0521

 So I made judgment call today which I do really believe is for the better. I followed my hunch. I just want to prioritize the present and not worry to much with the future because some don't handle things well! I hope I am right. Please lord

Droplets

It has really been so hectic, my goodness! But of course I like it and I prefer it to be this way of course! Hoping for something to come though because it's been quite awhile waiting for it. I'm patient of course but I really hope it will pour in soon so I can set aside some things!

Panoramic

Another long day ahead, I hope I can finish everything I need to do. Also, one thing I'm putting off will be done this week. I'm nervous as always, but I can't show it for other people's sake. It's hard to be the one to shoulder everything but one good thing about it is that it builds character. I'm definitely not the same as I was 10 years ago, Lord, please guide me.

Ahead

 I try not to think about it but I know deep inside, I'm screwed. I just need to keep things stable as much as I can even if I will be at the losing end. I always have to adjust. I guess it's my fate all along. A payback of some sorts for all the inconvenience I caused decades ago. I have no problem with it in the grand scheme of things but sometimes when you get beaten down for no good reason other than being the easy target, I feel so much resentment. I don't want to feel it but small snide comments I try to brush off still cuts deep. I don't deserve to be treated that way no matter what.  But I really have no choice. Maybe someday I can find some sort of happiness. I wish so. I deserve it too.

Offer

 You did something out of respect and what do you get in return? Nastiness. Misplaced nastiness. You say sorry for nothing bad really because reasoning out is futile. Closed mind. Tired but what else is new. Miserable. Low key misery. Just keep it in. Like always.

Nap

 I took an afternoon nap and had a realistic dream. Yeah, it's my subconscious telling me it's not okay, but I have no choice, right? It's quite a downer but I just have to continue marching on. Lord, give me the strength. 

6K

Okay, I expected this so I didn't have to be surpsied. If they only knew, right? But I'm protecting them and it's a necessity. That's why I was holding off things for this moment. It's just that some things got delayed so I had to resort to do this again. But it's okay, could have been worse. Better than this than the more terrible timeline

Supply

I'm here facing things beyond my control again. It makes me evaluate my choices again. But I know I will still end up in the same place because there is nothing I can do at this point but just be frustrated deep inside and show strength on the outside. But I'm having a hard time. I want something more but still in my comfort zone. I don't know

Filter

I'm tired doing some things but I have to do it for my peace of mind too because some they just don't change and trying to make them realize their flaws is futile. So here I go and I take the plunge. It's irritating most of the time but if I don't do t then there would be unnecessart stress coming and yes, I don't want that!

There

Life's been hectic lately but all good. This is better than be idle. I also appreciate the fact that I don't get to absorb other things anymore unlike the previous one where I understand the need to vent but  I also get affected with negative energy and I can't focus on the things I need to do. But I do care, I just realized I need a safe distance to not get swallowed in. 

Remember?

 One of the busiest I've been and it's still not over! But this one thing I'm doing right now reminds me of the pandemic days and the eerie feeling it once had. It's been six years. Time flies but I'm not nostalgic for that moment. The uncertainty was nerve-wracking

Festi

 I love that this area of Festival Mall Alabang has been practically the same for over 20 years! It's still well-maintained pa rin naman the last I time I'vr been here. Riding the train here was such an exciting moment for 10-year old me back then!

via  South Metro Manila FB

Twist of Fate on YouTube!

 The first two episodes of Solarflixph Pinoy Dub of the Turkish romcom series Twist of Fate are out on YouTube now! I've worked on the dubbing scripts for both episodes. One of the hardest projects I've worked on, but also very enjoyable!

Expires

 My Disney+ annual subscription ends today! I bought one last year when they had a big sale where an annual subscription just cost under 500 pesos! I cancelled immediately so my online debit card will not get auto renewed! I'm always conscious with those things! Anyway, I will subscribe again once they do a promo again lol or just for one month when I actually have spare time to watch! 

Tights

 Jampacked days ahead and I must not waste! I could do all of this if I don't have other duties to do so it's gonna be another challenge for me ahead! But I could do this! I wanted this! I want the blessings to pour in! Because things are not really okay or on shaky grounds! It sucks but such is life!

55

 Always making me feel annoyed. I have a lot in my mind then add unnecessary stress. The cycle goes on. I know I'm being taken advantage but I just accepted it because I don't want drama but i don't know, the annoying powers won't stop.

