Saturday, May 18, 2024


I haven't seen a movie in a theater in such a long time. It's a mixed of not having the time and also saving up money. But I do hope to catch one movie anytime soon. Just to unwind and get immersed again. I probably need that to recharge! It's pretty clear that my attempt to do productive stuff 90% of the time is not really ideal as I do still get overwhelmed and I act out by procrastinating so you know I just get myself into more mess. I need to find the balance. 

Friday, May 17, 2024


 Watch the last 2 episodes of Young Sheldon, the penultimate was really good and touching. The finale though was nice but felt a little short and had the feels of a season rather than a series finale. Nevertheless, I enjoyed watching for the past 7 years. I'm gonna miss it!

Thursday, May 16, 2024


 After two days of being very focused and busy, I let myself be distracted but I snapped my head back at the last minute and did what I should have done today! I still have some things left to arrange and hopefully, I can make it all work. The past 3 months really were such a challenge to me. I struggled, I managed to do things right, I repeated mistakes. I pull myself back again. It's been such a crazy ride and I'm hanging on. 

Wednesday, May 15, 2024


 Tomorrow is another day where I also felt too complacent but I should not be. I need to be prepared for anything, especially the ones that scare me so much. It's been this way for the last few years but the fear never changes. I sometimes tend to forget about it and I freaked out everytime I realized that I did. I'm scared of being too comfy because something unexpected may happen. It's difficult living this way but I live one day at a time. 

Tuesday, May 14, 2024


Another struggle today to finish something but I felt something off today so I'm going to try again tomorrow. This always happens when I did something more consistent then the next is a struggle to start. Hopefull, tomorrow will be alright. 

Monday, May 13, 2024

75 minutes

I was able to finish something today that was not easy but I have another urgent thing which I just found today that it was urgent! I should have made some advances over the weekend but oh well I always find myself in this kind of situation but well this is a good kind of problem to deal with. But I do really want to be less chaotic though and I hope to get that soon. 

Sunday, May 12, 2024

Mother's Day

 I am just so grateful to the Lord that Nanay is still with us. Everyday I always pray for her good health. My life totally changed but just seeing Nanay happy with some of the small stuff I give her or gestures, makes me happy. More Mother's Day with her please Lord.

Saturday, May 11, 2024


 Sometimes life will remind what you lack. Just when you think you are okay with where you are, there's always that will remind you it isn't enough and you could have been more. 

Friday, May 10, 2024


 I got complacent and lazy again so I wasn't able to fully finish something I needed to do. It's not that bad but my OC tendency sometimes will make me go paranoid now! But oh well it's gonna be OK! I hope!

Thursday, May 09, 2024


 I haven't been to a dentist in a decade. Shameful I know. Why I haven't visited? FEAR. Fear of pain, fear of getting shamed because of my poor teeth and most especially fear of cost But I do need to go to one now, not because I have toothache but I've noted how poor my gums are. I hope I can find a good one that alleviate my fears.