In the biggest challenge of my life, I feel like I'm losing. I'm managing to be tough and brave when talking to Nanay and my family but inside I'm losing it. I'm thinking a lot of negative scenarios. I'm just worried and so scared. To be honest, my faith is in crisis too. I just can't understand WHY. I hate feeling that. I hate questioning that. I'm shaken by everything that's happening. Lord please heal my Mother, I'm begging you.