Solo

 To All The Boys: P.S I Love You now available in Filipino audio on Netflix. This is the first movie I translated  for dubbing by myself. ! I have written dubbing scripts for a movie but it was with other writers too because writing movie dubbing scripts takes a lot more time and that time deadline were tight so it had to be done quicker! I enjoyed writing the dubbing script for this because it was so light and romantic so it gave nice fuzzy feelings! The credits for the Filipino dubbed version is not up yet so a little bit bummed I can't brag it just yet hahaha!

Nice!

 Received an unexpected family blessing today and it's a nice treat after a rough weekend! I hope and pray this is a start of more happier stuff on our way or at the very least my worst fears not manifesting because whenever there's something positive I stop myself from being completely happy because my anxiety kicks in and goes overdrive thinking maybe something terrible could happen next. Yeah there's something off with me really but nevertheless very thankful for this blessing. More to come please Lord!

Balancing Act

 Another day where I have to act as mediator and looking after everyone so they don't feel awkward and left out! I think I did good job balancing things although it's such unnecessary hassle in my life but I have to do what I have to do!  Because of those complications I didn't do some work which i was planning to do, I still have allowance in time to finish it so it's fine. And I did some things for leisure today which is watch shows for entertainment and not work! Hopefully the days ahead are better!

Vapid

 I'm staying away from drama but drama always find itself at my door. I'm really exhausted dealing with mood swings and spontaneous outbursts. It's hard to be that person who needs to balance and control all those unnecessary stray emotions to keep it from digging a bigger hole, But I'm tired. This goes on and on. Tired. Afraid. Nervous. Anxious. That's why I'm always awry when things feel ok because there's always something that will hinder it. I want to be emotionless.  

65

 Nanay's 65th birthday and thank God she's doing fine now. I'm still worried but one thing I learned is to take thins one day at a time and value the present more. My birthday wish is of course good health and that she is far from any form of harm. My Dear Lord please hear this prayer of mine. I love Nanay so much and all I really want is her and Tatay's safety and in good condition at all times. 

Ahead

 Completly exhausted today but happy because we got our salary released earlier than usual and that just means good things! So tiring but very thankful!

Check

 Went all in at work today! Spent nearly 8 hours between a Tv series and a movie for quality checking after dubbing has finished. Deadlines are tight needed to do the extra mile and hopefully didn't miss something major!

To Each

Yeah I made the right call sparing myself from further mental exhaustion after seeing another reason why I gave up. I hate to say it but things will get worst let's be real. It absolutely frightens me what the future beholds but I can not let this fear dominate my life. I just have to focus on what I can control right now so I can survive each day without falling to an abyss of misery. 

Anywhere

 It's been raining everyday recently. It almost always happen during the afternoon. The summer days are about to end. Not that there's really that much difference these days anyway. My nephew is about to finish 8th grade this month. Two years not in an actual school in the pivotal teenage years. I still feel frustrated how slow the back to in person classes has been. But to be honest it has been convenient that my nephew is just here at home but of course I still do want him to have an actual school experience. Covid is still pretty much around though but it has been overshadowed by other bigger things on the horizon. I do hope even if there are subvariantss, we won'r revert to that era. But I can't believe still how drastic life has changed the past 2 years. While there are traces now of the old life but it just isn't the same. 

Tight

 Next week will be so hectic at work, there are two series with 10 episodes each that are both due for submission this Friday,. The dubbing for those two shows are not yet finished up until Wednesday so yeah it will be extra difficult to lay everything next week! There are two movies as well assigned to me as well although they are not due immediately but the dubbing will be done next week as well so will have to check that. I hope I won't mess up my duties this week!

Ages

 May is about to end and I feel like this year have been so long already. So much has happened personally and well that thing. As much as I don't want to think about my worries, it still manages to creep in. It's normal I know but it's just unpleasant and tired of feeling that way., Anyway, back to working and escape from my fears!

One Second!

Of course, I'm gonna flex my first credit on a Netflix project! This is for the Filipino-dubbed version of  the movie We Can Be Heroes! My participation here is actually dubbing script editor and quality control but for this project, I am classified credited as adapter! Anyway, I know it's just like one second and no one really bothers to read the credits except when your name is there which is my case! We have more projects to come for Netflix and definitely will flaunt the credits for the project I was actually the dubbing scriptwriter (Translator)

 

Placeholder

 I just finished doing a dubbing script of an episode that's not yet available on its streaming platform. The video provided was still quite raw and I could see the production people serving as stand-ins for visual effects that will be put on later. It was just weird to see when they popped up . There were some visual cues that explain the visual effect that will be placed there too. It was quite fascinating to see!

Preview

 The level of work I have ahead of me is quite overwhelming! I will need to watch 20 episodes of two shows that we are currently dubbing for quality check plus a movie too so I need to budget my time well especially of course I'm writing dubbing scripts too. But  honestly I'm really loving this one because hey more projects is just good and you have no idea how being this busy helped me not dwell too much with fears because I have things to finish first! 

Roadblock

 I'm so close to finishing this dubbing script for a tagalized kdrama and my goodness there are two lines that's really had to synch! Just a few more and lines and this one is done but I had a tough time so taking a short break to write it here so I can take it easy for a little. The scenes were also heavy so it was quite. Anyway, back to finish this script!

Swamped

 I really went to work earlier than usual to finish a task that requires a lot of time and I believe accomplished it well but my to-do list this week is longer than usual too,. I have one big thing that I need to accomplish by tomorrow and I really hope I can finish it on time and perhaps earlier than planned too!