Waiting Time

 Things are loading up again and it's fine because this at least provides some security. I really hope the things got delayed will finally see the light this week? Crossing my fingers hard!

Drizzle

 Right on the mark of June 1st, the rain came! It didn't alleviate the humidity that much though! But at least it's a little less insane compared to the past couple of weeks. But honestly, I couldn't function better when it's raining compared to the intense summer heat. Commuting is harder too! But oh well, that's how life is! 

Jumbled Minutes

 Because of what I chose to do yesterday.... or not to do... I'm a bit scrambling now. But I stll thimk I made the right choice yesterday though. I felt off so I trusted my instinct. But now, let's face this hurdle! Hurry up!

Read It

 I had an afternoon nap today but I still feel a little restless. It must be the weather, the humidity. I have stuff to do but took a pause on them because I'm not 100%. I take my mind off things lately by surfing on reddit it has become PEx like these days so takes me back and sometimes I like to give opinions and advice too, somehow helps me too.

Four More

 Another sad news I've learned today. Although I had a feeling we're down in the dumps again. Hopefully, next month will see some turnaround. What a rough year. Rollercoaster ride. 

New Gen

 Backrooms getting good reviews! With this, Obsession and Iron Lung from earlier, I'm just happy to see young filmmakers who started on YouTube getting their young audience interested in 'leveling up' their work to the big screen as well. It is honestly refreshing, especially in this era with the relentless AI "don't resist, just deal with it" narrative in the creative space. There's still a big value in human creativity and human to human connection

Festi

 Saw a post on reddit discussing Festival Mall, Alabang with some photos. I just like that the design of the main maill is still basically the same since the 90s. Just sad lang when passing the old cinemas na sarado na. Used to watched movies there regularly. Nung bata ako suki nung Odyssey near the food court, it was Odyssel XL then, malaki talaga sya. I was amazed na tumagal din sya like 2023 lang yata nag close. I also miss yung dating malaking National Book Store too. The Landmark extension is also nice to walk around as well. I know it's part nostalgia, but modern designs of malls today doesn't have character so it was nice to see something that's quite adventorous, I hope they maintain it that wya.

MOA

 I felt off today. Also had intrusive thoughts that thankfully I just kept to myself because things calmed down it really was a non-issue to begin with. This is really something I do  best keeping things to myself to avoid further escalaton. Some call this being a pushover, I don't care, I don't want unnecessary stress on top of regular things I worry about. 

In 13 Days

 My Disney+ subscription is ending after I availed the less than 500 annual plan promo last year! I really enjoyed having it but unless there's another promo, I won't be a regular subscriber, I will be a churner, when there's something I want to see then I subscribe then to make it sulit will watch the catalogue

Dryness

 The heat is so intense! I drank so many cold water today and even ate ice cream but the humidity is relentless! It does not help for some reason our water supply at home is affected and it is so limited now! I can't wait to go the office tomorrow and enjoy the airconditioning! 

Eighty Two

 Finally finish something that for some reason I struggled to do this week! It's a combination of fatigue and also laziness! Anyway, I don't regret sleeping early for the past few nights because one thing I learned if you feel sleepy, go to bed, don't force to stay awake. Body calls, listen.

Stephen Colbert

 

 Stephen Colbert has been my favorite since I randomly saw The Colbert Report on cable.  This is such a lovely way for his show to end, sad but not overdramatic, and best of all with a hopeful tone.

 

Aubry

 Yes, very happy Aubry won Survivor 50! I just love her ever since Survivor: Kaoh Rong! There's a lot of nitpicking with the Survivor fan community, some have nice points but at this point of watching the show, I just love if my faves win! I can appreciate Jonathan's game though and I realy like Joe despite his flaws in the game because he seems like a good person, you can just feel it! I also enjoyed Rizo and his gen z-ness! Cirie is a legend, Tiffany while underedited had a great final episode! I also love Emily and Devens! I was initially skeptical with the casting in the end I loved it in general!

Reddit

 I've been hooked on reddit these days. I've been there since 2018 mainly because it was only the place I can find that discusses the podcasts I followed then. But this year, with more local topics in my timeline, I got hooked. It truly feels like what PEx used to be. 

