Modify

 So I made some firm changes lately because I tend to do things that I think will be faster but yet skip a step that will improve growth and benefit me in the longer run. I tend to be lazy as well and just choose the easier way for me but then I realized I just make things harder for myself in the long run if I don't act accordingly. Give a teaching moment and not settle for mediocrity when there's so much room to grow. I hope mapanindigan ko and not just give in easily. 

Scratch

 My sister saw a draft of an essay my nephew did for school and she was impressed by how good a writer he is. She had me read it and I agree, my nephew at 14 expresses himself very well and is quite articulate too. I'm not that surprised though because I did notice how articulate he is becoming especially since he has been interacting with online friends based abroad and he speaks loudly when they chat. It's cool to see though he has grown to be quiet at this and computer stuff too. He'll be in college not for a few years left and as of now he doesn't know what he wants to pursue yet, that's understandable and he has a lot of time too. So no pressure but I'm quite excited for him

Treats

For the first time ever, the office had a little Valentine thing today! They gave us chocolates and some officemates surprised "serenaded" our big boss! It was kind of bizarre but also nice as well! And we had food, spaghetti! pancit! cake! barbecue! chicken lollipop! Hoping this a good sign for more good things to come in the future! Celebrate love!

Radio

 Happy World Radio Day! I grew up with radio and it all started nung nag-brownout for one month due to Typhoon Rosing and there was no other form of entertainment but the transistor radio. Na-hook ako with such shows like Tiya Dely radio drama and Ernie Baron's Q&A show Knowledge Power. I woke up every 5AM to prepare for school with the radio in the background from elementary and to college. My childhood FM station was 93.9 WKC because they had child-appealing DJs, I mean they had "The Count" hosting their weekly music countdown which of course started my love for music charts that lasted for decades. I was around 10 when I really got addicted to FM radio to the point na memorize ko ang Mega Manila stations from 88.3 City Lite to NU 107 and I can switch to a station without looking at the radio dial because alam ko ang order, the type of music they play and their "mood" so to speak.  Of course, I did dream of working for a radio station but not as a DJ because I don't have the voice and the personality for it but as a programmer, conceptualizing shows and formulating the schedule 24/7. I remember I had a notebook where I wrote that fantasy radio programming schedule! In college, I was thrilled because my school was starting its own radio station during our time and we were the first ones to use the then-new radio booth and produced newscasts and radio dramas for our class. I didn't join or even tried for college radio back then they were starting back then because I'm already doing one of my dreams too which was to write for the school paper (and also I'm not a voice talent!).

 I'm not the radio caller type because I'm shy and I hate how I sound so I was glad nung na-uso na yung texting the radio stations and what a thrill it was to hear my name (or my codename "forg" ) on air! My "influencers" back then were radio DJs and when I met my favorites such Triggerman and Chico & Delamar in person, I was so happy! One thing I like about working in the dubbing industry is meeting a lot of DJs of my time (both the high-end and masa DJs!) and seriously na-starstruck ako sa iba, even if I don't really interact with them but just hearing their voices in person!  Admittedly, I spend more time these days listening to Spotify for my music and audio talk fix via podcasts but radio is still part of my life as my parents are more radio listeners than TV watchers so the radio is turned on here for like 20 hours a day (the radio is like the perfect background to fall asleep and also a good alarm clock!). And from time to time when I get bored listening to my playlists or there are no new episodes of the podcasts I listen to, I radio surf and you know there's still a different feel when you hear a song on the air. I don't know how to explain succinctly but I guess radio still has that magical effect on me.

Cherry

 I feel bad for my brother whose phone got broken. He was trying to fix a minor issue but instead got the worst outcome instead. That phone was really special to him. I told him it could still get fixed but he don't trust technicians because of prices and such. He's planning to buy a new one instead. I hope he does. He chose to stay at home actually after getting laid off to help watch over Nanay after she was hospitalized and operated.  And the phone was his source of entertainment from YouTube, Spotify and Netflix. He has a lot of savings so he can actually buy one so I hope he does

Walk You Off

So I subscribed to this streaming platform because it had a good deal on GCash for just 39 pesos, I get a month subscription which is 70% off from the usual stuff. I subscribed for one show and it was one of the projects I worked on last year  - an English dubbing script. I loved the show along the way and I wrote  ADR scripts of it for 10 episodes. So I'm gonna watch it again (I watch my episodes and some but not in full) and in full English dub version while also checking how the other episodes were written/modified as a way for me to broaden my vocabulary which will help in my dubbing script process! For example, I learned the phrase "walk you off" which is similar "to I'll walk you to the door" to "I'll show you out". 

  And also it is just a good show, so engaging!

AP

 I got an offer to do a dubbing script outside our company which is of course not allowed due to conflict of interest and this was a past issue here already, people working writing scripts outside. It was the reason why before we couldn't write scripts here in the company for extra income. Now that it is allowed already, I will never do such a thing to break the trust the admin gave me. I worked hard when it was finally allowed so I will never do things to put tarnish that.  I did recommend a former co-worker who just resigned due to health issues because she's a writer as well and familiar with dubbing scripts too. Plus, I know being at home make her quite bored and lonely so I hope she gets this gig. 

Eighteen

 Hey, I forget again to post on the exact day of my blog anniversary on February 4! I'm thrilled that this blog is still alive and google is not shutting this blog service down and hopefully they would never! This has been my online "spot", especially for the last THREE years! Blogging every single day even if it was nothing of importance or just rambling thoughts. It has been helpful in getting things off my chest or at least decluttering my thoughts and processing my emotions. More years to come!

Partly

 Only semi-successful with my goal today! I did work on it but I could have done more because I was slacking at the start then when I picked up momentum I had to stop. Now I'm trying to resume it to make up for lost time! But not really fully moving forward maybe it's a sign for me to take a breather. Hopefully, I'll do better tomorrow!

Want

Glad I was able to finish something in advance today which opens up time for the next few days to do some other things I need to finish. My enemy is of course myself because starting sometimes is a struggle when I get do distracted but hopefully I can set my mind better tomorrow. 

