Ever

 

The final season of Never Have I Ever is now streaming over at Netflix Check out the Filipino-dubbed version of all 4 seasons! I translated five episodes including the finale.  This show is very fun to do!

Shall

 I finished working on the script of this project which was based on a famous classic novel. Working on this project made me curious about the novel. Maybe someday I'll read it and not just rely on Wikipedia but it really won't be that easy given my time but we shall see

Across

 We got sent home early from work today because there was a floor in the building that caught fire. It was controlled immediately and thankfully was not big enough to cause bigger problems but still to be safe we were sent home and that was before lunchtime. It was too early to go home so I decided to watch a movie and I chose Spider-Man: Across the Spiderverse and the animation was mindblowing! The story was engaging and it ended on a cliffhanger because the final movie is set for next year! I can't wait to watch it!

Hence

Quite a challenging work I'm doing now. I need to use specific words to make it sound authentic but not too try-hard. I made some progress today so hopefully I can finish this tomorrow!

Tolstoy

 I'm a bit off my game today because it's not urgent hopefully tomorrow I'll be more in tune with what I need to finish. I did have a good nap today which is nice. Hoping some good news will welcome me on  the week ahead to fuel me more. I'm getting worried about some things really and it's affecting me so much.

First!

 My Nephew had his first field trip since the pandemic started and also his first without his mom or me as his guardian! Well, he is 14 years so about time really and I'm happy for him to taste some indepedence too. But time flies, he'll be turning 15 in a few months! But glad he is shaping to be a smart boy!

Changes

 I was researching something and somehow ended up on Linkedin. I had an account for so many years but I don't really use it except for sometimes updating it. I've been with the same company for nearly 14 years so there's nothing much to update but I've been looking at the job history of friends and acquaintances and it's interesting where they are now. Before, I would feel insecure comparing myself to them but this time around I didn't feel that way. I'm really fine where I am right now. The pandemic really changed how I view things now. 

Thinning

 While I received some blessings today, I'm getting a little angsty about the future because it's not as loaded as it used to be. Hoping it pours soon because I'm quite paranoid. I want a good problem again. But maybe it's okay if there is a slowdown but I don't want to it last long. Hopefully, some good news will arrive soon.

Yee How

Just finished writing the Filipino dubbing script of an upcoming animated movie. It's so fun to do, one of the most relaxing scripts I've ever done even if it's longer than the usual stuff I do (over 80 minutes) so frankly I had a smooth time writing thing once I got things going on! My writing queue is easing up, which is nice in a way for a breather but I want more projects to come in! I still have 3 left to do but they don't have tight deadlines yet I want to stock up on writing projects again so hopefully new projects will pour in.   Please, Lord!

Patience

 Yesterday was all stressful but today was okay. So yeah while these things always happen and it will still happen. It passes. I'm glad about that. I'm thankful. It's still not the worst-case scenario on my mind. It will happen again and I'll be tormented inside but still I need to get myself together and not give up. 

Endless

 When things like this happen, I once again do the adjustments because their mood swings and pride are above anything so I'm the one again pacifying things, trying to prevent things from escalating further. God give me the strength so I can continue to carry on because I can't give up. 

Prime!

 Watched the final episode of The Marvelous Mrs Maisel on Prime Video. Rachel Brosnahan killed it in the series finale. Alex Borstein was so great too. I'm gonna watch Jury Duty next since I've been reading a lot of good buzz on it. I will also check out a local show Cattleya Killer which Prime Video bought. It looks good! I only subscribed for a month so I gotta make 149 worth it! I do hope we get a project with them soon! I would love to write dubbing script for one of their shows.

