Ebbs and Flows

 Here we go again with the worries when things slow down. Although I still have things on queue that I try to juggle but  there's still the fear of things drying up. Oh dear Lord, hoping for blessings to come in soon enough

Pouring

 Heavy rains right now and while I dislike the discomfort of the scorching heat but rains like this one terrify me more. I hope it will stop soon because I'm getting a little anxious

Academy

Jampacked week ahead but after that is quite murky and I AM AFRAID. Hopefully, something comes up soon because I'm worried about  another dry spell. Here we go back again! I really there will be some incoming stuf to come in because badly needed. Well, not that badly in reality but I'm a very paranoid person.

Bags

 I'm annoyed that just because some people's intention to make a point I am the one who will have to do the hard work now. Partly my fault of course for raising my hand because this is for the better but still annoyed! Anyway, let's get to it!

New Entry

I've been a chart geek for most of my life but I did lay low as I got older and dealt with real problems adults face and I also kinda got bored of it eventually but well I still check from time to time and I found myself getting hooked again with MYX chartts. I've been interacting with other chart followers on a Youtube channel that follows MYX charts mainly because MYX charts for the past 2 years had a very slow pace and very limited catalog unlike before where they get the freshest songs and there I found other people who got frustrated with it too and together when there's a new entry or videos from a record label that had been absent for awhile on MYX we collectively chear on the comments. It's ben fun really to get to relieve my chart geeks day lately and share with online strangers who share the same habit!

Others

 I feel so bad but there's nothing I can really do about it. Everything will just fall on deaf ears because they priority what they feel, how they are always right and every one just disappoints you. Complains non stop, but when you do something right, hardly acknowledged. And even if they do, it will be easily forgotten when they feel hassled. Endless cycle that I'm so sick of but nothing i can do but take it all in and breathe it out. 

Deflated

 I have felt this way long ago but from time to time I feel some glimmer of positivity but immediately I hold back back because I know it won't last. It sucks so bad but it is what it is. Just trying my best not to get too much affected 

Foot Zone

 I had a foot massage yesterday for the very first time and I really loved it. It was a bit pricey since it's in a mall, but I thought I deserve to spend something for myself and I wanted to try this for so long. There was some pain when the therapist was stretching my toes, pain I didn't expect to have but it was so good! I feel relaxed after and will definitely try again!

98

 I wish I have the courage to be straightforward on certain things because it gets really frustrating to see the same patterns consistently happening but I know it will just lead to bigger problems, because what they'll see is an attack rather than pointing out how one can improve. I wish it weren't the case, but it is, as seen in many precedents before. I just have to let a big sigh and carry on. How I wish there's a realization someday what's really wrong and not always put the blame on others. How I wish there's a realization of the long term harm done. But it will probably never happen and you just let things be and be as strong as you can because there's no alternative. 

Perhaps

 "Look at him long life and no stress" well, because he wasn't actively searching for something to disappoint him and get upset over. Maybe that is the key. He didn't find someone else to blame why for his dissatisfaction. Maybe he wanted them to be at ease first so they could actually spread their wings and not get stunted in life. Maybe that's why they were able to give him the life you obviously envious for because they were able to do something beyond because they didn't feel they have to adjust to what pleases him. All speculations but maybe something to ponder rather than jumping ahead to reproaching.

Pages

 First weekend in a while I didn't have something I need to finish that I was struggling to finish. Hopefully, there will be more organized weekends on the horizon. I need to get back to reading for pleasure again. I have some unfinished books last year so I need to get back to that!

67

 So glad I was finally able to do something ahead of time and not the usual scrambling in the end. Although I'm quite sad the list is getting shorter but I do believe there are more on the horizon so I need calm down a bit. I do need some little break but not too long please. I don't want to be frustrated when there's a drought again. 

Fluctuations

 I wish I could be free of worrying but it's just not the case. I'm always on the lookout. Always so paranoid that things will go haywire. It's hard living this way. I always fear something bad could happen. So I'm really okay when things are dull and boring, as long as there's stability and safety, 

Up Next

I don't know maybe it's just my usual paranoid self but given how some are spaced out, I am afraid I could be thrown under the bus. I'm not gonna allow that, I already worked so hard to maintain everything in good form. But it annoys me already just thinking of the possibility. I already missed out on getting on this to give way but I could get dragged in the process, NO!

