Uncertain

 I wish I have the confidence or at least the faith of other people that things can turn around, that what is projected will not happen and that everything is just a lie. I try to disengage myself because I don't want to raise my hopes so much because I feel like it's a losing battle but I don't want to be a downer to those who are keeping the faith alive that there is a chance so I just step away. I want to be hopeful but I want to be realistic as well. Oh life's complications.

Don Chua

 So after two weeks of extended stay, today was really it for our stay here at Don Chua Lamko Building. So what's my favorite memory here? Definitely the one time I was trapped sa elevator. Naka-angat lang barely yung elevator bago na-stuck so hindi naman talaga dangerous and I was quickly assisted by the building's maintenance. Second favorite memory eh yung unaware ako na-lock pala ako sa office, I came in very early and hindi napansin nung may outside shoot that day na nandun na ako sa desk ko sa sulok kaya they locked it up when they left. Hindi rin ako aware kasi I was busy and nagulat na lang yung admin when she opened the office at nandun na ako! I will definitely miss this place and sana yung next office namin ganun din kalamig ang aircon!

I forgot to take a photo and mag-moment kasi nagmamadali ako umuwi! So thanks tp my co-worker James  for this parting shot! 

45!

My parents' 45th wedding anniversary today! As always dear Lord my prayers is to keep them safe and healthy.. I admit sometimes I still feel overwhelmed that basically I'm the looking over my parents' welfare these days due to their age. Tables have been turned as they say. While I admit it's quite stressful but no regrets because I love them so much. All the frustrations I feel are fleeting, but the love is always there stronger than ever. My Dear Lord please hear my plea, keep my parents safe and healthy for years to come.

Airing!

I just found out that the very first animated program I ever wrote a dubbing script for is already airing! It started last week - it's Cartoon Network's Uncle Grandpa! It is airing at 930AM on TV5! I wish I will be able to watch an episode I translated, I've already seen the dubbed version of course but I just want to see it it on actual TV just because I'm proud of my work;.Likewise, the kdrama I wrote two dubbing scripts for is Never Twice on  NET25 airing at 830PM. They air it in half hour installments but the actual episodes are over 50 minutes. The episodes I wrote for are toward the end of the show's run so good luck if I'll get the chance to see it on actual TV because I'm quite busy at night these days doing scripts but we'll see! Doing dubbing scripts again really made this year happy despite all the anxieties I'm dealing with. When I translate/adapt the script it makes me feel creative again and so also immersed to another world. Of course getting paid for it, without the worry of it being not allowed at work anymore, is a really great feeling too. Truth be told, I could have done this years ago but it was not allowed same with writing for other dubbing studios too for obvious reasons. I could have done it in secret like some I knew before but I'm simply not comfortable especially since money is involved. Yeah, call me goody two shoes but this is what I am. I won't lie though because I did think about it and also felt envious with other people already doing it and earning along the way.  In fact, I was so tempted last year to seek outsourced dubbing script opportunities outside due to financial needs but glad I didn't because it's just something that will torture me  with guilt and worry of getting reprimanded. 

But thinking of missed opportunities did push me to finally to do something iand  I formally asked if I could write it for the company's projects so I can earn extra. I was really happy when I was finally allowed to do so. While this has taken my world right now but this has been the morale boost I needed so badly. 

Mini Melt

 I had some rough moments earlier where my fears attack me again and I felt so anxious on my way home from work and then I got stressed over things that I normally do but found to be such a hassle. To put the icing, I made a blunder as well just because I didn't question things and I was afraid of speaking up. To makes matter worst, I'm feeling some muscle pain to on my shoulder. Is this because of too much typing? Not my day. Hopefully tomorrow is better.

Health Check

 A co-worker's wife recently had an operation that was the same one my mother had last year. She's fine now like Nanay is currently right now. But you know what I admit I still feel very afraid of what lies ahead. Sometimes because I'm quite busy these days this worry takes the backseat but sometimes I feel like life will find a way to remind me of this fear like when I heard about my co-worker's wife's case I felt anxious again. Oh Dear Lord please hear my prayers for good health for my nanay, tatay and the rest of my family healthy and that includes me because I worry too about myself as well.

Shorts

 Just finished writing the dubbing script of  an animated TV show! Tomorrow  (or perhaps later this morning) I will write the final episode of the first season. I hope the  network that will air it here will acquire the other seasons and commission us again to dub because I really enjoyed writing the scripts for this one. It's a comedy which was a treat to write especially since it's short too! I hope they will air it on local TV soon enough so I can watch and wait for the episodes I wrote! 

