Reenergized

I had a good afternoon nap today! A good sleep clears your mind really! Yesterday was challenging so I needed this dat especially since I'm gonna face something stressful and challenging to up ahead! So yeah, let's go!

Disrupted

My mind was so preoccupied today! Of course, there were a lot of stressful moments but I had to be calm or else there will be chaos. I was a little annoyed because my system got disrupted but what can I do but yet again adjust! Things turned out okay in the end but hopefully there won't be big problems on the horizon. Please don't!!!!

Order

 Something that I thought that passed will likely haunt me again and it sucks because I thought everything's over already but nope it has to potentially come back to make me go crazy in my inner thoughts again! It was a big mistake on my part to volunteer myself to do something stressful because I thought I was helping out but eventually I just realized it's all because I got swept in by someone's else negative energy. Argh! I empathasized with that person but it really took a toll on me and now I'm scared of the worst case scenario yet again. Please Lord, guide me and protect me from my fear of things turning out in a bad way

Expectations

 Oh my goodness, two big things on the horizon that's stressing me a little but hey I can do this! Let's do this! It's quite scary to think about it now but I should not feel panic and anxiety early on! I can realistically do it with some help of course. The right balance and focus, let's do this. I need this, we need this!

Capitulo

 Hoping for good news tomorrow! I prod a bit to make the push to ask because we need it so bad. Personally, I also need to feel the security of having it around. I hope there would be more to come. Please, please, please.

Sides

 Fingers crossed for more! I went hard the past few days because there's a need for it and I also need. I still worry about a lot of things that can make stuff complicated but just gotta have faith that things will be okay. That everything can go back in order. But we really need more to come, badly need it!

What's Ahead

 Whenever I think about the future, which I do a lot, it often scares me. Both on personal level and the society as a whole. Time seems to move fast or maybe we are just way too conscious about it. Too self aware how everything is changing. So that's why I want to notice much anymore and overthink. Because it's a waste of time and also torturing yourself. 

Cool Breeze

I love the cold weather, I wish this were the weather during the holidays! But better late than never! It's such a bed weather, I would just love to relax! But the timing is kinda inconvenient due to ther other things but I will work it out!

Hot and Cold

 So much chaos surrounding me. Nothing explosive on the surface but it is lurking from all corners of my life. I try my best to stay calm, I do things to get my mind out of it but I really can't escape from it. Oh well.

Lease

 One of the early surprises for me this new year is nagsara na yung Jollibee sa Glorietta! It's been in the same spot since I first visited Glorietta as a child in the 90s. I'm sure they didn't close due to low sales because palaging puno yun. Today, I saw a sign  they are opening a new store at the One Ayala MRT station side. I guess it makes sense to move there because of the foot traffic but still, it's strange not to see Jollibee in Glorietta anymore. I felt the same way when the Mercury Drug and Wendy's Glorietta branches closed down after decades of being in the same spot. It's not a big deal I know but it's just a strange feeling to witness so many changes in a place you've known for so long.

Ten AM

Okay. Ready, get set, Go!!!! It would be hard but I can do this. I need this anyway so I can focus and reach this goal. It's for the better so let's go and pull this off while maintaining top form quality. I still have two to go for the next few days so I need to hurry up!

Purchased

 Bought a new book today! Death's End, the final book in Three Body Problem series which fascinated when I got to work on the English dubbing of the chinese adaptation. It's the thickest book of the three and excited to read it!

Ahead

 Out of impulse, I did something that is quite responsible but will also challenge me in the meantime. But I did the right thing because of wasting resources, I did something that will put some thing settled earlies than usual. Now, I need to be more cautious because planning ahead needs discipline for the represent. So help me, God!

Ate Aida

 While I was doing my weekly palengke trip today, I was sad to see the stall of Nanay's suki for tilapia already occupied by a new tenant selling vegetables. She hasn't been there for a few months already but it was still sad to see it permanent. She was very nice to me when I started taking over the palengke duties when Nanay got sick and she's always asking me how she is. Oh well, changes. 

2016

 So social media trend lately is people being nostalgic and romanticizing 2016! Well, it's been 10 years so I can understand how overwhelming it feels but I guess because 2016 is already modern so it still feels fresh in our minds. But times have changed lot in 10 years, the pandemic years added a lot of years in our lives while at the same time it feels so recent as well! Oh well, time flies!

