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 Finished writing the dubbing script of an episode of this streaming TV show. It is English to Filipino translation so in a way it's easier but still had some moments where I forgot the translation of some words. Also, in some parts I have to make a decision whether to keep English word as it is since we are a Taglish nation after all. But I needed to find the right balance where it doesn't sound awkward but also not to maintain a lot of English words because what's the point of localizing right? It was a challenge that  was fun to do. Looking forward to do more!

Zoom!

 So for the first time I used Zoom to virtually attend a client's workshop for its contractors in dubbing which includes our company! But just audio for me because I just have to listened. Anyway, that workshop was organized by the international team of our client and at first it started a little boring with those template and such but it got interesting when the question and answer portion started, while our team didn't ask questions because we are just new subcontractors and we are there mainly to observe and take notes, the questions from the other participants were so meaty that no further questions were needed! Anyway, this client is such a big one and I really hope they will really like our output. I was actually quite busy working on a dubbing script for one of the project of this client and I'm working hard for it to be good although there's still a lot of learn.

Work It

There's a lot of thing to do at work but honestly I'm really loving it and I really hope it's a sign of a great year ahead. It gives me a good escape from my mind endlessly worrying about something that has not happened yet. Anyway, I've been working on a lot of things and really excited when one of it is finally and get released. I hope everything runs as smoothly as possible. We are moving offices soon and it's gonna be literally a mess but I hope we settle at the new site quickly

On Edge

My worst fear didn't happen.. for now. But it's dangerously close which will keep me worrying for the next few months or so. But still thank you Lord for today of course but I really hope and pray it will continue to out of danger zone. I will be consistently scared though and I need to prepare myself to toughen it up, 

Nuts

 If only things worked out I would have known by now what I should do next. Tomorrow it is and thinking what could happen is driving me insane. Of course I think of the negative scenario first then trying to keep some hope alive then I go back to thinking bad. My gut just says what I think is happening. Clues are there but still hoping I'm wrong. Oh Dear Lord please let not my fear come true. 

2PM

 So what I was expecting/dreading has been extended for another day. Prolonging the agony.  Honestly, I have a bad feeling about this but hopefully this is just me being so paranoid. Worried. Scared. Anxious. I hope I can function well today. 

Upon

 Glad I was able to finish a work task today instead of finishing it up over the weekend. Not that I'm not gonna do any work related  this weekend, I still plan to do some advanced work for a script for a major client. It's quite a big challenge but willing to take it on.

I also want this weekend free just in case something happens. It's a pivotal weekend personally. Trying to stay hopeful but very scared of a  possibility that has been bugging me for months. I will face whatever the outcome is but please God let not my fear happen.

Revisit

 So I answered this survey posted by my college professor on our alumni FB group and it's about the department's plan to have Master's Degree next academic year. I answered that I'm interested to enroll if ever it happens! But I did pick the option of after 2 years because I don't have the money to send my self to graduate school anytime school. I'm not sure if I have the time to do between my work and family errands that I balance. But not gonna lie I'm so interested with earning a Master's Degree and I would love to do it in DLSU-D. I've been toying it for so long but I just didn't have the money to do it plus I'm not confident if I still have what it takes to be good in academics especially since Master's degree isn't easy to do now that I'm working as well.  Tomorrow will be the 14th year since I graduated from college. It's been that long since I was away from school. One can argue my entire work life has been one continuous learning experience but school is still different. I was a good student but now that I'm in my mid 30s can I still be that person?

Twice

Two local dubbing projects we did this year have started airing on network TV. One of the project I was the one in charge of quality check so I've seen all episodes of it. I also wrote the dubbing scripts for 2 episodes but towards the end so hopefully I will be able to see my work when it airs on TV. The show is over 50 minutes but the local network airing it is airing in half hour installments so my episodes won't be shown I guess in 2 months, hopefully I'll remember to tune in!

One current project I'm so excited about is the one that involves a streaming platform! I have 3 writing tasks on cure for that projects on top of some quality check work too. I'm excited about this project because they will credit the dubbing scriptwriter as translator/adapter and yes I'm hungry for a credit like that I can show and be proud of! A little shallow I know but the prospect of it makes me happy. I need to hold on to these sources of excitement and happiness because life is tough and I'm afraid on a lot of things lately. Having something to look forward to keeps me sane. 

Jampacked

 I did a lot today and still have many things on my to-do list but so far I'm doing okay and hopefully, it stays that way, I really need to write things down, as in literal doing it by hand so I can be more organized because I feel like writing it down I absorb it more regardless of my penmanship. That's how I was in college, I take down notes in classes, sometimes on the book itself and it helps me absorb information more. So grateful for being busy right now. May the blessings continue to come especially the one I've been praying the hardest. 

