Avatar!!!

 My nephew which is basically the same age when Avatar came out told me he's gonna watch Fire and Ash. I was surprised, he's not really into movies ever since he became a teenager (video games is his life) much less watch something in a theater! Apparently, he watched the first 2 movies on Disney+ and wanna watch the third to have the theater experience of the visuals. I do wonder if a lot of the roblox/minecraft teens are interested in this because he told me his online game friends will also watch. If I think about it, this movie certainly appeals to the world-building that the Minecraft/Roblox generation likes.

Subside

 When the going gets tough I tend to forget things but now after learning of another sad moment, it reminds me despite all the setbacks, I really should be grateful no matter what. It's still better than what could have been. I always need to be reminded because when I get overwhelmed I really go on a spiral internally speaking. 

Bummer

 Another setback, not that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things but still something I felt bad. My fault too as well, I was too complacent yet again. I need to do better next time! I have to!

Down

Felt really sick today and the power went out in the afternoon. It was a rough afternoon. Hopefully things will be better tomorrow!

Bull

 Finished something again while I'm a bit under the weather. Tomorrow, I guess I could rest?  But in some kind of momentum so I want to go on and take advantage of it. But not, let's pause. I still have things pending for next week so need to recharge. Hopefully my sipon goes away soon!

13th

 Nearly done with something and I still have a few on my list to finish as well! I'm actually in the mood to do it all! Received the blessings today! Well, it's still not the same as before due to mitigating circumstances but I understand, as long as we survive. Better days ahead, claiming it!

I Don't Want to Jinx it...

 .....but I'm so happy that today didn't turn out the way I feared! Things got a little worrisome earlier and I even question myself many times on what to do but eventually I did the right thing and thank you Lord for some good news. Of course, as always, I can't rest on my laurels but still so grateful for this! Thank you, Dear Lord

Partners

What I thought was potential bad news was not the case. Yeah, sometimes I'm just too paranoid! But nice to be wrong although what's to come is still a challenge but at least it's not an actual scary thing I was conjuring up in my mind!

Choi

 Worked so hard again today but I did get help which is a relief really. Glad to know I have someone I trust who can help me out. I wish could do more for this person, though if I only the means to go beyond. Anyway, next two days, I will face some challenging situations. So help me God. Internaally, I'm so tired but gotta keep marching on

Absorb

 Some things never change. So repetitive but oh well I'm afraid a chage could also bring me stress! Can't win either way! I  just deal with things the best way I can at the moment!

Up Ahead

 The next 3 days will be hectic. I wanted to do a headstart today but I hold it off. Hopefully tomorrow I can maximize everything so things will be less frantic and chaotic! And hopefully some good news too! 

You Go!

 Busy hectic day! I slacked off a little at the start but at least I pulled myself together and went ahead to do what is needed! There were some annoying disturbance earlier on but I tried my best to be patient and went to continue! And now I'm close, let's go1

Here Again

 I got bothered again about something that is not connected to me personally but I'm attached to because it is sort of a passion. I hate being bothered by something that's so inconsequential in my real life but I can't help it. I need to detach again from that because I don't have the capacity to engage in something that causes me unnecessary anxiety on top of my real anxiety-triggering incidents!

#SpotifyWrapped2025

 As a music chart geek, #SpotifyWrapped is always a treat. I like the presentation this year! I like taking a peak at my listening stats! They have this new "Your Listening Age" feature and they mine is 18 because I listen to mostly new music but then again my top album is a Westlife album from 20+ years ago so much for that listening age ahha! My top podcasts have two audio/radio dramas because Nanay loves listening and she does marathons of this every weekend when I'm at home!''

Paper Charms

 A little annoyed but also concerned. I have to support while I'm so worried about a lot of things. I really need to stay calm because others depend on me to be the cushion. I understand the situation but I admit it's exhausting to do a balancing act. To stay low-key so others won't be to privy on you. It's hard but gotta march on.

Vessel

 See, that's why I never want to feel happy because I know it won't last, there's always something that will spoil it one way or another. There's always a catch. I just can't feel stable, every single day something will happen that will annoy me, hassle me, frustrate me, worry me. I know that's how life is and others had it worse so I have to be grateful, but even taking those into perspective, I can't help but feel so much despair even if matters that shouldn't be a big deal. I don't know how I can fix it. It's so tiring kiving this way. 