Sat

 I got excited for this new chapter of this other thing I do. And to think I felt like quitting a month ago when it felt like I'm getting trapped on an unfavorable situation! The great thing my prayers were heard and a solution to the dilemma was served. I know it still won't be that easy but it at least lessens my worries! I still like doing this, I'm build for this, so glad there's a new avenue to work on.

Cuneyt

 Yes, I finished something I was aiming to finish today! It was a little late but I kinda don't regret it because I needed the time and focus for this one although I do admit if I arranged things a little better but what's done is done and I pulled it off! There's still many on the plate and I'm glad for it!

Merhaba

Took an afternoon nap because my body told me so. And now I'm a bit of a rush! It's okay though, I can handle it!  This was just a little harder than I anticipated. We'll work on this better next time.

Apples

 Very challenging day with some things I'm dealing this wile focusing on pulling some other things too! No easy feat and not yet done! I got distracted for a while because my mind wasn't ready yet but I am back in form and let us do this!

Closed

 I made a wrong choice that aggravated something that gave me discomfort today. It sucks but hopefully tomorrow will be better. I don't want this to be an impediment because I have things to do. But I also see this in a way a means for me to take a pause and not go overboard. 

Foot

This one thing I'm working on is quite hard! Definitely a challenge to pull it off. It's fun to do but just difficult to pull off. I need to be in a proper mindset! And the humidity is not helping things!

Avoid

Crazy things happening and I'm avoiding because I don't want to get frustrated anymore. Nothing will ever change. I'm already out of it for so long. Just trying to survive the best way I can! I still keep a glimmer of hope but life thought me to manage expectations along the way.

14DA

 So glad I was able to finish this one, at least my part! This was the one I was stressed about for a few days but so glad I pulled through. I'm always for a challenge, I still have 3 things I NEED to accomplish but I can do this! Let's do it! Being busy also helped a lot for me not to get distracted with outside stressful events! 

Rolling

I was busy all day long and that I didn't check today's news so I was overwhelmed when I saw the news when I got home. So much chaos.  I didn't bother to check the full details because I don't know, the heat is making me feel a little off so I don't this kind of stressful thing in my mind! I can't do anything about this but just feel frustrated anyway!

Bohol

 My parents are back from a two-week vacation in their hometown (Bohol). I'm really glad to see how happy they are and they had a lot of stories to tell. They deserve it so much. My siblings, nephew and aunt joined them tool. I didn't because of work, and really I don't like vacations/travelling! I'm okay having an off day/break at home. Anywya, we picked them up earlier and it was my first time in over a decade to be in NAIA Terminal 3 and I must say it looks nice!

Splashes

One particular interest of mine is is another shaky stage again, I understand what's going on  but it just sucks. But I just have to ignore it because really what I can even do, right? Doesn't directly affect me anyway.  I need to choose things to get too focused on really!

Survivor 50

 Enjoying Survivor 50 so much and I find myself liking Rizo and Devens whom I didn't like in their first seasons but now I find them fun chaotic especially Devens, I really enjoy him irritating Joe lol I now kinda get why they cast Joe again despite a not so remarkable first season because he is a perfect foil to the outlandish personalities, I do think he is an all around nice guy but he is so mopey. I also get the Jonathan casting now too aside that he is the type Probst has a guy crush on, he has brought on more personality this season than his first, which was just a big athletic guy persona. I still don't find anything special on Tifanny for her to return but she's not a bad presence. Also glad Au bry's presence is picking and the girl I rooted to win in Kaoh Rong is felt now! And of course, Cirie even on her 6th season is still the star! She is just so good at keeping things interesting and you really just find yourself rooting for her yet again

[EXH]

 Okay, alright. Let's take it down a notch. Let's not make a big deal over the same thing again. I know it's hard but you owe it to yourself to protect yourself from getting frustrated over things you can simply let go. Oh Dear Lord, please guide me and make me strong to handle everything on my shoulder. I need guidance so I can stay levelheaded despite everything going on. 

Prodding

 I don't want to be annoyed at this point but things keep piling on and I'm already stressed over things that are inconsequential. What a waste, truly. But I can't speak about it because you can't handle the truth anyway and just turn things around and lean on nonsense superstitions. I am trying my best to control the pressure but you keep coming to mess up with my mind in a time that many things are bothering me already! Ugh!