Preempt

 There are reasons for me to get excited about but I'm trying to manage my expectations because I don't know I feel like there something that's gonna happen that could spoil it. I can't be happy because there must be a catch. I know this is ridiculous to think this way but I just can't help it. My fear always lurks in because I feel like if I let my guard down, something could sneak in that would just put me low spirits,. If I prepare for the worst case scenarios now maybe it would soften the blow? No, if my fears happen I would be devastated so I think I'm preventing myself to feel happiness to prepare myself? Oh goodness I'm such a mess inside. 

Vencer

I overcame this challenge with a limited time! Glad I pulled it but I hope it won't happen again but glad I finished at a good time and I didn't have to stay late. So much challenges ahead but I'm facing it head on. There's something that worries me next week and I really hope my worst fears won't matter. Oh Dear Lord, please don't let it happen and hear my plea.

ADR

I I'm really happy writing dubbing scripts has occupied my time a lot these days because I don't want to dwell on things making me anxious and when I write scripts I go to a different world too. The past month I wrote dubbings for tagalized korean drama and a cartoon and then English dubbing scripts for a Mexican show and I have one script to write for a Pinoy soap for english dubbing. I'm also set to write an episode of  a TV show that will tagalized by a popular streaming platform. Also not gonna lie, the additional income I will get is a factor of this happiness I feel and motivates me so much to do better. I wish it happened sooner but better late than never!

Below Average

My nephew got his first-ever line of 7 grade in one subject (Filipino). I told my sister not to castigate him and she does understand that my nephew is not motivated with online school anymore. Although I did say I will check his activities for that subject for the rest of the school year. Personally, I think it is just fine as my nephew is still generally smart but just not the studious type (like she is and I am!) but his insights for his age is actually good and sometimes even mature! But education in the pandemic era is a struggle for a lot of people in the world. I really hope face-to-face classes will resume soon at his school. He missed a lot of things the past 2 years, not just on an academic level but socially as well.

Ricky

                      My first digital premiere of an ABS-CBN Film Restoration team movie this year!

   

I attended a dozen last year, first two were my own purchases then the succeeding ones I got invited by Sir Leo Katigbak which is such a pleasure. The most enjoyable aspect of these online events are the pre-show talks with the cast and crew of each film, love hearing their stories. And for Ipaglaban Mo: The Movie, THE Ricky Lee was the one who did the talk and just wow he is so insightful! The way he tells his stories from the past are so engrossing to listen to! He uses simple and easy to understand words but hits the mark. He sho

Gap

So some officemates went to the office today to pick up the things that they left at the office. Their department is now permanently a work-from-home setup and with the office moving to a new building soon, they have to get their stuff back or else it will be disposed of. Some of them I haven't seen in 2 years! It's exactly two years ago since the last pre-lockdown setup. I can't believe it has been this long

Good Problem

Additional projects came in at work! It's so gonna be hectic as my manager said this is a good blessing! It truly is but definitely a big challenge! We have new employees now who will help us but since they are all new and young, assistance is still very much needed. I just finished doing one of my many tasks. I asked help for my channel duties which gladly I have someone I can trust on to do some of my video-related tasks so all is good. Just hectic days ahead! But this is a good problem to have and quite frankly this is making me so hopeful despite the personal demons I'm battling. 

Discomfort

This day is full of people / events giving me so much discomfort. Additional stress like I needed more in my life. It's cyclical and very tired of it but I'm staying silent because I don't want to deal anymore. 

Pause

 I gave myself a break today rom working so hard the past week. I need to reset for a big work battle ahead next week! There's still some minor family issue too that's bugging me but I shouldn't let  it affect that much. But I always stay cautious, I don't want to be too complacent really. 

Knocked Out

 I didn't feel any single side effect for my first and second dose of vaccine (Sinovac) but my booster shot Pfizer had an effect! My arm was sore for a few hours and later today I was so sleepy that that the more I fight it off the sleepier I get so I gave in and slept in the afternoon for 4 hours! I was snoring hard my mother said haha! I was supposed to do some scripting today but I was just too sleepy to do it and tonight TV stuff distracted so yeah just gonna do it tomorrow. 

Boosting Red

Finally had my Pfizer booster today! I waited for awhile because the vaccination sites here were crowded when omnicron hit but now the cases went down and restrictions were eased I finally decided to get my booster shot and very few people in the vaccination sites now.

After watching it then watched the new Disney-Pixar Turning Red in the cinema and it's quite a fun movie and such a creative way to tell a parent-young teen kid conflict. It is set in 2002 when I was a teen so I love the setting as well!

Second

We will move to a new office space in April and they have started dismantling some of the stuff at the office to be moved to our new one. I will miss this place, a second home for nearly 13 years.