Orange

 Totally loving this new Maki song Kahel Na Langit! Beautifully written and performed! I've been playing it repeatedly lately!

Raindrops

There's some potential things coming out soon, and hopefully things pan out. I'm panicking a little because the things I have to do for myself have taken a step back for other things that could help in general, but now I'm getting behind on my target to be sufficient. So hopefully things will shape up well. I regret delaying things using personal space as excuse. 

Wheels

 I can't finish some things I want to do because I have to listen to rants, and they don't care about the things you have to do because they want to rant and rant. Sometimes, the issues can be resolved, or shouldn't be made a big deal because they just stress you out unnecessarily. You can choose to live a life free of stress. 

Play

 I don't know how to deal with the recurring stressful things in my life. I don't know what the right strategy anymore to maintain peace. I feel like even if I try my best and make sacrifices, nothing really changes. I am so tired but I am trapped in this endless cycle. What's even harder is that the alternative is so much worst, I hate that sometimes I think of that worse case scenario. Because I can't help it when I feel so overwhelmed with unpleasant feelings 

Counting

I feel bad that I already feel frustrated for a problem that hasn't happened yet but the fear is just so strong I'm spiralling deep inside. I need to control my fear so I can handle the inevitable bravely. Oh dear Lord, please help me survive against myself

Early Signs

 I've noticed it for a long time already, but I was so in denial. But I knew, or I think I know what's going on but  I don't want it to be confirmed. All because I'm afraid of another source of stress but I have to face the reality of what this all means. Hoping and praying it won't further escalate. 

Laptop Enterprises

 Sad to learn that shop where I bought my laptop has closed down. I bought it 3 years ago on a small shop in Makati, found them on Facebook and read good reviews that they are legit and has good prices. And it is true. They still have affiliate shops in QC but this shop was so convenient to me

7740

 Another unnecessary stress. But of course there is always the lack of self awareness. So I have to take it all in. Or maybe I don't. I shouldn't. But too late, already affected. Oh, well what can I do. This is the story of my life. I'm just gonna shove it inside and do other things  Or worry for tomorrow. 

Hex

I was just previewing my next episode of a project I'm working dubbing scripts but I got hooked on the story then spent all afternoon reading the raw scripts of the last 30 or so episodes, what a good show! Definitely one of my favorite stuff we've worked on recently.  It really gives me a good push doing this work!

Four Left

 So I'm a bit worried that things are starting to dry up again after a very busy past few months. I still have things to do but I want more things to come soon. There were some opportunities though that could have kept me covered but some things happened that I wasn't able to squeeze myself in. Really hoping there will be some more on the horizon. 

Please...

A new week ahead and I'm really praying hard for a smooth one but as always I mentally prepare myself for other outcomes. All I want is less stressful scenarios. Please Lord!

After

 I discovered Taylor through this show, and I became a fan. She's so funny and lovable (and yes beautiful!). CBS should have continued with another host when Taylor decided to leave and not just cancel it outright. I feel Taylor may have felt a little guilty about people losing jobs in this speech, and she shouldn't be. Not her fault CBS is broke too! I'm gonna miss her!

Out of My Mind

 I am feeling a lot of things. So overwhelming and chaotic. I want to be selfish and just think of myself. But of course I can't do that. It's just hard to absorb everything but I have to. So here is just how I handle things, just blurting it all out here because I have no one to tell about it anyway. Let it out then go on

Touch

 Yeah, I tried something because I was craving for something and hoping for a better result than before but my bad it still the mediocre experience like it always. I never na learn 

Dry

I'm not back in my groove yet and the constant stress dumping on me is just making feel so exhausted. I can't turn them away though because I understand the need to process what you feel so one could function better. But it's taking a toll on me so I need to find a way to shake this off

Good Deal!

