Abay

 Finished one more thing to do and kinda received a compliment! It feels good to feel a little bit validated in what you do. I'm a bit messy, but I always strive to do well in this niche I found myself in because I do really enjoy it. And when people take notice, it feels so great and keeps me movin

Abi!

 Worked on the dubbing script for the pilot episode of SolarFlix's latest Turkish drama Recipe of Love, premiering tonight at 8PM! I really worked hard on this project and proud it's finally airing!

25 Years

 I became a sounding board again but glad to be one though. We need this person to be strong for us and if unburdening to me will help, so be it. It is hard to absorb all the anxiety and stress but I always try to be supportive without being patronizing. Oh Dear Lord, please guide them and let them be strong despite the challenges. Please guide me as well because I need to be strong so I can be the one who they can feel safe as well. I can't afford to panic in front of them. 

House

The MMK episode this week about two siblings killed by someone their family took in is so unbelievably tragic. I looked upon their story and seeing the post of the mother meeting the actor who played their late son broke my heart because you could see how she felt somehow connected to his son again. So heartbreaking I stopped learning more about the real story. I can't take it.

Everyday

 I have another goal this weekend and hopefully I won't fail this time and I get ride of any disturbance that would stop me from progressing. I was able to finish some stuff today so all good! After fulfilling some responsibilities the past two days, I need to strive to more to keep things comfortable. It's tough but it's my honor to do this for them. I can deal with this as long as they are all safe. I mean ALL OF US are safe and away from harm. That's my everyday prayer to God. 

Pinch

Almost did something I would have regretted because I had that thing clouding over my head again. I didn't push through because of self consciousness and paranoid, It's a good thing though but sometimes I can't believe I could still be suspectible with those things

Relief

I accomplished a lot today which makes me really happy! I refreshed my list to do and it's still jampacked so that's so good. Hopefully, it stays that way although some of the things are slowing down now. We do need some space to breath so it's fine but of course please don't be it too much, just a healthy flow for everyone's benefit!

Same story

 I'm exhausted but partly self-inflicted. Sometimes I do so well managing everything but there are times like where it's all so messy. Some things because I need to help out and others because I choose to do non-valuable to take a breath but it goes on too long.

Precinct 54

 I usually don't like standing in lines but tinatyaga ko talaga kapag elections. I mean, even nung nag register ako to vote 20 years ago ganun din ang dusa sa pila back then. There were times I asked myself if it was worth it because politics was just so frustrating, but then again, this is my right, my privilege, and I will exercise it.  Earlier this morning, I helped Nanay prepare to go to the precinct at 5AM because senior citizens can vote that early, she's always very excited to vote and will always remind us to vote no matter what. Hopefully, I could have that kind of enthusiasm in the future because it is definitely hard not to be jaded these days.

Messy

Two weekends in a row of self-sabotage. I need to get my act together again. I'm taking some steps to lessen the load and choosing what favors me more. I feel a little guilty, but I'm just swamped to be patient anymore. And there's so many things I need to handle and I'm afraid of messing up big time.

Vote

 Elections are on Monday. I'm trying not to be hopeful and be realistic with the likely results. I'm a bit tempted not to vote and just go the office and enjoy the aircon! But yeah I value my vote, even if the results don't go my way. Whatever happens, I need to get my voice heard even if it is just a single vote. 

Pope

 As a Catholic, I just want the new pope not to spread hateful rhetoric. I know there won't be progressive views because let's be real but just be a kind person and promote that

Double

I'm in a difficult situation of trying to be supportive as they deal with anxiety. Man, it's so hard not to fall apart but I can't be that person that will give them more stressful triggers. I need to be strong for them too but it gets frustrating as some of the pieces of advice I give I feel like goes nowhere because they have been consumed by anxiety. How can I make them feel better when deep inside I'm deeply terrified. Lord, please guide us, heal our terrified souls. 

Like a Glove

After all is said and done, I'm grateful that I'm doing something I really like. I just stumbled upon this world because I was looking for something else because what I had then, while some had benefits just didn't click with me.  Of course, there are still things left to be desired, but now looking back, this is really a good fit for me. Even though I had moments when I wanted to move on, circumstances just kept me from doing so. After all the stuff that happened to me in the last 5 years, to be here is a truly blessing. I've been through some personal stress lately but it had become my refuge even though there were challenging moments. I feel so grateful. 

Shoulder

 I can't believe everything is happening all at once. How could I handle all of this then? I don't know what to do anymore. How can I focused on other when there are so many things happening that I can't stop. I can't fall part, I can't lean on to anyone. Lord, please help me.

Wanton

 What a day, really. I was once again tested. I had my meltdown but I contained to not affect others because that's another stressful thing to deal with. But despite all the stress, glad the worst scenario in my head didn't happen. But I feel it's gonna be a long ride, may God help me deal with everything because it's so draining but I do things for love no matter how hard it is. 

Power Through

 Lots of things are bothering me that I need to muster energy to get things done. I'm worried of so many things but I need to set them aside or else I won't be able to move better. Oh dear Lord, please guide me. 

Hundred

Tomorrow I will drag my brains out again! I will regret not doing it like today. But right now I feel okay about it and jus let some junk out of brain and hopefully this will give the recharge to do better tomorrow once I have unloaded the nonsene!

PDI

PDI  was the first company I applied for after graduation 17 years ago. After months of waiting, I didn't make it. Four years later, I tried again, thinking that I could make it because I already have job experience. I actually received a job offer, but I had to decline it because the pay was way too low, and leaving my current job for that was not financially worth it. If it were 20-year-old fresh grad me, I would have accepted it in a heartbeat but my situation was different, my perspective changed and I understood "the real world" the adults were saying when I was in school. Still, it made me sad because it was letting go of a dream. Anyway, I'm glad the physical newspaper will still be around because it is still a good source of news and information. And there's something I can't explain exactly about it, but printed/tangible materials have a different effect as a time capsule.

Extra Mile

It's been challenging lately because I need to balance a lot of things and learn when to take a pause as well. So far, I've been working it out, but it's eating a lot of time and effort on my part.  I need to learn how to balance things. But still, glad to have this to worry about than have nothing.