Efficacious

Facing another recurring event again that's stressing me out as always. I do know eventually they do go away but I wish it doesn't happen often, if not at all. But I know realistically speaking it just won't. Somehow, I do wish that if these things regularly happen maybe my other fear would go away too. I would exchange for this recurring source of stress if that fear will not come to fruition. 

Fight

 Another day of working really hard but really not complaining. I'm grateful. It gives me something to focus on and helps me avoid going deep down into my thoughts - my unpleasant thoughts. I get immersed to a world far away from me. Sometimes a world I live in. But for now I'm fine making my adaptation to those worlds. 

Dry

 The hot weather is here again and the heat is just different this time. Soul sucking and legit health hazard. With that, I worry about things that could be a result of this weather. I hope it won't happen again but I'm scared. Perpetually. 

Whew

 I finished it! The last pending I have this week! I did it! It was so challenging but glad I was able to do so. I still have a lot of things to do next but I think it's more manageable than the tough week I had. But you see even if it was so challenging, I loved what I do so it wasn't that horrible but yesterday I did procrastinate. I could have finished this thing way earlier if I didn't get lazy at some point yesterday! But well glad I pulled myself together to make thing work today. 

One Left

 Finished all the other pending matters and only have one left to finish until tomorrow! What a challenging week it was and surviving so far. I just need to finish this thing so I can check it off my list. I still have a full week ahead but not as LOADED as this week was!

Walton

 Just found out my college classmate is confined in the hospital due to brain aneurysm. I found about it when another classmate tagged me on a post from his family asking for financial help through Gcash. It reminded me of course during the time I had to do this as well to ask for help online from friends. When you are in such a difficult time, you don't feel embarrassed anymore. I sent help and really praying hard for his recovery. He is my age and it really gave me a scare as well. 

One down!

I was able to finish one task, more to go! It was a little later than I intended to but still not on the danger zone so to speak. I still have a long to-do list and I think there are more coming as well but hey still a good thing. I always want to be busy and here it is!

Page 17

The goal was semi-accomplished today! I still have a lot of things to finish in what like four days! But hey gotta roll with it. I can do this! It's such a challenging week and the biggest fight of them all is me really. There were just too many factors preventing me from doing my full capacity. Hopefully, tomorrow I get things right!

Fix

 Not a good start of the day when unnecessary whining is what you face on. The bad thing is there no amount of talking it through will result to realization that bringing in bad vides in the morning is not a good thing at all. Life isn't life fiction where you could give a heartwrenching speech and people magically change. They never do. You just endure

Heat is On

 Summer is here and I don't really like the heat but what can we do right? Electricity bill will blow up for sure so another concern of mine these days but oh well there are far worst problems and this is something manageable and controllable.