Disney+ PH had a promo here one one-year Basic subscription for around 8 dollars so I grabbed it! The monthly here for Basic is around 4 dollars a month so it's a good deal. Binged two shows Adults and Dying for Sex and here my thoughts:

 I didn't expect Dying For Sexy would be really funny despite the subject matter. Michelle WIlliams is indeed really amazing here. So is Jenny Slate. What a great story of friendship and how your friend could be your soul mate. The last episode is an all timer, the nurse's enthusiasm about the dying process is so bonkers, it's funny but scary at the same time but I do think they got the tone right for that one. I also like the fact that his ex-husband was in the final episode, I like that they didn't make him a jerk in the end, he just wasn't the right person to be in the end with her despite good intentions. And such great acting from Michelle, the smile she gave when the ex husband told Molly that he is having a baby spoke a lot, genuine happiness for him. I have to say when Molly died, I didn't expect to laugh with the open mouth thing, such good timing  As for Adutls, the pilot was tonally a mess, but really got good in the succeeding episodes thanks to a really strong cast, I wish it had more than 8 episodes though. But even with just 8 episodes, I already feel like I know a lot about the main 5 already and their history which for me is a sign of a good comedy show.

I've been misisng watch TV shows for leisure so I'll go back again and get my mind some break!

Snap

 I need to get over this feeling because it has been affecting me deep inside. I wish I could find a way to just set this feeling of doom aside but it has been hovering my head. I need to shake this feeling off and march on.

1PM

 I knew it. No matter how I try to make things okay, it just doesn't work when there's inherent bias. Oh yeah. It just is.. I feel a little upset and stressed, but can't show it. So here I am, shouting it to the internet or the dying blogspot space. 

At Will

 I teared up while working on the dubbing script for the finale of this show. It's such a special one, it's like a warm hug!  I've seen hundreds of telenovelas in this job for the last 16 years, and this will have a special spot in my heart

Structure

 I feel guilty thinking about it because of recent discoveries but I can't help it. Now I think we are better off if something else takes over. I may regret it if it actually happens I know but for now let me dream about ideal scenarios

Dip Your Toes

 I wish I didn't know about this. Ignorance is bliss as they say. Argh, now I'm just affected and bothered. I can't blame that person because it was just trauma dumping to help ease their felling but now I'm very bothered. How do I handle this stuff now?

Disappointed

 I wish I didn't go deep with this because confirming some of the things I felt really sucks. I feel sad because I am disillusioned now although I'm trying to give the benefit of the doubt but it is so hard not to feel crushed and jaded.

Absorbing

 I'm in a tough position and very afraid of what could happen next. I see the point of all sides but it's just hard to resolved without someone getting hurt in the process. I'm afraid of the collateral damage. 

Tense

Not feeling good again, although for another reason that I really should not be involved, but I got involved by proxy. You see the sides, but having a resolution to this that will be good for both will just be difficult for everyone involved. Just makes me think even more that I don't want to be put in that kind of situation. 

Switch and Bait

 I watched this interview with Karmina Constantino and David Celdran and wow what an articulate conversation. Something I miss these days, eloquence and thought-provoking discussions. The times we live in where everything is so tense and people always angry than sit down and discuss and LISTEN. Oh, well...

Ever

 I once again became a sounding board which kinda ruined some plan I had but it was necessary because this is what I do best to be someone who listens to help people process what they feel and thus aleviate bigger problem. I did some sharing as well because it just how goes naturally

Happily

 Really hoping things will turn out fine this weekend. Always a challenge to do things I need to do because of many distractions some self imposed but I need to make this one thing right after pulling things the last minute and taking risks. I need to do it so much better, so let's go!

33

 Yeah, I messed up with something because of letting myself get distracted and not focusing better. I got complacent too because I knew too much. Still, got some reprieve because som people are really nice so I better make up with it and deliver better next time. I need to organize myself better too of course 

Two!

Glad to see new stuff coming in! The past 3 months were insane with so many stuff going on. I'm  very please with that despite the fact that it was quite hectic. I still have a lot on my plate so I better work on it!

68th

 Nanay's birthday today and very thankful to God that she's in such a happy mood these days. As always, my birthday wish for her is good health. Thank you Lord for always guiding Nanay.

Sitcoms

Fell into another YouTube rabbit hole again! This time US sitcoms of the 2010s! I love those days! They were part of my young adult years, watching them made me escape to have those funny and heartwarming moments!

Ep. 1

 SolarFlix uploaded the first episode of the Tagalog Dubbed version of Turkish show RECIPE OF LOVE. Translated this one and really proud of it!

Digging

 Another unnecessary stress in my life. What else is new? I'm tired of it, but I just need to move along. People will always find a way to stress themselves out for no good reason. I know my words won't solve anything because they will fall on deaf ears. After all, all they want to do is just rant and rant and rant and rant and rant. I just have to wait for things to chill out. I learned not to go against anyone anymore and just be static and appear emotionless. Self preservation.

