Compatible

Really happy for some good stuff coming in but as always hoping for more to keep things stable. It has been a rough year but I have faith we will recover from this and back on a more stable phase. Manifesting that

Broken

It's hard to keep your composure when things don't work one after another. No breathing space sometimes. I can't lose my cool because it will lead to further stressful things and well no one's really at fault, just simply unlucky

400

Raining again, not as hard but still a bummer. It kinda ruined my day, but I had some good news earlier, so I will let that simmer! Hopefully tomorrow is a brighter day, literally! It's just hard to do some particular with this kind of weather!

74 minutes

Yesterday, I wanted to finish something but my body really called for rest and I listened! Now I was able to finish that thing, whew! It was a little hard but as always enjoyable. When your body is rested you could do more! So yeah, let's move forward with this mindset!

39

 I turned 39 today. Time flies. I still remember when I was 29, and I was thinking about what my life should be in my 30s. Well, things turned out differently but still very grateful because I survived; I learned and gained a whole new perspective. Thank God fort that!

Eternally Underground Diner and Roses

 Third straight day of accomplishing something vital! I allotted the weekend for another big thing so hopefully I will be able to pull it off. Maybe I can do it one day? But I won't push myself that hard of course, let's see how tomorrow flows!

You Were There

 I was on a nostalgia trip again today! And rediscovered this song Five Candles (You Were There) from Jars of Clay! The song takes me back to a time, nothing specific, but an atmosphere where it is just so different. I don't want to romanticize the past so much but sometimes you are just in the mood to look back and search for that lost feeling.

Your Love Amazes Me

 It's been for a couple of months already and it's been on regular rotation on my Spotify playlist but then I heard this randomly on radio one day and I liked it even more! It's a throwback to their early hits and sounds so nostalgic that hearing it on radio amplified the feeling! Just reminds me of wonderful, fuzzy, innocent feelings of my early youth!

Binges

 Binge some shows lately

Leanne Season 2 was so short and the last episode didn't feel like a season much less a series finale.

Adults Season 2 so enjoyable and again so short! They don't really have a strong overall narrative but it's funnier than season 1 (which started annoying to me then grew to love it)

And I finally finished Hacks, what a good final season. I enjoyed The Amazing Race episode so much! Jean Hacks deserved another emmy for the clown bit! And I have to say Hannah Einbender was so good, I was annoyed with her on season 1, so Gen Z cliche, but she gets better each season and funnier too! And her delivery on the monologue questing AI was sooo good!

Breeze

 I had a good massage today at a place that's a little fancier than usual. I availed the neck and shoulder massage for 30 minutes because it's what I can afford to be honest but also I also have sore shoulders lately! It was good! Planning to save so money to get a full massage next. I badly need it!

Nightmare

 Seeing the devastation of the flash floods in Nepal is terrifying! I can't even imagine the horror the people who experienced it there. It is so devastating. A true nightmare. I really hope to never experience that kind of tragedy ever.

Nap

 Raining hard again today and because of that I took an afternoon nap. I don't feel super relaxed though after that but still I won't fight the urge to sleep. My body calls for it, I will listen to it! Not getting younger anymore, turning 39!!! next week! Time flies!

Visualizers

I've watched the visualizers videos of the Eurovision Asia: Philippine Selection Night finalists and it's cool to see how the performers interpret the songs and I can't really wait to watch them perform it live this Sunday! I hope this becomes successful so it will be annual thing!

Scheduled

Another challenging weekend, but I can do this! I do feel some body muscle pain/body aches so hopefully I'll feel better soon and quick because I have things to do! But I'm happy today because there was some good news; hopefully it picks up and things get even better so depsite some personal stressful things I'm dealing with, I'm happy there's something to smile about although those are far from over but I take every win I can get. 

Movie Magic

Gen Alpha kids get a lot of stigma as iPad babies and brain rot consumers however I still believe the power of long-form production like movies will still get them eventually especially as they expand their social circle growing up. Maybe I'm a fool to be optimistic but at the height of the pandemic there was that narrative that moviegoing will die na sa millennials with Gen Z more into social media and short form content on Tiktok buto this year a lot of the box office hits this year on a global scale were powered by Gen Z support. I've online forums seeing Gen Z getting interested with the big screen experience although there are criticisms as well at their behavior are too noisy, takes screen photos and uses phone on screen. There's still a lot to work on but for me at least the magic of moviegoing is still being kept alive! 

New Place

 

I will miss their old location! They have been there for decades already but looks like the site will be demolished so they have to move but at least it's somewhere near! 

Swatch

 There are good things coming in which is a relief after that very stressful stretch. I'm always afraid I will jinx it because I'm so paranoid. But I need to relax! Calm down, things are at least okay and maybe looking up! We'll see!

PDF

I was reading a discussion on Reddit about counterfeit books, and I was taken aback by some people rationalizing that it is okay. I don't like the idea of other people making money illegally from someone else's hard work. If you feel conflicted about this, imagine that you are the one who created something but someone else is making money off the thing you worked hard for; is that okay with you? Writing (or liberal arts in general) is not considered a career where you can make a living, and if support for counterfeiting and piracy keeps increasing to the point where it's normalized, the craft gets even more devalued. 

Ought

I've been reading a lot of job/career-related subreddits, sometimes I give out advice especially new graduates asking questions in the "should I accept this job offer with only this salary" lane and I always say that unless you are a breadwinner or you can afford to wait to get the job in the salary range you want, then go take it because you have to start somewhere and get that experience as soon as you can. I've been noticing a lot of generational divide when it comes to asking/negotiating salaries for new graduates/entry level jobs and while I'm all for getting the ideal salary in this economy but you also have to be practical, yes we should demand for better but the reality is different and sometimes you have to compromise to reach a stepping stone that could potentially lead to somewhere better.

Bananas

Gen Z is often criticized for being too soft or for pushing back often, and honestly good on them. Sure, it's a case-by-case basis, and life in general needs compromises, but if they can hold on and fight for what is right and ideal, I won't hold it against them. I wish I were like that sometimes, but it's too late for me. I'm too tired of everything to push back, just want to avoid stressful situations as much as I can because I've been through a lot and still dealing with so many things that always test my tolerance and patience, It's diffcult living this way but as always I gotta power through because basically I have no choice. Well, maybe there is but the aftermath of taking that road will also be hard on me. So yeah, it is what it is.