Thursday, July 18, 2024

Yeah, Again.

 I really should have not raised my hopes up because now I'm disappointed and admittedly prematurely at that. It's the same rodeo with so much uncertainty. Same process and perhaps the same result. I wish it was not but I've seen this before and most of the time it ends up like this. I will just have to carry on again and hope for the best later on. 

Wednesday, July 17, 2024

Hope so

In less than an hour, something will happen which I hope will lead to fruitful results. We really need it.  As I see things dwindle, I start to panic already although I need to relax really because it's not an alarming level yet but I'm just so paranoid that any signs of weakness gives me so much scared already. I hope to hear good news tomorrow. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2024


I could do so much if I didn't get interruptions every now and then. Some of my own doing but some are out of the blue anxiety inducing moments that really ruins my process because my goes haywire and I can't find the energy to finish things. And I need it so bad now. 

Monday, July 15, 2024


 Finished quite a lot today then tomorrow, I will take on yet another challenge, it's something that's more difficult but I survived it last week so I can again this time. But still kinda scared of things because it is drying up but hopefully something comes soon enough!

Sunday, July 14, 2024


I've been trying to avoid exposing my self too much with anxiety-inducing world affair news . Sometimes, I can't resist and everytime I do, it instantly reminds why I avoid it in the first place. I just don't the head space to handle those things anymore. 

Saturday, July 13, 2024


I got sucked again in a time warp of some sort. Drunk in nostalgia! But there's always that nice, comfortable feeling that this gives you. But it could be misleading so you need to manage everything as well and not fall too deep into just everything all good in the past, everything now bad. We just look sometimes at rose-colored glasses. 

Friday, July 12, 2024


I hope this potential will come to fruition. I've learned to manage expectations and not raise my hopes but always cling to hope. Chapters are closing so I really hope there will be new chapters to open soon. Praying hard for it. 

Thursday, July 11, 2024

Oh My

 I'm feeling better now physically speaking but mentally troubled again with so many things bothering me again. And I chose to escape by doing inconsequential nonsense stuff. Let tomorrow be where I get things back to usual. It's been quite chaotic past 2 days for me.

Wednesday, July 10, 2024


Under the weather now. First time in awhile I have gotten sick so I took a leave from work today. I had a throbbing head and had chills but good thing I feel a little better now, not totally cured yet so I'm taking another leave tomorrow just to be sure. I have things to do but I won't be thinking about it that much.

Tuesday, July 09, 2024


Out of all times that I feel under the weather it had to be today when I'm close to finishing something quite hard to do. I'm really struggling to finish it off because the medicine I drank is making me sleepy! I want to finish this tonight but the bed is calling! What to do?