Driver

 I have so many things to do  and I don't need additional pressure so yeah I'm gonna pull back a little because I won't let myself get into so much stress for things I'm not directly involved anyway.  I will set my limits because I don't to bury myself too much with these things. 

5PM

 Lots of pressure but it's OK I can manage it. I HAVE to manage it. Sometimes, I can't believe I'm in this position now but then I have to remind myself I'm turning 38 in a few months time, it's natural for me to have this kind of responsibility. It gets overwhelming but I carry on because that's what you do. 

Spinoff

 Caught up with Georgie and Mandy's First Marriage and it really is a good show. What a smooth first season and it totally gets what makes a broadcast comedy work, fun and heartwarming with compelling emotional beats from time to time. Also, they make good use of Young Sheldon characters and storylines. Some spinoffs forget the universe of the show where they came from to establish itself on its own quickly but this one doesn't ignore where they came from and makes good use of the predecessor's storylines to connect to the new show without making this spinoff feel just like an extension only

I'm really impressed how this same Sheldonverse team can transition back to multicam, it doesn't feel off at all. And one last thing, the retcon they made to Mandy's brother Conner was so good and the character is so lovable already that this early on I could see it becoming another spinoff

Abay

 Finished one more thing to do and kinda received a compliment! It feels good to feel a little bit validated in what you do. I'm a bit messy, but I always strive to do well in this niche I found myself in because I do really enjoy it. And when people take notice, it feels so great and keeps me movin

Abi!

 Worked on the dubbing script for the pilot episode of SolarFlix's latest Turkish drama Recipe of Love, premiering tonight at 8PM! I really worked hard on this project and proud it's finally airing!

25 Years

 I became a sounding board again but glad to be one though. We need this person to be strong for us and if unburdening to me will help, so be it. It is hard to absorb all the anxiety and stress but I always try to be supportive without being patronizing. Oh Dear Lord, please guide them and let them be strong despite the challenges. Please guide me as well because I need to be strong so I can be the one who they can feel safe as well. I can't afford to panic in front of them. 

House

The MMK episode this week about two siblings killed by someone their family took in is so unbelievably tragic. I looked upon their story and seeing the post of the mother meeting the actor who played their late son broke my heart because you could see how she felt somehow connected to his son again. So heartbreaking I stopped learning more about the real story. I can't take it.

Everyday

 I have another goal this weekend and hopefully I won't fail this time and I get ride of any disturbance that would stop me from progressing. I was able to finish some stuff today so all good! After fulfilling some responsibilities the past two days, I need to strive to more to keep things comfortable. It's tough but it's my honor to do this for them. I can deal with this as long as they are all safe. I mean ALL OF US are safe and away from harm. That's my everyday prayer to God. 

Pinch

Almost did something I would have regretted because I had that thing clouding over my head again. I didn't push through because of self consciousness and paranoid, It's a good thing though but sometimes I can't believe I could still be suspectible with those things

Relief

I accomplished a lot today which makes me really happy! I refreshed my list to do and it's still jampacked so that's so good. Hopefully, it stays that way although some of the things are slowing down now. We do need some space to breath so it's fine but of course please don't be it too much, just a healthy flow for everyone's benefit!

Same story

 I'm exhausted but partly self-inflicted. Sometimes I do so well managing everything but there are times like where it's all so messy. Some things because I need to help out and others because I choose to do non-valuable to take a breath but it goes on too long.

Precinct 54

 I usually don't like standing in lines but tinatyaga ko talaga kapag elections. I mean, even nung nag register ako to vote 20 years ago ganun din ang dusa sa pila back then. There were times I asked myself if it was worth it because politics was just so frustrating, but then again, this is my right, my privilege, and I will exercise it.  Earlier this morning, I helped Nanay prepare to go to the precinct at 5AM because senior citizens can vote that early, she's always very excited to vote and will always remind us to vote no matter what. Hopefully, I could have that kind of enthusiasm in the future because it is definitely hard not to be jaded these days.

Messy

Two weekends in a row of self-sabotage. I need to get my act together again. I'm taking some steps to lessen the load and choosing what favors me more. I feel a little guilty, but I'm just swamped to be patient anymore. And there's so many things I need to handle and I'm afraid of messing up big time.