Love, Joy, Hope

 It's December! Trying to get into the holiday spirit by listening to the new ABS-CBN CSID song. It's a tradition. It's not as good as previous years to be honest but it grew on me and ABS CBN CSID songs always have that charm no matter what that still helps me get some holiday spirit despite the many worries in my mind! 

Kutitap

Hey, there! It's December tomorrow! I wish I could feel the same excitement I had but oh well I long accepted it will never be the same. But we put on a lantern at our house today, it was a hand me down from my brother's boss. It's an expensive lantern and it looks lovely. It brought some magic but then some things just gave me another sinking feeling. Oh well, let's go and move on. 

Zumba

 Always finding an issue to get worked up on. I am so tired but hey gotta put on a brave face and and pretend not to get affected by the endless barrage of ranting and feeling victimized.  Oh well. Another day, same dillemma. 

Shade

Yeah, beginning to see some problematic patterns. Still generally nice, but I've been seeing the loopholes here and there. I also feel like they are constantly seeking trouble too when they could avoid it. Unfortunate for me because I am trapped in the middle of it all. No where to go. Just need to soldier on as always. 

Pup

 Only 15 minutes left and I'll check off one thing on my to-do list, I have two, actually 3 more to do. Come on, let's do this. I really need it badly! I'm just annoyed because there are underlying things that comes with pushing to do this. I made accommodations for the last 3 years or so to my detriment. Recently, I chose to put my foot down because I've had enough of the unnecessary stress that I have to face. Hopefully, nothing will happen to force me to do it again. 

Environment

 I'm getting stressed absorbing other people's stress! Why do I have to be this person who people are comfortable venting their worries, annoyance and grudges! I totally get it, people need an outlet to speak their heart and I appreciate that they trust me but it's getting too much and I'm afraid I will snap at them one time and say don't make things such a big deal! I don't want to happen. Lord, please help me be strong mentally and emotionally, it's so hard. 

Juggle

Oh, so many things to do this week and I hope I can accomplish them excellently! Things will be overwhelming, but this is what I wanted anyway! So let's go and do it all! But now I have to sleep to recharge!

Kevin

 Listened to a very good episode of the podcast Heavyweight (Kevin). It's about two long-lost friends who finally got in touch with each other again. Both had difficult and traumatic childhoods but their childhood friendship held them together. What happened all those years when they got separated abrupty was quite riveting to listen to. They were open and vulnerable when they were telling their storie and it really left a huge impact to me! I will listen to it again!

By Proxy

While doing my weekly palengke run, I bought on a fish stall that I haven't tried before because my usual sukis are jampacked with people and this one had no one it so might as well try and while the vendor was cleaning he asked me if I'm the brother mentioning my Kuya's name and when I confirmed it, he suddently gave me a discount. That's quite nice and yeah maybe I'll buy again next week!

Flash

During moments of impatience and weakness, I try my best to get over it quickly because I'm scared that I'm neglecting the present so much and things could go worse so I should be thankful. I really am. Especially every once in while I will see things that really makes me sad and scared too. I feel like that it's some kind of reminder to me to be appreciative and not give up no matter what. 

Bare

 So without planning to do I became totally honest someone moments ago. Something I've been keeping for so long. Something that has been torturing me for quite some time. Let's just say I pushed myself to do things because of pressure. I felt free. There's a tinge of worry too but at least I spoke my mind. What I truly feel. May I make better decisions soon. 

Wild Boar

 Glad something pulled through just when I needed it the most! As the year is nearing the end, really hoping for more good news! There has a lot of things that stresses me out on a daily basis that I even other people's negativity so I really needed a win, any kind of win!

Keys

 Saw something where I'm interested in  pursuing but I can't due to other factors. It makes me feel bad but I don't want complications. I do wonder though how things could be better for me if I can pursue it but then again I know it entails a lot more and given how messy my mind had been, might not be good fit. 

#16

 So all day I've been so paranoid because of this mistake. I really hope I'm just overthinking per usual and nothing really awful happens because I don't know what I will do if it happens. Really praying hard for no repercussions.