Encore Please

Another week of me figuring out everything but being busy is good and I actually want more to come actually. It will be a year since projects came pouring in and I hope it happens again this year!

Off the Grid

I didn't come to my college classmates get-together today because I did genuinely had a family errand to do coinciding with the meetup time but not gonna lie I'm relieved I guess I had a valid reason to not go. I'm just not my confident self anymore and they went home past 7PM too and I can't stay that late these days for various reasons. I feel mixed about it, I dunno. I used to meetups before and attended baptism and birthday parties too of my college friends' kids. But things changed in my life that it's just not simple to do that any longer especially now since the pandemic furthered changed my life. 

Nothing

 I didn't do anything noteworthy. I was planning to do some work but I got lazy. Yeah, after 3 days of hardcore work, I guess I needed this?  Tomorrow I promise to be more productive!

Assist

 I really went all in finishing this dubbing script the past two days and glad I was able to finish it earlier than expected. I'm quite busy again these days, we have a new Tagalog dubbing project for a Korean drama set to air on local TV. Then we have English dubbing for a cartoon that I really liked doing. At the same time, I've been training our admin's husband online on how to do a dubbing script. He had to stay at home in the meantime due to an illness and he wanted something to not waste his time. He's really a nice and polite man so I've been checking up on him as much as possible while he is doing scripts. He's fluent in English so he can write just needs polishing with synching and I believe he can do it. To be honest, I sympathize with what he's feeling since before he got sick, he is a very busy man so from that to not doing anything at home is a big change for him. So I really he's able to enjoy writing dubbing scripts and I hope I he's actually learning something from me. 

Katinko

I officially reached that age where I find Katinko ointment such a gift! I felt a little off earlier today and decided to buy myself Katinko for the very first time. And well the hype is real, it really gives a quick soothing feeling and all the body aches I felt were gone in just a few minutes!

Odyssey

Yesterday last day nung record store sa Festival Mall Alabang na formerly known as Odyssey before it rebranded to O-Next. It has been there on the same spot na malapit sa food court since 1998 and it was a big record store na may mini second floor, it was then called Odyssey XL. Over the years, lumiit ang space nila as the market changed. I was quite amazed that the shop was able to hang on the last few years but ultimately due to high rental rates hindi na rin kinaya. I bought so many tapes, CD, VCDs, DVD and earphones there. Inevitable but still sad to see it go.

Anyway, if you are still into the physical format check out Drake Gonzales's CD's Atbp.  He also has a physical store over in Puregold, Libertad. He sells old and new stuff and can order for you as well.  I met him online during my music chart geek days when he would send me the top sellers ng Astrovision where he used to work. He became a friend ever since even if we haven't really met in person. I'm always impressed by how hardworking he is keeping the physical format alive when he started selling online and ultimately establishing his own shop. He now manages indie bands as well.  So if you can, please support his shop.

Fitting In

 I had a talk with my nephew about he is not really fitting in with his Grade 9 classmates. Thank God there are no bullies but it's just that he doesn't talk to a lot of his classmates when it's a break. He is an introvert just like and frankly I do think he is quite smarter (in the perspective kind of way) than the rest of his class so he can't jive with them yet. He also does not have the same interest because he does not play ML like the others or into social media as well. I said to him don't worry eventually you'll find your space there, he is still new to the school as his classmates have known each other since elementary while he came from the other school and was stuck for online school on his first two years in high school. It's quite fascinating to see my nephew now a full-pledge teen with his social issues and all. I remembered myself really but I was more proactive in academics unlike him who won't raise his hand in class even when he knows the answer. But to be honest, I'm not too worried about my nephew because the fact that he can't open up to me is a good thing, he knows how to process what he feels, and he has a good grasp of his emotions. But still, I will be looking out for him always. I'm turning 36 this year and honestly, at this point, I don't see myself having my own family anymore so at least I can be a parental figure to my nephew like I've always been since he was a little and I'm happy with that. 

Pen

 I was having ice cream at a fast food earlier when someone approached me earlier selling pens. When someone sells stuff on me randomly I usually shy away because I feel uncomfortable and also suspicious that it could be a scam or budol. Yes, I'm that paranoid. But for that instance, I didn't let her finish her sales pitch and I just said quickly I will buy one and if she has change for 50. The pen she was selling was 35 a piece and 3 for 100, I just bought one quickly and left the fast food immediately since I was finished with the ice cream. Also, my paranoid self thought if this was a scam I might as leave at once just in case. So crazy like a part of me wanted to help because I my gut feel says the lady was really just a nice person trying to earn a living but my paranoid self has trust issues too. I also want to look away when she is ultimately rejected by other customers and the inevitable getting shooed away by the management because it is not allowed to solicit stuff inside. I'm so confused how to react sometimes really. I want to be kind but also cautious. 

On The Fence

 So some college classmates invited me for a get-together next week. I didn't commit but I did vote on the poll on where to go. It's Sunday but I do house errands in the morning and usually do scripts in the afternoon or if there's no immediate due, sleep. Also, truth be told, I don't feel like engaging with people these days because just my introverted self, and also I don't know if I will just feel nostalgic but also at the same time a failure. I know crazy. Let's see. 

Scram

 Another dubbing script done! Honestly, I could have finished it earlier but it's so cold today that I took some quick afternoon naps (yes plural) instead of finishing the script! This is the struggle when the weather is cold! 

10 Missed Calls

 So an unregistered number called my number 10x and when I texted "who is this?" no reply. If it was really important they would reply or at least they would have texted when I didn't answer the first time. I suspect it's a sales call or maybe even a scam. These days the only people I text are family and the carpool driver for my ride home. So I really don't answer unregistered numbers. They are doing their jobs but I just don't like dealing with salespeople 

Initiative

 Sometimes I do wish people are sensitive enough not to let bad energy spread to others. As a person, who is always on the receiving end of this it really takes a toll on you no matter how you try to pacify the situation or pretend that it does not affect you in any way.  It's hard to take in and I cope by just thinking that this isn't the worst-case scenario so I should be at least thankful for that. I am of course but nevertheless when there are rough patches even if it's small, it still shakes my system and affects me in a way I always feel heavy. And yes thinking of another life always happens. But I pull myself back to what is my reality and I go back to what I do best - keeping it together.