Vote

 Elections are on Monday. I'm trying not to be hopeful and be realistic with the likely results. I'm a bit tempted not to vote and just go the office and enjoy the aircon! But yeah I value my vote, even if the results don't go my way. Whatever happens, I need to get my voice heard even if it is just a single vote. 

Pope

 As a Catholic, I just want the new pope not to spread hateful rhetoric. I know there won't be progressive views because let's be real but just be a kind person and promote that

Double

I'm in a difficult situation of trying to be supportive as they deal with anxiety. Man, it's so hard not to fall apart but I can't be that person that will give them more stressful triggers. I need to be strong for them too but it gets frustrating as some of the pieces of advice I give I feel like goes nowhere because they have been consumed by anxiety. How can I make them feel better when deep inside I'm deeply terrified. Lord, please guide us, heal our terrified souls. 

Like a Glove

After all is said and done, I'm grateful that I'm doing something I really like. I just stumbled upon this world because I was looking for something else because what I had then, while some had benefits just didn't click with me.  Of course, there are still things left to be desired, but now looking back, this is really a good fit for me. Even though I had moments when I wanted to move on, circumstances just kept me from doing so. After all the stuff that happened to me in the last 5 years, to be here is a truly blessing. I've been through some personal stress lately but it had become my refuge even though there were challenging moments. I feel so grateful. 

Shoulder

 I can't believe everything is happening all at once. How could I handle all of this then? I don't know what to do anymore. How can I focused on other when there are so many things happening that I can't stop. I can't fall part, I can't lean on to anyone. Lord, please help me.

Wanton

 What a day, really. I was once again tested. I had my meltdown but I contained to not affect others because that's another stressful thing to deal with. But despite all the stress, glad the worst scenario in my head didn't happen. But I feel it's gonna be a long ride, may God help me deal with everything because it's so draining but I do things for love no matter how hard it is. 

Power Through

 Lots of things are bothering me that I need to muster energy to get things done. I'm worried of so many things but I need to set them aside or else I won't be able to move better. Oh dear Lord, please guide me. 

Hundred

Tomorrow I will drag my brains out again! I will regret not doing it like today. But right now I feel okay about it and jus let some junk out of brain and hopefully this will give the recharge to do better tomorrow once I have unloaded the nonsene!

PDI

PDI  was the first company I applied for after graduation 17 years ago. After months of waiting, I didn't make it. Four years later, I tried again, thinking that I could make it because I already have job experience. I actually received a job offer, but I had to decline it because the pay was way too low, and leaving my current job for that was not financially worth it. If it were 20-year-old fresh grad me, I would have accepted it in a heartbeat but my situation was different, my perspective changed and I understood "the real world" the adults were saying when I was in school. Still, it made me sad because it was letting go of a dream. Anyway, I'm glad the physical newspaper will still be around because it is still a good source of news and information. And there's something I can't explain exactly about it, but printed/tangible materials have a different effect as a time capsule.

Extra Mile

It's been challenging lately because I need to balance a lot of things and learn when to take a pause as well. So far, I've been working it out, but it's eating a lot of time and effort on my part.  I need to learn how to balance things. But still, glad to have this to worry about than have nothing. 

Wept

 Hit a snag, and I hope it won't have big consequences. I'm not directly involved but still I care.  And while everything is busy right now, I am now starting to worry about what's next already. Crazy me I know but I just worry about these things because I don't want another dry period, but of course, I want things to be a little crazier so we can all breathe and have some proper timing as well. Anywya, I really hope that bump won't really be a bigger problem because I'm getting worried and I absorbed the stress as well!

Recipe of Love!

 One of the projects that I have been working so hard for will have a special 2-episode screening this Saturday, May 3 on SOLAR FLIX. It's a turkish drama called RECIPE OF LOVE. It's a romcom so fun to do but quite a challenge to synch!

Fit

 Just as I predicted, certain behaviour could affect the mood of someone just when it is getting better. But maybe this is needed to get them out of the zone that has been affecting their minds a lot. It's so tough to deal with it, but on the outside, I do my best to boost morale and show support. I hope my message gets through. I try my best not to fall apart because I just can't with everything that lies on my shoulders. 