Hole

 I had a good catch up chat with a friend online. It started because I greeted her Happy Birthday and congratulated her at her new house and then we had long chat about life in general. It was so good to talk this friend even if it is just through a messaging app. But then we talked about topics that made me question about my life choices again. I mean I'm writing this at past 12AM when I'm usually asleep, so yeah it really went this hard.  Anyway, I will just focus on things I can do at the moment and try not to be bothered anymore of what I missed out. 

Pour

 More additional dubbing projects coming at the office. Literally jampacked now! This is great news of course but I wish this happened last year so we didn't have to retrench people because we now seriously need more manpower especially techs! But oh well timing could be such a bewildering thing at times!

No Last Minute

 I met my goal of finishing one dubbing script that was originally due on Sunday. That one crossed off my checklist. I still have some things pending, especially that movie script I have to work on but glad my aim was met today.  I really want things done earlier than it needs to be. I don't want to cram. I don't want to feel pressured. I don't want to sleep late just to finish something. It's working so far and I will continue to do my best to make things work. 

Full Plate

 So I decided to help out a in-house writer who is struggling with deadline by writing one of his movie dubbing scripts due for next week although I was able to talk to the dubbing coordinator and adjust the deadline for a few more days because I need allowance since writing a movie dubbing script takes a lot of time and effort. Also, I have a few more scripts to finish as well this weekend so yeah it's gonna be a busy time ahead again! But this is giving me quite a boost really despite how hectic it is and helps me stay focused. I have goals to accomplish so bring it on

Get Busy

 The office had internet troubles for the past 2 days which I guess is a sign they want us to move already! haha! But last I heard the new offices are still far from ready. The dubbing studios are just not easy to do and can't be rushed off or else production will suffer! Anyway, that internet issues was quite a hassle for working but despite that I was still able to accomplish things off my checklist. Hoping to start a telenovela dubbing script tomorrow as well so I can subkit earlier than deadline which is Sunday. Things are getting busy again but I love it. Really hoping and pray things will run well and that I won't have to deal with big personal problems soon as well. Still very worried with a lot of things personal and national so pouring my energy to work gives me a relief. 

Cool

 So one friend I recruited to write dubbing scripts failed to submit half of what is needed which was due today. I got annoyed at first because it was late notice so I had to finish one and asked another friend to helped finish what is left pending. But good thing I maintained my cool and didn't berate her when we were messaging each other. She was apologetic and I was calm and understanding because she's still new to this and has other life priorities. Life is stressful enough these days so I don't need to be a burden not just for her but for myself as well. I don't want to have conflicts with her because she's a good friend and I didn't let pressure to take over and break something.

Three Weeks Left

Dreading the results. I could feel they are winning. They will get the power. The fact many people are not bothered of the past is alarming. Just trying now to accept what would most likely happen. Maybe start time to disengage now. Will still make choice, it is my right and although this could now be just a symbol of resistance. I am so afraid. 

Keys

 Basically binged a series the past 2 days because it's a dubbing project in the company and aside from writing one episode of it, I'm also tasked to check the submitted dubbing scripts for continuity and  such. I honestly like this project and it helps the show is so entertaining but I really need to be attentive to details and such! I really hope this project will be executed well and I'm really excited once we're done with this and it's out in the world!

Marites

 A former co-worker messaged me out of the blue to ask where we will be moving offices, that's normal  since I posted it on social media but the next message was funny because she was congratulating me because I got a promotion which I clarified that I didn't but just had additional work an then she replied in a matter-of-factly way that she heard that I will be replacing my manager who will be replacing an admin who is migrating abroad. I said that's not true and asked her where she got that gossip from and she said it was confidential hahaha. Anyway, I did say that the promotion thing is fake news and I have no interest whatsoever with that stressful job and I'm fine where I am and happy doing dubbing scripts again. I admit I don't know if the migration thing is true but none of my business. I don't know it's been so long she was part of the company but it's funny she's still updated or at least she thinks she is! 

Lookout

As much as I wanted this day to be stress-free and it wasn't to be. Some people's choices makes you worry a lot. Some people's action is providing so much inconvenience. Some you just can't understand where it goes. It's troubling that is why I don't let myself be engage with something without being cautious that something could go wrong. There simply can't be true happiness. Just trying to maintain daily sense of peace is hard enough.

Electrifying

While the news of electricity rates going up was already known we still couldn't help but be shocked and annoyed upon seeing our bill! And a lot of people do too. It caused some minor stress but hey earlier when our salary was released, I immediately paid for it along with the water bill. Thank goodness I've been earning some extra lately so I was able to do so and not wait for my siblings to give their share which they did earlier upon arriving at home but I really wanted it to be paid immediately especially with Maundy Thursday-Good Friday coming up. Anyway, hoping for a soothing and meaningful Lent ahead and even for a short while, leave my worries away.