Cleared

 I was able to finish this task in preparation for a more challenging task that I will do in the next few days. I hope I can concentrate well on this because I always get distracted for some reason. But it's always just at the start but when I get things going I am on fire so hopefullly I can get things done tomorrow i

Missed

 Oscar nods are out and sadly Dolly De Leon missed for Best Supporting Actress. What's sad is that her film Triangle of Sadness got nominated for screenplay, directing and picture. She was probably 6th in the voting. So frustrating! But then again for her to reach this far especially since she had a very lowkey acting career even in her home country is still amazing. I hope they invite her to present at the Oscars!

See

Why can't I feel happy about this matter that makes sense on paper but just makes me think of the other side gloating? It is just pride? I guess this is a lesson in humility?  This isn't really a big thing but just about something of personal interest? hobby? I don't know to explain it. Maybe it is like my version of sports I guess. Yeah, I'm rambling but I just need to let this thing that bothers me out in the open so hopefully, I can drop it and not be bothered by something that's not really a big deal, I just make it to be. 

Makjang

Finished writing the Filipino dubbing script of this kdrama that I just learned is what's classified as "makjang". I guess it's like the equivalent of our traditional teleseryes? There's a baby switch in this show I just finished working on. Also it has over 100 episodes and with 30 minute runtime so this aired everyday. It really has the typical soap opera elements and also has lower production value compared to the the famous kdramas that has less than 20 episodes usually. But anyway this show I believed hasn't aired yet on local TV because last I checked it wasn't on the schedule of the network that acquired this. It's still airing the other kdrama we worked on and finished dubbing late last year. Anyway, this show is quite a treat to write because I can just do it in a day because it has a smooth flow and not as tricky dialogues to adapt. I'm ahead of the deadline by two weeks! Whew! But I did plan to finish this first because I have two tougher English dubbing scripts to work on for the next two weeks!

Bloom

 I read something that gave me hope that we did the right thing. My overthinking self usually finds a lot of seemingly ordinary things as a sign that we did it wrong but for the first time, I read something that gave me hope that maybe my worst fear will not be happening. I will probably go back being paranoid sooner or later but anything that can give me hope I would hold on to. 

Horizon

 Just watched The Fabelmans and I really liked it. Gabriel Labelle,, really should have been in the conversation for Best Actor nominee, he was good and carried the movie very well. I never warmed up to Paul Dano before but I really like him here. Seth Rogen, as usual, annoyed me but it kinda suits the character he's playing  Michelle Williams is really good because the character could have been a campy mess but she brought humanity to a character that is annoying on paper. While it is Spielberg's personal story, it still captured a very universal feeling on how to deal with life as you grow up and learn more about your family and what drives you in life.

Promising

 The meeting we had with the client was more of a general online presentation to all partner studios but honestly, I'm really excited about this one. It's just starting and they are still in the process of working things out so the actual work assignments won't be coming soon we just have to familiarize ourselves with the platform that we will use first. I've tried it and it's really exciting!  

Description

 Today I managed to learn more about this potential project we have. This is different from what I normally do but nevertheless still interests me! This is more challenging because there's a specific tool I have to use plus timing and everything. Tomorrow, I'll get to know more about what the process will be. I feel motivated to do well in this area as well!

Hunch

 I had a talk with an officemate something we have in common, a challenge we've been dealing with personally. And it's quite amazing, how we are thinking the same. It did remind me of this ongoing fear I have that will probably be something I be forever be afraid of. But really hoping and praying the worst is over.

No talk

 I'm stressing myself about a recurring drama and even if I try to just ignore it but they always find a way to get me in between. I sometimes I just want to blurt out loud that ENOUGH and doesn't inconvenience me anymore but iof course that is not happening that's why I'm just posting it here to let it out of my mind. 

Fearless

Just finished watching Puss in Boots: The Last Wish and the reviews were good, it was so unexpectedly good! The animation was so amazing, a big upgrade from the past Shrek-verse movies! And the story as well is quite adult too (but not too adult for kids to not appreciate) which makes you appreciate valuing your life and making the most out of it but also embracing fear but not letting it defeat you.

SDYN

 I'm getting sad again over things that directly do not affect me but have strong attachments for. I understand why it is happening and it has been three years but somehow I still can't accept how everything has changed. How it was broken to pieces and despite having some movement upwards, it's hard to rebuild itself from the ashes. I thought I'd long accepted that this is the case already but every loss still makes me sad.

Not Exactly

So found out some good news today. It's not from the source that I want to... (hopefully not yet) but still it's a go and this has potential for one thing I've been thinking about. I wish I didn't know that much these days because my nature of always worrying is not ideal for it but I really want to know! I'm quite a mess I know. Scattered brain. Anyway, hopefully next week we get some more good news!

Waiting

 For now, things are manageable but a little slow and I'm starting to get alarmed. Looking at it from another perspective, maybe it's good to have a slowdown after jampacked months. But I hope we get some good news though, maybe as early as tomorrow? I have to be patient I know but just want assurance I guess that everything's going to continue and it was not a fluke last year.

Dolly

 So in this year's Hollywood awards race, I'm invested because Filipino Dolly De Leon is in contention. Too bad she lost the Golden Globe today and she was snubbed by SAG. So Oscar is not a lock!  Oh well, I blame it to the negative vibes that were spread when this breakout success of Dolly was used to gain attention by certain people in guise of "concern for Philippine cinema".  Give me a break. It's just the hot thing and some people just want to ride the publicity. 

Moon

 Love to Death (Amar a Muerte) aired its final episode on my channel today!  I absolutely love this show not just because of work but it's just good show. We dubbed it almost 4 years ago and the Emglish aired overseas (mostly Africa). ireally got excited when we can finally air it on TeleNovela Channel Philippines. My video editor James really did a good job with it and it was a pleasure to watch it again now in the final broadcast cut! The show's theme song Me Muero is something that appears yearly on my Spotify Wrapped. It's a good theme song fit for a good show!

