Video Stop

 One of the rare instances where the YouTube algorithm suggested something truly worthy! This story of how a Video rental owner made a very kind gesture for a loyal customer with special needs is truly touching. There's so much hate and nastiness in the world right now that seeing a story like this will still make you believe that there are still people who are truly kind.

Tricycle

I always need to stay alert because I need to cater to whims and stubbornness. I'm tired of the same cycle really. I was about to say something about it, but I stopped myself because it would fall on deaf ears. I knew the reason why it is this way and frankly I'm tired but there's nothing I could do but try to balance everything and not fall to further stress because I will just lose. 

Lotus

 I've been watching The White Lotus Season 3 and while this season had some disappointing part but at least the finale was engaging. There is stuff I can nitpick, but at least it was not boring. And at least one casualty was justified! The best moment though is the great thought provoking monologue from Carrie Coon's character about times changing and how we find what keeps alive in as we grow older. So relatable and affecting!

Preach it

 I usually restrain myself from commenting on other people especially acquaintances on their hot takes posted on social media but this particular one just got me. Constantly posting bible quotes then you see commenting with such vile language, the total opposite of what they are preaching online (and I think offline too.) Just frustratingI know this person is nice in general, but how can they really go to such lengths now and lose their composure over this? I'm so frustrated and sad but this is how things are and I can't do anything to change it. I've given up but even though I just want to ignore things and just my mind own business but I can't help but feel this hopelessness whenever I encounter something that reminds me how everything has changed in nearly a decade. 

Solo

 There's a hot issue right now that just makes me ponder things. A lot of people still know what common decency is and yet with this particular popular person, a lot turn a blind, get defensive and make  excuses. It's frustrating to witness how that person really changed things. It's just so abrasive. I give up and just try to do focus on things I'm directly affected but somehow I still can't help but be affected with how a lot of things has changed for the worst. 

Steve

Saw a box office tracking report  that says Minecraft movie has a shot to open to 200M worldwide. I am not surprised if it will reach that point because Minecraft is not just a game but basically a community for teens and early 20s today; they grew up with this. Sure, there was a lot of snark when the trailer came out, but I always had a feeling a lot of those would still watch because it holds a special spot in their, call it nostalgi I guess! 

Go, go, go!

 So many things are happening, it's insane! But this is kind of busy schedule that I am craving for months and now it is happening! I'm loaded and it's gonna be hectic but bring it on! Hoping it will stay consistent all throughout the year!

Ahead

Things are good but I'm already planning to secure myself in case it gets slow again. I'm so paranoid I know, but better be safe. I still feel I won't get into something I like to be in, but things are just loaded now, and I can accommodate all that I want. Who knows, maybe I could eventually squeeze myself in, but I need to fix some things first and finish everything I have on the table. Again, really happy things are going OK so far and hope it continues furher.

Ola

 I almost came to returning somehow to a thing I really liked but it was not meant to be! A little sad but it's fine because there are so many doors open to me and I'm grateful for that. Who knows maybe I'll find myself on that road again. 

Jump!

And another one came in! It really keeps on pouring! We are a little overwhelmed but again  this is a good problem to have. I'm also loaded for things to do but no complaints, this is what I want. Prayed for this for so long. We did lose something big and honestly a source of pride but God opened new doors and I'm reallly thankful and grateful!

Casting

 Whew! Finished something quite challenging but definitely enjoyed it! There are more days like this ahead and I will cherish it. This is what I wanted and I'll make the most out of it because I do really need this as every weekend reminds me so! But it's totally fine, this is so much better than the miserable state I was in a few years ago. I don't want that. I can deal with this better and it's just simply a much comfortbale situation. Thank you, Lord! 

Hot and Cold

The weather is so chaotic! Sometimes hot, then it rains and it gets cold again. The kind of weather that makes you sick. Two weeks ago I felt somewhat off which is not a good thing because I have many things to do and now I've recovered from but the weather changes could lead to things. Hopefully not! Today, I decided to take a break and continue what I need to do tomorrow so I'll feel refresed and not push myself too much. Health is wealth!

Waffle

 And there's more coming in! It's a bit stressful but a good problem to have! I'm elated that I treated myself to another fruit shake but this time with a waffle! I really hope this new store will do good business because their products are good and can compete with big brands! Anyway, another busy weekend ahead! Let's do this! Thank you Lord for everything! I prayed so hard for this!

Shake

 I was sad when the long-time Zagu store near our place closed this year. It's my favorite shake, especially now that the summer heat is here! But I was so happy to see a new fruit shake shop open in its old space! It's a fresh fruit shake so healthier choice as well! Tried it for the first time earlier and solid for its price as well. I hope this will store will last!

Creme Brulee

 I finished working on something really challenging! I need to work on more things too over the next few days. I was thinking of doing some work on the other stuff I have in the queue, but hey, I need to remind myself to take a break as well. So tomorrow I'll be more energized to focus on so many things I need to work on. I've been praying for this for so long so that's it's finally happening I need to make the most out of it but not sacrificing personal time as well! I can do this, whew!

Pouring

Oh wow! After a significant time of drought, things are really pouring in! It's so many, it's hard to keep up with them. It's a good problem of course but still tricky to handle. But I'm very happy though because I was really so worried because of the dry spell. Now, ready to face everything! 

Handlebars

 I watched MYX International Top 20 over the weekend. First time in so many years! This song is a new entry; I instantly liked it the first time I heard it! I love the groove of this song, it has a hynoptic effect on me. I've listened it to multiple times on my commute to work and going home! Yes, as I typed this I'm listening to it!  The power of music to really get you in such a good mood despite some stressful things bothering you!

Sounding Board

 I'm used to being a sounding board but sometimes I feel stressed about it because I feel their stress and anxieties but I know they to vent so I just let it in. Life can be overwhelming so it's nice to unleash that inside of you. I do that here on this blog all the time. Sometimes when I reread some of things I put out here, there's a lot of nonsense stuff or to vague or whatever. Like I don't get anymore where was I coming from when I wrote that, hahaha! But oh well, this has been good way really to get myself in order. God knows how much I struggle each day with intrusive thoughts and having to trauma dump here once in awhile helps to keep me in check. 

Spoons

For the first time I ever I bought a spoon set for our house because for some reason we are running out of spoons! I don't know why on earth are they missing. We used to have a lot! Then suddenly we find ourselves missing spoons come meal time. I feel like some of the people are leaving it somewhere. We actually have kitchen utensils here hidden somewhere and only used when there are visitors! You know that Pinoy thing. I just find it funny that I'm really at this point of my life that I'm in charge of this kind of things now! But then I remember I'm in my late 30s already. Sometimes it still doesn't sink in to me. 

Highly Disappointing.

 Some things are simply inescapable and no matter how hard I try to avoid it, it's not just possible. It's simply everywhere. I'm really just more disappointed in how other people react conveniently forgetting other hideous things that happened. I would never truly get how could you just gloss things over. Oh well, I have given up about this particular matter long ago because I've accepted things have gone so deep, there's no going back anymore. I just chose to focus on my personal life, things I have control over. But sometimes it still seeps in, that person I am that I just want to set aside because it just leaves me frustrated and angry. Feelings I'm just trying to avoid.