Straightforward

 Problems at home. Now problems at work. I can't catch a break. The last time I had a difficult Christmas season was over 10 years and I survived. Hopefully, I survive this again. I've already decided not to go to the Christmas party this year for the first time ever. Simply because I don't want to go home late anymore for various reasons.I  just don't want the stress of holiday traffic to add to my mounting pile of stressors. 

Jaded

 I was on a bus when the earthquake hit this afternoon so I didn't really feel it but then again I had a lot of things in my mind that I probably just didn't notice it. So many problems. I'm having a hard time.

Great Story

 I'm not really in the holiday spirit but I always look forward to the ABS CBN Christmas Station ID song to boost my mood somehow and yet again, they didn't miss again this year

Pile Up

 I have so many things on my mind now. I can't focus at a time that I really need to. So many things troubling my head. What a pain. What a miserable life I have now.  And this being the holiday just adds more sadness because there's just nothing I can feel excited about. There's so much dread. 

Sit Still

 Made a mistake and let my emotions get the best of me. It's hard to stay patient under this circumstance. Some of the pressure I feel is self-inflicted so I have no one to blame but myself and now I affected another person along the way. Oh Lord, this is really hard but still thankful for this chance and I really hope I, we, can find a way to balance things out and not suffer from the pressure of it all

Canvas

 Busy weekend ahead, I need to pull off a semi miracle but hey let's do this! I need all the concentration I can get. I set myself up for this really and was at fault too because I let myself get distracted but can't afford to do so now. I really hope I can make it work

KN

 So I was busy today and I wanted to be productive again at night but this entertainment news caught my attention! Because the impact is massive! It's a pop culture moment! Honestly, I do need something inconsequential as distraction to real life struggles!

Wrapped 2023!

 My Spotify Wrapped 2023! I'm an Olivia Rodrigo stan, Gen Z whew hahaha

Top Artists

1. Olivia Rodrigo

2. Taylor Swift

3. SZA

4. Lauv

5. Westlife

Top 10 songs

1. bad idea right - Olivia Rodrigo

2. vampire - Olivia Rodrigo

3. Steal the Show - Lauv

4. Kill Bill - SZA

5. love is embarrassing - Olivia Rodrigo

6. Raining in Manila - Lola Amour

7. New Cool - The Cast of Grease: Rise of the Pink Ladies

8. Don't Let the Light Go Out - Panic at the Disco

9. Fighting Myself - Linkin Park

10. Forget Me - Lewis Capaldi

Top Podcasts

1. Who Weekly - discovered this year! Podcast about Hollywood Z listers

2. Dear MOR - local audio drama

3. Ang Walang Kwentang Podcast - local pop culture podcast

4. Rotten Mangoes - true crime stories weekly that I discovered this year, really good storytelling from the host

5. The Hollywood Reporter's TV's Top 5 - whew!

Vision

It's hard to see the struggle and I sometimes I do get lost with it all. I always remind myself how the close calls were to take me back to the reality that despite the situation, this is still better than the worst outcome. I really hope and pray for strength for everyone involved as this is really a tough one

Just

 Today was a holiday in advance! This is not the official day but the no-working thing was held today for long weekend economics whatsoever. I would normally go the office today because I do like the commute during a holiday like this. I chose not to. I decided to give myself a break and do nothing of significance. I need it to clear my head. It won't solve my problems but it gave me room to breathe.