Pause

 So I began fixing my stuff at the office in preparation of the office transfer. I threw some of it and a lot like books, notebooks, mementos I took home. But surprised! Our transfer to the new office has been postponed as it is not ready yet so we will stay at the old office I think at least until the end of the month but anyway at least I already cleaned my stuff up and ready to move whenever it is!

Prep

 So final 3 days at our present office building. Since it's Holy Week as well, I need some balancing to do on finishing work task and preparing for the office move. I did accomplished some work today and I plan to start gathering my things tomorrow, labeling my PC, hard drives, cords and other things. I've been hearing some of my coworkers who already saw our new office that it really is smaller than we get used to. I'm a bit worried about it but then again this move was needed to save money on office lease, essential for the company's survival. I really hope the new setup won't be such a hassle in performing work duties

Screen Down

 My old laptop won't open. I haven't been using it in awhile since I've been using my new secondhand laptop but I do check occasionally to see if it still works but today it finally died. It was very useful and had a good shelf life (7 years) because it was secondhand too! I hope this one I'm currently using will last long too though I'm saving up to buy an actual new laptop especially I'm back writing dubbing scripts again and more writing projects ahead too. This laptop I'm using is efficient but still has limits. Hopefully, I can save enough soon to buy  a new one. 

Detach

 I'm worried about the elections happening next month. Tensions are high and shady things are happening.. To be honest, I'm detaching myself from it to avoid a bigger heartbreak once the results come in and my hope won't come true. Still hoping my worst fears won't happen though but also preparing for the worst as early as now. 

Delivered

 Four days before the deadline, I submitted my dubbing script for a yet-to-be-released streaming movie! I really worked hard for it the past 2 days and I must say it was a good movie and really had some major dramatic moments that I really needed to exert a lot of effort and well to be dramatic soul adapting the script to Filipino. I'm not sure when this movie will be out on the streaming platform since the project is due for submission next month so it may take awhile for it to be released. I do think they will wait for all localization around the world of the said movie to be ready before they release it on the streaming platform but I'm excited! I hope I did justice translating it.

Approximate

I'm close to finishing the movie dubbing script! A little over 10 minutes to go left! I could have finished it tonight but rest is important so I will be in the right set of mind to finish it tomorrow. It's due Tuesday so I will have the time to polish it too. I  really wanted to avoid cramming especially for this project!

Boosted

 Received the fee for the two dubbing scripts I did and I immediately deposited it to my savings account! It really feels good to see the fruit of my hardwork for those scripts and I'm more driven to do more and save more money. Projects are flowing in the company with two new animated programs for Filipino dubbing on the pipeline! Thank you Lord for these blessings!

Halfway

I'm fifty percent done writing the dubbing script of this streaming movie! This is due next Tuesday and I hope to finish by Friday so I can have the time to polish it because I really want this to be as good as possible. The scene I handled today was tough to watch because it was a sexual assault scene. It's not graphic but still unnerving to see because I can't help but imagine this happening in real life. Technically it's not hard to write dubbing lines for the scene but still I was conscious and sensitive with the words I used. That's why I'm really giving it my top priority. 

More & More

 Another set of new projects coming in from this streaming platform client! Quite overwhelming but of course a good problem to have. One assigned to me is  a Japanese show which is a first to me! Today I was busy doing a quality check of the dubbing of this tagalized movie for this client. Spent a lot of hours of it that I wasn;'t able to continue writing the dubbing script of the movie I was working all weekend! The balancing act will be tough indeed but I will manage.

Managing Expectations

 Elections are coming soon and while it is everywhere, I'm trying to avoid thinking about it because I'm scared of the results. While the one I want to win is gaining momentum, I still feel that person I don't like is winning. I just feel more regular people are falling for the propaganda and willing to disregard the red flags. I don't know what to feel anymore. 

Lucky Start

 So I began writing the dubbing script for this streaming movie that's not yet out. It's the longest writing project so far with over 100 minutes. All my past dubbing scripts were mostly for TV shows with episodes in the 40 to 50 minute range. I did have writing experience with movies but it was a shared task with former writers at the office too. Anyway, this is due for April 12 but I really want to finish this as early possible! I had trouble getting my writing off the ground because I had difficult adapting the first scene to a more natural sounding localized language but I got my groove later on. I finished a little over 10 minutes. Yeah so far from finishing but at least my creative juices is flowing and hopefully my goal to finish days before deadline will happen.. I don't want to cram this!

Trial

 Things are getting hectic again but this is a good problem to have. I've invited some college friends to try writing dubbing scripts , I was able to ask two friends to try out writing dubbing scripts for this cartoon project because it is shorter so good start to try writing. I am gonna guide them too so hopefully it all works ouy