Borbs

 Another stacked week, at all fronts. It's good, a bit tiring but glad to be tired about these things you know. I hope I can pull everything off nicely! Just remembered my mini meltdown over a month ago when I almost thought of doing something else! Good thing I just kept it in and didn't act out. 

Oushing

 I have this certain affinitity with a fictional character right now maybe because I could relate to it somehow. It's funny and yeah ultimately sad. Just one of those days again where I feel so strange yet again. I'll get over it. Let me wallow a little.

Two S

 So I got the energy to do it when it's a little late now! Silly me! Well, there's still time tomorrow but I could have finished it today but  I was a bit carefree! I do love making things more complicated than it should be!

530PM

 Read about a major change in some particular interest of mine. I get the logic behind the move though although it will be strange for it to do this after decades of it staying the same. But with the situation they are in, it makes sense. I hope it works out in the end, they deserve a reprieve

Bella

 Okay, I took a break today! Doing nothing of significance and even got hooked on a YouTube couple that the shorts algorithm led me to hahaha.  I usually avoid this type of vloggers that makes their relationship content because it feels phony but there was something about the couple that felt real to me so I got hooked hahaha. I hope my gut is right that they are genuinely in love especially since they have a child now and won't be like the other problematic YouTubers!

PHM

I made a choice which is ultimately responsible but still deep down I feel a little sad I had to table this stuff for later again. Just so many things I need to take care and it is also the financially sound decision. Rational call but I admit it's a bit saddening. But I'll get over it because overall picture it's not really a big deal! 

Tamam!

Things are coming in and piling up a little which is nice because we need to keep things stable. I have many things to do per usual and hopefully I can manage things better without sacrificing my well-being of course. 

49!

 Today my parents are celebrating their 49th wedding anniversary! Thank you dear Lord for blessing my parents  all these years! One thing I've realized as I grow old is that my parents are indeed a good team together and how they managed to raise us 4 children is so amazing. Hardwork, dedication and of course unconditional love! May the Lord bless my parents always

Ada and Bora

 Watched Twist of Fate's first episode on SolarFlix earlier and I'm just happy to see our dubbing work translate well on screen. I really enjoyed doing this project, it's  such a fun show! I hope they will upload it soon on Youtube so I can share! 

TettaTete

 I just finished listening to all the episodes available of the TettaTete podcast by former FM DJs I listened to before! I'm a big fan of Patty (DJ Kelly on Magic/Play/Max FM), one of my all-time favorites on the radio! I never realized how much I missed listening to her voice, both the vocal quality and the things she says, until I l heard her again after so many years! I love listening to people share their thoughts, especially now that I'm an adult. These kinds of introspective discussions about life hold a lot of meaning to me now!

LSPCON 2026

 I judged a student publication contest organized by my beloved Heraldo Filipino, It's part of the Lasallian Schools Press Conference that they are hosting this year! We hosted this back in 2007 too and was one of the first things I did as newly-appointed EIC. It was such a moment. Glad to be part again after many years. Campus journalism will always have a special place in my heart. 

Two Weeks

 Glad for a safe arrival and I hope they all have a safe and good time. Thank you, Lord. The next two weeks will be interesting to me as well and hopefully I can some things done and also get a little breather not gonna deny. But don't get me wrong, I do love what I do but every now and then I need some breather so I don't get all burned out that I could end up not being grateful in the end. I don't want to feel regret. I am okay with what is now but yes I hope for better ahead days ahead. 

Safe

 I'm getting worried but I know this is the right call. They deserve it and I hope all goes well and nothing stressful happens too. I hate myself for thinking a lot of negative things but I keep it to myself so there won't be unnecessary problems. Dear Lord, please keep them safe always

36 Minutes

 Just a little bit more and I'm done with this gigantic task. I had to extra effort because I was not in top form yesterday and I wasn't able to complete everything needed. But I do think I made the right call listening to my body! Better be safe than sorry

Good job

 After my mini meltdown (to myself per usual) yesterday, I felt a little sick today but then made me remember things I should be grateful for. And the cause of stress I had last night has been fixed and good thing I didn't act out in front of other people because unneccesary problem it would have caused! Anyway, I had to delay some things to do today because I wasn't in form, but tomorrow I'll be back. Needed a break (not even a full break, just took a breather)

Fight

 I'm tired but I need to keep on fighting. I'm stressed but I know it's something manegeable but the heat is just making things a lot harder. It elevates small problems to bigger than it is. It didn't help that I overheard some shady comments earlier too, maybe in jest, maybe acting out of recent events but it's annoying. Then I have a lot of things to do but I took a detour earlier because I was a feeling off then I had to do other stuff in consideration of others. One of those days...