Bite and Chew

 And now I'm worried again because of me getting to complacent, I opened up a possible problem. But I worked hard for it not to happen but my time management was a mess so yeah it got messed up. Please, don't let this be a big problem. Lesson learned for me not to allow myself to carry so much burden just for other people to feel better. Yes, I can help but learn my limits. Oh dear Lord, don't let my fears happen. 

Tree

 Christmas tree is now up at our house today. I wish I'm still that kid who feels excitement over the holiday. Just not the same and  I know many adults feel that way. Just sucks. But I won't be a grinch and try not to let negativity feel my spirit. I have things to be happy and grateful for. I should be thankful for that. 

Stark

 I finally said something I've been keeping for quite some time. It felt good to be honest and  I hope I was understood. I overcompensated on some things plus I tried to please people to my detriment. Hopefully, things can get better. 

Don't Dwell

 If I flip out for real everytime I feel stressed or frustrated, the world around me will crumble. Or at least that's how I feel it. I'm tired of people choosing to be stressed rather than letting it go and focus on thing that will alleviate that negativity. Yeah, it does not really solve anything but at least you don't make yourself miserable. It's so frustrating!

Usury

Excited to work on some new things soon but still hoping for more. And this is me after doing a LOT of this the past weeks but it just isn't enough to maintain things and be stable. Also, hoping to squeeze in some personal leisure time soon, I deserve it!

Pole

 What you don't know won't hurt. Ignorance is bliss. Yeah, they are true. But still being aware that you are aware of something looming but you just want to look the other way is terrible too. No winning option. Suffering all over. You just have to toughen it up because there's no other option. Face it. Deal with It. Be strong for them. 

Skated

 I held off the truth. Okay, I lied. It's to protect them and me too. But I'm know I'm just delaying things but there's no point in making them worry now because they don't handle things like this well. It sucks really but I have to balance everything. But I really hope and pray things will get better. I'm trusting my instincts here. I really hope and pray this is right. 

Reliable

 It was quite distressing to be without electricity for 5 hours just when a typhoon was about to hit (no hard rains here but strong winds). The data signal was not stable as well but texting and calling were working fine.  The battery powered radio kept us updated and it really has some comforting effect to me. Yeah, modern technology is so convenient but never count out on how old tech can still be reliable in times like this so I don't take them for granted.

Standby

 It's gloomy and raining but thankfully not on a supertyphoon level. At least not yet, but hopefully not. Heavy rains are scary, so I really hope and pray that things will not be as terrible as they could be. 

Dracula

 So near yet so far away. This big burden I got myself into is nearing the finish line. I enjoy doing it but it's so time-consuming because I want to do it well. I wanted to help but then I realized I got myself into this mess because I let negative energy seep in and made me to do this thinking it would alleviate some burden but I passed it to me and it's too late to change course. It's been a chaotic every other week, I could have done better handling this but I got messy and lazy. Lame excuse but this is such a big lesson to me. Be carereful next time. I did it this week when I beg off something that would cause me so much stress! So hopefully I handle things better from now on. 

Uwan

 The images of the looming supertyphoon coming to the country is quite scary! Hopefuly, it won't really hit hard. Today's weather is good but you see I'm scared that it is the calm  before the storm. I have a lot of things in my mind and scary weather will add up to my anxiety! Oh dear Lord, please protect us. 

Andalucia

 Listening to IV OF SPADES' new album ANDALUCIA and as the kids say NO SKIPS! I love every single track! My favorites are Konsensya, Monster and Nanaman! But seriously all 12 songs are great!

Ways

 It's hard to deal with people's temper and anxiety. How to balance it so they don't go overboard and for me not lose it. It's very difficult to manage, really. I want to give up, but I can't. I don't want to feel it over and over again but it's the cycle of life I guess. And I was again reminded how the worst thing didn't happen so I should be grateful which I am really. I feel guilty sometimes too because I feel tired and I don't think I should feel that way. My life is such a mixed bag. I just want stability in all aspects but I know that isn't how life works. Lord, guide me. 