 

Space for Boost

 Very glad today that I was able to finish a writing task while also finishing all pending video-related tasks on the channel. I still have the schedules to finish up which I will do tomorrow then I have two writing tasks on queue. And I have quality check/previewing tasks too, whew! But I really like being this busy and productive. So far I am able to balance things off. One matter I need to finish though is getting the booster COVID19 vaccine shot which I intended to do last week but time was my enemy so there's that. I hope I can get the booster shot this Friday

Meet

 For the first time since the pandemic I attended a meeting at the office. I didn't have to attend meetings before even online (I don't have zoom and have never used one) important stuff were just sent on messenger or text! Anyway, the meeting is because there is a big project on going and more people are needed to help. It is both a blessing and cause of stress mainly because we lack manpower

Almost Full

I have a lot of things to do with multiple projects at work right now. Some of this I'm quite excited for although it will really be such a challenging time for me to balance everything out but hey this is a good problem to deal with, better busy than waste my time dwelling on negativity. Better be productive than be miserable thinking of negative scenarios. Not gonna lie those thoughts still linger and catch me off guard. I do my best to divert my energy because I can't live my life this way in constant anxiety. 

One Left

 Just finished writing the 4th out of five episodes of this cartoon that I'm writing the translation for tagalog dubbing!While each episode is just around 10 minutes, it still requires a lot of time and concentration especially translating the kiddie humor. I missed my goal of finishing all five today because I started later than my target time and also had some distractions but it's okay, I'm gonna finish up tomorrow morning before I go with my regular work task then start my other writing task later that night at home. Everything is so busy but I can manage! I like being this busy   

Cracks

 My old laptop is now showing signs of breaking down. While I'm using the the 'new" secondhand laptop I recently bought more these days due to work, I still use this old laptop for watching stuff for leisure. I'm torn if I will have this fixed or just save money to buy a brand new one. Budget is tight so my decision for this is not easy. I wish it was not though but oh well maybe this year I could afford to a buy new one. One of these days where I feel like such a loser in life. 

799

 Truth be told I am losing hope that something worrisome is gonna happen but a day like this I feel hopeful again that the odds can be beaten. The passion is so there, you can feel it so much. I'm not confident still because their force is just too strong, you can feel it really because they don't even hide it. They act innocent and arrogant at the same time. I'm truly scared but I will cling on to any ray of hope

Fuel

 So I got another writing project and this time it's for a cartoon that will be tagalized. It's shorter than the scripts I normally do so I took it because hey as long as I can do it why would I say no.  My weekend will be just again so jampacked but this is good, the busier I am, the happier I am because I don't have to linger anymore with my anxieties! Anyway, earlier I was able to checked the first version of the dubbed episode where I wrote the script for and glad to see there were minimal changes from what I've written to what they used on screen especially the more complicated lines I worked on! It's a good feeling of fuffillment and I rarely feel this anymore these days so whenever I feel it I cherish it

Payoff

I was able to get two additional dub-synch script projects I need for additional income! It will consume my weekends but I don't really mind because it keeps my mind occupied while doing something that will benefit me financially. Last year, I asked our office admin if I could get writing projects for additional income. Previously, it was not allowed for regular employees as there were conflicts in the past from previous employees who abused it and made a scheme out of it. Initially, I was not allowed due to that precedent but later on they allowed me as long as it won't interfere with my actual work task. I was able to write two late last year when they had shortage of freelance writers. This year I was able to write two and now got two other additional work. Very glad. I started as scriptwriter here in the company anyway so I do enjoy writing dub-synch scripts. Truth be told, I could have made more money from way before if I did write before pretending to be a freelance like some of my former co-workers but I'm not the type to break rules especially when money is involved. That was a decision I'm glad I made. I could have written for other dubbing studios too as raket but it's not allowed too due to conflict of interests although I knew some former coworkers who did that too. I admit for a time I regretted not taking the chance, maybe I could have made more but I really don't like doing something behind someone's back especially when involving money. I'm really happy our company allowed me do this now because I could do something for extra income with blessing and I don't have to do it secretly. It also helped we are getting a lot of projects lately so there really was a need for additional writers. I've been so down a lot but this at least made me really happy. 

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Perpetually

 First day of the month and of Alert Level 1, the new "new normal" and I did feel there are more people out there now on my commute and there's heavier traffic too. But it still it just isn't the same as it was 2 years ago! But hey at least this time we're facing the second year of this pandemic in a more hopeful route now compared to last year when another outbreak came about. I will get my booster shot of the vaccine later this week too! 

I want to be excited for the possibility of going back to what it once was but with everything going around the world and especially this country and it's hard to muster enthusiasm. It's so hard to be in this constant feel of anxiousness and fear but I just can't shake it off. I wish I can. I wish there's a strong reason to.