Nay

 Today is Nanay's 66th birthday. I always pray to God that she's always safe and healthy, especially after the last three years. Nanay had a simple day but she had fun which is what matters. Thank you LoRD

Work It

 Handed in the dubbing script of the finale episode of a telenovela we worked for half a year! This was the third finale script I've written in the last 2 weeks plus a penultimate episode with one long revelation scene with heavy dialogue! So happy to be able to do them all. I have a dubbing script to work for an upcoming animated movie. It's a personal fave so it's gonna be fun to translate it to Filipino! I have at least 3 in the queue to write for next month but I want MORE. Hopefully, we get more projects soon too. I want to be so busy!

On Repeat

 Here it goes again. Same thing again. The instability never changes. Everything so fragile and repetitive. I can't express disappointment because well I don't want to rock a boat. Life is not TV show where you speak your mind, and all things are resolved. That isn't the case. And I don't want another stressor in my already stressed mindset, I just want to be numb and not care about it anymore.

Maybe

And the questioning begins. The second-guessing begins. Why did I ever have to be the one in charge? I hate to be the one to make the call but I was pushed to be on the center yet again. I have to be strong. I have to be firm. But I'm so scared. The pressure. The fear. The anxiety.

Risk

So there it is. I made a call. I have my justifications but seriously worried that I could have gotten it wrong. I hope I didn't. I just thought about what could ultimately be beneficial to those around me. I just want them to be happy.

Present

 I don't know how to face everything. The one I have in mind might not be the right thing to do strictly speaking but my gut feel says otherwise. But I'm questioning myself if I'm doing it for my convenience - to protect myself.  But what I've gone through the past years, I learned a lot on how to deal with this. Sometimes you need to trust what your gut says. But I'm afraid it could be a mistake. Oh dear Lord please help me. Guide me.

Spiral

There's nothing like what you are fearing happening or at least signs point to it happening to break me. I'm still holding on but barely. I am panicking inside but appear to be calm outside. It's so terrifying, I don't know how to function anymore. 

Worry

 And here it is again. So scared again. I don't know if I can function well anymore. But I have to collect myself and be strong. It's very hard to act normal when there's something pinching your heart. You can't deny it anymore. 

Tom

I am distracting myself from my usual doom-and-gloom thoughts. It lasted for a few hours and I'm now back reveling in those thoughts. Not easy but really hoping and praying for the best.

Escalating

 That time again when my worries are haunting me again. Nervewracking. I really hope and pray things will turn out well. I'm trying to be hopeful but I'm always anxious, I can't help it. 

Did

 It's crazy to think sometimes how you want something and yet when it happened, it feels disappointing. There's a feeling of guilt too. And remorse that you should have trusted your other instinct but that insatiable curiosity won over. In a way maybe it's a good thing that it finally happened so you can fully understand what is it and maybe not want it anymore. 

From the start

 Here I go again, enveloped in fear. It is nearing again and the negative thinking is in full sail. Oh Dear Lord, you know what I fear the most. Please I hope what I'm thinking right now is not happening. But if it is unavoidable, give me the strength not to breakdown completely because I can't be the way, I just can't

Some

Partial stress lifted. It's not really supposedly stressful but this is me, making things bigger than it should be, stressing myself out on my own doing. But tomorrow once I get that thing done, I'll be even better. It's a cycle, but it is what it is.

Sleeve

 I'm sad. All the things I've been bothering the past few weeks or so are something that most other people don't really find problematic. It's just me. I'm a weak person who found himself in a position where I need to be the stronger one. It has been this way for the past few years. I don't know I ended up this way. I ultimately have no choice in the end. I'm trapped. While I really don't regret anything because I know in the grand scheme of things, it has helped me and the people around me. But in times like this, I'm just overwhelmed with life that I can't help but wish I am somewhere else. Free with no worries not just for me but my loved ones. I wish I had the chance and position to give security to others so I can just do things my way. But it's not the case. I accept it and will bravely face each day because I always think it's not the worst-case scenario, right? I always need to keep myself in check because I don't want to manifest something bad where i feel guilty in the end. But it's just hard when you are being challenged. It's hard not not to feel like  I'm being suffocated and yet I feel immense guilt for feeling this way. It's such a conflicting feeling that so hard to handle. I'm writing this because this is really the only way I can express. No one reads this anyway. It's a open space that no one knows so it's fine. Maybe in here I can feel free.

