakundangan  - DEMI, Hev Abi

86. End of Beginning - Djo

87. Our Stories Shine This Christmas - Various Artists

88. Apple - Charlie XCX

89. A Bar Song (Tipsy) - Shaboozey

90. It's Ok, I'm OK - Tate McRae

91. El Mal - Zoe Saldana, Karla Sofía Gascón, Camille 

92.  Nasty - Tinashe

93. Magnetic - ILLIT

94.  exes - Tate McRae

95. Selfish - Justin Timberlake

96.  Kiss The Sky - Maren Morris

97. Diyan Ka Lang - BINI

98. I'm His, His Mine -  Katy Perry feat Doechi

99. 360 - Charlie XCX

100. Stick Season - Noan Kahan

My Hot 100 for 2023

My Hot 100 for 2022

My Hot 100 for 2021

My Hot 100 for 2020

My Hot 100 for 2019

My Hot 100 for 2018

My Hot 100 for 2017

My Hot 100 for 2016

My Hot 100 for 2015

My Hot 100 for 2014

 My Hot 100 for 2013

My Hot 100 for 2012 
My Hot 100 for 2011
My Hot 100 for 2010
My Hot 100 for 2009  
My Hot 100 for 2008
My Hot 100 for 2007

Favorite TV Comedy Episodes of 2024

 1. Young Sheldon Season 7 Episode 13 "Funeral"

2.  Abbot Elementary Season 4 Episode 2 "Ringworm"

3. What We Do in the Shadows Season 6 Episode 11 "The Finale"

4. Nobody Want This Season 1 Episode 2 "A Shiksa Walks in the Temple"

5. Only Murders in the Building Season 4  Episode 1 "Once Upon a Time in the West"

6. Ghosts Season 4 Episode 9 "A Very Arondekar Christmas Part 2"

7. Hacks Season 3 Episode 9 "Bulletproof"

8. English Teacher Season 1 Episode 3 "The Kayla Syndrome"

9. A Man on the Inside Season 1 Episode "Tinker Tailor Order Spy"

10. Solar Opposites Season 5 Episode 9 "Terry's Big Cleaning Day"

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Favorite Movies of 2024

 1. And The Breadwinner Is.....

2. Conclave

3. Wicked

4. Inside Out 2

5. The Wild Robot

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Tree

 I'm in the office, and I prefer it so much. Early in the morning, I already dealt with so much stress. I had no choice but to take it all in. Some just never learn not to dwell on things that are not worth the stress in the grand scheme of things, but I don't know. I think people just want to seek problems when there shouldn't be, especially when there is an existing one already you have to deal with. I'm tired, but it is what it is. 

Relate

Watched "And the Breadwinner Is..." and I must say it's quite good. The confrontation scene is top-notch and very emotional. It reminded me of Tanging Yaman. Vice Ganda is excellent in the scene; it's her best performance. She totally nailed the dilemma of carrying a lot of family burdens, you do it because you love your family but it is also exhausting and kills you inside. And you hate feeling that way. 

Indescribable

 ''We were dreamers, not so long ago. But one by one we, all had to grow up''. 

This is my favorite new-ish Christmas song, and as I grow older, the message resonates even more! It is just harder to see things like we used to when we were kids. It's hard not to be cynical, but you have to try not to let the bleakness of life's challenges consume you completely. 

6:51 AM

 I went to the office today, and we were just a few, but I really worked hard and got things done! Now there are two days of break for the holidays, and then I go back to the office again on Dec. 26. I actually love the time between Christmas and New Year. The commute is a breeze, and there's a certain calmness in the streets! And I'm more productive at that!

Good Side

I've been following this YouTuber since it was recommended by the algorithm in 2020 during the height of the pandemic lockdowns. And I'm really impressed with how his channel grew to do big stuff like this one, a full-fledged documentary! I've been disillusioned with the influencer culture, so it's a pleasant surprise to see someone do something more in this new media. I'm a little envious becauae I wish I could so somethig like this.

Feliz

I've become that person who's fighting to keep the Christmas spirit alive and struggling to do so. I want to feel what I felt before when I was a kid but it's just not the same. I don't want to be a grinch so I don't let this feeling infect other people. Anyway, trying not to let myself feel so down. I'm trying to get into the spirit

Post

Had a frightening experience today that knocked my senses off. It's quite traumatizing but I'm working myself through it. Thank you dear Lord that the worst-case scenario didn't happen but still something to learn fromespecially to the person directly involved. Change needs to happen. 

Stones

 Things went okay and what I was hoping for. But it was not full clear. It just a right now it's okay so let's keep it like that. I don't for how long but I'm okay that things will not be complicated. I long for stability although at the back of my mind there's the fear of the inevitable but I will just take things day by day. 

Goes On and On.

 I felt sad again for no reason. Well, there is but honestly I'm worrying in advance like I always do. I don't know I'm just at this point of my life where I can't rest easy because I always bad things could happen. Or stressful things will be on my way soon. Always anticipating stress. Sometimes I wish I was a free spirit. But I could never be that, I just feel the need to look after everything I care for. It's burdensome but not caring is something that's not in my nature.  It's a heavy feeling that I just try to shove because there are more important things to do. 

6,400

 Finished something today which I could have finished earlier but I got lazy because it's not due yet, I still was able to finish it ahead of time but I could have done better. Anyway, I still have things on my plate. And I like it, hopefully I won't slack up because of the holidays and all! I want to be productive so good luck to me!

Pile Up

 End of the year barrage of problems. Some shouldn't be a problem but I don't know some people seek to create problems when you can just conserve your mental health and let it go or do something that won't trigger more stressful of situation. One is a valid concern but when you dole out advice, not listening at all and it insists on doing their way. Then when the problem becomes bigger I will shoulder all the stress again as if I don't have a lot weighing me already. I want to be supportive and also protect myself as well because it can be so overwhelming that I'm already acting out somehow because it's too much. It frustrates me because some things can be avoided if we actually aim for peace of mind. I'm just in a daze with complex feelings. Worried and scared and exhausted. And there are things on the horizon too to keep me awake at night. Where do I go?

Lunch

Warning signs are here again and I'm getting nervous about it then some annoying things happen. I couldn't take this all in. One at a time please. Or maybe stop digging for problem when there is none and focus on something that's actually quite alarming instead of finding ways to avoid it and let others deal with it. Unnecessary annoyance!

IYD

 Ok, I set myself up so I can finish something on schedule but not working so far! Let's try tomorrow and hopefully I'll be more successful because I really have to! No choice but to do so! May I find enough motivation!

Loss

 A friend recently lost his wife after battling an illness. Every time I see him, I can see the pain in his eyes. When he received his 13th-month pay, he said to me that it made him sad because it just reminded him how happy his wife was during this time of the year. It broke my heart to hear that. I just can't imagine what he is feeling right now. I try my best to console him as much as I can but I sometimes don't know what to say so I just listen to him. I hope it helps him process what he feels. I easily get affected when it comes to things like this. I guess I'm an empath? Sometimes I don't want to care because it gets overwhelming at times but I can't help it.

Amber's

 We didn't have a Christmas party this year but had a Christmas lunch at the office. It was a very challenging year, but we made it through again. Next year will be a better one for us, manifesting it. Things are changing, but we still managed to get through this. I'm grateful for that.