Fails

A bit annoyed that some things can't smoothly but since beggars can't be choosy so what else to do but endure as always. Make things work as you can. It's getting stressful again but hey let it be, 

Josie

 Watched a 90s romcom on streaming while doing something else. It's not really a tightly written story, it's so basic but it has its charms and that 90s vibe just makes me happy because well it just takes me back to a period of time, a period of innocence, a period of wonder. It will never be the same again but from time to time, it's nice to be reminded of that time. I totally understand what the adults were saying when I was kid when they reminisce the past.

Hear Say

 I'm in a rabbit hole of what happened to British (and adjacent) pop groups in the late 90s and early 00s aka my pre/teen era of loving pop music. Just interesting to go back in time and find out what happened to these groups because for most of the time they had hits here in my country, I just knew the songs and not the story. Which is probably for the better because this is era of parasocial relatioships with celebrities just ain't good!

Online

 I just stumbled this special feature on Canadian TV about exploring the internet 30 years ago when only a privilieged few can access it but the expert said some things here that actually happened today especially "content creation"

Ctwice

I was quite tired today and there's still a lot of things do still. But it's fine, I can manage. Hopefully, nothing untoward happens this weekend because I have a lot on my plate yet again! Plus, endless worries too. But yeah, I can manage. I will. 

Camera

 It has been release for a over a month already and it didn't caught my attention the first time but suddenly when I heard it again, it clicked to me It's not catching on unlike previous Ed Sheeran ballads, maybe because it's a new generation of young listeners but this song is just magical to me now!

Coin Purse 2

My more than a decade old coin purse is still missing and probably not gonna be seen! Gotta move on so I "bought" a new one which is the Mercury Drug coin purse which just cost me three SUKI card points! I hipe it's sturdy too!

Need

I'm worried. I'm scared. But I'm holding it in because I really don't have a choice. I don't feel resentful because I'm doing the right thing but it really is just scary. Oh dear Lord, please hear my prayer. 

Scramble

 I know this will come but still went with it. It was quite chaotic but I still made it somehow. More things are coming in though so I better pull myself together and be in a proper headspace to make it all work!

Flatter

I made a mistake taking this up because I just don't have enough energy for this to continue but I need to pull through and make it work. I need to speed it up because I don't really gain much from this aside from creative benefits! I dunno, it's just so hard! Kicking myself right now

Quezon

 I wanted to watch QUEZON movie but just don't have the time to squeeze it and frankly a bit hesistant money wise but the recent confrontation of the grandson of Quezon and the filmmakers on a Q&A sessiona after a movie got my interest to see it! Let's hope I can find the time and energy too to catch it

Chariot

 Westlife released a new song Chariot and I really like it. I love the Irish touch then it sounds quite adult and please without trying to replicate their past success from decades ago. So nice!

Mess

 I'm so annoyed once again. I can't really catch a break; always something chaotic happening that shouldn't be happening in the first place. I'm so sick of this but can't do anything about but let out a big sigh. Once again, I remind myself that this could have been worse, so put me in perspective. I'm so exhausted but will continue to march on. 

Enveloped

 So many things I fear in my head right now. My thoughts go overdrive and I'm now thinking of worst case scenarios. Oh please Lord, I hope those negative thoughts will never happen. I'm so scared so I try my best to do other things. 

K....

 At least it got noticed but somehow I feel in the end they will make it all about them in the end instead of looking out of others and doing some changes to not affect others with such negative atmosphere. I doubt it but one can hope. 

Coins

My coin purse is missig. It has a few one peso coins in it but still that coin purse has been so sturdy for over a decade. I hope it is just here somewhere in the house. I thought I kept in on my small bag that I used on weekend errands but when I checked that bag when I got home, it's not there! I really hope I just misplaced here it at home 

Table That

 Hoping for a good week ahead. There's something that stressing me out for awhile but I just decided to just let things be and face whatever is on the horizon. I trusted my instinct with this so hopefully I'm not wrong. 

Catch Up

 So I watched some TV shows like High Potential, Only Murders in the Building and Abbot Elementary! All on Disney+ because I took the 70% discounted annual plan a few months ago! I definitely enjoy watching shows again after being focused on other things or distracted by things I see on YouTube! Hope to have more time for this again

Double Meet

 So glad something that I thought was a lost cause is still alive! And twice the blessing! So glad we get some win and came in the right time. Hoping for more and more and more and more!

