The second half of 2021 has started just like that. Everything still feels slow. Everything is still bleak. I'm not sure if I have adjusted with the current situation or I'm just going through the motions. I am trying my best to not fall completely to hopelessness but it's really hard to do so. I'm just incredibly frustrated from personal matters to the state of my country. I do remind myself constantly that my life is still generally okay. It truly is but I just feel incomplete. There's a missing piece or maybe even pieces. While listening to a podcast doing work, there was a topic about if you could turn back time what would you do? I've asked myself that question. What would have I done differently?