Caps

Gloomy weather coupled with that restless feeling due to multiple things. I just can't help but feel a lot of despair. But I have to hold on. I need to hold on. It's really hard not to lash out, but I don't wanna to stir more issues, so just let it be and keep things inside. I'm just frustrated when one can't see their own fault, maybe you do but you keep on justifying it with so much nonsense.  It's a terrible feeling and situation. I wish this were just like the movie when a heart-to-heart would lead to a realization and then change would come in. But that's not the reality, people most of the time don't listen and just want to stick with whatever trap they set themselves to. Incredibly frustrating and kills me inside little by little.