Difficulty

 It never ends or evolves. It just repeats and gets worse. I'm trying to keep it in but boy it's so hard. Trying to keep the faith but I'm struggling real bad. I always need to reminede to be grateful that the darker route was avoided. But I'm wondering if this will be it, neverending stress for all of us. Lord, please help me to be strong

Can't Focus

 Struggling to finish something maybe because it ain't needed yet, maybe because the holiday lazybug is biting me, or maybe I just lack the passion. I don't know, I want to finish this fast but there's always something that ruins my focus. Some due to my own volition but some like right now because of a recurring problem that will probably never go away

I Do Mind

That mistake is haunting me once more because of another blow lately. What a mistake I made,all because I wanted to feel something I'd never felt before but in the end, it was not worth it. Good, I pumped the break before it got even more problematic. But still that mistake continues to haunt me as I struggle in life 

Hanging

 I didn't do something I was planning to do because it's not immediate. This will likely give me stress later but I just need something to take my mind off things again so next week I'll be ready again to face the world's endless challenges!

Mixed

 I was expecting this but seeing it confirmed a while ago was still a blow. But I always try to look on the positive because there are things that to be happy about and I'm grateful to that. Bawi next year!

Rock Paper Scissors

 

Worked on the Filipino localization for Squid Game: The Challenge and I genuinely enjoyed the show as well! I love the new games Battleship and Circle of Trust. And the winner was the person I was rooting or as well

Liter

I had an unnecessary cause of stress because of my own insistence on being in the know. I hope I didn't really didn't start any trouble and I'm just overthinking things again. Argh. Lesson learned.

Calm

 It has not happened a lot recently so when there is less stress, I cherish it because you don't know for how long. I hate to think this way but I need to let it out to process everything I feel. I wish things could be okay again. Rather, I pray for it every single day. But I take it one day at a time and glad for a night like this.

Care

 How can I give it all? I'm very exhausted. I'm tired ot it all. But I can't give up. I don't want to give up. But it can't seem to stop. It never stops. 

Just a few more

My long queue is about to be done finally but my eyes are giving up so yeah I will just finish tomorrow instead! Because I can not deliver something substandard. I do feel like I'm not handling this stuff well because I'm doing a lot of things that I don't have to but I was just being too nice I guess! Anyway, tomororw it is!

Speed

 Just a few minutes and I will finish! And there was an obstacle that I needed to control. It's so hard really how to control everything in your power. 

Muster

 I have things to be happy about but the feeling of sadness over some aspect of my life is overwhelming, I  wish I didn't feel this way but I already do. I hope to get some boost soon because I don't like feeling this way

March

 Struggling to finish something I could normally do without a hitch. It's because of some recent news that's making me lose enthusiasm about it. But I need to power through it and make things happen

Good News

 I've been so down lately that to go home to some good news is such a treat. It's still far from over but it's not what I'm fearing about. I hope things from hereon will be on the right track. 

Straightforward

 Problems at home. Now problems at work. I can't catch a break. The last time I had a difficult Christmas season was over 10 years and I survived. Hopefully, I survive this again. I've already decided not to go to the Christmas party this year for the first time ever. Simply because I don't want to go home late anymore for various reasons.I  just don't want the stress of holiday traffic to add to my mounting pile of stressors. 

Jaded

 I was on a bus when the earthquake hit this afternoon so I didn't really feel it but then again I had a lot of things in my mind that I probably just didn't notice it. So many problems. I'm having a hard time.

Great Story

 I'm not really in the holiday spirit but I always look forward to the ABS CBN Christmas Station ID song to boost my mood somehow and yet again, they didn't miss again this year

Pile Up

 I have so many things on my mind now. I can't focus at a time that I really need to. So many things troubling my head. What a pain. What a miserable life I have now.  And this being the holiday just adds more sadness because there's just nothing I can feel excited about. There's so much dread. 

Sit Still

 Made a mistake and let my emotions get the best of me. It's hard to stay patient under this circumstance. Some of the pressure I feel is self-inflicted so I have no one to blame but myself and now I affected another person along the way. Oh Lord, this is really hard but still thankful for this chance and I really hope I, we, can find a way to balance things out and not suffer from the pressure of it all

Canvas

 Busy weekend ahead, I need to pull off a semi miracle but hey let's do this! I need all the concentration I can get. I set myself up for this really and was at fault too because I let myself get distracted but can't afford to do so now. I really hope I can make it work