Up Next

I was quite busy finishing checking two scripts for tagalized korean drama that will air on a local network soon. The raw script is just a subtitle list so there are no character names so I have to make sure everything is correct. I will write an episode of this show to so it was good that checking on those scripts will help me get familiarized with the stiory and characters so I won't have a hard time writing it. It is quite challenging at first but I can manage and of course my primary motivation is the extra income I will get writing it. It is the exciting part!

Less

 Not productive today, I was planning to do some work at home but decided not to. Burn out I guess, I need some break after a hectic work week plus  battling personal anxiety related to national events. I really hope I can shut things off in my mind and not worry anymore because I can't do anything about it anyway.. 

Big Miss

 I made some errors at a particular task at work which was a real bummer. I admitted my mistake, learned from it and move on. There was a moment where I really felt bad that I wanted to have a mini meltdown or I dunno blame other peoiple but good thing I managed to control myself and be rational. The reason for that mistake because I was trying to do many things at once. I need to improve my focus from hereon. No distractions

Defeat

 I'm now conditioning myself to be more silent than ever. Not like I was vocal anyway whether in person or online to begin with. I just decided this is my way to cope with the upcoming changes which not to dwell on it anymore. There's nothing much I can do anyway, it is what it is.

Withered

Heavy workload today which is a good thing so I can't take my mind off the thing that frustrates me. Something I have no control over anymore but deeply bothers me. I thought by disengaging weeks ago would help soften the blow when the inevitable happens but I was fooling myself. I just have to my best from now on to compartmentalize and take this particular anxiety away for now so I could focus on things I can do and I need to do. 

Endure

 Most stressful elections I've experienced. It was so disorganized, the worst since I started voting in 2007. I almost gave up but despite all the stress and hassle I endured just to get my vote counted no matter what. My spirit is low to be honest I dunno what to say anymore even though it was largely expected it still stinks

Dread

 Here is the day. I've resigned myself that all is lost. But the ugliness I'm seeing is suffocating that I can't help but feel so frustrated of what is to come. I can't believe a lot of people are not seeing this or turning a blind eye. Or worst simply not bothered.  Can a miracle happen please?

Misery

 That's why I want to avoid certain areas because I am being given false hopes. If only I could block everything but it isn't possible and live in isolation of everything that gives me nothing but a sinking feeling of defeat. There are moments I feel hopeful but when you are on the ground and you witness firsthand how the others view everything, how nothing that are obviously true have affected their mindset you can't help but feel the dread of the impending doom upon us. I will still do it but can't help but feel that is just a symbolic gesture of clinging on to something hopeful but less likely to happen. I feel so angry with how they have managed to control everything and change the discourse. I'm now preparing myself of what life will be after all of this. I will be silent again, avoiding things, suppressing what I feel. I can't do anything but just feel devastated as everything crumbles.  

Hopeless

 So I witnessed something alarming and upsetting. It is scaring me a  lot but also really very angry that this has now escalated to this level. Why did we let this happen? It has spread to something that I'm very afraid can no longer be prevented from happening. Divine intervention maybe is the last hope.

Inches

 It's getting closer and I wish I have the optimism other people have. I just think it is too obvious now. I wish it wasn't the case but I'm afraid not. This weekend I will devote myself to writing a dubbing script and checking as well. Script writing for dubbing is my escape these days. It excite whenever I finish a project but you see when I think of my tasks due for next week I can't help but think on what will my mood will be by that time. Will I feel so devastated or I will just suppress what I feel and act as if there's nothing to worry about like I usually do. I'm so confused and scared right now. Oh God please hear my prayer.

Tremble

 To be honest, I'm very scared on Monday. I'm trying to be both hopeful and also manage expectations. I'm focusing on work these days to take my mind off my fears. I don't want to get drowned in an echo chamber completely clueless what's happening on the ground.. I'm so frustrated how obvious red flags are ignored conveniently. Hoping and praying for a miracle.

More and more!

 So I met my goal again and finished my movie dubbing script today earlier than the deadline. It's a teen romcom which honestly was really enjoyable to do! Can't wait for it to get dubbed and be available on its streaming platform! I also helped out finishing a script of a teen comedy because the writer can't finished in and the dubbing is already schedule pretty soon. I have to do around around 13 minutes left and glad I was able to finish it! It was also fun to write but adapting the some of the jokes were hard, like there was a jole about Daniel Day Lewis' method acting which I totally get but hard to translate that would still capture the humor! I did my best and hopefuly the dubber delivery would make it work!

Adjusting

 First time working on a holiday ib 2 years and the relaxed feeling is the same as ever. I've been productive as well, surpassing the goal I set for today as well. I'm getting used to this new office now. The aircon is great which is what I want the most really. The building is huge and I dunno what other offices they have here, on our floor it feels empty. I haven't seen anyone come out from the other units! The elevator though is quite busy so you have to wait at times! As for our office, it still needs some cleaning up to do, hopefully, next week it will be set already because I'm feeling OC with some of the stuff lying around and not yet taken care of!

20th Floor

 So first day at the new office was literally messy but over the course of the day, things got fixed up and we did manage to do some work. Tomorrow is apparently a holiday but for the first time in the pandemic era, I will go work on a holiday because I have a lot of things to do especially the adjustments to the new office will somehow affect my productivity. My work space is smaller now compared to before because the office itself is smaller too but still good enough for the size of the employees now which has gotten smaller due to the retrenchments, resignation and one department now full time work from home. It's a strange feeling to be in a new space but hey I could just see it as something of a new era.

Move

 Tomorrow is our first day at the new office. I'm expecting a mess actually , literally speaking because of all things that needed to be set up as we transferred our things from the former office to the new one. I actually brought some things at home like my office headphone and water bottle so it won't get lost in the move. All I know our new office is smaller than our former but hopefully there's still enough space for us to move around and we can adjust quickly  because there are a lot of things to do!