Please, Please, Please

My head is a mess right now while on the outside I looked perfectly normal. This is just driving me so anxious that I'm torn whether I want this to get over with or I want to remain it a mystery, ignorance is bliss as they say. I know that this is essential and I just have to face it. I have to be strong if my my fear actually happens because I can't afford not to do so. Oh Dear Lord, I'm so scared. Please hear my prayer.