Testy

 Another rough day unfolding.  From the moment I woke up, already annoyed. When I tried to take an afternoon nap, got interrupted too. There are just so many things annoying me. Trying to keep it cool really. And then I got reminded of what could be a worst-case scenario that has been bugging me for years now. I don't know really. It's so hard to be happy.

RB

 I've been so stressed this week, some because of my own doing due to impulsiveness and some because of things not under my control. Somehow made some wrong options this week but hey I gotta learn from it and hopefully next week I'm on better form. Despite that, I was still able to do some things although I could have done so much better if I didn't let myself be overwhelmed. But still, I remind myself that relatively it's still okay so I just need to put things in perspective.

Carry

I'm tired of getting dragged on other matters I should not be involved with anymore. I already deal with so much why pile something on me again? Can you leave me out of it? I worry a lot already, I'm drowning with it, just fighting each day to be fine.

Step back

I've been busy so I haven't check this particular interest of mine but moments ago, I've checked it and well it was quite toxic and I don't have the  mindset to deal with the unnecessary annoyance so I'm stepping back from it and focus on things that I will benefit from

Advanced

So finished some tasks early on so I can focus on other stuff pending for the next few days. I hope I can maintain the right focus to meet my goal. There are challenges ahead but you see I've been feeling so off lately that somehow the stuff I need to finish helps me keep it together. 

Lights Out

So there was a brownout at the office building today and when it lasted over an hour we were sent home early because nothing could be done anyway and the heat was so exhausting. It's a bummer because there's a lot of things to do. I had to go down the stairs from the 20th floor because the generator can only power one elevator and it was always full. My leg is sore now! Oh well, not so good start of the work week!

Zapped Out

It's not even noon and I just feel tired already. Not just in the physical sense. Just everything. Overall well-being.  An inconspicuous wall. A burden of guilt. A lifetime of loneliness. Today's challenge is yet again pulling myself out of this hole I'm in again. 

Annoyed

 I get easily annoyed lately but this is maybe because of some underlying stress that I couldn't really blurt out so I will try my best to get myself together so it won't escalate to bigger issues thankfully I managed to avert a potentially bigger stress inducer. I also keep in mind how it could be much worst to keep me in check

One day

 I'm so thrilled to finish a task in a single day when it usually takes at least 3 days to finish. And I didn't really rush it too! It is possible as long as I really focus on it and it really helps that I really enjoy what I do and I get so engrossed doing it. Hopefully, it's a start of a good streak for me

March

 One of those moments again where you realize how lonely you really are. One of the thing bugging your right now is such a non-issue to other people but because of your inadequacy you make a big deal out of it. You talk to yourself to not feel any resentment because ultimately it was the right choice because you would never be at peace anyway if you look the other way. But it's incredibly hard. At least you still manage to control things before it spins out of control. You need to collect yourself because no one else will do that for you. They're too busy thinking about their other concerns to mind you. But to be fair, they do care but unlike you they're just not as good as handling things that stress you out. You would often browse social and think why do these people seemingly have happy lives. Sure, your cynical side tells you that's just a put on but let's face it, you know there's an empty space in your heart hence you feel this way. It's okay you say to yourself. Let it out for a moment and once you have that catharsis, carry on.

Unfair

 Yes, what I expected was confirmed today. It sucks but come to think of it I guess it was good that we saw the true colors I guess, or maybe just accepted the red flag we saw early on. This incident just adds more pressure to me as well but I can deal with it, good thing I found a safe haven. It might not be much but it is safe. Comfort zone but with everything going on, I prefer to be in a comfort zone. Another setback, but we will rise from it. Hopefully and please Lord, some good news next please.

Keys!