Uneasy

 So this is me again feeling so scared that there could be bad news again because everything seems okay lately. Like something scary could happen. I wish my mind does not work this way because it's just making me feel miserable. Should I always condition my mind for a negative scenario? For what? So when it actually happens it would soften the blow? But let's be real I am kidding myself. This fear I have when it actually will shatter me to pieces. Dear Lord, please soothe my soul of this neverending fear. 

National

 Nagsara na yung Greenbelt 1 branch ng National Book Store and while hindi ako suki dito (My childhood NBS branches are Glorietta, Southmall and Festival Mall) it was still jarring to see a longtime branch closing. I've been seeing some posts on social media saying that it is the start of the end like how the record stores Astrovision and Odyssey died. I don't think they will suffer the same fate but it's not surprising people are thinking that. They discontinued Laking National card (mine expired May 2020 and I couldn't renew it!) and the branches I've been lately dimly lit, understaffed, disorganized and basically malungkot ang atmosphere. Matagal na rin naman na mas supplies na sila than books but even in that area, NBS is lacking na rin unlike before na essentially any school/office supply you may need meron sila with options to choose from. I know e-commerce changed things but there's still a big market of people buying things physically. At the last Manila International Book Fair, I found out the young generation flocked to a certain booth to buy books na apparently sikat sa Tiktok. As for school supplies, face-to-face classes are back so their main market is back! NBS currently has this "Balik National Na Tayo" marketing campaign so they're trying (and self-aware) but the stores themselves sana mabalik nila yung "magic" it once had when you enter it. They have iconic brand recall so I hope they can turn things around.

Various

 Happy to accomplish what I needed to finish today. I should have finished this earlier but this week was quite a challenge because of the cold weather making me sleepy so much! I'm really thankful that I really enjoy what I'm doing.  It's something really that's keeping me quite alive in a sense. I still get anxious from time to time, and those lingering feelings still come up (I was reminded of it a while ago) but definitely having my mind occupied doing things that really interest me has helped me survive dealing with life as an adult who at times overwhelmed with the responsibilities and frustrated with unfulfilled goals. But one thing I definitely learned in life is taking things one day at a time and just holding on to anything that can keep you afloat. 

AD

 So some exciting new project at the office is coming soon and I've begun studying how it works today. It's different from the stuff I usually do but still around TV and I'm looking forward to it!  I will really study this well so this can be a longterm project for us!

Jeepney Romcom

 I saw this cute couple in the jeep earlier and I dunno I could their great chemistry together. It's like a live romcom for some reason to me. They were just talking to each other, joking around while holding hands. I hope they didn't notice I was observing them from afar because well it's weird I know. I dunno what has gotten into me. Maybe I know the reason, I just want to ignore it I guess. 

Bed Weather

 I had trouble fighting sleepiness tonight that I wasn't able to focus on work. I was still able to do some things but not what I really wanted to finish but then again I still have time to do it and I want to do that task with full capacity! So for now, I'm gonna doze off! It's raining and yeah bed weather is here again

EAC

I did the English dubbing script for an Indonesian show today. It's a short show so I was able to finish it today. It's a comedy so it's quite nice to write though I had a hard time with some of the jokes because comic timing and punchlines are not easy to do. I hope I did fine!

More!

 First day of work! Well, it's a special (made-up) holiday today to give people time to "recover" from New Year's festivities! But I don't mind working really on special holidays like this because the atmosphere is simply relaxing! I really hope this year at work will be great like last year, more projects, please!  I hope last year's momentum will continue!

Registered

 So the first thing I did this 2023 is to register my Globe and Smart SIM cards because of the SIM Card Registration Law. This started a few days ago but I didn't join because I knew there will be a rush and glitches will happen! My Smart number has been with me since college and the Globe for a decade! I will not allow them to be deactivated. I figured traffic will be low so there won't be technical errors! Registration for both was smooth but Globe is faster as I'm already registered while on Smart they said it is for processing and will have for text or call in case it needs verification. Bummer!

Redo

 I originally had an angst-driven post but I deleted it. It was a spur-of-the-moment thing, I was in a lot of stress so I made that post for catharsis. But thanks are Ok now and my last post for 2022 should not be a downer. Anyway, 2022 is ending in a few hours and with a new year always comes hope for a better year ahead. I really hope so, at least for that main concern I have right now. 

The last day of the year is always the time for introspection. You look back and assess how your life has been. How you are right now. And I do think it is healthy. I do like reading people's year-end posts on social media. It helps you process your emotions as well, well at least on my side. 

Happy New Year!

My 10 Favorite TV Comedy Episodes of 2022

   Here is my annual rundown of my favorite episodes of the sitcoms/comedy programs I watched this year. Like in previous years for various purposes I just chose one episode per show. Check out my top 10 lists over the years: 2021 2020,2019, 2018, 2017, 2016, 2015, 2014, 2013,2012

