Ipo

That one thing is done. I have a full plate so far but that one thing is still lacking and I'm really about its status. I love having that one because it's so enjoyable to do and something I can actually brag about! But looks like it's over and what sucks is that we don't really control what's gonna happen because we are not in direct access. I hope I was just wrong and something will come up next week. Please.

Dance in the sky

 I just finished working on something that I feel a little ambivalent about. It is a little easier than what I used to do but still what does this mean in the long run? So that's why I'm very worried especially since I have a feeling that it could be over already with the changes in the past few months. Hopefully, I'm wrong and this is not the end of this one because I love doing this, so please I hope it will continue

Projects!!

 Two of the Netflix projects I've worked on are streaming already! First I did the dubbing script for Saving Bikini Bottom; The Sandy Cheeks Movie! I also translated the songs here, it was so fun to write for a Spongebob project
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Meanwhile, my first Filipino Audio Description project, the local movie Lolo and The Kid, is also available too! I really enjoyed doing an Audio Description project and I'm hoping for more!

29th Floor

 Work has been suspended for the past 2 days because the building caught on fire. Our floor wasn't really affected but safety precautions and such. And it's been a doozy two days, to be honest. But I'm handling getting caught in the middle of stressful stuff better this week though than in the past. I just want to be less miserable in my life and just appreciate what I can so I can have peace of mind

Yolo

 My country won a second gold medal in gymnastics! After a heartbreaking gold medal match loss in boxing at the 1996 Atlanta Olympics when I was 9, I hoped for at least one bronze for each olympics that came after but the drought was so long until in 2016 with a surprise silver in weightlifting. And now 2 editions of not just having golds but the country finishing with at least 4 medals, it feels so surreal!!!

Sick and Tired

 I have to be the mediator, the spokesperson, that one who needs to diffuse things. I'm so burned out of feeling this way, worried but also feel annoyed when I should not be because these things are not planned or anything but I can't help but always feel this way whenever I face setbacks like this in my life. Oh Lord, please help me be strong because I'm so weak. 

Sundae

I've been struggling hard dealing with mood swings by others. It's hard to defuse tension and unreasonable demands, making things more complicated than it needs to be. Then there are other unnecessary misfortunes adding up to my already full plate of stressors. It's getting hard to be stronger each day but I always try my best to be one even if deep inside I'm so broken.

26

Now something has been announced and I'm nervous that this won't be going our way because before we already knew beforehand but we are now clueless! It does not help that we are not in direct communication with them as we are just on a lower tier level but still very essential. I really hope this won't be escaping from us because I've been looking forward to it but I'm getting nervous

150

 Made a stupid mistake that could have been avoided if I were more conscious. It's just a small mistake in the grand scheme of things but nonetheless, it is so annoying and led me to feel a lot of resentment which I should not have so I'm letting this one go and will take the L on this one.  I'm generally a loser in life anyway!

Filter

A lot of things happening at the same time and tomorrow will likely be another soul-crushing moment. Hopefully, it won't be. But I'm trying to manage expectations because the air of negativity has been overwhelming lately it's so hard not to get sucked in.  I did manage to avoid some things that would bring me unnecessary stress!

Pen

I sometimes wonder what my life could be if I'm not weak-minded. If I think more about myself. If I were more audacious. If I don't feel guilty easily.  If I don't evade discomfort. I hate "What ifs" but I always fall into that trap. Especially when I feel so frustrated with my present. I wish I wasn't the rock. I  wish I wasn't the glue. I wish I didn't take the initiative. I'm tired of taking in all the negative energy because no one else will. 

Fly

 The last thing I need, there's already too much as it is, and yet it keeps pouring in. I'm so exhausted already and yet you can't speak up because it will not alleviate things but will just make things a lot worse because you know at this point there's no way people will see eye to eye. That's why I would rather be alone as much as I can. Because in solitude I can find even for just a moment peace of mind. I know it won't last but it's okay too much solitude will make me anxious about things outside my own self-imposed bubble. I'm whining I know. But I need it because if I don't put this bottled up emotions out there, I will go insane.

Bound

 I have a lot in mind right now, and then I let myself get drawn to things unnecessary in my life that cause me stress. It's not worth it to get my headspace where there are many things I need to fix and handle. I should have not room for this kind of nuisance anymore. I need to focus on things that matter. 

Judith

 Maximize my time today which is good because well I always get messy during weekends. I was able to balance things and duties. Hopefully, I can keep this up. A balance of responsibilities, productivity and some brain junk food is needed to be a well-rounder person and not fall hard to one's anxieties!

Row

 Here I go again. Thinking of so many things. You want to know but you don't want it to be confirmed. It's really so chaotic and stressful. You want to balance what your gut says and what needs to be done officially. It's nerve-wracking because you see some signs but you don't want to take the plunge. Then there's another matter bugging you. My life in the last 4 years has been nothing but this endless cycle of anxiety and worries.  That just when you think things are OK, you feel that this is too good to be true. 

Shorts

Facing increasing stress again. I don't want to feel this frustration because at the bottom of it it's all abou caring and looking after out of love. But I feel a sense of struggle because I am facing so many things to handle, it's so overwhelming! Do I still have the mental capacity to handle all these load? It's incredibly soul sucking. 

Downpour

 Work was suspended today because the typhoon really hit Metro Manila hard! It's been awhile that a typhoon of that gravity happened again in this area. I like a cold weather but typhoon really is stressful, I could tolerate the intense heat more that happen this year. Weather is just so extreme these days

Truck

 Rainy weather. Some inconveniences and dampened spirit. But it's nothing, there is something to be happy and excited about. That's what should I should focus

160

 Yeah, no matter how smooth you try to cover all bases, there's always this mishap that you will always get the short end of the stick. It's so annoying. I'm freaking tired. I want those involved to realize it on their own because despite doing all your best, you still get that awful treatment. They should know better how to treat things better. Speaking up to deaf selfish ears won't matter. A lose-lose situation so what's the point of fighting back, setting things right. Just bury deep inside like what you always do, right? Just pretend you didn't get hurt. Maybe you'll finally feel free without guilt. Without worry. But this is not it. Just bottle it all up and divert attention. That's what you always do anyway, right? Maybe someday you'll get the appreciation you deserve, Maybe it will be all worth it in the end. Maybe

Cuts

 I'm exhausted looking after things. I don't want to feel this way because the alternative is much worst given how I am such a paranoid person but I'm just perpetually tired. It's something beyond my control even if I try not to feel it but I just can't help it. I feel trapped because even if I try to escape the guilt and fear will linger on so there's no sense of peace anyway. I have no choice but deal with these things every single day. Last year, I tried to do an escape and just led to bigger consequences. So yeah, just sit down and deal with it.