 Nearly a year after we finished dubbing this project, so happy that the Filipino-dubbed version of Locke & Key is finally out! This a show I enjoyed and how I wish it had another season, not just because it's our project, but also because I feel like the show had more stories to tell but glad it had a final season. I wish our other project Warrior Nun had that!

Sense

So I watched this documentary on Netflix,  not a serious type, it's about a couple that was stranded in Costa Rica while on a date because of the pandemic lockdown! It was an easy watch and a little bit too good to be true but kinda heartwarming as well. The type that can make you smile and sometimes you need that, right?

Glimmer

 So looking like the thing that worried us for the past 2 days may be resolved but we still need to wait for it to be confirmed. I hope everything goes well because it was so nervewracking. 

Aftershock

There was a literal earthquake as just the clock turned midnight! But yesterday's even still had some effect today. I could feel it and it's really a downer but hopefully this overall feeling won't last long. I pray to God so

Setback

 A loved one suffered a big blow today and dare I say, injustice. I hope he bounces back from this setback. It does make me cautious as well with people even more.  It's hard to find people you can trust. Somehow it makes me justify why I set up a wall to protect myself and probably that is how I am surviving the game of life

Sweeth

We had another project out on Neftlix! Check out the Filipino-dubbed version of Sweet Tooth (both seasons)! I was not assigned to the project so no credit bragging for me but hey still proud our team made this one! Hopefully, Netflix renews it for Season 3 and maybe I could write for it too! :D

Scroll.

 That's why I try to avoid social media as much as I can because I can't help but feel things I don't want to. I also tend to judge people too which is something I don't want people to do things to me as well. I have lingering feelings of insecurity and such so it does not help things at all.  I don't want to be eaten alive by this.

Checked!

 Just finished something I could have finished earlier but I slacked off and did other things which to be fair are not useless but just not as needed and urgent as this one. I don't know why I tend to do that someitmes but I'm glad I got myself together and finished this today so I can focus on other things tomorrow!

Pal

 Thinking of joining this prestigious tilt but I think for the wrong reasons. I want to win and get a medal for recognition. Just being honest. But I know that kind of reasoning is not enough fuel to get it, I still struggle with things as well so I might not have what it takes to make it all the way. But I'm entertaining the idea, the deadline is next month so who knows

Near and Far

 So I'm sort of within reach of finishing this thing. If I didn't get lazy yesterday, this would have been over by now but oh well I take full responsibility for my laziness! Because I knew it wasn't really needed that's why I got lazy but well I snapped myself back to being responsible again! OK back to finishing this!

50

It was so hot today that I couldn't concentrate on what I wanted to today but there are still a few hours left today so I might still be able to get something done, good luck! Maybe because it's not really that urgent so I'm not really on beast mode to finish but maybe I should because I like checking something off my list. Okay we'll see

Ally

 Randomly saw Ally McBeal on Disney+ awhile ago. It was a show popular show during my childhood, I think I've seen some episodes but never really understood it because I know I was just a kid! Checked out a few episodes and I really enjoyed it, so funny with the type of emotional beat that aligns with what I like. Will try to check out more episodes in the next weeks I still have the subscription! 

Plate

Finally finished checking the work of trainees that was quite hard to do . But I admit this task had been delayed because I took in too much and also got lazy as well. But at least now I learned how to say no because I just can't find the time to take another trainee at this point. I also need to assess how I teach them as well. One I can see so much improvement which is really great, the other one needs a lot of work but this one needs compassion and patience considering his special situation.  

The heat

 The humidity these days is on another level of insufferable. It's headache-inducing. The dryness will really make you feel a little sick. I'm quite paranoid these days so I really need to be careful. I hope this won't last long.

Farewell

Today was my classmate Walton's burial. I wasn't able to visit his wake or be on the funeral today. I do hope I can visit his tomb soon. I wish I could go but there was just so many complications that prevented me to do so. Walton, kung nasaan ka man ngayon, maraming salamat sa lahat. Rest in peace, my friend. Thank you so much for being so funny, nice and sweet. I will never forget you. Dear Lord, please guide his soul as he travels back to your paradise.

