Jump!

And another one came in! It really keeps on pouring! We are a little overwhelmed but again  this is a good problem to have. I'm also loaded for things to do but no complaints, this is what I want. Prayed for this for so long. We did lose something big and honestly a source of pride but God opened new doors and I'm reallly thankful and grateful!

Casting

 Whew! Finished something quite challenging but definitely enjoyed it! There are more days like this ahead and I will cherish it. This is what I wanted and I'll make the most out of it because I do really need this as every weekend reminds me so! But it's totally fine, this is so much better than the miserable state I was in a few years ago. I don't want that. I can deal with this better and it's just simply a much comfortbale situation. Thank you, Lord! 

Hot and Cold

The weather is so chaotic! Sometimes hot, then it rains and it gets cold again. The kind of weather that makes you sick. Two weeks ago I felt somewhat off which is not a good thing because I have many things to do and now I've recovered from but the weather changes could lead to things. Hopefully not! Today, I decided to take a break and continue what I need to do tomorrow so I'll feel refresed and not push myself too much. Health is wealth!

Waffle

 And there's more coming in! It's a bit stressful but a good problem to have! I'm elated that I treated myself to another fruit shake but this time with a waffle! I really hope this new store will do good business because their products are good and can compete with big brands! Anyway, another busy weekend ahead! Let's do this! Thank you Lord for everything! I prayed so hard for this!

Shake

 I was sad when the long-time Zagu store near our place closed this year. It's my favorite shake, especially now that the summer heat is here! But I was so happy to see a new fruit shake shop open in its old space! It's a fresh fruit shake so healthier choice as well! Tried it for the first time earlier and solid for its price as well. I hope this will store will last!

Creme Brulee

 I finished working on something really challenging! I need to work on more things too over the next few days. I was thinking of doing some work on the other stuff I have in the queue, but hey, I need to remind myself to take a break as well. So tomorrow I'll be more energized to focus on so many things I need to work on. I've been praying for this for so long so that's it's finally happening I need to make the most out of it but not sacrificing personal time as well! I can do this, whew!

Pouring

Oh wow! After a significant time of drought, things are really pouring in! It's so many, it's hard to keep up with them. It's a good problem of course but still tricky to handle. But I'm very happy though because I was really so worried because of the dry spell. Now, ready to face everything! 

Handlebars

 I watched MYX International Top 20 over the weekend. First time in so many years! This song is a new entry; I instantly liked it the first time I heard it! I love the groove of this song, it has a hynoptic effect on me. I've listened it to multiple times on my commute to work and going home! Yes, as I typed this I'm listening to it!  The power of music to really get you in such a good mood despite some stressful things bothering you!

Sounding Board

 I'm used to being a sounding board but sometimes I feel stressed about it because I feel their stress and anxieties but I know they to vent so I just let it in. Life can be overwhelming so it's nice to unleash that inside of you. I do that here on this blog all the time. Sometimes when I reread some of things I put out here, there's a lot of nonsense stuff or to vague or whatever. Like I don't get anymore where was I coming from when I wrote that, hahaha! But oh well, this has been good way really to get myself in order. God knows how much I struggle each day with intrusive thoughts and having to trauma dump here once in awhile helps to keep me in check. 

Spoons

For the first time I ever I bought a spoon set for our house because for some reason we are running out of spoons! I don't know why on earth are they missing. We used to have a lot! Then suddenly we find ourselves missing spoons come meal time. I feel like some of the people are leaving it somewhere. We actually have kitchen utensils here hidden somewhere and only used when there are visitors! You know that Pinoy thing. I just find it funny that I'm really at this point of my life that I'm in charge of this kind of things now! But then I remember I'm in my late 30s already. Sometimes it still doesn't sink in to me. 

Highly Disappointing.

 Some things are simply inescapable and no matter how hard I try to avoid it, it's not just possible. It's simply everywhere. I'm really just more disappointed in how other people react conveniently forgetting other hideous things that happened. I would never truly get how could you just gloss things over. Oh well, I have given up about this particular matter long ago because I've accepted things have gone so deep, there's no going back anymore. I just chose to focus on my personal life, things I have control over. But sometimes it still seeps in, that person I am that I just want to set aside because it just leaves me frustrated and angry. Feelings I'm just trying to avoid. 