Counted

 Quite glad to see something pay off without me really asking to! Thank you, Lord! Made my day! Made me feel appreciated. So glad I didn't have to say or ask for it and let the work speak for itself! This is just what I need really because I've been quite a mess internally speaking although I always hold it together on the outside! More good news please!

Strands

 Technically free and I feel sad again because it's drying up again. I wish some of the stuff I worked hard for would reap something, anything because I just need it to keep on going. *sighs* Hoping for better days ahead because uncertainty always stresses me out. And I also have to deal with something next week that I've been stressing and torn about too. Oh dear Lord, guide me

Reap

I hope someday I could really reap the awards of this hardwork. I'm not complaining because I put myself to this willingly and I actually enjoy it but I can't help feel that I'm a bit shortchanged. I fully understand the circumstances and I'm happy to help so all I wish that we'll be in a better positon that I don't have to do this or at least get some good things to come my way?  I'm frustrated and hoping things get better.

Stay In

 I do often wonder what like without baggages is? Don't get me wrong universe I don't wish the worst and I know this is still better than what most people have. But when you are always on your toes anticipating bad vibes to spread in, it's hard to live without so much negativity feelings surrounding you. It is an unpleasant feeling that I wish I am free off but I know it's not possible and nothing ever changes.  I'm tired as per always.  I just need to vent so I can feel better inside and outside.  It's been really painful in more ways that one. But I need to survive. 

Yeah

 As always, I needed to get some push to get things done quickly. I've been stalling and almost thought of doing a mistake yet again because of how frustrated I was! I saw some signs but ignored then I had to suffer yet again the brunt! But at least it was not the total misstep yet again. Thank goodness!

100+ Weeks

 Tired of everything. Exhausted of everything. But I can't lose control because who would else would suffer but me?  Constantly reminding myself that things could get a lot worse so just be grateful of the present that, in the grand scheme of things, is still okay. I acknowledge that. Grateful for that. But I'm just simply burned out. In all aspects. I just need to let this out so I'll be okay when I face the world. I just need a space to just let it all out so it won't me alive. 

Outlet

 There is one constant thing that's really making my life such a pain but I just gotta give in because standing up is not an option if I want a relative peace of mind. It's simply not the case for me. In a way I understad the root of all this and I wish for the same outcome but I know the odds are just not in favor and the consistent hope is just making us lose more. The particular party is well aware of that but chooses to cling on to that one little chance it gets through. I say encouraging words but nope deep inside I know it's just a waste. But I want to be proven wrong, I desperately want to because I would benefit too right and end this one thing that's making my life extra annoying, extra inconveniet, extra painful. I'm in such a miserable state right now.  I really hope and pray things could get better. It has to. 

Extras

 I just try to shove things down because speaking up will just add to unnecessary stress. But I'm having a hard time with the never changing attitude and have the audacity to say some guild tripping things that please one of the things you do is also an unnecessary burden! It's too much! But I can't say it because drama ensues. I always try my best to be understanding but when hearing such hypocrisy triggers me. But there's really nothing I can do but just deal with those things. I'm so lost.

Spinal

 Down in the dumps yet again! Feeling a lot of restless, worry and anxiety. I can't concentrate then I will rush things again when adrenaline is high. I just feel so off again, I need something to give me that energy again. Or I'm just giving excuse to my lame behavior. I really don't know. 

Bordering

 I still feel so bitter about losing that one and them getting that. I honestly believe we did well but it's really out of our control. It really sucks because it was such a sense of pride and now it's gone. It's hopeless but I sometimes I still dream that it will come back hence I still work so hard on that one particular thing because maybe they will reconsider? It's been over a year and yet it sucks so bad. 

Adjust

There are things I wanna do but I can 't. Or choose not to do so I won't affect others. I sometimes I want to be selfish. Then I remembered I made some selfish calls 2 years ago that I deeply regret until now. So yeah, everytime I feel this frustrated again, I will remind myself of that very bad mistake. I could have so much leeway if only I didn't let that overtake me. Now, I'm in such constang stuggle. 

Rector

 Working something that is considered a classic and it just feels different looking at it with adult eyes. But it deftinitely still brings in the nostalgic feels. You also then realized how personal standards have changed as well as you deal with somethin valuable from the past and trying to give it a different spin! Anyway, can't wait to see it!