Reset

 So I'm trying to balance things now, I wanted to do some work tonight but then I saw a favorite show of mine is now available on a streaming site, and out of impulse bought myself a month's subscription (at a discounted price from a promo I saw). I figured I do really need to go back to watching shows for leisure again and not just work-related! I still have a lot of things to do but I have some breathing space and I do need to inject some fun again because I've been pushing myself hard and I did realized that it could affect my work's quality. I've worked so hard to not get any pushback and so far so good so yeah I need to take care of myself so I continue to deliver. 

Worn

 One of those moments you feel spent. You gotta thrive on for the better good, you have to think of the worst-case scenario first, you have to take the high road, you have to give way, and you have to be the person not adding unnecessarily to drama. But really sometimes is just hard to take everything in and not breakdown but you have to do it privately and not attract attention because instead of getting the comfort you will just cause unnecessary drama that will just to the multiple emotion you are already feeling. You just have to take it all in no matter how suffocating it is.

Chatty

 I spent the entire afternoon chatting with friends online. I was planning to do some work but I'll just do it tomorrow and while I could get pressed in time but it's fine really. I needed to do some I dunno mindless things today because the past weeks, I've dealt with the back-to-back loss which really made me sad and scared so spending a few hours not thinking of negative stuff was quite a treat. I did realize resorting to escaping via doing work is not helpful too as well. This is my way of self care and tomorrow I will march on again

Bye PEx

After nearly 19 years and over 50K posts, from a regular poster to eventually becoming a moderator and admin, "forg" is logging off for the last time @pinoyexchange 

Salamat PExers, Salamat PEx! 

Reconnect

Had a little bit of annoyance today due to things I've already foreseen but still annoying when it happens in real-time. But I always need to remind myself that things could be worst and this is really a minor issue in the grand scheme of things. So I just distracted myself yet again

Comrade

The thing that I like about writing dubbing scripts is that starting is quite hard to do but once I get into it, I really get into it. Like this recent script, I just finished today, starting it was so hard but I really enjoyed writing it eventually, I was immersed in another culture. I also finished editing the episode after it! I will write the final episode next week and quite looking forward to it but first, I still have quite a list to do but it's fine, I enjoy doing it so much. But of course I've been also learning to slow down as well for my own benefit

Intricate

 What I thought was impossible last night was just me kinda overacting! One thing I did well last night though that after I felt quite overwhelmed with what I was doing, I stopped. Normally, I would push to meet a certain goal but then I realized that I'd been doing myself harm. And after I decided to set that thing for another day it really helped because I felt somewhat refreshed while I still had some difficulty doing that thing at least I had the motivation to finish it and so much better. I was in the right headspace and things run smoothly. We really do need to realize when we are pushing ourselves too much. 

Turquoise

 So I'm about to begin that's really hard and I have very limited to finish this too. Maybe the toughest one yet since I returned to doing this. I hope I can pull this off very well!

Walton

 My classmate Walton passed away early morning today. We haven't seen each other in a while but we were goofing out just recently on a class group chat. I will forever remember his sense of humor. When I became the editor-in-chief of the student paper, he started calling me "chief" even after graduation. His kulit was always endearing and you know that's how he shows his love and care. They gave me a basketball jersey of our course varsity team with my name on the side. I didn't ask for it and they know I don't even know how to dribble a ball but they, led by him, gave it to me as a gift. I still wear it until this day and forever cherish it now.

Rest in peace, my friend! Thank you and we will miss you so much!

Brink

 My classmate's sister's latest update to is not good. I'm scared but looks like it is heading that way. I'm sad and frustrated because getting hospitalized is so complicated and quite unfair too. I'm scared of everything.  Oh Dear Lord guide my friend Walton.