1. What We Do in the Shadows Season 4 Episode 5 "Private School"

2. Only Murders in the Building Season 2 Episode 10 "I Know Who Did It"

3. Abbott Elementary Season 1 Episode 12 "Ava vs Superintendent"

4.  Dead to Me Season 3 Episode 10 "We've Reached The End"

5.  The Marvelous Mrs Maisel Season 4 Episode 1 "Rumble on the Wonder Wheel"

6.  The Wonder Years (2021) Season 1 Episode 15 "Black Teacher"

7. Never Have I Ever Season 3 Episode 7 "....cheated"

8. Bob's Burgers Season 13 Episode 2 "The Reeky Lake Show"

9. Reboot Season 1 Episode 1 "Step Right Up"

10. How I Met Your Father Season 1 Episode 10 "Timing is Everything

My Hot 100 for 2022

 My favorite songs for 2022

1. Pano - Zack Tabudlo

2.  Rosas - Nica Del Rosario and Gab Pangilinan

3. As It Was - Harry Styles

4. I Ain't Worried - One Republic

5. Titi Me Pregunto - Bad Bunny 

6. Mahika - Adie & Janine Berdin

7. Paninindigan Kita  - Ben & Ben

8. You Belong to Me - Jason Wade

9. Bad Habit - Steve Lacy

10. We Don't Talk About Bruno - Encanto Cast

11. Asan Ka Na Ba? - Zack Tabudlo

12. Bazinga - SB19

13. Babalik Sa'yo - Moira Dela Torre

14. Bam Bam - Camilla Cabello and Ed Sheeran

15. About Damn Time - Lizzo

16. Dos Oruguitas - Sebastian Yatra

17. First Class - Jack Harlow

18. Give Me Your Forever - Zack Tabudlo

19. Left and Right - Charlie Puth feat Jungkok of BTS

20. Running Up That Hill - Kate Bush 

21. Late Night Talking - Harry Styles

22. Gusto Ko Nang Bumitaw - Morisette 

23. Enemy - Imagine Dragons

24. Overpass Graffiti - Ed Sheeran

25. Habang Buhay - Zack Tabudlo

26. One Right Now - Post Malone & The Weeknd

27. Pagsamo - Arthur Nery

28.  I Like You - Post Malone & Doja Cat

29.  Bones - Imagine Dragons

30. Anti-Hero - Taylor Swift 

31. Nobody Like U - 4*TOWN

32. Glimpse of Us - Joji

33. abcdefu - GAYLE

34. Emo girl - Machine Gun Kelly feat Willow

35. 2011 - 5 Seconds of Summer

36. Unholy - Sam Smith & Kim Petras

37.  Light Switch - Charlie Puth

38. Complete Mess - 5 Seconds of Summer

39.  Paliwanag - Yeng Constantino and Gloc 9

40. I Drink Wine - Adele

41. High - The Chainsmokers

42. Closer - Saweetie feat H.E.R

43. Viva Las Vengeance - Panic! At the Disco

44. Kumpas - Moira Dela Torre

45. Mag-ingat - Ben & Ben  

46. Tahanan - Adie

47. Unang Sayaw - Nobita

48. The Forever Now - Mandy Moore

49.  Wait a Minute - Willow

50. Sunshine - One Republic

51.  Oh My God - Adele

52. Let Somebody Go - Coldplay and Selena Gomez

53. UP - Inna and Sean Paul

54. ay! - Machine Gun Kelly feat Lil Wayne 

55.  To Be Loved - Adele 

56. You Were Loved - Gryffin and One Republic

57. Paraluman - Adie

58. Super Freaky Girl - Nicki Minaj

59. Comu Tu No Hay Dos - Jessica Diaz 

60. Break My Soul - Beyonce

61.  9 Lives - Machine Gun Kelly

62. Wonderful Life - Two Door Cinema Club

63. Langyang Pag-ibig - Ben & Ben

64. Surface Pressure - Jessica Darrow

65. Until I Found You - Stephen Sanchez

66. Isa Lang - Arthur Nery

67. Pink Venom - BLACKPINK

68. Love's Train - Silk Sonic

69. Someday - One Republic

70. Dito Ka Lang - Moira Dela Torre

71. Tayo ang Ligaya ng Isa't Isa - ABS CBN All Stars

72. Made You Look - Meghan Trainor

73. This is Why - Paramore 

74. The Ones We Once Loved  - Ben & Ben

75. maybe - Machine Gun Kelly feat Bring Me The Horizon

76.  Happy Days - Backstreet Boys 

77. Edging - Blink 182

78. Sweetest Pie - Megan Thee Stallion and Dua Lipa 

79. Big Energy - Latto 

80. Ikaw Lang - Nobita

81.  Para Que Tu Me Amaras - Ariadne Diaz 

82. Tumitigil ang Mundo - BGYO 

83.  Sacrifice - The Weeknd

84. ZOOM - Jessi

85.  10:36 - beabadoobee 

86. Huwag Muna Tayong Umuwi - Bini

87.  Vegas - Doja Cat 

88. Every Summertime - Niki

89. Dead to Me - Chloe Adams

90.  Sunroof - Nicky Youre and dazy 

91.  Don't Let The Light Go Out - Panic! at the Disco 

92.  Yakap - Zack Tabudlo

93.  Stay With Me - Calvin Harris, Justin Timberlake, Halsey, Pharrel 

94. I'm Good (Blue) - David Guetta and Bebe Rexha

95. Me Porto Bonito - Bad Bunny, Checho Corleone

96.  Strings - BINI 

97. Numb Little Bug - Em Beihold 

98. Hrs and Hrs - Muni Long

99.  I Love You So - The Walters

100. Muli - Ace Banzuelo

My Hot 100 for 2021

My Hot 100 for 2020

My Hot 100 for 2019

My Hot 100 for 2018

My Hot 100 for 2017

My Hot 100 for 2016

My Hot 100 for 2015

My Hot 100 for 2014

 My Hot 100 for 2013

My Hot 100 for 2012 
My Hot 100 for 2011
My Hot 100 for 2010
My Hot 100 for 2009  
My Hot 100 for 2008
My Hot 100 for 2007

Sam

 A co-worker had a major health issue that she decided to resign. Today was last her day and she left a message on our department GC where I received nice words "fantastic motivator and guiding light". It's a great feeling to somehow leave a mark on someone. I really hope she gets well soon and once she recovers she will come back stronger than ever. I will miss her bubbly personality, I always enjoyed talking to her.

My Five Favorite Movies of 2022

5. Luckiest Girl Alive

4.  Inconvenient Love

3. Turning Red

2. Leonor Will Never Die

1. Everything, Everywhere, All At Once

Favorites from the past years:

2021

2020

2019

2018

2017

2016

2015
2014
2013
2012
2011

Middle

 Holiday today because well they think people should have an extra day to recover from Christmas! I understand the logic but I dunno there are many people who have filed for leaves already and those who are in the service industry will work anyway. But I digress. I wanted to go to the office today to finish some things. I did try to do it but there are many obstacles, and errands and the weather lured me to take a nap. I know getting rest is good as well but I want to be productive again tomorrow. I always LOVE working in the days between Christmas and New Year, it's relaxing to me in a way!