Flight

 The next week is hectic, so many things that needs to get done in a quick manner and on top of that I have to take care of personal things which hopefully will be smooth and persons involved will have a convenient time as well. Thank you Dear Lord because despite my paranod, you hear my prayers, I'm  so grateful, please continue guiding us

IO

 Plot twist! I didn't expect that we will ever have something to do with then! Hopefully it's a good thing but I'm a bit wary about it. 

On Call

 Reading comments on Scrubs' Facebook page, a lot of people say they got used to seeing Neil Flynn as Mike Heck, whereas before they had a hard time seeing him as not The Janitor on The Middle. Honestly, same thought! The revival season is over, and I enjoyed it, but it was way too short, with just 9 episodes. Hopefully, we get 20+ again next season. For now, I will just binge the earlier seasons of Scrubs, which I watched on actual free TV (RPN 9) weekly back in the day.

Pilots

Joined Spotted Ratings community "Pilot" season, which is a little group activity where commenters pitch their pilot concepts and other users rate them later, and top scorers get an "order". It's a little silly on the surface but kinda fun to play armchair TV development executive when I score pilot premises over the years. This time I made pitches for the first time! It was fun and good brain exercise! Let's see how my pitches fair after the judging, ha!

Vibes

I've been wanting to get a massage for weeks and I finally got one today. A little bit of impulse move because I had one after work, I usually my routine and time set but squeezing that massage meant I got home a little later but it's okay. I really needed this one! I always getting a massage from blind masseause, they just do things differently! 

Artemis II

 I was not paying that much attention when it was happening because my mind is all distracted of some many things but today all of a sudden and watching reading about the Artemis II exploration. And I'm so amazed and also somehow emotional too? It really is something out of this world for me to think about deeply

New Suki

Now that the Mercury Drug near our office has closed down, I went to another branch that's also nearby.  It's a little farther than our office and I need to cross another street which is okay but the traffic light takes forever for pedestrians' turn! Anyway, that branch is smaller but at least it's not as crowed as other Mercury branches and it has my essential snacks I want. Convenience stores are more expensive, I want cheaper snacks! Oh well, I still miss the branch near us but that's life

Pantropiko 2026

 

Oh, I really love this Coachella version of Pantropiko! BINI did really great here, I'm proud that did so wel on such a big stage! I feel like this song will yet again regain popularity. It's such a good song and this version is another level.

20 Minutes

Just a little more push and it's all done. Hopefully tomorrow I can settle another one off my list that's been a little delayed but partially settled. It's a little messy and chaotic but I don't know works for me. But it shouldn't be like this always!

Thoughts on Malcolm in the Middle: Life's Still Unfair

 It was originally pitched as a TV movie and you could feel it!  Anyway, with just 4 episodes it was an easy and fun binge.

Episode 4 is the best of course, Malcolm and Lois confrontation while Craig is doing his business in the toilet! Crazy funny while having the heart of the story.

I liked Hal in general but he was too much in this one. Yes, Bryan Cranston became the biggest name after this show and he is first billed now but episode 3 when he was front and center was a bit painful to watch. He actually had more scenes than Malcom himself 

New Dewey is forgettable and I don't get why the character had to be 'remote' for ep. 4? Maybe they were hoping Erik Per Sullivan would agree in this setup?

Malcolm's daughter was good and funny and I wouldn't mind a series centered on her! The girlfriend is also a good character.

I also liked Kelly, the youngest!

There were less Reese than I hoped but his few moments were fun, Justin's comic timing is just perfect.

It was fun to see Stevie, Malcolm's other childhood 'friends', Francis' friends in ep. 4

While this wasn't fully satisfying, I'm still glad to see this family again and honestly I wanted more!

Grunts

 I went hard today on a specific thing and glad I accomplished it well. Now, there's more ahead I need to get done and hopefully I can make good progress tomorrow so the weekend will be not chaotic, we need to avoid that!

