Pacing

I struggled at first this week but I turned it around and probably had my best output in a long time. Still have some goals to meet but so glad to end the month on a less chaotic note. Next month, let's make it smoother!

Next Again

 Something I dreamed of doing and hoped to start once again didn't pan out. I didn't even try. Oh, well. I hope there is a next time. 

Designs

Good to know some things are clearing up now. Still need to work on some stuff but and I still do give in to some of my worst tendencies but it is improving and I will continue to my best to have a less chaotic flow!

School

 My nephew graduated junior high school. In the old days, he would be entering college the next school year but it's now senior high which I think is fine really because he basically just had 2 years of real high school, as he spent his first 2 years online school due to the pandemic. And I also do think 18 is good to enter college, although I know a lot of Pinoys are bemoaning the fact of another two years, I get the concern but I do think it is a necessary change that will have long-term benefits. Anyway, time flies really because his elementary "graduation" done at home and on Facebook due to covid is still fresh on my mind.  

67th!

 Happy Birthday Nanay! Thank you Lord for always guiding my mother.

12 years ago

 

Mighty Little Man

 Young Sheldon returned in our Netflix Top 10 here (Philippines). Maybe it's finale publicity even if the final season is not out on our Netflix yet but it did receive quite some coverage on local online media. US shows don't really do that well here compared to the dominance of Korean dramas and anime. And if some manage to breakout, it usually is a Netflix original megahit, very rarely do acquisitions do that well in our market, some would appear on the week it was added as House did. YS is also the same but it stayed #1 for a while and was in the top 10 for a few more weeks before it dropped out, so for it to return to the top 10 again is interesting to me.

I also found out my nephew, the same age as Iain Armitrage, had been watching it on Netflix. My nephew doesn't watch US shows really, he's more into anime youtube videos about minecraft/roblox. He actually wasn't aware of Big Bang Theory until I told him and now he plans to watch it after YS . So seems like YS is really catching on.

Racoon

Today felt like quite lazy. Just one of those days. I was still able to do things but not to the best of my potential but it's okay. Not a total loss!

Frog

 I struggled yet again but ultimately made it through. It's kinda crazy really but I'm totally learning as I go along. I hope I'll be able to do better the next few days and not mess up anymore. 

Vibes

 Once again I feel tired that I'm finding ways to boost energy. I just want to avoid unnecessary stress but why do the surroundings keep on poking things. I'm exhausted with it all. I don't want to be ungrateful but I just feel annoyed that I can't get some peace of mind. Yes, it could be worst I know but sometimes even little things can get you if you are tired. 

7

It's nearing the anniversary - weird to call it that - of the big mistake.  In a way, I need to experience that because if I didn't I would probably still on the tunnel and probably could have done worse. But it still sucks remembering that one. And also sad because the root cause of that mistake was something - I couldn't find the right words really.  I really hope to not commit that mistake again.

Receiving End

 I'm tired of being the absorber of every bad feeling of others. I'm not the one to blame others; I try not to panic anymore and to be as patient as possible. But man, it is hard. It never ends. That's why I am what I am now. Not confrontational. Avoiding drama. Avoiding stress. I have enough that will last me a lifetime. 

Sink

Uncomfortable moment again. But I'm just thinking now it could have been worst, so this is just a little better I guess. It happened a lot of times but it always make me feel so uneasy each time. 

Jumps

I haven't seen a movie in a theater in such a long time. It's a mixed of not having the time and also saving up money. But I do hope to catch one movie anytime soon. Just to unwind and get immersed again. I probably need that to recharge! It's pretty clear that my attempt to do productive stuff 90% of the time is not really ideal as I do still get overwhelmed and I act out by procrastinating so you know I just get myself into more mess. I need to find the balance. 

Bazinga

 Watch the last 2 episodes of Young Sheldon, the penultimate was really good and touching. The finale though was nice but felt a little short and had the feels of a season rather than a series finale. Nevertheless, I enjoyed watching for the past 7 years. I'm gonna miss it!

Living

 After two days of being very focused and busy, I let myself be distracted but I snapped my head back at the last minute and did what I should have done today! I still have some things left to arrange and hopefully, I can make it all work. The past 3 months really were such a challenge to me. I struggled, I managed to do things right, I repeated mistakes. I pull myself back again. It's been such a crazy ride and I'm hanging on. 

Snuck

 Tomorrow is another day where I also felt too complacent but I should not be. I need to be prepared for anything, especially the ones that scare me so much. It's been this way for the last few years but the fear never changes. I sometimes tend to forget about it and I freaked out everytime I realized that I did. I'm scared of being too comfy because something unexpected may happen. It's difficult living this way but I live one day at a time. 

Escargot

Another struggle today to finish something but I felt something off today so I'm going to try again tomorrow. This always happens when I did something more consistent then the next is a struggle to start. Hopefull, tomorrow will be alright. 

75 minutes

I was able to finish something today that was not easy but I have another urgent thing which I just found today that it was urgent! I should have made some advances over the weekend but oh well I always find myself in this kind of situation but well this is a good kind of problem to deal with. But I do really want to be less chaotic though and I hope to get that soon. 

Mother's Day

 I am just so grateful to the Lord that Nanay is still with us. Everyday I always pray for her good health. My life totally changed but just seeing Nanay happy with some of the small stuff I give her or gestures, makes me happy. More Mother's Day with her please Lord.