Worried

 A college classmate's life is in critical condition. We've tried our best to help but the reality of financial struggles and complicated public hospital bureaucracy is making things so difficult. In a way,  I became a focal person from our batch which honestly is a pressure to me since we are in the middle of Holy Week and you could feel that some of my classmates are not comfortable facing such stressful situations.  Can't blame them, they already helped financially earlier so it's hard to seek financial help again. So hard and soul-sucking really. I empathize with the sister which whom I've been in contact but there's really so much I can do. She's not pressuring us and is very gracious as well but I could feel the anxiety so much. I wish I have more than enough to help them out by myself. 

Semi Colon

 I woke up at my usual time at 4AM then realizing no work today so went back to sleep again and woke up 4 hours later. I was planning to do something productive but then I was too lazy again! I did not useful but surf the net and read useless stuff. Took a little nap too! Maybe before the night ends I get to do some progress but maybe not! . Oh It's gonna be a challenge but we'll see!

Comma

 Lenten break is upon us but I don't plan to be 100% on break especially yesterday I was not really productive given I was so distracted by what happened to PEx. I did some work today but still need to finish some stuff as well. I want to finish some stuff but not gonna lie I caught the lazy bug. I will try to balance everything, doing some stuff but also taking a break from time to time to clear up my thoughts as my heart is burdened with worries. 

Goodbye PEx!

 Today it was made official the Pinoyexchange.com is closing down. My virtual home for nearly 20 years.Wala ako masyadong nagawa sa work today kasi basa ako ng basa ng mga messages sa pagsasara ng PEx and their memories with PEx. I was happy news outlets featured it as well.  I'm really sad.  Masyado  malaki ang parte ng PEx sa buhay ko.  During a rough time in my life, PEx offered me a freelance gig that helped me so much. Forever grateful. If only I had the means, I would have done everything to save PEx. It was a big part of my life that I will never forget.  I will miss PEx so much.

Down

 Just found out some saddening news. It was inevitable but to see it finally happen still makes me sad. While I wasn't active anymore, I always check in from to time. I had a feeling the end was near because it was not the same anymore and it was to see it slowly go down. It was just a matter of time. Nevertheless, it makes me sentimental of how it used to be and how it was integral in my life. 

Cut

A draining day. Got into some minor accident which left me with a band-aid above my eyelid. And those things, even if so little in the grand scheme of things, bring in a LOT of stress already because people think about their feelings first like I have to settle things to stop further escalation when it's so not needed to because it doesn't solve anything at all.  I'm averse to hassle because all my life I've been dealing with it, I just need boring, non-eventful life.

Laz

 April 1 today. I had a good afternoon nap today which was quite refreshing, not gonna lie! I spent the morning doing the groceries and with the heat, it's just extra challenging. Anyway, I still have things to do but kinda relaxed which hopefully won't bite me in the end. 

Fight

 So this weekend will be about working on this new project we have from a new client. It's a bit rush because Holy Week coming up so just 3 days of work but we will work things out. I previewed the show already and it's quite interesting and something new for me!

Touch

 It's mediocre but since it hasn't happened in a long time - or perhaps in this case ever  - it left. But one needs to control before it goes beyond measure. But one wonders about the things missing. Something ordinary or nothing special became a bigger deal than it should be just because there's really nothing to compare. Just what one pictures in the mind 

Efficacious

Facing another recurring event again that's stressing me out as always. I do know eventually they do go away but I wish it doesn't happen often, if not at all. But I know realistically speaking it just won't. Somehow, I do wish that if these things regularly happen maybe my other fear would go away too. I would exchange for this recurring source of stress if that fear will not come to fruition. 

Fight

 Another day of working really hard but really not complaining. I'm grateful. It gives me something to focus on and helps me avoid going deep down into my thoughts - my unpleasant thoughts. I get immersed to a world far away from me. Sometimes a world I live in. But for now I'm fine making my adaptation to those worlds. 