Overpass

 I have been so busy with work! I love it so much and although it gets a little overwhelming at times I think I managed it better now. Relieved that I didn't get distracted with stuff that would just upset me this time. I just need to focus on things directly relating to my life and loved one

Salonpas

 I'm in my Salonpas era! Feeling some muscle and body aches all over now. Well, I'm turning 40 in 2 years, so why am I surprised that these are happening to me now. I need a massage again, and I am hoping to squeeze it on Friday like last time!

Assist

 I've worked on a dubbing script for a mobile short drama for the past 2 days. Episode length varies from 2 to 4 minutes. It had a total of 80 episodes running over 2 hours. The story is so outrageous but can't deny they know how to hook you like triggering the viewer with how despicable the villains but you wanna see the protagonist triumph and get revenge. It's so basic but it knows the market well. Anyway, there are more things to do on the horizon and I'm glad!

Timeline

Whenever I feel awful, I dream of another life I could have had. Don't get me wrong, I'm okay with what I have because any absence of extreme kind of stress is good enough for me but well whenever I hit a bump every now and then I do fantasize or rather idealize a life I don't have and just see on others. I know reality isn't the same but let me dream, sob internally then I'll be okay after. I just have to let it out so I won't find myself crumbling deep inside. I know I will have many of these moments down the road but it's okay because I always think of a scarier scenario so I can appreciate dealing with upsetting moments that is just a blimp in the grand scheme of things. I don't want to repress what I feel so I do this, ramble here because I just need a way to get this all out of my system. 

Adolescence

 Just finished watching ADOLESCENCE on Netflix and it's one of the best I've seen in a while. I've been shying away from watching anything depressing lately but the trailer and the subsequent reviews piqued my interest. It's just 4 episodes but what a gut punch. It's so affecting and absolutely riveting. Episode 3 was so riveting and seeing how Jaime tries to control the situation but eventually slips up is just surreal and disturbing how a kid could do such a thing. But his rage was just so intense and scary that I really how it overwhelmed the psychologist in the end especially his reaction when she answered his final question, if she liked him and how she had to switch to her professional tone because it was necessary but she knew it was gonna be a blow to him. Episode 4 is good in showcasing how the family of a suspect could be so affected that even trying to make things normal is just hard to do. And the last few scenes of how the parents were figuring out why he did it and how culpable they are because "they made him" was a gut punch. And the scene in the room, all the pain! I understand why some won't like especially since it is not really constructed like the usual crime show, while we know the answers now but it's not directly said and there still things that were left unsaid like where is the knife etc. The last episode I could see it being divisive as the first half was just a slice-of-life and nothing really significant happened.I personally like the approach though because it felt more lived in but I get if there are people who won't

Unnecessary

I could have avoided it if I wasn't rushing things so my fault but still, I'm like this because of things that influenced me to be this way. It will pass I know but for now, I feel so terrible. That's why I try my best not to avoid this kind of stuff happening but there's always a slip up. If they could do their part and be considerate and let things go especially if it is just a small thing. I wish I didn't get bothered easily because it's such a heavy feeling but I'm so uncomfortable when stuff like this happens. I'm so tired of this but I knew this is how my life goes. Them realizing how I've been affected is a pipe dream. 

Hilot

I had a good back massage today after such a long time. I only did 30 minutes because I don't want to be stuck in payday weekend rush traffic but it was still good enough to alleviate some of the stiffness I felt the past few days. I always like getting massages from blind masseuse because their pressure feels more apt. Anyway, planning to have a full-hour session soon so I  can relax even more!

Hug

 I've lost hope that people will see what's really wrong about certain things. It's incredibly frustrating but what can I do right? Just move along and focus on my immediate concerns in life.

82

 Another one came in! So thrilled because this is what I want and drives me to do better. I'm kinda wishing for more to come, not gonna lie but hey the stuff coming is good, really good. At least it will keep calm as there will be stability for the succeeding months. Thank you once Lord for hearing my prayers.