25th

 The morning was spent being lazy and the afternoon attending mass. Nothing extraordinary but very glad for today. Thank you, Lord that despite the challenges this year and we went through a lot, here we are still complete. That's all I really ask for. 

Believe

One of my favorite 'newer' Christmas songs from the movie The Polar Express. As I grow older, the lyrics resonate even more. 

"We were dreamers

Not so long ago

But one by one

We all had to grow up

When it seems the magic slipped away

We find it all again on Christmas Day"

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays!

Convenience

 Watched Inconvenient Love and I liked it. At first, it was quite didactic with its Gen Z slang but later on it got natural. It was also low-key edgy with some of the themes it touched on. They didn't fully explore it but I appreciate the attempt to make it more than just kilig. 

Croquet

Alice in Borderland Season 2 now streaming! I translated the final episode and it was one of the toughest translations I ever did with one character having long series of monologues! I had to redo it after the dubber had trouble synching it the first time so I was quite ashamed when I learned that so I really gave my all to that very tough sequence and luckily when the dubber returned to redub that part, it was smooth sailing! Anyway, the second season is good and I hope a lot of people will stream the Filipino-dubbed version (and enjoy it!)

On a High

 I do feel a little wary about what I'm feeling right now. I'm happy but I can't help but feel that this won't last and that this has a price. So trying to contain myself really. But on the other hand, I need to let loose as well. I deserve it with the way I tortured myself with endless negative thoughts. But anyway despite this quirk I have, I am really deeply grateful my worst fear didn't happen and I will savor this feeling and perhaps pass upon it too.

Thank YOU!

 A sigh of relief that nothing bad/alarming happened. Lord thank you very much for hearing my prayer. I hope that it will stay that way. But of course, I always need to be prepared for anything but for now I'm really happy that my worst fear didn't happen. Thank you so much

Conflicting

 One of these days again where I want to stay hopeful while also trying to protect myself if things turned out not what I hoped to be. I make things hard for me. But I need to be strong regardless but I'm so afraid deep inside. Dear Lord please hear my prayer.

Screen

 Nephew has a new monitor for Christmas so he gave me his old one so I can have an external monitor. It takes awhile before it opens but other than that it still works pretty well!'

[REAX]

 I just finished working on a telenovela English dubbing script! It was a longer episode than usual because it has key plot development where the protagonist sets her revenge plan in motion. It's so lengthy but to be honest it's fun to write these overdramatic lines. The director of this dubbing project is great too and one of the few who ever commended me for my work. Not that I fish for compliments or anything, as long as I don't get bad feedback I'm fine. But having someone praise you for your hard work is a morale booster!

Continue

 After buying last month's 100th-anniversary edition, I decided to buy the December issue of the new Liwayway magazine. And since it's now easy to buy this online, I plan to buy monthly from now on. It's my way to support one of the last surviving print publications right now plus it's a really good read to read Filipino prose, comics, and essays so it's good food for the brain as well. Everything is so digital right now but there's still value for print publications.

 

10 Days

 Christmas is near I'm getting a little stressed. I'm anxious yet again, thinking about life's worries. Personal and national. Also, this area of interest where I'm not directly affected yet I can't help but feel sad. So I'm stepping back from it because there's a lot to deal with life right now and getting stressed about unnecessary things shouldn't have space in my mindset right now. Oh well, I hope I won't be stressed all the time.

Ava

 Netflix canceled Warrior Nun which is too bad because well first it is one of our dubbing projects so a third season would have benefited us! But aside from that, I did really like the show as we were working on it, especially the second season where the storyline about a fake prophet was so good and so apt in today's world. Oh well, it sucks! 

Very

 It's been 3 years since we had a regular Christmas party! Who knew how things will change drastically in the coming months. So, I was really glad that yesterday we were able to have it again.  The past 2 years were very challenging and I'm really grateful that we managed to survive and rise from all of the setbacks.  I'm not the party type, never was,  but I was definitely happy to see my officemates very happy last night.  When our big boss sir AMF made his speech, I got a little emotional because you could feel how happy he is. Of course, I am happy too (nabunot na ulit sa raffle after many years!)  but it feels extra great to be surrounded by people who are very happy, especially after what we've been through the past 2 years. Merry Christmas and cheers to a great year ahead to my 20 Plus Studios family. 🙂

Glass

 As much as I don't want to lose my cool each time it happens, I can't help myself. It's so frustrating and yet I feel so bad. For all involved. Everything is just fragile. It could break anytime. There are scratches, one wrong mistake it's all over. Carrying it is hard. But I have to. I need to.

Rooting

 I'm feeling sad again about this particular interest of mine. It's not personally related but it's something I've grown up with and in a way influenced what I wanted to do in life. I guess it's also my "sport" like I'm on their against in their rivalry with their main competition in the industry. My rooting interest for them is like how sports fans are. They have been through a lot in the past years and just when I think they are beginning to rise from their darkest moments, setbacks and farewells are coming again. I know why these are happening but I still can't help but feel sad that the road to what they once were is not cleared. Maybe they are pivoting to another field indeed as a way to survive but still what they were before. And still, I hope someday I can see what they were before. 

Watch Time

 So I decided to finally try out Disney+! I just signed up for a month because I'm thrifty! But looking at the lineup under the Star hub which includes TV shows that I like or am interested to watch and looks like this is gonna be a good month for me. Of course, granted I will have enough time to watch but I will make time for it in between doing work staff, and family duties. This is I guess gift to myself, I need to go back to watching for personal entertainment again which I neglected since I've been so preoccupied with work lately especially doing dubbing scripts which I really enjoyed! But you see watching these shows did help me enjoy writing dubbing scripts and also helped me widen my vocabulary which helped me in adapting scripts for dubbing! Anyway, back to streaming for me!