Dry

 The hot weather is here again and the heat is just different this time. Soul sucking and legit health hazard. With that, I worry about things that could be a result of this weather. I hope it won't happen again but I'm scared. Perpetually. 

Whew

 I finished it! The last pending I have this week! I did it! It was so challenging but glad I was able to do so. I still have a lot of things to do next but I think it's more manageable than the tough week I had. But you see even if it was so challenging, I loved what I do so it wasn't that horrible but yesterday I did procrastinate. I could have finished this thing way earlier if I didn't get lazy at some point yesterday! But well glad I pulled myself together to make thing work today. 

One Left

 Finished all the other pending matters and only have one left to finish until tomorrow! What a challenging week it was and surviving so far. I just need to finish this thing so I can check it off my list. I still have a full week ahead but not as LOADED as this week was!

Walton

 Just found out my college classmate is confined in the hospital due to brain aneurysm. I found about it when another classmate tagged me on a post from his family asking for financial help through Gcash. It reminded me of course during the time I had to do this as well to ask for help online from friends. When you are in such a difficult time, you don't feel embarrassed anymore. I sent help and really praying hard for his recovery. He is my age and it really gave me a scare as well. 

One down!

I was able to finish one task, more to go! It was a little later than I intended to but still not on the danger zone so to speak. I still have a long to-do list and I think there are more coming as well but hey still a good thing. I always want to be busy and here it is!

Page 17

The goal was semi-accomplished today! I still have a lot of things to finish in what like four days! But hey gotta roll with it. I can do this! It's such a challenging week and the biggest fight of them all is me really. There were just too many factors preventing me from doing my full capacity. Hopefully, tomorrow I get things right!

Fix

 Not a good start of the day when unnecessary whining is what you face on. The bad thing is there no amount of talking it through will result to realization that bringing in bad vides in the morning is not a good thing at all. Life isn't life fiction where you could give a heartwrenching speech and people magically change. They never do. You just endure

Heat is On

 Summer is here and I don't really like the heat but what can we do right? Electricity bill will blow up for sure so another concern of mine these days but oh well there are far worst problems and this is something manageable and controllable. 

Chew

 Looking ahead, another tight week for me with so many things I need to juggle! I gotta admit I'm biting more than I can chew! But hey I can do it, just need to balance everything out and prioritize! Again, this is the kind of preoccupation I need to take my mind off those thoughts tormenting me from time to time.

Bigger

 I'm now using a bigger external monitor which is really my nephew's but he had me use it for now because his desktop computer is broken and he is using a laptop for now. I kinda like having this big screen but my workspace at home is quite limited I needed to do some maneuvering to make it work. I've been working on a dubbing script all day but this big screen needs to be used for streaming a movie/show soon!

Here

Those fears are nagging me from time to time again. Good thing I have a lot of work to do lately so I don't dwell on it. But it's hard having this constant feat. I need to remind myself each day to take one day at a time. Face now, cherish the present.

Dolphin

 Just finished working on the dubbing script of a new animated dubbing project! It's just 12 minutes but I worked on it for nearly four hours. I want it to be detailed as this will be the first episode so it will be used as a reference. It's quite tiring but when I'm into something I really focus 100%. I want it to be as efficient as possible!

Thanks

 Earlier a dubbing director approached me to say thank you because the 1st episode dubbing script I did for his project really helped them to have a smooth production. I'm not gonna lie, getting complimented is a nice feeling. It's a morale boost and just makes me want to strive even more.

Tables

 I just finished working hard for this task that will technically not benefit me personally but has a bigger meaning. Glad to do it even if it's quite tiring at times but I do feel happy because I am at a point where I can be confident enough to make suggestions to others based on the knowledge  I earned over the years.

Reminded

 They are fragile. Never be complacent. It could be exhausting but gotta stay alert all the time. Still hoping the worst ain't happening. But I guess managing it for now maybe could help. But I don't know, I maybe fooling myself in the end. Hear my prayers please.