Altar

 Just as I predicted, it's starting already and I don't know how to handle this. Should I be more comforting but run the risk of not improving because of being coddled up? Or should I be more dismissive so I won't patronize the behavior that could be more problematic in the long run? There's no definite answer but just go with the gut feel. But I'm extremely nervous. I hate to be in this situaton again. 

Holding it Together!

Chaos in my mind! So many things to think about, so many things to look after! I'm in shambles internally but need to be brave and controlled outside. I can't lose it because I now find myself in such stressful situations. Oh good heavens guide me!

2:30 PM

 Something inevitable happened, although there was assurance that we shouldn't panic or worry too much, but still we are a bunch of worrywarts and overthinkers, so it's hard to deal with it. I need to be strong for them and someone they can lean on. It's hard, but it's the sacrifice I'm willing to take. Lord, please guide us. 

In The Way

 A little annoyed, something always comes in to get in the way of things I want to finish. I do admit however, that I'm at fault too in some way. But still, I wanted this after those months of drought so I just let this annoyance out of my system and I go back to usual tomorrow!

Spiralling

 The thing I fear is happening again. I'm crestfallen. Hate it when things I worry actually happen. I know that's how life goes but when things like this happen I just feel so frustrated. I feel like I could never have nice things. I know people have bigger issues to deal with butt I'm really anxious right now. Lord, please hear my prayers. 

Minor.... is it?

 I'm getting paranoid again because of some result which is officially not really alarming but with the way my brain works, I'm still scared it could be a sign of something more dangerous in the long run. Oh God, please don't let my fear happen. I won't be able to handle it. Oh my, I need to calm down.

Pope Francis

 Pope Francis passed away today at age 88. I thought he was doing well already after the health scare for the past 2 months. But things like this happen when we are caught off guard. I'm sad because I find his presence comforting especially in this increasingly polarizing world and extreme personalities ruling over. I'm worried the next pope won't be the same. 

Rest in Peace, Pope Francis....

3/4

 I made the correct choice on what to focus on, but still a bit of a bummer because it took me long to finish it, and I didn't have the time to finish one more. Anyway, all good because I didn't rush that thing and made sure everything's alright. But I really wanted to hit all 4 this Lenten break. Another jam-packed week ahead! Happy, of cours,e but I really need to concentrate even further so all goals achieved and everything is maximized!

Peryodista

 This third one is proving to be a challenge. I knew it was coming, but I still dove in because I wanted to help. But I know it was to my detriment. I still have a few of these on the horizon and I made the decision to finish them first before I give in again because I have too much to handle these days. I need to look after myself and not just be on the lookout for everyone. But maybe I'll change my mind when I cool down, because I'm quite annoyed with how this one is taking too much time, because they just don't get it like I hate to be judgmental but is this the quality they are giving for their main one? I hope not because I understand not doing well here because this isn't their main role and I will do the adjusting anyway, but for their main focus, they shouldn't be giving this level of quality. I really hope not.  

Image

Second straight win for me! Another goal achieved! Hope to continue to maintain this pace for tomorrow! I haven't decided what I should prioritize next among 3 things. I'm leaning to doing something I delayed because I was not feeling to be honest but I want to fix one of the things that is meant for another wee. I'll sleep on it and choose tomorrow and keep this rolling! I love it!

Organization

 Whew! I'm so happy that I managed to meet my goal today, and hopefully, the momentum continues. This Lenten season is really the apt time for me to do this, and somehow, I was able to focus for quite a few hours! While I did that, I also had to do other stuff on the side. I feel happy whenever I get to fulfil what I wanted to do. Thank you, Lord, and more to come, yes!

Do Say

 I received another expression of gratitude from a dubbing director. It really warms my heart to receive those because when I started doing dubbing scripts 16 years ago, I never received any feedback unless it was negative, so that's why when there was an opportunity to do something else at the office, I immediately took the chance because my experience back then was quite disheartening. Although I admit, looking bac,k my early work was rough, so it makes sense. So I really made it a point when I had this chance to do dubbing scripts, I will do my very best to not mess up again. Sometimes I still do have diffiencies but nothing as awful as before and there have been a lot of dubbing directors who like my work and actually request to write for them and I really appreciate it so much and just fuels to do even better. 