Tracy

 Today I learned ELECTION movie will have a sequel! I discovered this movie by browsing Video City looking for movies to rent and the back cover synopsis of it got my interest! And it was so good and really looking forward to this sequel! I did miss the days of just browsing titles to rent! But oh well, I guess the current streaming era has the same era as well, I guess?

Party!

Company Christmas/Year-End Party on Monday! And looks like it's gonna be a "normal" one! They were already asking for production numbers! I was not asked to thank goodness and I would have declined anyway. I already did that thing in my first two years and swallowed any shyness I had back then! But I'm a bald, fat 35-year-old man already so yeah don't have the enthusiasm for it anymore! And also games! Hopefully. there will be none or if there is, don't pick me too! Yeah, I am that person during parties! It's an introvert nightmare! But seriously, I do want my officemates who are into this to have fun, especially the newbies. It's been quite a year for this company and we survived. Gotta celebrate that

Worry Later

 Nothing more excruciating than thinking things will be confirmed only to find out there's still gonna be a wait. Testing my patience once more.  For now, I will just try to set aside my anxiety and focus on immediate concerns. 

Face

 I'm scared that today my fears will be confirmed. There's already pre-worrying happening from the armchair analysis. This is really making me go insane. I can't rest easy and the added fear surrounding me, makes things even more difficult to handle. That's why I keep myself from being happy because I know it won't last and that something will happen to spoil it. Better be miserable already so I don't lead myself to false hopes. NO. It's not the right way of thinking but I'm already so miserable and it's really just hard to fight back. 

As usual

Afraid and paranoid yet again as the day looms. I'm feeling things are turning bad again. Or I was just overthinking it. It's so repetitive but I can't break the cycle. All I can do is to distract myself from thinking about it way too much. Dear Lord, please no. Don't let my bad thoughts manifest.

Type

 I was reading an article on how kids/teens today are not good at typing but have a great command of touchscreen gadgets. Very true. During online school, my nephew could write an essay with just the Word app on his phone. I could NEVER do that. He first had his desktop computer in 2020 due to online school and he was a slow typer at first but he is now a fast typer mostly thanks to Roblox, Discord, and a typing test online that he got obsessed with for a time.

Nap

 I had a good nap and I needed it so much. I worked extra hard this week so my weekend won't be as tight and there could be space for me to do nothing! I know I needed a day like this from time to time. So I can recharge as next week will be another challenging one. I hope and pray, things will turn out fine although I'm always in fear no matter what but gotta live on the best way I can.

Bad feeling

Once again whenever this thing is near I'm overwhelmed with worries. Every single thing that could be just normal I find another meaning. Hopefully, I'm wrong and this isn't what I am thinking right now. I'm afraid to be happy because there might be something that's gonna happen that will be the opposite. I wish I didn't think this way but struggling not to do so. 

Wrapped!

So it's Spotify Wrapped day today and of course, as a chart geek, I love a personalized customized chart! Anyway, let me share my top 5 songs and podcasts!

My top 5 songs:

1. As It Was - Harry Styles

2. Pano - Zach Tabudio

3. I Ain't Worried - One Republic

4. Titi Me Pregunto - Bad Bunny

5. Rosas (Extended Version) - Nica Del Rosario and Gab Pangilinan

My top 5 podcasts:

1. Dear MOR 

2. TV's Top 5

3. Ang Walang Kwentang Podcast 

4. Abroad In Japan

5. This American Life

Explore

 Today is a holiday but I'm in the office by choice because I do like working in the office with the aircon and all! And I like the commute as well because are fewer people around. In a way it relaxes me and soothes my anxiety and dare I say, I'm more productive as well? Anyway, this dubbing script I'm working is really quite a good show, a business drama that could easily bore me but it didn't and made me learn about the culture of the country where the show is set. That's what I like about what I do, I get to watch TV/movies while earning money! It's not a career that would make me rich but I'm at this point of my life where I'm not that ambitious as long as I have decent stability wit less stress possible. Definitely not something that would take me to greater heights but I'm totally okay with it, 

A Visit

 There were some foreigner clients who visited the office and I found they were from the demo project I wrote the dubbing script for over a month ago. I really liked that demo project and crossing my fingers we would get this project! It's nearing December and glad we already secured some projects already ahead of the new year. I'm still hoping we would get another new project soon from this other client I really like. We started 2022 jampacked with projects with limited personnel but somehow we managed to pull it off so I'm really we can secure more projects now too as we welcome the new year! I really hope that visit will actually pave the way to scoring that project!

Repeat

 I just wish for a life of fewer complications but I know I will never get it. I'm so befuddled about how something that can be ignored can create a bigger mess. Isn't life hard enough as it is? Why do we feel compelled to add more to the stress and anxiety we are feeling? While I still go on and still make things work internally I'm just giving up. This exhausting feeling I've manifested in other facets of my life. There are just things that will not happen to me no matter what and now I admit it because of personal choice. While other elements are a factor but ultimately it is my choice to devote my life to this kind of living. I really just want to sit in the corner and mind my business but I know it's not in my nature, I always do something to make things OK for them and me in a way as well. But honestly just freaking tired that it keeps on happening and utterly hopeless. 

Cycle

Once again I just feel tired. Once again I hate feeling this way. Once again I hate that this is how I react whenever this happens. Once again I feel so helpless. Once again I'm skeptical why this just keeps happening. Once again I want to be in denial. Once again I'm hopeless. 

Again

Getting closer again to that routinary thing that somehow still keeps me - us - nervous. I really hope and pray nothing alarming will come out of it. But I dunno I've been training myself to deal with not favorable results. It could be a defense mechanism of some sort but God please let it be something that we would be worried about. 

Observe

 So I made a choice earlier which was based on a hinch and it seems that it worked. But of course, it won't be the case every day but I do like to see things out and test if my hunch is correct. But always calculated risk or close to that where I don't make big risks, just something that there's a minimal effect, well hopefully it is. I know it does not work all the time but sometimes there are just things when you feel so something strongly about.

