Saturday, September 24, 2022

Time

 Balancing things I need to do this weekend is extra tricky. Like what do I prioritize first? I did realized that I neglected one major thing in my life because I've been so preoccupied in front of my laptop all the time. So now I allocated good enough time for that so it won't be neglected anymore. Of course I do a lot of things in service for them but you need to spend time as well to just talk things that are not about the immediate concerns. 

Friday, September 23, 2022

Still...

 Today's my uncle's birthday. He would have turned 58 today. Two years later, I still feel sad that we lost him so soon. And truth to be told, I still think it's so unfair he passed away with so much life left in him. But life is just unpredictable. His death and the months-long struggle before he left are something until now left a big mark on me. I was there during his last breath. Tito Romy, Happy Birthday up there. We miss you so much

Thursday, September 22, 2022

Trying

 Another stressful night dealing with things that happens so many times that I don't really know how to handle it anymore. Trying to stay calm as possible. Trying to be in control of everything. Trying not to let fears take over. Trying not to lose hope.

Wednesday, September 21, 2022

Foresight

 So I'm finally going to do something that relates to finances that I should have done when I was in my 20s but I didn't do it because well I simply can't afford it and also lacks confidence as well. But this time I found a package that's ideal for me and a person I fully tryst. Plus thank heaven somehow I  can make it work with the opportunity I've had this years.  The past 2 years has taught me a lot really and while it's a little bit late to do so, at least the ideal time, it's still not that late to do something now that can protect me in the future. 

Tuesday, September 20, 2022

Games

I'm currently working on a dubbing script for the finale of a show that is yet to be released. It is over one hour and there are very long and complicated lines to translate! But for what it's worth I'm having fun translating it despite being so difficult to do. I'm really conscious because I don't want to mess this up where the dubbers will have a hard time acting it out. So I really have to be careful but also be creative as well! I worked hard earlier to finish some of my key channel duties so I can have the time and energy to do this script! But I'm really excited when this finally comes out and I will so brag this :D

Monday, September 19, 2022

Underdog

 I'm feeling a little positive after some good news. While I'm fully aware of the many faults, I'm already too emotionally attached to this already that I'm rooting for redemption soon. Despite everything that has happened, I've always felt that there's sincerity to change things for the better. It's sad that for some it's a little late because some have to be let go or got fed and left but at least maybe what we have currently can be stable for years to come. And I do hope those who left (a lot with justified reasons) can open their hearts to us again

Sunday, September 18, 2022

Tested

 When everything feels stable somewhat there's that recurring test of patience again. On how much I can endure what was before. And I admit I don't do a good job handling it with grace and patience. I always get consumed by despair and frustration so I commit the same mistakes again and I will end up feeling guilty about it. I keep reminding myself that this is better than the worst-case scenario where we already  had a taste of it multiple times just in the past weeks. It is absolutely exhausting 

Saturday, September 17, 2022

Perhaps

 I think I now know what to do when an incident like that happens again. Hopefully, my hunch is right and that I will always have the patience and strength to handle it. It won't be easy and requires a lot of me but hey this is still so much a better option than what I've been fearing

Friday, September 16, 2022

Stresses

So I sort of snapped again because of the stress of the situation but good thing I realized that I was wrong and tried to rectify that mistake by doing something that could hopefully ease up the tension. I really hope it does. I'm so stressed again but trying to be as relaxed as possible. I need to be for the better good.

Thursday, September 15, 2022

Fruits

A good day today as it is the time when I get what I deserve because of the hard work I've been doing! I'm usually a self-deprecating person but when it comes to this matter I'm so proud of the work I do fo because I really gave my all. When I finally had to do all of this I really made sure I will do a good job about this because I'm making up for the lost time when I wasn't able to do this because of outside factors and also my own inhibitions. All the struggles I've had this year at least I have this one that really makes me happy and where I get reward for the hard work I do.