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I got stresed and I wasn't able to finish the thing I want to finish because I got distracted yet again! Let's try tomorrow which is a new month already!!!!

Don't Let Me Go

 

I had a World of My Own album (on cassette) for decades but only now that I've discovered this song from this album when I streamed the album on Spotify! I guess it was from a deluxe edition because I don't recall it or maybe my memory is just poor! Anyway, I love this song, bopping to it while commuting!

It's so fun to discover an old song although it doesn't feel that old to me. Or maybe I'm just biased!

Scrub Back In

 Just watched Scrubs revival (thank goodness it streams on Disney+ here!) and I really enjoyed it. It's really a good continuation, acknowledging the time that passed but still has the same vibe of the characters we loved. It also successfully touched on new specific stories to this time without it going too much that feels so try hard. I'm totally in for the rest of the season and hoping for more!

Silver

The major change has been official this week ,and there's a vital confirmation that happened a while ago too. I hope healing will begin from this day. I know it's not easy but I do hope I was able to help to make the road clear or at least take the first step. I admit I got exhausted too but it's hard not to care.

Sponges

People using me as their shock absorber again and I obliged because I can't help it as well. I wish I could find a better solution to handle everything than just taking it all in. But I don't know anymore because I know there's no eureka moment that will magically change what they feel, how they view things. Lord, please help me to stay strong

Machine

 Crossed off one from the list but there's more to come! But I live in this kind of challenge. Hopefully, I can do my one thing tomorrow smoothly because it's a first for this new phase we are living in now.

Empty Out

 I need to power through next week because I decided to not force myself too much this weekend! It's a 50-50 feeling because I do need it but I wanted to get things done as well. But I was just not feeling it so I followed that especially since I struggled with coughs this week and recovering now! On to better week ahead and hopefully no unnecessary stress anymore, please!!!!

Joints

 So I decided not to do something to push things forward. I hit pause yet again. On one side I feel a little worried that I'm behind but on the other hand I think it's okay to empty out my brain so I can recharge and be on fighting mode again! I remind myself of recent events when I witnessed something crashing all down because of letting everything consume you completely

Resend

 Getting annoyed again but I have to be patient yet again! It's a small thing so I don't want to make a big deal out of it. But hopefully I won't get bothered again because self-realization please! But I don't want to be blunt so I just let it pass!

Structure

 So many changes lately but I'm trying to keep things on regular flow as possible! It is quite scary but if you just stare and ponder and worry and basically not move then nothing will happen and more problems will arise! Oh Dear Lord, please guide me in these trying times.

Zigzag

 I don't want to be bothered, but I clearly am, so yeah. I'm going to take some actions to protect what I worked hard for. There will be compromises; I have to accept that. I may lose out on certain things but I used to do that before anyway. Hopefully, this will steady the ship.I don't know. I'm confused. I could mess it up after seeing such big epic fail recently from another person. I don't want to be next.

Checked Out

 I have now been second-guessing what I should be doing. But like what I said self yesterday, I NEED to do this for them. So I have to toughen it up or else I will falter. I knew this would eventually come. Oh well....

Tissue

 Alright, I confirmed I expected but I can't let it bring me down because what I need to provide is priority. As long as I don't do anything wrong, it's okay, I will just let it be. But it does worry me because I've been on the same rodeo before but well I gotta be cautious then!

Relief

 So yeah after some very intense and insane series of days, I decided to do a pause today because the thing I need to finish can be done tomorrow. After what I've witnessed recently, it really is better if you don't give your all and make your life revolved around something because it could cloud your judgment and make impulsive decisions that would make you regret things!

Lands

I'm worried about yet another thing that hasn't happened yet, but you see, I will calm down. I will not meddle; I will let them do their thing. I shouldn't overstep. Hopefully, things will turn out okay and what needs to be done will be accomplished. 

Next time

 I was working on something that got me emotional in the end! I didn't saw it coming but it showed me the value of time really and not to take things for granted! Also, not waste time holding grudges and prolonging drama!

Flames

 My brain is so tired. My heart is so tired. But I can't give up. I can't afford to give up. I need to calm down. I need to control my emotions. I need to stay on track. I need to protect whatever peace of mind I still have left. 

Wallowing

 It hurts me to say that I'm running out of patience with empathizing. I totally get now why they had to distance themselves. And I need to step back too. I feel so drained just absorbing. I gave my best to boost the morale but you have to choose to rise up from it. Oh well, I need a little distance now. 

Adjustments

So...many...changes... I have to adjust and adapt to the changing tides.  I'm quite uncomfortable but I have no choice to march forward. I have to watch over their welfare too because challenging times ahead, we need to stay united and focus on one goal. Oh dear Lord, please help me. 

Messy. Messy

 Letting it all in again. Absorbing the negative energy again. Thinking that things could be worse and these are just little issues in grand scheme of things.  Have a deep breath then move forward

Main Shaft

 Whew, met my goal today! Hoping the rest of the week will be smooth sailing even if there's a lot of things that are challenging me (and yeah annoying me too but I try to keep things in check) It's gonna be a tough one ahead but I will remain focused. For now, I will take a well-deserved rest! I need to recharge!

The Muppets

 I watched The Muppets Show special on Disney+ and my heart was aflutter! I don't know about the theme song and the general feel is just full of wholesome fun! The opening with Sabrina Carpenter singing child and the chicken muppets dancing was pure joy! The end part is hopefully they could do more and I hope so too!

Swamped

 So many things to do but I will manage to pull it all off! I will need some help of course and careful focus. No time wasted. Don't get distracted. Focus on the goal. Let's do it!!!

21 years

My first post 21 years ago! It's been that long! Glad to have this online space for me to vent,ramble and basically unload whatever is on my mind! It helps really to be normal outside, haha. Hopefully, Google won't shut this down!

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Circumstances

Some good things came in but some lingering issue is making me feel a little bit anxious. It's hard not to sympathize but not get drawn to the misery of others too because it affects you too. Difficult situation. Unfortunate circumstance. What a tough year so far. 

0314

Okay, processing some shocking news today. I had a feeling it would happen but I was hoping it was just paranoia but sadly, things are really indeed worse. I'm worried, deeply worried for the future. But I need to do my best for the future. Or what I could salvage from it. Scary times. 

Consultations

 I've been absorbing stress and anxiety from other people lately and man it's so hard to deal with. I am emphathetic of course but it will really test your patience because it doesn't seem like whatevery your saying is really being heard and you just feel like they don't want to listen but just wants you to listen. Bu I do feel for the agony, I'm pretty anxious too but I'm also practical that I can't afford to freeze my life because I have a lot of things going on that needs me to be in check always. Anyway, I do sincerely they will battle their inner demons eventually

Resurgence

 I absolutely how The Bloomfields' cover of Ale is once again popular! I bought the CD of thier album where this song was included back in 2007! Nostalgia of course but it's such a good vibe, makes you forget all of life's worries!