A trip

The Christmas movie I translated is now streaming on Netflix! It's THE NOEL DIARY. It is based on a book and it's not the usual Christmas romcom because it has a more dramatic tone but is still light to watch. I enjoyed translating it so much especially the love declaration toward the end, whew!  Kinda fitting that I translated a movie with a diary in the center of the story with what I've been doing here every single day for the past few years which has been really helpful to keep me sane!

Contigo

 So happy to know that the two projects I've been waiting for have finally arrived. I know they were coming but I was getting a little antsy that they haven't arrived yet because time is essential and we could on work everything needed already before it gets caught in the middle of the holiday season! But anyway glad that these two projects are setting us up for next year as well. I've also been anticipating additional projects for this other client we have, a client which really to be honest made me so excited to work this year more than anything! So hopefully they are indeed coming soon, maybe this week? Yes, please

Stay

I've been feeling bad a lot lately I neglected how other people near me are feeling bad as well. One is enveloped by feat and sometimes we lost patience over it which is unfair because this is something beyond our control. It's the stress and anxiety talking. The thing is I can't seem to control myself from panicking and having mini meltdowns. The other is quite trapped. And last night was a testament to that but there is just a tricky situation and we need to cater to a need. It's so hard to be in the middle of things. But a scenario that could put an end to things is more depressing so  NO. We have to deal with all the complications and just pray things will find itself to a better position.

MMK

 MMK is ending after 31 years on the air. To be honest, I haven't watched it in a long time but to know that an iconic show is ending is just sad for sentimental reasons. Probably still an effect of the network not having a franchise anymore so funds aren't there or maybe just changing times and viewer preferences. I dunno but I feel a different kind of sadness knowing this show is ending. Maybe what I'm feeling is more than that and just connecting this show's fate to something else. 

A Dream

 I may be overthinking but can't help but feel that it is a sign of what's gonna happen. I don't know what to feel anymore. Half trying to accept it and half in denial. I really hope I'm just my usual paranoid self and there's really nothing bad that's coming. NO.

Pace

 Finishing what I delayed yesterday. To be honest, If I didn't get lazy all of a sudden yesterday I could have finished it so easily but I don't know what's up with me yesterday and even earlier today that I didn't have the drive to finish but now that I'm doing it, I was really in a good flow that I was able to do it quicker than usual. Maybe I need that down time to reboot?  I dunno but glad I didn't have to rush this off

Chill

 After three days of really hardcore working, I had a  "lighter" day. Well, I was supposed to do something today that can help unload some of the things I need to do but I dunno I got distracted by other things or maybe I did really need to have some break to recharge and I will get on hard core work mode again especially with all the things I need to finish next week . But hey carry on

Jinx

 It's hard not to feel that sometimes I feel forces are against me and the things that I try to avoid will still keep coming back to haunt me. Maybe I had this coming for being a coward for trying to escape -even temporarily- It consistently happens but I never learn.  But I want to give myself credit because I always give my all even if the stress sometimes sneaks in. But there are times I just feel like I need some space away from it all, it's not even fully disengaging, just a short reprieve. Maybe I don't deserve a break? 

Tender

 So finished one of the toughest dubbing scripts I ever did! But it was quite fulfilling because I really poured all my focus to finish it well! I'm quite confident with my work here! I still have a couple of scripts to work on but every time I finish something off my list I just get more motivated to do more! It sounds funny for some I guess but really this work has help me relax with all the anxieties I've been dealing with lately/  This year has been good and hopefully next year will be even better 

React

Trying my best to be calm when there's so much to worry about. Or maybe I just make things bigger than it really is.  Taking things one day at a time. That's all I can do at this point so I can stay sane because I can't be the one making things more difficult than it already is.

Inhale

Taking a time off . Partly because of necessity but also I need to step back a little from all the anxiety. I feel guilty it's like I'm giving up but I swear it isn't despite feeling exhausted lately. I just need a breather to focus on something urgent but also to recharge so I can face the challenges with a clearer mind. I just hope and pray nothing bad happens in this short time. Please no.

Bumpy

 Just as when I thought the day is okay, some unnecessary hassle got in the way. Small stuff to be honest but I'm so overwhelmed with everything in my life now that even a slight bump can give me a mountain of anxiety and exhaustion. But now I've calmed down a little I feel so awful to feel this way yet again. It's a cycle. I don't know how to control it from not happening again. 

Trouble Within

 It's hard to concentrate when I can't shake this feeling off my system. I know I need to be grateful because it could have been worst but no matter how hard I try I just can't suppress this feeling of despair. How I wish the situation was different, how I wish we were in a better position. It's selfish but I wish I was able to maximize life and enjoy it right now but every moment when I feel a tinge of joy, I'm quickly reminded things could still get worse. I want to look forward to something, to feel excitement again but that feeling that anything bad could happen keeps me in check all the time. I wish to be free of this feeling and yet I know deep inside that being freed from this internal prison comes with a price I don't want to happen. It's hard to feel that because no matter what, there's simply nothing I can do no matter how hard to try to change everything. It's an ugly feeling I wish I can just erase from existence. 

Lagundi

Another manifestation of the current problem. I tried my best to be as calm and understanding but it's really difficult not to be overwhelmed with all the stuff being thrown at us. It's neverending. There's no sense of clarity on the horizon. I'm frustrated and devastated. I'm losing my mind at times because I feel so hopeless. It's not the worst-case scenario yet but the signs are there. The other possible solution will bring despair as well. We can't find a winning option.

Question

When I heard this question earlier it feels like a confirmation of what I've been worrying about. I tried my best to sound calm and not too dismissive but it bothered me so much. I feel like giving up again but of course, I won't. But just the thought of dealing with this possible nightmare is eating me inside. Once again praying hard that what I'm thinking is not true. Please Lord hear our prayer.

Nun!

 So excited that the Filipino-dubbed for Warrior Nun Season 1 is now streaming! Season 2 comes out tomorrow and hopefully that Filipino dubbed for it will be out at the same time as well. This is a show that I've seen for the first time due to work but definitely became a favorite. Season 2 is even more fantastic! I hope it gets renewed for season 3 and not just because its our project but I really want to see more of this show