More

I'm okay with things as they are because I always fear of things going worse as I experienced that a couple of times the past few years. But I can't also feel dissatisfied at times and wishig for some better. But I'm afraid I'm attracting negativity and this could bite me back. My mind is truly chaotic most of the times. 

Bolt

Just as I thought I had some leeway, nope! Things are being rushed out so I had to get my act together and get things done immediately! Let's go!!!

Mano

 I'm excited to work on something I have childhood exposure too! I started some of it earlier but I was not off to a good pace yet hopefully tomorrow I get my groove on! Checking out the materials I will work on is quite fascining because they are from the 1980s and they are basically time capsules!

BNO

 I was never really a fan of MAGIC 89.9's Boys  Night Out because the humor is just not a fit with my personality but still they are an iconic part of Mega Manila radio for so long so for it to end in such controversial way is quite shocking even if I haven't been really listening to radio that much these days... well, on my own choice I mean because we are a radio household every since I was a child so the radio is almost always on! Anyway, it's quite sad to see things that were very much present in your younger year fade away and lost its magic.

Destir

 Very hectic past 5 days! And there are more coming in, it's been quite tiring but it helps me again to be on focus and not let the many worries eat me alive. Like there were so many challenging moments today but I have no choice but take it all in and manage to keep things stable at the very best I can. So many mood swings I have to balance out. Oh well! That's my life now and I just think it could be so much worst so I will just deal with it the best way I can!

Sweeping

 So, I've been thinking on how to handle another delicate matter. I've been on this same road multiple times, one thing I did I ultimately the right choice but now again faced with this, I'm having a difficult path. I'm already seeing early signs of panic that frankly is so difficult for them and me as well. I want to choose convenience but what if there are consequences in the future? I hate that I have to make that call. I need to balance everyone's well being versus making this sure. My gut is telling me not to go with it but I'm just afraid it is a mistake.

God please help me.

This is What It Feels Like

 Another I'm tired of everything post incoming. Still the same thing over and over again. Stirring up trouble when there should be none. Always complaining, always whining. When there is relative peace, you find ways to find problems when there are none. Let's face it you don't like calmness, you crave for drama and be the victim as always. Sick of it. I can't speak up because it will not solve anything when it just falls to deaf ears. So I endure. Minimize my feelings because you want to avoid unnecessary stress. Because that is all you bring. Sure, you do things to assist but there's a caveat of resentment when it's conveniet to you, right? Yeah. Always the same case. I've lost hope that you will realize your flaws. I will just carry on no matter despite the heavy burden I carry everyday. 

Too Thin

 I knew this would happen, but I still got myself into this. Proud of what I can do but it is hard and tiring. And I wish I can just sit all day and give my 100% focus but there will always be distractions from all sides. I'm also guilty as well. Okay, carry on. 

The 3rd

 Feeling a little bitter. Well, no. I'm VERY bitter. I can't have that thing anymore. I have something else, but it's not as "brag worthy" I hate that I think of that but I won't deny that the fact that I was able to showcase that was a source of pride. Now, it's gone. And it wasn't in our control despite working our best. I still wish something changes and we get it again. 

Whiplash

 So the photos of my speaking engagement last week have been uploaded on FB and I hate to feel this way, but I really didn't like how I look! I'm never really conscious of how I look before but now seeing my present sel,f I can't help but feel sad. I just look different, with my bald head and generally stressed face. It's a good thing I'm not really conscious of how I look daily, I rarely look at the mirror much less take photos of myself but during moments like that when I am captured by another point of view, I feel uncomfortable looking at myself. 

Momentum

 Okay, I have a lot of things on my plate that I'm willingly put myself into. It's quite difficult but this is what I wanted and volunteered for!  So, yeah let's get moving!

Overcast

 Rainy weather the past 2 days! There's typhoon up north and another on the horizon! I hope it changes direction though. I like cold weather but not really feeling a gloomy atmosphere days, affects my mood to be honest. Let the sun shine please!

35

 So watched a news feature about how in some industries, 35 years old is already too old. As a 38 year old person, this is really chilling. My industry thankfully doesn't have this kind of age ceiling but then it makes me wonder how employable I am these days. Really thankful I have a stable job right now. 