Rosalinda

 

Coming back to Philippine TV soon! Proud to be part of the team for this project :)

5.2K

 The heat is insane! I felt like I was in a broiler room when I was in the jeep earlier. It's really so uncomfortable so yes even if the electricity bill is high, I don't mind just as long as I could sleep better with the aircon on! I don't spend on much on myself but yes one of the things I work hard for is to pay the electricity bill so we can sleep comfortably!

Crossed Out

 Finished one of my many tasks! Hoping the momentum continues for the rest of the week! It's gonna be a challenge but I feel excited doing it even if there's just so many things to consider and there are distractions that pop up every now and then. But hey this is what I wanted for so long and it's finally here, absolutely grateful!

Fan

 I bought electric fan today because my old one was broken and cost of repairing it will be expensive because it's an old brand and style that does not exist in the market anymore so extra mile to have it fixed. I'm using the new one now and it's working well to alleviate the heat these days so I hope it will last!

Growing List

 I have so many things to do because my duties actually expanded because I can't help myself but help out. It's a good thing of course because there's an overflow of blessings coming in. But I really need to manage my time better though so I can do everything I have on my list! But I'm happy, very happy!

Potential

 I really enjoyed watching High Potential! It's a basic case of the week show but I'm into this kind of shows again especially now that I'm older, I totally get the appeal even more of having episodic shows where everything is solved at the end of the episode. The key for shows like this to work is having a really good and charismatic lead which the show has with Kaitlin Olson! Looking forward to season 2!

Video Stop

 One of the rare instances where the YouTube algorithm suggested something truly worthy! This story of how a Video rental owner made a very kind gesture for a loyal customer with special needs is truly touching. There's so much hate and nastiness in the world right now that seeing a story like this will still make you believe that there are still people who are truly kind.

Tricycle

I always need to stay alert because I need to cater to whims and stubbornness. I'm tired of the same cycle really. I was about to say something about it, but I stopped myself because it would fall on deaf ears. I knew the reason why it is this way and frankly I'm tired but there's nothing I could do but try to balance everything and not fall to further stress because I will just lose. 

Lotus

 I've been watching The White Lotus Season 3 and while this season had some disappointing part but at least the finale was engaging. There is stuff I can nitpick, but at least it was not boring. And at least one casualty was justified! The best moment though is the great thought provoking monologue from Carrie Coon's character about times changing and how we find what keeps alive in as we grow older. So relatable and affecting!

Preach it

 I usually restrain myself from commenting on other people especially acquaintances on their hot takes posted on social media but this particular one just got me. Constantly posting bible quotes then you see commenting with such vile language, the total opposite of what they are preaching online (and I think offline too.) Just frustratingI know this person is nice in general, but how can they really go to such lengths now and lose their composure over this? I'm so frustrated and sad but this is how things are and I can't do anything to change it. I've given up but even though I just want to ignore things and just my mind own business but I can't help but feel this hopelessness whenever I encounter something that reminds me how everything has changed in nearly a decade. 

Solo

 There's a hot issue right now that just makes me ponder things. A lot of people still know what common decency is and yet with this particular popular person, a lot turn a blind, get defensive and make  excuses. It's frustrating to witness how that person really changed things. It's just so abrasive. I give up and just try to do focus on things I'm directly affected but somehow I still can't help but be affected with how a lot of things has changed for the worst. 

Steve

Saw a box office tracking report  that says Minecraft movie has a shot to open to 200M worldwide. I am not surprised if it will reach that point because Minecraft is not just a game but basically a community for teens and early 20s today; they grew up with this. Sure, there was a lot of snark when the trailer came out, but I always had a feeling a lot of those would still watch because it holds a special spot in their, call it nostalgi I guess! 

Go, go, go!

 So many things are happening, it's insane! But this is kind of busy schedule that I am craving for months and now it is happening! I'm loaded and it's gonna be hectic but bring it on! Hoping it will stay consistent all throughout the year!

Ahead

Things are good but I'm already planning to secure myself in case it gets slow again. I'm so paranoid I know, but better be safe. I still feel I won't get into something I like to be in, but things are just loaded now, and I can accommodate all that I want. Who knows, maybe I could eventually squeeze myself in, but I need to fix some things first and finish everything I have on the table. Again, really happy things are going OK so far and hope it continues furher.

Ola

 I almost came to returning somehow to a thing I really liked but it was not meant to be! A little sad but it's fine because there are so many doors open to me and I'm grateful for that. Who knows maybe I'll find myself on that road again.