Decipher

 I pulled it off! All the things I needed to accomplish this weekend, I did it all! I still have a lot of things to do next week but it's a little lighter I guess or there's less pressure? The list is still long but I can manage to do this as long as my focus energy really. There's still distraction here and there but genuinely liking what I do really helps!

Check

 So I finished working on two tasks today while doing some family errands in between. So yeah what a day I guess!  But glad to be able to pull it off. Tomorrow, another one that I need to finish but it's not as urgent but still I want to finish it because I still have many things to do next so I need to unload I guess. But seriously thank you Lord for these blessings really. It's such a good thing to be productive!

Halfway

So happy today that my goal for this particular was not just met but exceeded! I hope I can finish it tomorrow so I can move on to the next set of things I need to finish and there's a lot! But this is kind of swamped weekend I prefer. Because during idle times horrible thoughts linger and having my mind busy with productive things is so much better than deal with endless fears. 

Next

 Glad I was to finish this task I've worked on for the past couple of days. I STILL have a lot of things pending but all good. Let it pour as they say! I had a plan the past two days to speed things up but something came up that thwarted it. I was a little bummed because my plan was squeeze everything in but then again maybe it was a good thing because it prevented myself from pushing way too hard. 

Para

 After two days, jeeps returned today. I dunno but my ride earlier felt eerily silent. Not a single passenger was talking or using their phones. Maybe it is just me making a dramatic scene out of nothing but I just felt a sense of awkward silence and dread. There's just a lot of uncertainty now with jeeps. It saddens me that it has come to this. Modernization is a good idea on paper but the execution is too rushed. This needs a lot of time and also care for the welfare of the drivers and the commuting public. Oh well.

3.5K

 Some good news today about improvement in one area that I will benefit from. It's a small change but in the bigger picture will be of big help. And it's not just for me but others would benefit as well! While it is still small if we compare it to everybody else, it's still not bad considering the situation and hopefully, it is a sign of more good things to come! Thank you Lord for this blessing.

Ride

I was bracing myself for stressful commute because of the jeepney strike but thankfully the municipal government had a Libreng Sakay van in a key area where my carpool dropped me off. But still, I can't help but be stressed about the modernization plan, there will be a transportation crisis. I'm so sure. We are always on the losing end. 

Swamped

 This week is challenging as I attempt to do many things and finish everything all this week! I really hope I can pull it off. I put myself in this situation because I'm crazy! But really I just want to help our team as we are facing very challenging weeks ahead! Oh dear Lord please let me have the focus and finish everything by the end of the week!

Bigger Person

 Made one error today that I was trying to avoid because it annoys me so much. But here I go trying to deal with the repercussion so to speak. I don't deserve it really because I've been doing my best not to rock the boat, and to be patient with everything. Even if I get hassled or attacked, I always try to be patient and be the one to take the initiative to settle things, to not flame the fire, and to set aside pride. It's exhausting. May the Lord give me the strength to deal with everything in a more mature way. 

You!

 One week before YOU Netflix Season 4 Part 2 premieres, the Filipino-dubbed version of all 4 seasons is finally streaming! We've worked on this project for half a year. This was not easy to do but definitely one of the production I'm very proud of. Kudos to the hardworking team 20 Plus Studios, our director Ling Buhay and the cast led by the terrific performance by Dave Hosillos as Joe! Hope you can check our work by switching to Filipino audio!

 

  

...ally!

 This time last year, we received projects in succession and looks like it's happening again! Another loaded weeks, months ahead? I love it! My to-do list is getting longer and it couldn't have come at a better time because I need it so much because I need to be occupied to avoid thinking anxiety-triggering concerns personally, nationally and globally!

Gauze

I was panicking about some probably little issues but my paranoia took it somewhere else. It is fine now but because of wasting some time worrying about this, I'm a bit behind my intended schedule. I hope to get back on track tomorrow!