Amilyar

 Good thing the thought came into my head or else it will be forgotten. I'm annoyed that it has to be me again, but I do what I must do because I need to get things done first rather than waste time with nonsense blabbing the others do. 

Deleted

 Proud to say that I got myself back after that near lapse of judgment! If I did that yesterday, I would have regretted it so much today. I know that life will throw a lot of this type of tests as I go forward and I really hope that I will be able to stand my ground each time. 

999

 Almost made a mistake but good thing I kept on reading and reading then found the red flag and quickly made a turnaround. That was so close, that my judgment was affected by other factors that led me to do something that almost led me to make a mistake I had a few years ago. Oh, thank you, Lord, for giving me the signs, and sorry that I ignored them at first. 

Background Work

 Since I'm back doing channel grids, I got back into watching a show "on background" while I do it. For some reason it helps me stay focused and not be sleepy when something is playing in the background. Sometimes,it's a podcast but now since I have a Disney+ subscription for one month, might as well use it. The show I chose is American procedural Tracker. A perfect background show! It's a case of the week where everything gets solved at the end of the episode and it's not so complicated. I already seen 3 episodes while I accomplished 2 grids and an EPG at that! 

Flip Flop

 I really want something but head says no. I wan to make a measured move so I won't feel that bad if they do pursue it. I need to get something out of it even if it's not what my ultimate goal is. Just something. But then I don't want to regret after it's done which I usually do. Another messy phase!

Back Hidden

 Okay, I made an impulse buy today. Not expensive but it's something I buy for collection purposes only. I've strayed from doing this because money is tight and I've been responsible for so many things now. However, this time I felt why not give in to something that makes me feel happy because it's a throwback to a thing I used to do when I was a teen. A little reward to myself. 

Near

 This will turn 20 next month. I've been posting every single day for the past 4 years too. Nonstop, even though I don't share it publicly these days. So if you know it, nice but I'm fine shouting things to the void as it is. It helps me unburden my chaotic thoughts.

Sweetie

 Another day where I did a lot. But glad to be of help of course. I do realize some things I need to be patient for because I need to sort out some things to avoid miscommunication and also not to put pressure too much because it's a tight situation where there's less reward compared to other opportunities, so you have to balance things up to avoid exhaustion. But sometimes it takes a toll on me personally. So I do need to learn to slow things down especially so that I don't have to compensate because of added things that make things more stable compared to before I had to show that I'm not abusing things and such. In the end, I still like what I accomplished but moving forward, I need to balance things so as not to end up where everything's chaotic and messy. 

Potential

 I was really busy today like I was shocked when I noticed it wasn't 12 noon yet earlier when I did so many things already. Of course, I love it and hopefully it will lead to some good things in the future. I have another stacked day tomorrow but let's go!

Closed

 I wanted to do something out of the blue and a little reckless but well I guess the universe stopped me. A little bummed but I knew subconsciously it was good in the grand scheme because I could regret it later on! 

Tomorrow

A lead is nice, will do my best to make it work. Well, not like it's all one me but I'm the starting point then they take over but I need to make things smooth from the get-go so everything can start well. I hope we get it. We need it so much. 

Plea

 My heart sank when I read something that confirmed what I'd been wary about the past few months. On shaky ground. Surviving but not prospering. Down times are here again. I miss 2022 when it all happened. Now, there's the struggle. Still not in panic mode but it is quite scary when things don't pick up soon. It sucks that thing ended. Oh Dear Lord, I hope a blessing arrives soon. 

Progress

 I was watching something that said something that resonated with me that when something is taken away from you, you get to appreciate it more. Even at the time when you felt like you got tired of it or embarrassed about it at some point when you lost it you will look back and look what you've lost. And if it somehow returns, the appreciation is intense. 

Day Out

There's a good thing that happened today and it was a break from the ordinary life in this era and I was quite happy about it but then again, my anxiety kicked in and my mind went overboard thinking that it could be a sign of bad news next. Please don't let this feat manifest, dear Lord. I'm sorry such a paranoid guy, I just can't help but feel this way.  But still, I'm grateful for the good day. Cherishing it. 

Not the one.

 Sucks to see another confirmation of what we missed out on. It has been known essentially for months, but I continued to hope there's still a chance it will be favorable to us. But nope, it's really over. I loved doing that and it pains me that the door has closed. But there's nothing I can do but just march on. 

Wheel

 I'm swamped with work lately which is nice of course!  I'm getting the groove of doing daily channel grids after almost a year of not doing it. I'm getting my system back where I can work more efficiently. And I really like doing TV programming work stuff. I still do dubbing scripts, both writing and editing so I have to juggle things up. It's always challenging because sometimes the enemy is me. After all, sometimes you're just not in the mood and the mind ain't kicking in. Grateful to do a job that I honestly love doing. Do I sometimes wish I got a more financially lucrative job? Of course, I do especially when the going gets tough but somehow I survived all these years despite the challenges because I'm part of a world that really drew me in and I totally understand. And I'm grateful for that because sometimes I find solace in work when I feel those random sadness and frustrations from time to time. 

More!

 So my Westlife nostalgia trip the past few days led me to a rabbit hole! I've been listening to some other nostalgic songs especially from the 90s! Take That's Back for Good! Bachelor Girl's Buses and Trains! Sixpence None The Richer's There She Goes! Lisa Loeb's Stay! And many more! These songs were popular when I was a kid and not really paying that much attention to music but it was everywhere on radio so it was inescapable. Background of my childhood! I don't know it gave me such feeling of joy! Let's see how long this will last! 