Rescue

 I'm so glad something I was wondering finally was confirmed today! I was worried for a bit but good thing I still trusted my capability. I let out a sigh of relief now on to working on it! This week has been another complicated one but I I think I did my best to balance things and be supportive and helpful. Hope things will have a brighter path ahead

Closed Down

 On my way home, I was surprised when I got off the jeep and saw the Puregold nearby closed with a hughe CLOSED FOR BUSINESS sign splattered at the entrance. I checked it out and it was a notice from the local government! How on earth did a big company end up like that? There are other smaller groceries here, some have been here since the 90s and never saw them experience like that! I feel bad for the workers and the concessionaires affected too! 

Float

 So uncomfortable with current situation but once again, yet again, I need to go on and do my best despite everything going on. Life is so tough. January only. Oh my. I hope things get resolved soon but nah I know it will take time. I hope I won't struggle internally because of endless worries. Need to fight on. 

Bidet

 Small thing but I was so glad the bidet in the office CR is finally fixed! Yes! hahaha! It's just more comfortable having that and I feel cleaner. If we only have good water pressure here in our hourse, I would have pushed to have bidet too!

65 minutes

 I feel accomplished today! Did things as scheduled while also helping out someone who I was really for. Still shaky, but at least I gave this person a sounding board and was able to give good advice.... I hope. There are so many challenges still but I need to stay focused and not let things setbacks let me down. So help me, God.

Off Balance

 I didn't feel well today so I slept it off, not entirely rejunavated though because there is just this stressful thing lingering on my mind. May tomorrow be a better one for me. Or at the very least I can handle things so much better because I just feel so down and worried. 

Swerve

 It's been a messy week. I'm still trying to process everything that went on. I have no choice but to march on because I can't let the challenges in life stop me because I have many things I need to do and take care. But man, this is just so hard. Lord, please help me. Help us. 

COLOSSAL

 I want to be understanding, I really do, but I can't help but feel that this recent news I learned is a mistake! I understand where it is coming from, but come on, you needed assistance, how to let some things go but abandoning the ship? I could sense the second thoughts and regrets, I hope you do realize before you make things final because it won't really free you in the sense that you want it to be. But then again I don't want to minizme the plight because I know it ain't easy but I just don't think this is the solution you want. 

Counter

I really need to be more attentive because my instinct to just get over it and be done with it quickly almost cost me earlier. I was so stupid but it was such a relief that there are still good people around in a world where it feels like people are so opportunistic! Thank you Dear Lord for that!

Roadblocks

 Damn, I can't believe how 2026 is starting, so many challenges. I can't believe that this is really how I begin the year. But thinking the overall picture, these challenges are manageable so I need to stay calm and I have to be focused now more than ever. God please guide us through these difficult times yet again

Slice

 So unpleasant start, but I'm here trying my best to protect myself from getting too stressed about things I have no control over matters that are beyond my capacity. I need to put a limit because I don't want to get sucked in with other people's anxiety because when it gets to me I will be struggling to function as well! Life is so tough! My nature is to care and sometimes I don't want to because being empathetic also troubles deep within. I need to give myself some space to breathe and not get affected.

Pandora's Box

It started good and was in a good mood but then it all collapsed just like that. I know what's gonna happen because I've seen long enough to know that to act swiftly to protect is not the priority but go on marching through just because of desperation or whatever. Foresight, come on!

YeNOT

 So what I thought I was supposed to do apparently was done already. There was a bit of misccomunication but it's fine because I didn't do it early anyway and it was done already by Christmas so all good. I was a little annoyed with it but then it's fine, I don't want to start the year with such negative vibes. 

Talk

 I was randomly watching celebrity interviews on YouTube earlier, I just like when people tell their stories, you can tell one is really opening up and speaking freely. You can see people's amicable personality too and they are a fun to watch. I'm an introvert in general but I do love a good chat that you don't notice how time flies. 

Absolutely

Basically another lazy day while I snuck in something important from time to time, the day was basically me doing nothing of importance! The weekend is here and then back to the grind on Monday! I need to set the mood right for the start of the year!

Resolution

 Starting the year by canceling another plan I had because of practical reasons. It rained a few moments ago and it was actually the one that pushed to not go forward to my initial plan. Tomorrow, I will do something else that would hopefully set the year in the right tone! Hopefully, 2026 will be a good one for me and my family (and my work family too!)