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Next week will be one of those weeks that I dread but mainly because of my own self-inflicted fears. I hope and pray everything goes well.  I try to mask my anxiety by distracting with other things but you really can't escape those things, you just have to deal with it. 

Thank Goodness!

 Feels good to do something that met my goal. Hopefully, this streak continues but learning how to balance things as well these days has been improving as well. But of course I still need to persevere and eliminated bad habits that have been such an impediment!

Red

 Things are just not going to be okay. That's why I can't be complacent because there's always something that will come that will make me anxious again. I try not to worry about it too much but I can't help it. I hope this one is just something that's not too serious and that I'm just being a nervous wreck like usual. 

Hybrid

 The final season of Sweet Tooth is now out on Netlflic! Translated 4 episodes of the final season for Filipino dubbing and really enjoyed the show and left me wanting for more! But it did have a good conclusion and really quite mature for a show branded as children. 

Vessel

 I was finally able to close this one that have been quite the struggle for me the last 4 months, mostly my fault because I got lazy at times, I got so messy but no to the point that it became a total disaster. The next set for this one will hopefully not be that soon though because I need a break from it so I can freshen my mind! But always grateful for everything.

Vida

I think I saw something that might be a mistake but hopefully it's not! I hope it's a door to another opportunity for us. I just want to feel more secure really. I am always worried that things could go wrong.  I just don't want to be complacement. 

Rooms

Something I knew was coming was finally confirmed today. Quite a challenge but excited for something new to do. I'm a little bit annoyed because I was trying to help someone out but he didn't seem to be into it or lacks the focus to do so. Oh well, I hope the person realizes what he needs to do here. 

Mines

 New month and hoping for more blessings to come and also less stress in life of course. This week had been quite fruitful and hope to keep the momentum going as I welcome another weeek. Thank you Lord!

Karera

 I've seen videos of graduation songs lately using BINI's Karera. Such a fun song to do on a special day for the graduates. And the meaning is quite apt, especially for college graduates. Life is indeed not a race but it's really hard not to feel like it is so whatever boost you need to hold, do it. 

Pacing

I struggled at first this week but I turned it around and probably had my best output in a long time. Still have some goals to meet but so glad to end the month on a less chaotic note. Next month, let's make it smoother!

Next Again

 Something I dreamed of doing and hoped to start once again didn't pan out. I didn't even try. Oh, well. I hope there is a next time. 

Designs

Good to know some things are clearing up now. Still need to work on some stuff but and I still do give in to some of my worst tendencies but it is improving and I will continue to my best to have a less chaotic flow!

School

 My nephew graduated junior high school. In the old days, he would be entering college the next school year but it's now senior high which I think is fine really because he basically just had 2 years of real high school, as he spent his first 2 years online school due to the pandemic. And I also do think 18 is good to enter college, although I know a lot of Pinoys are bemoaning the fact of another two years, I get the concern but I do think it is a necessary change that will have long-term benefits. Anyway, time flies really because his elementary "graduation" done at home and on Facebook due to covid is still fresh on my mind.  

67th!

 Happy Birthday Nanay! Thank you Lord for always guiding my mother.

12 years ago

 

Mighty Little Man

 Young Sheldon returned in our Netflix Top 10 here (Philippines). Maybe it's finale publicity even if the final season is not out on our Netflix yet but it did receive quite some coverage on local online media. US shows don't really do that well here compared to the dominance of Korean dramas and anime. And if some manage to breakout, it usually is a Netflix original megahit, very rarely do acquisitions do that well in our market, some would appear on the week it was added as House did. YS is also the same but it stayed #1 for a while and was in the top 10 for a few more weeks before it dropped out, so for it to return to the top 10 again is interesting to me.

I also found out my nephew, the same age as Iain Armitrage, had been watching it on Netflix. My nephew doesn't watch US shows really, he's more into anime youtube videos about minecraft/roblox. He actually wasn't aware of Big Bang Theory until I told him and now he plans to watch it after YS . So seems like YS is really catching on.

Racoon

Today felt like quite lazy. Just one of those days. I was still able to do things but not to the best of my potential but it's okay. Not a total loss!

Frog

 I struggled yet again but ultimately made it through. It's kinda crazy really but I'm totally learning as I go along. I hope I'll be able to do better the next few days and not mess up anymore. 

Vibes

 Once again I feel tired that I'm finding ways to boost energy. I just want to avoid unnecessary stress but why do the surroundings keep on poking things. I'm exhausted with it all. I don't want to be ungrateful but I just feel annoyed that I can't get some peace of mind. Yes, it could be worst I know but sometimes even little things can get you if you are tired. 

7

It's nearing the anniversary - weird to call it that - of the big mistake.  In a way, I need to experience that because if I didn't I would probably still on the tunnel and probably could have done worse. But it still sucks remembering that one. And also sad because the root cause of that mistake was something - I couldn't find the right words really.  I really hope to not commit that mistake again.