921`

 March against corruption happening the whole country. It is inspiring however just as I was afraid, there are certain groups who will mess this up by doing chaotic stuff in guise of protest but really they just want to stir trouble! It ruins the true meaning of this protest movements. So frustrating. 

Docus

 I watched two documentaries today, one on YouTube about South Korean international adoptions and I was really surprised of the history of it and got sad with the personal stories I've watched. The other one I watched is Unknown Number on Netflix and I had to pause when it was revealed who the perperator was! It's really shocking and just gross!

The Paper

Watched The Paper (streaming on HBO Max here) and I loved it. I'm a bit biased because I have a degree in Broadcast Journalism and was news writer and editor on the school paper, so a show about journalism is up in my alley! The show is really different from The Office, just set in the same universe but they're totally have different angle. It has a good cast and captures a good emotional beat too. I hope people will discover it eventually because for me it is a gem

Tract

 Everything will be fine. If not I will do my best to make things appear fine for everyone else's sake. The sacrifice I have to make. The inner turmoil. Lord, please guide me because I could break down again deep inside. Help me be strong in this trying time yet again. 

Full Circle

I was invited be a resource speaker for today's General Assembly of DLSU-D's Heraldo Filipino and the yearbook team under the revived Student Media and Publications Office. It's truly an honor to be part of the landmark 40th year of HF and the revival of the SPMO. I started with Team 20, and being the speaker this time for Team 40 holds special meaning. It's a full circle moment. I was also inspired by Br. Victor and Sir Christian's talk about integrity and the power of critical thinking. Seeing how the students reacted to my talk and Q&A also made me really happy.  We may be two decades apart, but the current generation of HF still has that same fire and spirit of the batches I was part of. 

Overload

 This song turned 25 year old and it still sounds so fresh! It has this hypnotic vibe!

Notes

 I was invited to speak for Heraldo Filipino Team 40's year start assembly. I'm given 15 minutes to give a speech. Now, what will I say? I'm contemplating preparing a written speech but I don't know I want to speak from the heart and impromptu? But I'm not eloquent and talks fast! Anyway, planning to have my talk circle around overcoming your fear to try something your heart has been wanting for. I joined HF on my second year in college. I wanted to try on my freshman year but I was so insecure and also scared! But I took my chance on my second year and I made it! Another story I will share is that I was rejected on my first try to become an editor (News and OCM) which broke my heart a little but then a year later I had the audacity to try to jump from mere senior statff to EIC and I made it! So yeah, I will work around those topics, hopefully I can deliver something vital!

Four Down

 So happy to have finished one very important task! First batch done! Still have more than half to go while I balance another weekly thing I let myself do because I both want to and need to. My plan this weekend didn't go the way I hoped for because of things I allowed myself. I rationalize that I need to take some time off to freshen up but let's face it I got lazy at some point. 

Stove

 Bought an appliance today for our home - a stove. Our more than a decade old stove broke down already. I'm glad there's a good enough local brand that isn't costly too! I still don't know how to cook though so this is my contribution! 

Omph!

I know this will be a challenge and I put myself willingly to do this. Creative wise, I really want to do it but it's quite a struggle to finish everything on time. Of course it's my fault because concentrating is quite hard!  Anyway, back on it!

Askin Tarifi

Recipe of Love aired its finale on SolarFlix tonight! Proud of the work I've done for this project especially the final episode that I've adapted. I really enjoyed this show Until the next one!

Spine

I have a lot of things to finish in 4 days so good luck but I live for this kind of challenge, keeps me my mind busy. It's a struggle to start to get a head start but once I get the right I'm all in. I could accomplish more if the situation was less complicated than before but I can manage. I will manage. 

But still we need more, so please come to us!

VMAs

 Saw some VMA 2020 performances online and it's nice to see they are doing all out with the productions, lots of visually appealing performances. Alex Warren's production so good, made the songs sound epic same with Tate McRae's. First time to see sombr perform and while I like his songs he is so awkward to watch, does not have stage presence yet. Maybe he should have been preshow. I wish Katseye was main show but the crowd energy at close proximity was great for a song like Gnarly so all good.