Metropolitan

 Some bad choices were made and I'm paying for it. Sometimes, I never learn! Charge it to experience and to aim for sounder decisions in the future.

First Look

 

Excited for this to finally grace local TV screens! I wrote the dubbing scripts for the first two episodes of Twist of Fate" and so excited to see it be alive on screen! It will premiere this Saturday 8 PM on SolarFlix!

Mid

 This is such a good interview mostly thanks to The Middle's Eden Sher's infectious energy. I love that Eden Sher still remembers they launched with Hank. The interviewer is a bit frustrating, he is kinda clueless on how TV works. Tidbit here was they were kinda tricked to do the Sue spinoff, Eden was not interested at first but she was told the producers wanted to later on she found the producers initially said no but they were told she wanted to do so. I just saw Netflix Philippines will have The Middle on their lineup soon, I'm in a for a rewatch, love that show so much

Rising

 Checked everything off my list! I really had the energy to do a lot of things on Easter day itself! Glad I was able to keep that momentum going so I can lighter load tomorrow. I do have to finish other things but at least some of the things are already done! Hoping for a bright week ahead!

Life is....

 I've been listening to interviews of Frankie Muniz and Justin (Reese) for the Malcolm in  the Middle revival, and from what I gather, it really is supposed to be a TV movie only and it looks like it was Craig's call to make it a 4-episode "event" . Frankie did say the 4 episodes are really just one continuous story and he said that the story left on a good note, that if it's really the last time it would be good place to conclude. But I think Craig wants a series revival, the show is popular overseas especially Latin America because the humor is so easily translatable to non-Americans so could be a good thing for Disney. So excited to watch it next week!

Blinking

 I failed to replicate the thing I did last year. But there's still some progress just not fully focused like last year, it's a mix of geting pre-occuping of that thing that hang over my head for many weeks and general feel laziness! But anywya, psyching myself again to finish this one!

One Minute

 Felt quite relieve the one thing I was anxious and almost made me make a big impusilve decision is taken care off already. Nabunutan ng tink as they say. I know objectively speaking it wasn't really that problematic, I just made mountains out of molehills but it's me. Anyway, tomorrow I need to do something that I held off because I was too worried about this thing that I can't focus on another thing!

Foresee

 Just as I predicted, oh well. I did make a correct choice today though but still this kind of stress / dilemma is unavoidable I guess. I'm trying my best not to get so affected by this because it is out of my control in the end. 

Long Day

Started my day earlier than normal for something which ultimately was disappointing. But I guess had to do it to kill the fire before things escalate. It made me sad as always but I just have to accept that this is it, it's not the end of the world of course and there are bigger problems so yeah, it's okay.

Mercury

 Tomorrow last day na ng Mercury branch na 'to near our office (the one connected sa Tropical Hut Makati). This branch is older than me and I've always loved its classic look tuwing nandito ako. Suki ako dito for buying medicines for Nanay (and buying snacks too!) na familiar na sakin ang staff dito. Very helpful and accommodating pa naman sila. I like it here kasi hindi masyado matao but I guess  that was a warning sign na struggling na sila. This area used to have a lot of foot traffic kasi sakayan ng bus and vans but changes sa routes that started nung pandemic and yung construction ng Makati subway (na hindi naman natapos) made them less accessible. Madami naman Mercury nearby but still this branch has a special place in my heart.

Petty Fun

 Today I unclogged and just did something that could be considered brain junk! It's fun though to not think about bigger problems because I will face that most of the time anyway. For my well-being, I need to have this kind of moments where I do nothing of important to recharge for another week ahead full of life's challenges!

Screen Time

 I caught up with my shows Abbott Elementary and Scrubs 2026 thanks to Disney+ Ha! I still have a few months left on the discounted annual plan I got last year and I'm gonna maximize it as much as I can! Back in the day I could really watch more but now my time is so divided with so many things going on but I will find time to relax! I need it!

In Line

Planning my next week with things I need to do. Really hoping my other concern will be attended to and it will go smoothly because I've stressed about that so much last time around. Anyway, glad things went good this week generally speaking. Hoping for brighter days ahead!

Pop

 I really hope the thing I was so worried about will be taken care off as soon as possible. Maybe as early as next week! Hopefully, things could run smooth, I just want some peace of mind or at least something less to worry about. I have so many on my mind I get all confused. So help me, God!