Westlife

 I've been hit by the nostalgia bug again! I've been listening to Westlife lately especially Coast to Coast, my favorite! The album cuts! Close, Loneliness Knows Me By Name, Puzzle of My Heart, You Make Me Feel, Angels Wings, Dreams do Come True!  A very good pop album! This boyband was such a big part of my early teen years, my absolute favorite. I had their first 4 albums on cassette! I kinda forgot about them in my college years and admittedly I was a bit embarrassed to like a boyband back then, young foolishness! Now in adulthood, appreciate them again! Listening to their early albums was such a time capsule. I kinda regret I didn't watch them when they had their concerts here a few years ago. 

Cutting Down

 I've been helpful for the past few years but it's just hard for me to keep up to this kind of pace. I feel a little shortchanged but then it was of my own doing as well because I didn't do better in teaching things and I just let it go and I fixed things by myself because it was the easy way. Now, I will just streamline things just pick things that I could take on and not overcompensate anymore. I will still help but not to the point where I get overwhelmed that gets me frustrated at times.

【English Dubbing | FULL】EP01 | To the Wonder 我的阿勒泰 | iQIYI

I tried YouTube's shared-to-blogger function for the first time, so I'll leave this at that! Anyway, I worked on writing dubbing scripts for the first and last episode of this Chinese limited series, which is one of the most fascinating projects I've. It's quite different, it's a slice-of-life drama in one of the rural areas in China. It has a meditative mood to and has very artful shots. I really enjoyed working on this one. 

Moved

 Some annoying thing on one of my inessential interest happened and now resisting to get myself distracted from this nonsense! I'm writing it here as a way to remind myself NOT TO GET DISTRACTED over those things again. Trying to get this more organized now so I can maximize resources and I get further gains. Also will try to go back to other interests that are not stressful in nature! Or at least step back from anything that would cause annoyance!

Listed

 Finally finished working on something that I kind of regret suggesting that I would do it voluntarily! But I know this is good in the big picture but eats a lot of time for other stuff I also need to do. But hey, I could have managed this better from the get-go if I didn't allow myself to be distracted. I have a lot on my plate again with multiple things I need to do now but still I'm hoping for more because I feel a little nervous because things are quite shaky. I wish 2022's abundance could happen again! praying for that

Grid On!

 Almost a year since Telenovela Channel shut down, I'm back doing channel grids for another cable channel which is the complete opposite of my previous channel but hey glad to do TV programming duties on top of my  dubbing work. Glad to be busy and productive!

Shoes & T-Rex

 I was so in the zone today and I finished two things! I still have a lot on my plate but this is good, I always like to be busy. Hopefully tomorrow, I get more things done. Well, the next two days! Maybe, 4 days! But weekends are full of distractions but hopefully this time I can pull myself together and avoid distractions! I need to work even harder now because there are things I need to take care of! But all good, I prefer dealing with this compared to the other scary things that haunt my mind at times. 

Don't Hold Your Breath

 There's a piece of news that I'm mildly hopeful for.  "Midly" because I don't want to set myself up for disappointment when it ultimately fails. There's just a lot of damage that has been done, and I'm not sure this could turn things around. But vindication, I want that to happen

Calendar

 I was so happy to have the Mercury Drug calendar finally! The branches I go to didn't have one in the last few weeks of December so I was bummed! But then earlier when I saw they were just giving it away, like you don't have to ask the cashier or pharmacist, they just placed it on the counter for the customers to take. I took two! It's been a tradition to have Mercury Drug calendar for so long now that it felt incomplete that I wasn't able to get one! Small thing but it makes me happy!

Resolutions.

I really need to find a way to get myself out of this distracting nonsense I sometimes get into. I know it's a waste of time, but truth be told, it does make me feel a little happy sometimes. A new year is here, and I should be working on improving some things in my life. Yeah, let's call it a resolution even though I only find those things as school filler work when you go back to school. And destined to fail. But I'll try. I need some changes

Stop!

I'm annoyed that the cold weather is gone already! Come on give me more cold breeze, don't be humid yet! I love weather like that because everything feels so relaxing. I'm gonna miss the relaxing vibes of going to the office in the doldrums of the holiday season! By Monday everything will be be back to normal I guess, facing the reality and all. 

Perks

I watched a Youtube video about someone reviewing premium tier subscriptions and it was interesting because I was so curious why people would spend money like that. I'm stingy so sometimes I find it hard to grasp when people buy this kind of non-essential stuff but you do you of course. Anyway, most of the stuff  I saw felt like a rip-off but I guess super fans are happy to contribute to their favorite's wealth or it's a way to show support. Not gonna lie I wish I had that kind of drive too but I'm lazy to do these things. For a time I thought of monetizing this blog when it was the IN thing in the early 2010s but I get lazy to do the effort and I don't have the personality for it! 

First!

 First day back at the office for 2025! I always make sure to go to work on the first working day of each year to set the year right! I was able to finish one thing I tried to finish during the holiday break but I failed big time because I was just not in the mood. Anyway, this time around I was able to get things done. There's more to come and I want more too! 

Buckle Up

 The first day of the year is always a lazy day and I don't mind because tomorrow back at work and unlike a lot of people, I really don't mind going back to work on Jan. 2. I always want to start the year productive at work! Hopefully, this will be a good year for work, I have some new challenges so I need to prepare myself!