Stat

 Received some potentially good news. I don't want to jinx it but I really everything goes well so I have one less thing to worry about. Good thing I just let my frustrations to myself and posting it here on vague terms hahaha. Yeah, I needed an outlet and this is better than being outspoken. I was wrong with my initial thought anyway, the stress consumed me!I really hope things will go well soon enough!

Test

Next will be it, the deciding factor on what I should do next. Anticipating bigger stressful things but I need to be calm because I have another thing to think about this week too. Overwhelmed with so many stressful factors in my life. I wish there's a shortcut, to go to the good part already or just ignore these things but I need to protect my well being because I don't want to crash out

Diving

I'm getting confused again. I'm scared and also emotional about what could happen if I pursue it. All weekend, I felt like my decision is final then now I'm second-guessing again. I do know what could be better for me, but I'm getting cold feet again, and my people-pleasing nature is stopping me too. Oh dear Lord, please guide me.

Fotos

I've been thinking it over and over. I try not to be excited or make things up in my mind. Maybe I'll jinx it because nothing is happening yet anyway. But I need to do something, I need to protect myself, especially what lies ahead. Although I still need to give myself some space, because I could be just acting impulsively. But I want to trust my instinct now. I need to fight my fear. Oh, let's do it!

Several Months Later

As much as it pains me, because I like it and it gives me some comfort, but thinking ahead, I have to do something before I get dragged into a bigger problem on the horizon. It won't be this early yet because I need to prepare something to fall on, but I actually need to actively search for that something already because I have enough information to see that this isn't gonna work, and it seems to me that there's no better planning ahead. I hope something else happens that would stop this eventually but there's no other way but this. Oh Dear Lord, please guide me. 

ISTG

 Oh my goodness, I can't help but watch youtube shorts of these two actors promoting their show! I will sound like a giggly girl but they look good together and has great rapport. I don't even watch the show they are part of but just stumbled upon while scrolling away on YouTube. I just want some diversion so I guess that's why I ate this up hahaha

40 Toons

Tired. Trying to keep it together so I won't fall apart. Because no one is gonna catch me anyway. In the end, it will be my problem yet again. I just want to escape sometimes but I know it's futile because I will think about it again anyway. There is truly no escape. I just witnessed what could happen if I don't keep it together, so stay put and just take everything in. I'm just stressing out tonight and tomorrow I'll be okay before I go back this endless cycle.

Fair Fare

 Glad the supposed fare hike was vetoed. Yes, I know everyone is affected with the oil price changes but you see once the fare increases, they will never go back down anymore even if the crisis is over. I mean, the pandemic era where we pay to make up for social distancing is still in effect up to now in our area. No one complains because what's the point? It's just unneccessary stress. Oh, the life of the working class!

Hanging Over

 I have very tough thing to do tomorrow but let's do it! I wanted to finish it today but I wasn't able to due to some reasons, self inflicted admittedly. But I'm okay, I'm gonna do this, revving up!

98th Oscars!

Some thoughts on this year's Oscars!

- Love the Amy Madigan, Sinners and One Battle After Another wins~

- Not a super fan of Kpop Demon Hunters but I love the songs! You can't deny the pop culture impact leading to its win

- Not much surprises overall except for the tie in Live Short, that was fascinating!

Degrees!

 There has been much hype today because the weather is cold because what will happen when summer time actually comes? Will the heat be that intense? Maybe so but for now I will enjoy the cool breeze!

Orders

I love the cold weather is back! Cold but not raining so that's perfect for me! Drawback is that it makes me feel lazy and do nothing of importance! But maybe that's okay! I'll think about that tomorrow lol

Caterpillar

 Here we go again, another jam-packed next few days! But this is what I want of course, and hopefully things will run smoothly this week had some slippery slopes, and partially my fault, but I will make things better this time. I need to.

Project

 I'm interested with the movie PROJECT HAIL MARY and yes the book too! I just want to be transported again to another world like I used to before. I need to get back to that and not get drownd with life's challenges. So hopefully I can push with this!

Arranging

 So I got things done while I was watching Scrubs season 1 in the background! Yes, the revival/10th season made me revisit the first season on Disney+ For some reason, I was still able to understand what I'm watching while doing a task that normally bores me because it's tedious and repetitive but I guess having my brain focused on something else helped? It's fascinating really!